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Late Bloomer 🥀 (my alternative outcast poem reading)

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my poem:

I bloom as fast as the flowers

Late in June

I take a while

Do you know I was a kid once?

Same

Body

I still wear the same sweater, from back when I was 14

Back when I had nobody to please

Just being me or the “me” my parents let me be

I can’t wait my turn

Not no more

Patience is a lie

When you’re growing inside, all the time

Cross the road when you want

The time is now

Fuck the clock

German Shepard on a chain

Remind me of what my days were

Back when scribbling with chalk on the sidewalk, was all I really wanted

Vapes on the floor

Ditching class and failing p.e

Abandoned car seat

You never really grow up of being a baby

I don’t shine like the sun

Glimmer like the moon

Don’t look at me, not on purpose

Only because you can’t look away

Pay attention to me, what do you do want from me?

I’m only giving myself out for free

For the feelings daddy couldn’t give me

The older, the better

The younger, the meaner

More insecure

I’m too 23 to feel free

Give me 30, 40, 50

Love my generation but not enough to kiss them. Date em

Too mentally crazy

And I’m just like them

You can find me hiding in The Alleys

Where’s it’s quiet

And the strays skip happily

Bet you can’t look away, once you do

It’s kiss me or harm me

No in-between

Want me or trap me

Hold my soul, likes it’s yours to own

Can’t catch a butterfly

Can’t force the wind

I’ll be your girl

If you promise me one wish

Freedom

I’m looking for a daddy

Not a dad

There’s a difference

One you only call after midnight

One never calls you back

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poem: Late Bloomer by Roger Awkward, (2023).

Unloved Ones 🤍 (my indie sleaze revival style look book and heartbroken girl poem reading)

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my poem:

Happiness comes and goes

with girls like me

Never too happy

Never too sad

Always depressed

It’s a part of me

The part of me I never leave

“Stay stable, stay calm”

Nobody likes an angry baby

With too much to say

Pacify me

With a blunt or beer bottle

Turns out I hate myself

Drown myself out

Til a new day

New month

New year

If I’m 23

Why do I feel so 17

Ugly yet sweet

Cynically pretty

On the edge of something

I’ve been edged of my own glory

Give it to me or get me off

I want the dream

The one I casted myself

It’s my fault

Blame it on the Talking Heads on TV

The Popstars

above me

Praying to False Idols

The only God I know is female

And she’s me

Nurture me and I’ll give you my seeds

I never kept a plant alive

But I could try again

Maybe a cactus this time

What if it wasn’t my fault?

Shift the blame

I absorb your shame

I’m a teacher with a 2.0 GPA

I wouldn’t take my advice

Unless you wanna have fun

Paint our nails red

Lips too

Cruise with the music too loud

Sad Songs Only

Cursing out all our exes we never had

I don’t think a blow job counts as a second date

But I’ll find the love where I can get it

This week’s been so long

Give me a break

Don’t fuck Mondays

Fuck me instead

Hurry and take my Polaroid

Before I end myself, metaphorically

Fake meat and clearance rack tees

We’re not rich, but we’re holy

God would smoke a pack with us!

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poem: Unloved Ones by dark baby, (2023).

God Bless Me 🕊️ (my soft goth style look book and emo girl poem reading)

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my poem:

Why does no one like me?

Am I not pretty

Was I easier to love when I was 13

Scruffy face and soft thighs

Rigid thoughts and crooked teeth

I’m fixated on someone who isn’t alive

Dreaming of a better me

Leaves me feeling lonely

Ripped soles, ripped soul

I’m already bleeding

Jab the steel in deeper

Fingers like metal

Cold and boney

Artificial Intelligence

What’s the point of living

Don’t mind me

I forgot the world exists outside of me sometimes

Shy and nervous

I’m scared and anxious

Just ignore me

I forget there’s other people breathing

Don’t wanna be seen

Stop looking at me

I’m fake hair and too much eyeliner

Walking past the beach

I’m used to puddles and jagged streets

Never been somewhere where I could just be me

Stare at me but I just don’t care

Dark Chocolate

I’m not as sweet as you think

Not as dark as I seem

My scopes so small

And my eyesights pretty bad

I’m pretty in the mirror

Behind the digital camera

But never in person

Kiss me til I can’t feel my toes

Heaven Is For Real

Ain’t just a movie

Living in hell

Is just another Tuesday for me

Who wears boots to the beach?

