Spiraling - Tumblr Posts
This series was so good! I really enjoyed reading it.
Send Me Anywhere Masterlist
Summary: You love your life, but everyone occasionally wants to be somewhere else. Wants to escape. Wonders what a different world would be like. Wishes to simply disappear, or be somewhere else, to transport themselves in their mind or body. Your imagination and daydreams have always taken you far enough, until you meet Min Yoongi.
A/N: Inspired by “Baby” by The Rose. (I freakin’ LOVE that song, wow, please watch it before you read this, seriously).
Warnings: Some bad words, drinking, light violence (it’s one punch).
WC: 39,000 (COMPLETE)
Fragile Wishes Disappearing Painting Impossibilities Control Forest Train Roses Here
Anyone else has that thing when they, like... Really want to get their life back in order, go back to their routine and start making rational, productive choices, but genuinely feel like anyone other than their immediate family would never hold out hope for them, so there's no point in trying? I just think it would really help if I had a few semi-normal people on Tumblr telling me I'm not a lost cause, is all.
Trying out a horned crown concept. Like the horned mask designs I've been toying with, but without interfering with glasses. So people who don't like stuff on their face can be happy.
Also tried making horns with cut-out details. Was going for a spiraling look. I'm not sure it conveys that exactly, but I think it looks good nonetheless.
And, this just barely fits into the shipping boxes I have. Hooray! So in the next couple of days I'll take some better photos and put this up for sale in my Etsy shop.
Lmfao im so burnt out i kind of hate people
Idk how many "it just be like that" and "it is what it is" or "They'll reach out right?" I have left in me. I finish the Lyrica taper in a few days. So my mental health is still gonna be awful for months. Im in pain. Life at home is beyond fucked. I miss my friends reaching out.... i miss feeling wanted by more people
I'm having a really hard time just existing right now.
My body is in so much pain. My mind is in so much pain.
I'm trying not to spiral but it's so friggin hard.
I'm deteriorating. The very few people close to me, are deteriorating. It feels like everything is just kind of falling apart.
I know I shouldn't isolate. I know I just need to get through the day and get some sleep tonight. (I was awake all night, yay insomnia)
I'm so tired of my body hurting. I'm so tired of my heart/mind hurting. (Depression and so on creeping back into its stronghold again since I had to go off the new meds I had tried and reacted horribly to a diff one not the recently complained about one)
Feeling very doom and gloom about existence.
Meh.
thought daughters pls help me out here
so tomorrow is my grandmas birthday and she’s turning 82 or something and i always draw my family members something for their birthdays but the thing is my parents separated a few months ago and my dad has been very cruel to my mom and my (step) siblings so i hate him and his parents (my grandma whose birthday is tmrw) were so mean and careless
now the question is: do i draw her something?
the thing is she’s old and also she had cancer and went to chemo therapy but she’s okay now also when my parent were still together i would call her almost every week and ask her how she’s doing, just checking up on her, i would write her postcards from vacation and after my dad left i didn’t anymore and she never called me either so we didn’t talk for a few months
also when my parents were still together she was so mean to my older siblings and never treated them as her (step) grandchildren bcs they weren’t their sons kids and she always preferred my cousins over me and my brother
but after all, it’s always been like this and she’s just a woman and she’s old and she always loved my drawings
i mean my mom would probably get a bit mad and i don’t have much time left the thing is just do i want to turn bitter and not give my grandma a birthday present?
she gave me printer paper and ink for my birthday lol but i asked for it. not my brother, my dad, my cousins or my uncle ever give her and my grandpa presents for their birthdays and i’ve always been the only one but i don’t want to be the nice person that never stands up for herself anymore even tho it’s just a drawing
anyways if anyone reads this far, please help me out i’m struggling <3
Currently I’ve been switching between rewatching the starkid/tincanbros musicals and old fnaf play throughs…
I think that nicely sums up my mental state