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and if i cry and then pass out, then what?

i think there’s so much to be said about the overarching themes of the locked tomb series, but some of my favorites are the sheer breadth of humanity (both negative and positive) that is held in each and every person, and a person’s relationship with life and death.

we have gideon, who spent the majority of book one making horrendous jokes, swinging her sword and being the most classic rendition of a disaster lesbian, but even then underneath you could see the cracks leading to a deeper seeded sadness and anger. this is the gideon who as a child was attempting to run away to join the military every chance she got. the same gideon who would later quite literally jump at the opportunity to sacrifice herself for harrow when she thinks they have no other option. at one point harrow makes a comment about gideon losing her sense of self preservation, as if she ever truly had it. this is a girl who has spent her life convinced she shouldn’t have lived to begin with. she’s throwing someone else’s money at anything that catches her eye, not fully understanding the wallet is hers.

later we have kiriona, whose anguish was on full display and yet still made horrendous jokes, with a bit of extra bite. who had to make a conscious effort to hide the sides of her that obviously cared. the reflex of reaching for her coat, and the choice to keep it on herself. who we assume spent months being manipulated by ianthe and stewing in her fury at harrow, yet offered to die for her again at her first opportunity. she did it once, what’s twice gonna do? the wallet is empty, bring out jod’s checkbook.

and on the other hand harrow, who seemingly so rarely allowed herself to love others, yet whose entire existence continued due to her love of the corpse within the tomb. and later due to her love of gideon. she lobotomized gideon out of her memory to preserve her existence, and even without being able to remember who she was doing it for, she commanded herself to live. she wanted to die so badly, but in her mind the only thing she could do for them was to live as no one she had loved had been able to do for her. a girl who also believed she should never have lived, forcing herself to go on because the ones who should be living can’t and she sees it as her own fault. she has chained the wallet to her wrist and counts the coins every night.

and finally nona, who loved unabashedly and with reckless abandon. whose joy shone as brightly as her rage. who, free from the knowledge of the trauma her body mind and soul have endured, could allow herself to experience all of these emotions in excess and not be bogged down by the weight of it all. she was so delighted by every life she saw. and she was so ready for death. she couldn’t put into words how right her death would be, couldn’t find the comfort for those she would leave behind because she didn’t know how to make them understand she was ready. her wallet has a hole in it, and she’s been pouring out the coins and placing them lovingly into the hands of everyone she adores. then she eats the wallet.

anyways, this probably should’ve been two separate posts but i’m tired and it’s late so have my garble merry chrysler i love these lesbians so so much

The Nine of Swords

if u already saw this without gideons body in the first picture no u didnt

anyways i got gideon the ninth for christmas and read it in three (3) days. i am now impatiently waiting for harrow the ninth to drop on my doorstep from the poste (?)

credit to @bramblebea for the babies idea

First tlt comic pls be kind to me

The way I see it, Andrew was like a garden stake for Neil and Kevin: he couldn't do their growing for them, but he could be the solid, unbending support rod that they could use to grow toward the sky without having to worry about falling to the ground when they were not ready to hold themselves up ("the main function of a garden stake is to ensure that a young or weak plant can hold itself up against the elements").

And I think that's what Kevin and Neil are trying to be for Jean now. They are finally steady enough on their own that they're able to support someone else, and Jean needs them.

Kevin provides guidelines that make sense within Jean's worldview (you have a new master, obey him by going to LA and building a new life for yourself / you made me a promise so you can't kill yourself), he asks Betsy to break his own patient confidentiality as much as she needs to show Jean that Kevin trusts her and he can too, he coaches Jeremy on how to best support Jean (if you tell him to submit, he will / he will need someone to go to class with him / he will fall apart without a buddy system).

Neil encourages Jean to make meaningful connections with people because it will help keep him safe, he anchors Jean when dealing with the FBI, he actively removes a threat to Jean's safety so it won't hinder his slow growth, he uses a lil bit of emotional manipulation to drive the message home that Jean is worth saving, he makes himself someone Jean can talk to about the things only the two of them understand.

Jeremy, Cat, Laila, Rhemann, the Trojans, they are all vital for Jean's healing, the soil in which he'll put down roots; but it's Kevin and Neil who have been in his position before and know exactly what they needed to survive and thrive in a new environment. They needed Andrew to prop them up, and now they'll do that for Jean.

HE DOES NOT PICK AND CHOOSE HIS DECENCIES. CAN. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME. HE GAVE AND GAVE AND GAVE BUT HE WOULD NOT SACRIFICE HIS HONOUR. FUCKKKKKKKKKK.

ON MY QUEST TO FIND SUB!REMUS CONTENT I DISCOVERED THAT THERE'S REMUS X SNAPE! FANFICTION!?!?!?

i have never seen this but has anybody ever written sub!remus before??? Legitimately curious and i think theres reasoning to this dynamic

Most of the marauders posters on here I follow are swift fans if not swifties and once their works centred around ttpd come out I will be even less well than I was before

havent listened to ttpd yet but expect a one shot based on one of the songs within the next few days cuz i WILL be brain rotting ❤️

HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN RETURNS as DARTH VADER in the ‘Obi-Wan Kenobi’ Official Trailer

OBI-WAN KENOBI (2022) Part VI | 1.06

me:  Listen, after all the cameos in The Mandalorian, I’m exhausted, I’m full up, I just can’t do anything more, it gets old after awhile, I just– Ahsoka:  Hey.

me:  

me:  [PASSES OUT FROM THE INCOHERENT SCREAMING]

THE TRAILER FOR GOOD OMENS 2 IS HERE! 🥳❤❤❤

Just the two of us. We don't need Heaven, we don't need Hell, they're toxic. We need to get away from them, just be an us. You and me, what do you say?

Hello, Snips. I didn't expect to see you so soon. HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN AS ANAKIN SKYWALKER IN AHSOKA (2023)

HOUSE OF THE DRAGON (2022—)

There needs to be more dca cuddle pile art in the world so here’s my messy wip as contribution:

NOOOOO 2 OF THE FICS FOR ONE OF MY RAREPAIRS GOT DELETED

THERE WERE ONLY FOUR FICS FOR IT BEFORE AND NOW ITS HALVED

I am… Not Okay 😔👊