A hipster wannabe

Is all I’ll ever be

But hey, at least the boys think I’m sexy

Dirty blondes

Oversized tank tops

Sweaty, so shiny

You’re the highlight of my day

I wish I could be under you

As I pass by with my head down

Dodging eyeballs

As if they were bullets

I don’t give smiles out for free

Unless you entice me

Little kids building sand castles

As big brother kicks them down

That’s life for you

God loves you

But only on Sundays

Melted ice cream

I’m dripping for you too

I can’t accept your drink

I don’t let my guard down just for anybody

Unless a paycheck is involved

I only see me

And I’m not used to giving in

Expensive Prescriptions

Big fake teeth

We don’t belong here

Yet i try so hard to fit it

In a place so temporary

Would god mind if we shared a sin?

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poem: God Bless Me by dark baby, (2023).

Nymphia

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my poem:

Dating me is like visiting Vegas

With an empty wallet

A facade of a woman

I’m not much more

Than the cheap girl next door

Pardon me

I might be a little picky

Because I can be

Very friendly

Too friendly

Broken Seesaw

You can’t play alone

So I watch from afar

No one’s holding my hand anymore

Who am I to hold

Once mom’s gone

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poem: God Bless Me by dark baby, (2023).

An-o-rexic Feelings 💋 (my eat-ing-dis-order and trauma poem reading and thrift store style look book)

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my poem:

Anorxxic palm trees

Just like me

Black streets and smokey eyes

No one’s out at this time

Midnight is our sunrise

I’ll take your breath

If you ignite me

Light me up, til I burn alive

Fire in my hands

Warmth in my eyes

I’m not so dead inside

I play empty

To

Forget my regret

Let us remember ourselves tonight

Never been the Barbie doll

Was never skinny enough

And god I’ve tried

Skip my meals

And throwing them up

All the boys I shared

All the men I kissed

Counting my sins

I lose count after 3,000

Does God Think I’m A Slvt?

What’s the point of dreaming

When we can make them come true

I’ll be your secret wish

Pull me in and I’ll show you

All what I can do

I started early, and not by choice

Morphed me into something dirty

But I’m Somebody’s Dream

So what do you say

Wanna take a bite out of this Rotten Cherry

I’m loose with my body

I’ve been around

Everyone’s gotten a taste

I’m not worn out, just lived in

Stuck in my skin

Let me out

With a few inches and a shout

The ultimate sin

Love Before Marriage

Mommy’s Mistake

So I guess you can be my daddy

If you get cold

I’ll lend you my coat

Know you’ll love my perfume

I only spray half the bottle

Cat Calls from across the street

Burnt foil and broken glass on the floor

Welcome Home

Fuck toxic positivity and comatosed living

Taking selfies in the sunlight

God doesn’t have a bed time

So why should I?

I gotta brain

But forget to use it

Burden to everybody

How the hell do I get by

Ducking my head

As I chase the pavement

The only type of guys that want me

Kiss me with their eyes closed

And leave just as fast as they come

They come and they come

But never stay

What do i expect

I don’t even know how to drive

Without causing a traffic jam

Such a shame for the good guys who want a housewife pet

I don’t know how to clean, unless I’m angry and OCD

I wake up with glitter all over my face

Lipstick on my tooth brush

I keep swiping left and right

Scrolling the boredom away

Maybe this one can change my life

Calling a dead number

A disconnected pay phone

God only answers if you plead

That’s what I was taught

Live in fear

Bask in angst

Never use his name in vain

But god are you really always listening?

