Just A Snippet Of Someone's Life

Just a snippet of someone's life

D-DAY beaches, France

We are walking to one of those big harbor wrecks or something. The wreck seems big and old.

"I don't think we're allowed in here.", I say. We are standing close to the 'entrance' of an overturned wreck.

"It may be dangerous, I think the sign just means: enter at your own risk ."

We still want to take a look and walk inside.

Something is different here. Time flows around us, weighs down on us. It is silent, the only thing you hear is brown noise of the space, and the water that leaves us behind in here.

"I don't think the energy in here feels nice."

"Me neither. is that blood on those walls?"

"That is rust, honey."

"Oh."

It might be rust, but that doesn't take away that everything seems to slow down here like we're traveling in time. Funeral pace. Back to the loud D-Day, burdensome, but not breathless. The silence wants to tell us something, but now it is a bit timid.

We step outside again and we're back here, now, safe.

"What if we actually traveled in time and went back for a minute?"

"I think we would have noticed."

But time is so unpredictable, it sneaks past us while we're holding onto it so tightly. Leaving only an imprint in the shape of a wreck.

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Amy: I can’t believe we are stuck in this room together.

Jake, swallowing the key: Truly unfortunate.

I notice that I feel really angry about the kit conner situation, and that's because it hits a little close to home.

So here is a little rant:

I notice it in daily life too, everytime I do someyhing 'fruity' i feel like i have to disclose my sexuality to anyone.

Like yeah I like listening to girl in red and I am straight (or idfk i'm 16 and get no bitches what do you expect) does that mean i'm not allowed to do it? I'm not profiting off anything by 'pretending' i'm gay. Yeah I like to read wlw books and see series of it, but when people come to me like, yeah you might be a little...

It's not like I'm not self aware, I even call myself fruity but idk I jist feel like it gives me a way out by saying i'm aware

Like they could be right but all it does for me is feel the need to disclose my sexuality. I'm not harming or making fun of anyone. Just let me life my life. But there's is just this pressure. I'm not saying actual lgbt people/allies calling you gay (the intentions are harmless) is just as bad as homophobes doing that, because it isn't. But it does put this pressure on me to tell anyone my sexuality.

And eventually it spiraled down to me calling myself unlabelled, but even that doesn't sit right with me. Because that would mean I am part of the lgbt community. But what if I'm not, would I then be queerbating everyone (while that isn't even what queerbaiting means) / meanly lying? It gives you that responsibility to disclose who you are. While idk, but then I would rather say I'm straight.

While in reality i just want to be 'nothing' not the unlabelled label, just blop I like men that's about it, idk about other options. But i hate identifying. It gives me this responsibility to uphold whatever I identify as. I don't want to do that, just let me do stuff in peace I guess.

I love this. Let's pain my hair, will it make my prettier? Idk, but wil be fun, hell yeah!

I hate you preserving beauty at the cost of enjoyment.

I saw a video of a woman with extremely thick hair doing a thinning method at home. One comment said "my hairdresser heart weeps" because apparently her method may lead to frizz and impact a unified hair look. The woman had so much hair it was giving her headaches.

Its the same as people telling me when I had long hair never to cut it because its so impressive. Its people telling natural redheads never to dye their hair because its such a rare pretty colour.

Its transmasc people being told they were so pretty as a girl and are wasting that.

Its girls being told they are wasting their figure/physical attributes because they are not displaying them constantly and wearing comfortable baggy clothes.

It's people telling you to never go in the sun, not smile and not to use a straw because it will give you wrinkles. Its being told not to eat certain foods because they are bad for your skin, or to do eat other foods because they are good for your skin regardless of whether you enjoy either of those foods. It's being expected to put hours into your skin care and prioritise it over activities you enjoy so you have younger looking skin when you are old.

It's being expected to wear clothes that are uncomfortable because they make you look thinner/more like an hourglass. Not to move in certain ways because it will be unflattering.

It's telling people not to prioritise themselves and their interests in their decisions but instead to prioritise their skin/hair/figure/etc.

I did not agree to preserve whatever natural features i was born with like a one man historical society for myself just because i happened to be made of those genes. I have every right to use and enjoy my body in ways other people don't think fitting and that don't preserve features that currently fit societal beauty standards. I do not agree to hold aesthetic pursuit over comfort and health and happiness.

I know one thing. When i am old i will certainly regret every single day i ate a papaya for breakfast (i hate papaya) instead of a pancake and didn't go into the sun. I will not regret having wrinkles, i just hope they are from laughing.

But they are in fact, Americain idiots

remember in the titans curse when thalia, grover, and percy, and annabeth are in the boarding school and Jesse Mcartney is playing and thalia goes ”ughh. who put on Jesse Mcartney!? put on some greenday!” then storms off to the dj booth, then you turn to grover and hes like ”i did :((“

cuz i do