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I am not sure if I am saying that in the right way, but my real issue with the social media applications is that everything is driving me to a trauma 😰
It looks like broken hearts is a trend and everyone is just suffering 😫
On the other side, a few people just achieving their own dreams simply and quietly...
I know there must be a wisdom behind not being one of them, and I am fine
but it's really hard to deal with all of that daily. That will kill me one day 🤯🔫
An-o-rexic Feelings 💋 (my eat-ing-dis-order and trauma poem reading and thrift store style look book)
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my poem:
Anorxxic palm trees
Just like me
Black streets and smokey eyes
No one’s out at this time
Midnight is our sunrise
I’ll take your breath
If you ignite me
Light me up, til I burn alive
Fire in my hands
Warmth in my eyes
I’m not so dead inside
I play empty
To
Forget my regret
Let us remember ourselves tonight
Never been the Barbie doll
Was never skinny enough
And god I’ve tried
Skip my meals
And throwing them up
All the boys I shared
All the men I kissed
Counting my sins
I lose count after 3,000
Does God Think I’m A Slvt?
What’s the point of dreaming
When we can make them come true
I’ll be your secret wish
Pull me in and I’ll show you
All what I can do
I started early, and not by choice
Morphed me into something dirty
But I’m Somebody’s Dream
So what do you say
Wanna take a bite out of this Rotten Cherry
I’m loose with my body
I’ve been around
Everyone’s gotten a taste
I’m not worn out, just lived in
Stuck in my skin
Let me out
With a few inches and a shout
The ultimate sin
Love Before Marriage
Mommy’s Mistake
So I guess you can be my daddy
If you get cold
I’ll lend you my coat
Know you’ll love my perfume
I only spray half the bottle
Cat Calls from across the street
Burnt foil and broken glass on the floor
Welcome Home
Fuck toxic positivity and comatosed living
Taking selfies in the sunlight
God doesn’t have a bed time
So why should I?
I gotta brain
But forget to use it
Burden to everybody
How the hell do I get by
Ducking my head
As I chase the pavement
The only type of guys that want me
Kiss me with their eyes closed
And leave just as fast as they come
They come and they come
But never stay
What do i expect
I don’t even know how to drive
Without causing a traffic jam
Such a shame for the good guys who want a housewife pet
I don’t know how to clean, unless I’m angry and OCD
I wake up with glitter all over my face
Lipstick on my tooth brush
I keep swiping left and right
Scrolling the boredom away
Maybe this one can change my life
Calling a dead number
A disconnected pay phone
God only answers if you plead
That’s what I was taught
Live in fear
Bask in angst
Never use his name in vain
But god are you really always listening?
I wait for your heads up
A nudge on the shoulder
A “this songs playing just for me”
I’m sorry for wasting my youth
But how does one measure growth if not in size
I promise I’m not a waste of a life
Not dead beat like my dad
Forgive me as I light this gentle flower
For some false power
“Forgive me”
I say in my mind
To get me to sleep
Living as River Phoenix
In that gay movie
Making a quick buck with my little tricks
The lead role in nobody’s movie
Tell me the camera loves me
Give me a reason to wear my pretty
I’ll stay open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week
If you undress me with words like poetry
But I’m not studied
But I’ll let you study me
I don’t wanna change but I’ve changed
Still as young as yesterday
Still as naïve as tomorrow
You try to see the good in everything
I just see the truth
I’m not playing ball
Acting like god chose me
Or did I trap myself?
In a body
Once again
Another lifetime of wasted potential
Can’t waste my youth this time
Don’t wanna die old
But it’s written in the stars for me to live til I’m like 80
Just like my granddaddies
A generational curse
A karmic gift
To age with beauty
Or change your name and start from scratch
I’ll be your dark baby
But c’mon I’m way too pretty to be treated like a piece of f-cking meat
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poem: An-o-rexic Feelings by dark baby, (2023).
