First Small Vent Post, But Fuck I Hate Being A Fictkin Of The Worst People Ever.

First small vent post, but fuck I hate being a fictkin of the worst people ever.

Just figured out I'm a Alex Kralie kin, and it makes me want to rip my skin off, because unlike with most of my kins (minus bill cipher) I regret the shit I done. The only regret I have for Alex is that I didn't kill everyone fast enough, and that just makes me in general feel like a bad person now.

I wish I didn't kin people like him, or Jeff, or bill, but I literally can't control it. And it pisses me off and makes me wanna cry.

Maybe I just need a nap.

"The reason why you're a common kintype/therotype is because __"

"Oh you're this because blah blah blah!"

no. I'm that because I'm that. I personally can't choose who and what I am. And there's no reason why I'm that besides that I'm that.

Some people out there COULD have a reason. Some people out there could've chose their kin because of a reason. But that's not me. I can't choose who I am.

Don't make me have reasons that isn't true.

How the hell am I supposed to explain to people that I'm a therian, but I'm literally every canine being ever to be told.

"Oh you're a therian? What's your theriotype?"

"Oh yknow..all canines?"

"Oh! So you're also the extinct ones?"

"Yeah..but im also the fictional ones??"

Like, I'm gonna be called a fake therian by some people. Please, i literally just got that dawg in me guys. Trust.

Update: I've talked to my psychologist at school about this, and he is currently helping me get some professional help. It is a chance that I do infact have at least osdd-1 but we don't know that yet.

Hello! So, I got something I need to talk about, and this is targeted to anyone with D.I.D.

I've been questioning if I have had D.I.D for a few years, and I have a whole paragraph I've written down already with some things I've personally experienced.

So, i think i have D.I.D? I don't know. Sometimes my body doesn't even feel like mine or my thoughts dont feel like mine. Ive been gaslighting myself saying "oh its just my autism" or "oh its just because im having a kinshift" but i don't even know anymore. I don't know if i have what some people say "multiple people in my head" because everything just sounds like multiple people, because im told I have a very active imagination.

All i here is voices atp and i talk to myself in my head 24/7, but i actually have no idea if its just me, or what some people will call multiple people inside my head. It doesn't exactly help the fact i often have greyouts and sometimes blackouts and just dont remember shit. And the co conscious thing isn't exactly helping either because it feels like thats happening multiple times a day. I genuinely Don't know whats happening.

But the thing is im also doubting being a system or anything because i personally don't think my trauma is that bad (minus 7th grade, but that was something else) I mean, yeah my mama left me when i was like 5 and neglected me b4 then and randomly wants back in my life now, but thats like the worse thing. (Minus 7th grade again.)

So i just genuinely dont know. And my confusion is fucking scaring me. And, I'm sorry if I did get some things wrong about D.I.D, im still researching about it, and I'm trying my best to learn still. I've gotten a lot of info from my system friends, but I do understand that not everyone is like that. So again, I apologize if I did something wrong.

Also, for those who are new to my page, I'm also a fictionkin otherkin, and a therian, so I also don't really know if this is me just randomly having kinshifts or what. But I just genuinely need y'alls help. Please, anything will work.

Question for alterhumans

I'm a werewolf kin, but I don't know if what I'm experiencing is a therian thing, otherkin thing, or a lycanthope thing. I would love some help.

So I am a werewolf, I know that. But I don't feel it physically. I feel it physiologically. But when I see a werewolf, I think "that's me 100%"

And I know I'm a cladotherian of canines, but of any canine being to ever exist, real & fictional. That I 100% know.

But, that's why I'm having such a hard time under what I am with this kin. If anyone can help, PLEASE do. I'm struggling

Funny thing you should know. Turns out I'm both a fictionkin AND I have a fictive of Alex Kralie, so my guess is why I had so much guilt while writing that 😭🙏

First small vent post, but fuck I hate being a fictkin of the worst people ever.

Just figured out I'm a Alex Kralie kin, and it makes me want to rip my skin off, because unlike with most of my kins (minus bill cipher) I regret the shit I done. The only regret I have for Alex is that I didn't kill everyone fast enough, and that just makes me in general feel like a bad person now.

I wish I didn't kin people like him, or Jeff, or bill, but I literally can't control it. And it pisses me off and makes me wanna cry.

Maybe I just need a nap.