"Manage"

"Manage"

You're as hollow as the bottle that you leave behind

It Won't bring you happiness when loved ones leave your side

Seeing how you manage your curse

I know this life hurts

Trying to find answers in the bottom of the bottle

Joy won't be there waiting for you tomorrow

But you only learned what your father did to you

And so the family curse continues

Seeing how you manage your curse

I know this life hurts

Trying to find answers in the bottom of the bottle

Trying to drown your memories with sorrow

Stubborn men are hard to change

But I see your struggle and your pain

At least you tried and I know you did your best

This is why I'll be there when you're finally put to rest

Seeing how you managed your curse

I know this life could be worse

Throwing rocks at your window.

You know this is me throwing rocks at your window. Like as if we was in high school. We're young and dumb. No responsibilities. I'd be trying to sneak over and throw rocks at your window to win you over but I can't. I have responsibilities to us and our family now. Different actions but same feeling. I'm trying to show you why I am still worth it. I am redeemable. Romantic in a sense.

Anger is good. Just not that bitterness that comes with it.

Father

It's okay father. My resolve is stronger than your fists. Instead of hating the world and even you. Here are the following reasons why I choose to be on the path to peace.

When you're on this path you have to accept and forgive the things that happened. Anyone close to me says I'm truly kind for sticking around. Anyone would've left you to rot. But I don't think I could live with myself if I didn't try. So I forgave you not because you're my father. Knowing that you may have a good heart you're actions are poor. But that isn't the reason either. I did it because I believe I deserve peace. I believe you deserve it too. That's why I'm fighting for it. Ironic isn't it.

I wanted to be a good example for my kids. These foot prints I leave behind I hope that they don't follow all my paths but learn from them. But showing them how a child should take care of their parent in hopes they'll take care of me one day when I'm old and frial.

I did it for hope and I hope you find strength.

I hope you find the time to say

All the things you need to say

And at the end of it all I hope you find peace

I miss you less yet I miss you the same

I did not think in our separation i would get to see you as much. Maybe our minds think alike. We're always thinking negative first. So being able to see you still makes me miss you less. Yet this me still feeling the agony of missing you. Even though the pain is less it is still pain all the same.

Only

Fall down slowly All on your lonely You are my only Please just hold me Here in this morning We are mourning Our hearts burning Time is turning Fall down slowly All on our lonely You are my only Never let go of me Hello sweet heart Don’t turn forever dark Don’t ever waste apart The winter’s mark Fall down slowly All on my lonely You are my only That let go of me