I wait for your heads up

A nudge on the shoulder

A “this songs playing just for me”

I’m sorry for wasting my youth

But how does one measure growth if not in size

I promise I’m not a waste of a life

Not dead beat like my dad

Forgive me as I light this gentle flower

For some false power

“Forgive me”

I say in my mind

To get me to sleep

Living as River Phoenix

In that gay movie

Making a quick buck with my little tricks

The lead role in nobody’s movie

Tell me the camera loves me

Give me a reason to wear my pretty

I’ll stay open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week

If you undress me with words like poetry

But I’m not studied

But I’ll let you study me

I don’t wanna change but I’ve changed

Still as young as yesterday

Still as naïve as tomorrow

You try to see the good in everything

I just see the truth

I’m not playing ball

Acting like god chose me

Or did I trap myself?

In a body

Once again

Another lifetime of wasted potential

Can’t waste my youth this time

Don’t wanna die old

But it’s written in the stars for me to live til I’m like 80

Just like my granddaddies

A generational curse

A karmic gift

To age with beauty

Or change your name and start from scratch

I’ll be your dark baby

But c’mon I’m way too pretty to be treated like a piece of f-cking meat

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poem: An-o-rexic Feelings by dark baby, (2023).

Mommy’s Mistake

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my poem:

I keep swiping left and right

Scrolling the boredom away

Maybe this one can change my life

Bar to bar

Club hopping

Maybe my one is hiding in here

I’m looking for a man, not a boy

I’ll be your toy

Barbie doesn’t have feelings

So neither will I

You like your girls shy but wild inside

Lipstick stained pillowcases

Is what all boys really crave

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poem: An-o-rexic Feelings by dark baby, (2023).

Call Girl

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my poem:

I wait for your text

You never call

I sleep with my makeup on

Just in case you need a girl on speed dial

Auto correct my speech

My voice is higher when you're around

I love being a girl

I only cosplay as myself when you're not around

I seek beauty from within

I guess you want what you don't have

Love what you're not

Be the bigger baby

Bite your tongue til it bleeds

But one question

If I wear enough lipstick

Will you love me then?

Nepo Baby

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my poem:

Rough waves and harsh tendencies

I regret all my fallacies and how I've been living

Borrowed land, I wasn't promised a treaty

Believing in nothing, is such a privilege

Til you're brought down to your knees pleading

"What's the difference between humility and humanity?"

Who's in charge of this boy body?

The man in the sky doesn't text me back

So I sit back and relax, baked on his unfortunate brother's lettuce

Wasting time, as if it exists

Let me enjoy this ignorance and bliss

You Changed

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my poem:

You Changed

Well of course i did

You can only be poked so much

Laughed at so much

Til a braincase, becomes your worst mistake

Manic at 3am, i stay up til my body pleads

Soul Pain

Malnourished, pretty teeth.. seeking something sweet

I'm playing with fire

But im not the one feeding the flame

Give me the bullet, i know how to use it

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I stream R-rated movies

Til I get depressed then angry

A girl born in a wrong body

Extra parts

Want my babies? They’re no use to me

I’ll give them away to anybody who’ll touch me

I’m more like my daddy, than I ever knew

Pleasing myself til somebody needs me

That’s when I pull the brakes

And shut the doors

You can only have me

When I’m generous and rich

The type of mommy to shut you out

Pass you around and leave you lonely

The type of daddy to toss you to the curve but leave you with candy

Dumb Puppy 🦴 (my girl interrupted poem reading and girlblogger collage)

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my poem:

Sorry in advance

I’ll only break your heart

Don’t show your cards

Play the boys right

Make it hurt

Craving mommy

Then shut him out

I’m not mean

I swear I’m just a baby

Playing pretend

Living my life like it’s a movie

A Dumb Puppy no one’s adopting