I Hate It So Much When People Say "I'm So Ocd" Like I LOST MY EYEBROWS TO OCD Let's Be Real For A Sec

I hate it so much when people say "I'm so ocd" like I LOST MY EYEBROWS TO OCD let's be real for a sec here-

Going to work when there's so many of us near the front is so hard dude,,,

Felt this extra hard as a system who never received ANY mental health support until adulthood.

Having to manage your blurred sense of identity, the amnesia and ptsd symptoms and panic disorder through high school, hiding everything until it became my norm. Hiding to the point I almost died and hardly anyone even knows that about me.

Now as an adult, while I'm committed to healing, work and adult life makes nurturing my mental health so much harder, as work for me is exhausting and nearly impossible (I am also autistic). It makes me feel like any steps I take to help my sense of absolute burnout from the years of having to manage myself, just don't get me far.

Real talk recovery is SO much harder when you don't realize you have a disorder until adulthood.

Trying to juggle regular therapy sessions with full time employment is so hard and sometimes it feels like my job itself is negatively affecting my recovery. But I don't have a choice, I need to survive. And in this economy surviving means full time work.

Sometimes I wish that I could go back to a psychiatric facility because then I could fully focus on recovery and not have work meddling with it and making me worse. But I know that's a completely insane thing to wish since my therapist entire goal is to make sure I never go back.

I just want to recover. Man why is it so hard.

THIS!

I spent so much time in severe, denail-induced breakdowns that lasted days because I thought something was wrong with me or my system because we were all having so much trouble figuring ourselves out.

One thing that helped - We realized we'd all been living as one person our whole lives. None of us had gotten the chance to even consider having an identity of our own. Ofc we had our fundamentals, but with the newfound freedom to explore our individuality - it can be amazing yet jarring and terrifying. It can feel like you're losing yourself somehow.

So yes, please let's not normalize knowing everything. It's harmful through and through.

We should probably normalize not knowing information about your system like what an alter's role is, total alter count, who is fronting, etc, since that is actually very normal.

bitch with DID said they didn’t quite feel like themselves and i said oh im sure

Omg I never meet other avoidants!!

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