Sad Boi Hours - Tumblr Posts
Fuckfuckfuck what did you do to me.. Why do I feel like this around you?! WHY AM I LIKE THIS WHEN YOURE AWAY?? WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO ME?! I cant function without you.. I cant fucking think of anything else.. Only you.. Is this what insanity tastes like? Or maybe its just dependence.. Or even desperation,, I am desperate for your love.. I need it.. I need you. Its not okay to be this selfish is it? I cant have you completely to myself.. BUT I WANT TO AND I WONT STOP UNTIL I GET WHATS ALREADY MINE~ My head was spinning so bad today~! I feel like Im intoxicated on you..! I love you! Uh.. Where are you my dear.. Oh yes, youre asleep.. I told you to go to sleep.. And youre my sunshine, of course you listened.. Today.. I was thinking a lot.. About you, us and love.. I came to a simple conclusion. You, my love, are the only one who can calm me down.. Thank you<3
Your gone
So I always gotta stay high
To keep you off my mind
He doesn’t need me he likes someone else
So I’ll just keep ghosting him
Cut cut cut
Bc he likes someone else
I threw up bc he doesn’t like me and he likes someone else
I’m going to kill myself bc he likes someone else
I’m crying over some who doesn’t love me why doesn’t he love me
Benji I don’t know if you blocked me on tumblr yet but you won’t ever have to see me anymore I’m gonna kms
I prayed to Allah last night
I tried to pray that you’ll love me again
I asked
“Allah show me the way to make this worn out leather all nice again, he probably has 100 million reasons to hate me but I need him to stay.”
Benji we weren’t perfect but I never felt that way about anyone
And I can’t imagine how you still are okay now that I’m gone
Benji please please please just love me again
Why do i fight for you?
For us?
Is this my mind playing tricks,
Or is this love?
This isn’t how love,
Seemed like in the movies.
I don’t think I did something wrong.
Yet I’m the one who has
To take the blame.
The blame, the guilt
Yet I still love you.
I wish I could tell him something that’s been on my mind.
I can’t sleep it’s been a few weeks. I just need to let you know.
I hate myself without you. When you sent that video I cut myself, there goes hot boy summer.
I wish they could see I’m a person too
sure would be a shame if someone my age liked me a little too much and slid into my dms asking for my address. And it sure would be a shame if I gave it to them and woke up the next day in their loving arms and cuffed to their bed. Not to mention what a shame it would be how happy this would make me. But what’s truly a shame is how I know this will never happen to me no matter how much I hope for it to.
If someone kidnap me I would not run away. What the fuck would I even be running too