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THEY AREN'T THE FEARS ANYMORE!! THEY'RE DESIRES

(SPOILERS for TMA, and all of TMAGP episodes so far)

Okay, here me out

Tmagp1: Darla wants to hear Arthur's voice again. She even says: "I just couldn’t face the thought of the rest of my life never hearing him again, I had to try" and later on she even says: "But I had to know, so I went to the cemetery."

Tmagp1: RedCanary wants to know about the Magnus Institute. They want to know why it's listed under 'cleared' when there's no evidence of it. Hence why they go and explore it.

Tmagp2: Daria wants that absolute perfection. She wants to change who she is and get out of that dark place. When she talks about the thing that she felt was missing, she says, "... and that’s when I decide I need a tattoo. I had a couple already – just little things on my shin and my wrist – but I decided I needed something big. Something that really changed my look." She also mentions when talking about Ink5oul that "they just kept pressing me about my life, about why I wanted the ink" instead of asking what design she wanted. And when she got the tattoo she describes herself as now being, "Someone I wanted to know more about." Afterwards she even says how "For the first time ever [she] wanted to attempt a self-portrait. Something real and physical, [she] wanted to feel the brushes in my hands and the oil on [her] fingertips." I think a lot of her statement is about her desire and impulsive need for that perfection and that wholeness that she has been aspiring to for her whole life.

Tmagp3: Samuel wants to stay hidden. He wants and he "need[s] to get up, get out of here for treatment." He wants to get better and most of his delirious thoughts are the things that he wants, or feels like he needs. E.g. "I so much want to see it [the sun] again. This night seems endless. I want to be warm again. I am terribly afraid. Thank god for Maddie. I need to treat her better."; "I just need to rest."; "I need to be careful or we’ll drift apart." And then obviously as the narrative continues, Samuel wants to grow and 'put down roots'.

Tmagp4: The narrator wants to be revered and accepted into the Royal Court Orchestra of the Palatinate. He wants to show off and impress. The violin "was a creature with needs and purpose of its own. The needs were simple enough. Blood. Flesh." It has these needs and desires.

So far, I'm interpreting it to be that everything so far can be interpreted as a desire of sorts, varying in the strength and intensity of it. Obviously, fear is still a big part of it all, because if you want something so badly, aren't you afraid of it being stolen from you? Of it being out of your grasp? Of it being unachievable or impossible in some capacity? Of it being a lie?

Even Sam wants to find out more. He wants to know the why and the reason for things. Gwen wants Lena's job. Collin wants to fix all these bugs and keep Freddie running. Alice wants to just get on with it because she found out that wanting to know the 'why' of things is dangerous.

I think that somehow when the Web took all the Fears into a different universe, they morphed into something else. Or they changed to fit what was the most prevalent thing in that universe, because after all, everyone wants something, even if it's something small and inconsequential. Life and aspects of it has always been characterised by that desire for something. Like people wanting food, shelter, safety, love, warmth, happiness, etc. And I think since the Web was so intwined with Jon and Martin, it absorbed some of their emotions when it found its way into this new world, because after all Jon and Martin wanted to stop Jonah/Elias, to stop the apocalypse, to destroy the Panopticon, to be safe, and they wanted each other. I think the wanting and fear of things are really entwined in it all, though this could be absolute bullshit haha

once again, i’m going to combine my two fixations (bsd and tma)

let’s talk chuuya. (disclaimer: i have not read stormbringer)

after his years spent in the lab, i feel like chuuya would despise the idea of being controlled, of not having full autonomy of himself. he would be revulsed at the idea of being puppeteered.

but he would choose The Web, despite his deep-rooted dislike of everything it stands for.

why?

because the being inside him, this god like power, is drawn to The Desolation like a moth to a flame. he can feel it inside of him, craving to destroy, to send any and every spark of life or potential it comes across up into a brilliant pillar of flames. it doesn’t want the heat. or the warmth. or the brilliant colors. it just wants to destroy without discrimination. it wants to be let loose to rage.

so chuuya, in spite of his misgivings and the screaming god inside of him, willingly hands himself over to The Web, knowing that it hates The Desolation and vise versa almost as much as he hates the uncontrollable power inside of him.

and so he sits with The Web. quiet, patient, and a little on edge. and he listens and learns, lets The Web teach him how to spin and weave so he can smother this god inside of him, burning with the desire to destroy, inside of a tightly wound cocoon of thin spider silk. and maybe, just maybe, he hopes that flame will suffocate.

just finished season 3 of The Magnus Archives.

i am in love and unwell and chemically rewritten and emotionally eviscerated.

this podcast is The Corruption and I am Jane Prentiss. it consumes my every waking thought now, i’m drawing art for it, plotting fics, creating outfits based on the characters/entities, designing crochet pieces for it.

i fear i may never shut up about this podcast now. meet the newest entity everyone, The Yapping.

if i did makeup looks for each of The Fears, would that be something y’all want to see??

TMA book rec for The Flesh

In this dystopian horror novel, animals around the globe have been infected with a deadly virus, leaving their meat contaminated and inedible. In the absence of these animals and their meat, the government has sanctioned cannibalism (though it’s taboo to refer to it as such). Meat processing plants become human processing plants and humans are bred and slaughtered like cattle. Follow Marcos, a manager of one of these plants, as he is gifted a human bred for the slaughter and is forced to face the inhumanity of this new world, with a plot twist that will leave you throwing this book across the room.

i thought this book suited The Flesh very well in highlighting the fact that we are no different from the animals we eat. after all…

meat is meat.

TMA: “Like colors, but if colors hated me.”

TMAGP: “Like colors, but if colors hated me. And if they didn’t know what color they are. And also didn’t know what colors are. But the colors definitely still hate me.”

idk if this is accurate cause i only just finished TMAGP 8 but that’s the vibe im getting.

VAGUE TMAGP SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT

cause ik The Fears technically aren’t supposed to exist in this world, but it’s blatantly obvious that they do, at least to a certain extent.

but they seem to be very muddled together. in TMA, it was generally pretty clear cut which statement belonged to which Fear and in the few statements where they would overlap, it usually wasn’t more than 2 Fears cooperating at once.

but in TMAGP, it’s almost like there’s multiple Fears trying to coexist in one case file and the lines between them are very blurred together. like they aren’t as… refined as they were in TMA. (probably due to The Banishing as i’m calling it imo.)

in TMA, they were 14 dollops of different colored paint neatly organized on a paint palette and would occasionally be mixed together to obtain a certain hue, while still being recognizable.

in TMAGP, these 14 dollops of different colored paint have all been swirled and mixed together so much that the original colors used are just barely distinguishable.

and the palette is cracked. and decaying. and staining your hand that tarnished-cheap-metal-green even thought the palette is wooden.

and the colors still hate you.