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One day I will create a big post about characters and poetry but now I want to talk about this one
Pac (in happy pills arc but also just in common) is “Don’t leave your room” by Brodsky. I don’t know how to actually tell you about what exactly I see here, but here are some quotes
Don’t leave your room, just say you have the influenza. A wall and table are the most fascinating agenda. Why leave this place? Tonight you will come home from town exactly as you were, only more beaten down.
Don’t leave your room. Go dance the bossa nova, shoes without socks, your body bare and coat tossed over. The hallway holds its smells of ski wax and boiled cabbage, writing even one letter more is excess baggage.
Also if you are interested in that you can listen to the song “In Darkness (Brodsky version)” by Noize MC, there is another poem (“I sit by the window”) and I think it also suits Pac very well
I proudly admit that my finest ideas are second-rate, and may the future take them as trophies of my struggle against suffocation
"I'm alive!" - Tubbo persuades, holding out his callused hands to Pac to touch, to feel the sharpness of the knuckles and the softness of the skin, to run over the scratches on his wrists and the bruises on his phalanges. Pac holds his hands and smiles - but a smile like one looks at portraits on graves.
“Of course,” Pac says, and Tubbo knows that he doesn’t believe him, that the Creature’s words echo in his head in parallel: Tubbo purses his lips, pulling away, and doesn’t know what to say. The current beats under his nails, and he wants to scream.
"I'm still Tubbo!" - Fit looks at him with a stunned look, looking into his eyes with running zeros and ones. They were always there, they never disappeared, but why does he care now?! He wants to howl, and Tubbo covers his face with his hands, breathes heavily with his valves - the membrane around him tightens, as in real breathing. Fit considers him to be a wild animal, and this is not so far from the truth. At least he doesn't poke him in the ribs with a sword.
Tubbo is still the same Tubbo, with the same stupid, chaotic algorithms, with the same strength of several tons, with the same commands of protection and suspicion, with the same goals of helping everyone. Tubbo is still the same Tubbo, with the artificial intelligence of a barely grown teenager who knows a million songs and loves music more than wrapping up bruised knees.
Sunny hugs him. She presses herself to his side, hides her nose in his cardigan, and Tubbo presses her to him, kisses the back of her head, strokes her hair. She's breathing heavily and crying, and Tubbo hopes she at least knows he hasn't changed. That everything is fine. That he won't leave.
Oh god, Chayanne will kill him.
. . . He can worry about that later.
augghh
just imagine qpac ramon and richas, all three dancing around while building and drawing on walls, talking about nothing and everything at the same time, just being silly and whimsical.
pac grabbing ramons little hands drawing him into the dance. and ramon joins, smiling and giggling all the way.
he's finally a kid again.
I'm trying to do school work but then I hear Fit and Pac being the gayest bitches ever and have to reboot my brain for a whole minute.
the amount of times I've hid my face in my hands is astounding
I'm trying to do school work but then I hear Fit and Pac being the gayest bitches ever and have to reboot my brain for a whole minute.
Assuming my theory on what’s going to happen is correct, I’m literally winning in 12 days.
If Fit gets kidnapped — whisked away by Madagio to some unreachable wasteland — do you realize what that will leave behind?
An angry Brazilian motherfucker with a pension for impossible escapes, a kid under his protection that can’t afford to lose another father, and an insane chip on his shoulder. Plus, if you consider meta, Pac’s gonna have plenty of time to let the anger gradually build, which means possible training arc as he realizes just what kind of hellscape he’ll be diving into to find his lover.
at this point q!pac must have some like fainting problems or something with how often his stuff crashes
like finding him face down somewhere is normal at this point
people can keep coming up with angsty headcanons about why qPac passes out (crashes) so much- like he's got low blood pressure from not eating properly or he's exhausted from not sleeping properly- and I accept that
but to me he's just that one character in a kids movie that keeps getting injured as a gag. like he's just constantly tripping over roots and whacking his head off the ground, birds just constantly seem to drop rocks specifically on his head, people just keep inexplicably slamming doors into his face without realising it. qPac is just such a cartoon character to me I'm sorry
"The posters won't help and will make everything worse, what Pac is doing will make Cellbit feel more isolated and go deeper in this path" Pac is fucking traumatized and he is spiraling just as fast as Cellbit. Cellbit's spiral caused Pac to enter his
Pac has literally not slept ever since Friday when he found out. He felt unsafe in his own home. His whole family crumbled in front of his eyes, and now one of the only family members he had left turned back into the monster Cellbit swore that was dead and would never hurt Pac again. He was alone the entire day today, always watching over his shoulder, jumping whenever he thought someone was watching from afar. He kept going into scenarios where Cell was after him and trying to kill him
Pac is not well either. This was his last straw too. His mind is all over the place and he can't even grasp the fact that Cell and Cellbit are one in the same. It has always been this way for Pac, the way his brain deals with his trauma. It blocked away the memory of his leg being eaten and scrambled it to the point Pac thought Felps did it. He can't see Cell and Cellbit as the same individual because his mind literally keeps him from it for his own sanity. Cell is the monster and it died in Alcatraz. Cellbit is his family and one of his son's father and someone he loves and cares for. Cell is back, which means Cellbit is gone
Pac will help Bagi get Cellbit back, but he will run and hide from Cell. In his spiral, a lot of his erratic behavior is magic thinking as he swears the post will do anything and it will keep the monster away. He puts it in his house, he puts it in Bagi's home, he put it in Richas room, he put it in Richas atelier. The monster can't get there now. His family is safe now
Being alone is leaving him with his own tortured and freaked out mind as he flip flops between masterminding ways to get Cell and trap him and making him fear and stay away, and erratically building up walls and hiding in a corner sobbing because he already feels the knife sinking into his neck. He's willing to get himself locked up just to get away from Cell and feel safe even if it means walking into his second worst nightmare that is being in a prison again
Pac can't bring himself to talk to Cell. Definitely not alone. He is too afraid Cell is still angry about the betrayal enough to kill him. Cellbit never meant to hurt his loved ones, okay, but his mere spiral already hurt Pac in so many ways he doesn't even know about yet. Pac was, and always will be, a constant and painful memory of Cellbit's sins, hurting his family
i love how we thought that fitpac will be one of the healthiest couples, cheezy and full of tooth rotting fluff.
and to be fair, they still are
we just know that they also want to make out sloppy style in a pool of blood now.
couple goals???
I saw a YouTube clip of Fit finding Pac imprisoned and them talking for a bit.
why is no one on Tumblr talking about that? I haven’t checked if Fit appeared in Tazercraft’s prison/ escape stream
