Relationship Troubles - Tumblr Posts
Are you ever awake at an ungodly hour at night because you have just got into your very first relationship and your scared that its all some sick joke this guy is playing on you and he doesn't actually like you and he's going to leave you crying at 3 in the morning because of it or that you'll find more about the guy and you might not like him anymore because he turns out to be a jerk but your too afraid to breakup with him because he's in your friend group and all your friends actually like him and you don't want to be the one who ruined it all just because you made a dumb decision and then everything is awkward and all your friends leave you because your a selfish bastard that couldn't think things through and you become a laughing stock of the school and then you die alone. Also your afraid to talk to this guy about relationship things because your too afraid to mess it up even though your uncomfortable about it like saying love you through texts or talking about "whens our first kiss is going to be" and your not even sure you want to kiss someone because the idea of kissing him or anyone doesn't appeal to you and your terrified on telling him incase he thinks you don't like him and you just get in an argument with him about it and your afraid to tell him your preferred pronouns because your afraid he won't like you anymore because he's a straight probably cis man. And to add to the weight on your shoulders you can never fully talk to your best friend like you used to before he started hanging out with you because he's always breathing done your neck and won't leave you the fuck alone and your too afraid to tell him so now your worried your best friend thinks your neglecting her for your boyfriend even though you want to go back to the times were you and her would talk about everything and nothing and it was just you too and no pressure.
My boyfriend has ceased to do the things he did when he was courting me, like flirt and wear cologne.
So I recently got out of a 2 almost 3 year relationship, and I was ready to leave him bc I deserved better and all, but I was in no way ready for the empty feeling I’ve got. Words can’t describe how much I miss feeling loved and like no matter what, there was at least 1 person who always wanted me around.
Open relationship??
A while ago my boyfriend, since we are long distance for now, asked me will we have an open relationship if I don't move soon (it wasn't ultimatum or smth like that). I said yes if it got to that, but with some rules established first, and then the conversation was over. Talking with my best friend tonight, it got me thinking would our relationship survive that. I mean, I miss having sex with him and not just using my toy, but I'm not that desperate yet. Whole thing with G and R, even though it was only sexting, showed me that I would be capable of being with someone while in a relationship. I read peoples experience with open relationship and most of them failed. I trust him, but I can't help wondering if he'll like some girl more than me and then we'll be over