Here's A Quick Project I'm Doing Of My Personal Comfort 'mon

Here's a quick project I'm doing of my personal comfort 'mon

it's one of the few copes that actually works with me

Not even God would be able to understand how much I'd like to make your life a fucking hell just like you did

𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗚𝗘𝗥𝗦: Drowning, Child Abuse, Experimentation, Forced Swimming.

I don't know how to describe this, from first person or as an outsider. It's the panes of glass high above me in a square formation, I'm a rat in a giant container. They took away the ladder and I've been holding out for hours, but the water is freezing and I can't feel my paws. I want to say it's fine, I'm burning hot without my inhibitors, but I'm growing exhausted. They're staring down at me from up there. I reach out in pleading and they don't care. They'll gladly watch a monster drown if it means getting what they want. What do they want? Is it worth torturing a child to obtain? Of course it is, they murdered everyone for it. I know this well enough. But I'm still begging silently, please let me out, please. I don't want to drown. It's okay Shadow, you can't really drown. You'll never die.

As an autistic male, I just don't see how a person would be able to truly love me romantically and the more I study about blackpill, the more I understand this is impossible to happen.

I'm unable of behaving like the male provider that women look for, I can't read all the lines they expect me to, I'm not visually attractive enough for a woman to feel genuine attraction for me and it's not enough to hold any of them even if I'd had anyone interested I'm being very carefully in this " attractive enough" 'cause even though I'm a normie-ish, I'm still stuck in this uncanny valley , I'm not even mentioning my most personal problems, let alone that

It's not a question of self development or improvement, I'm biologically UNABLE to be any of this or do any of this because I'm made this way, saying I'm not trying to improve pisses me off 'cause I've already tried my best for so long and it never gave me anything other than pain

almost every single term I'm reading here doesn't make ANY sense and not only I'm thinking it's a bait but I'm also wondering why the fuck my Tumblr is suggesting me these types of posts

i love you male lesbians! i love you lesboys, i love you guydykes, i love you butch men, i love you ftm lesbians, i love you gentleman dykes, i love you transmasc lesbians, i love you genderqueer lesbians, I love you nonbinary lesbians, i love you gender non conforming lesbians, i love you bigender lesbians, i love you genderfluid lesbians, i love you intersex lesbians, i love you two spirit lesbians, i love you lesbians who were men, i love you lesbian men!

i love the many ways one can be a lesbian, and the variety of identities that the community contains! be loud, be proud, be your lesbian self!

WHY THE FUCK IS MY TUMBLR SHOWING ME LGBTWHATEVERLETTER POSTS