Guys Im Just Lying Here In Bed And Have No Motivation To Get Up...and Out Of All Days Of The Week It

Guys I’m just lying here in bed and have no motivation to get up...and out of all days of the week it has to be a day I have 3 classes...one which starts at 5:30 and doesn’t end until 8:20 pm. 😴😬😩

This was really good! ❤️

This poem describes the devastation of a person’s mental state when he/she loses a family member. The tree which is being talked about here represents a family tree…. And the bough (the main branch of a tree) represents the lost person. Hope you like it😊

This was so good!! ❤️😭

Riley AU angst. Riley makes an off handed comment about her dad/inquires about her dad in front of Chimney and it brings up the dreaded conversation Maddie has been trying to avoid. Maybe even though she was only little when they left, Riley actually remembers more than Maddie thinks she does (kids are sponges and she's still young enough that she may remember, especially if it was at all traumatic).

“Do you have a daddy, Chimney?”

The question seemingly comes from nowhere and Maddie bites down on her lip as she sits up a little, glancing between her daughter who had been looking at her iPad and Chimney who had been immersed in the movie they were watching. She wants to tell him he doesn’t have to answer if he doesn’t want to but he looks over at her daughter as she looks at him with big, eager eyes and a curious look on her face.

“I kind of have two dads.” He finally settles on, a frown on his lips as he tries to find the words to explain it, whilst she gently puts her hand on the back of his. “I have the dad that I sort of grew up with but uh, we don’t really talk much anymore. He moved away to Korea when I was eleven and I haven’t seen him since in person. I speak to him on the phone sometimes but he’s not really… interested.”

Maddie knows it’s a lot more complicated than that and the five year old scrunches up her nose but slowly nods her head as though she understands. “What about your other dad?”

Whilst Chimney had been tense and apprehensive, he perks up at that, a smile on his lips, “Mr Lee, when my mom died I was just fourteen and I had nowhere to go. I couldn’t go to Korea and I didn’t want to, I wanted to stay here because this is home. And Mr and Mrs Lee took me in, Mrs Lee was my mom’s best friend and I lived with them for a long time. I don’t… see them much anymore. Their--well, my brother, he died… and they’re still really sad.”

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Enough with acting like Buck was bullied by the 118 during the lawsuit (or, ever, but that’s a different post). 

He was not bullied.

They were angry with him after they got all their personal crap dragged out in that lawsuit. They were angry that there was even a lawsuit at all, because it’s not like Buck talked to any of them about this before jumping straight to a lawsuit. Like, a lawsuit is huge deal and should be a last resort and Buck doing it without trying to work things out first was completely an emotional reaction. He was frustrated and betrayed and he lashed out, and their reaction was understandable.

But.

They never bullied him.

“Everyone else got a party but Buck didn’t because they didn’t care about him even though he was crushed by a ladder truck.” Nope. They did throw him a party. A big party, actually, when he passed his LAFD recertification test. Throwing him a party on his first day back wouldn’t have been to celebrate Buck’s recovery and his triumphant return, it would’ve been celebrating him coming back because the LAFD didn’t want to deal with a lawsuit. Kind of a different tone, and Bobby wasn’t there yet (he probably did throw him one once Bobby got past his reservations about Buck returning, but they didn’t think they needed to show that because this is a tv show not fanfiction and it’s also not the Buck show. They already showed him reconciling with both Eddie and Bobby, a party scene would’ve added absolutely nothing to that episode and just been fan-service). 

“Everyone ignored Buck and made work miserable for him.” Again, nope. Hen and Chimney were actually incredibly chill about it. Hen got him a little cake and gave him a very sweet pep talk. Chimney was just welcoming and casual about it (we’ll get into his pep talk in a minute). Eddie did give Buck the cold shoulder, because they were in a fight but Buck tried to pretend like everything was back to normal and no hard feelings, right? And Eddie was like “Nope, there are hard feelings and me and my abandonment issues are going to mope about it until you apologize about it like an adult instead of acting like we’re eight and pretending we can just go back to being besties without a conversation.” For a day. A single shift. They were hugging it out in less than 24 hours. Buck was fully prepared to have to put in the time to earn Eddie’s forgiveness and trust and Eddie absolutely could have sulked for longer but instead he just forgave Buck right away because he’s actually not an asshole like so many of you like to pretend he is.

“Bobby was completely unprofessional and he never should have kept Buck from doing his job.” Not to beat a dead horse but… one shift. One. Singular. Yeah, maybe Bobby had a lapse in professionalism when he projected his past mistakes onto Buck and also was maybe letting his own personal paternal feelings get in the way. But Jesus. Sometimes that’s what mentors do. We’re not robots, especially not in a high-stakes job like that. Sometimes the personal creeps into work. My own boss is also my mentor and it’s little bit of a paternal relationship because of the age difference and sometimes I do feel like he does things to specifically teach me some kind of lesson because he thinks I’m too impatient (example: one time he held off on telling me about a promotion because he thought I was being too impatient and pushy about it, and that I needed to learn to “just trust” him). Is he always right? Nope. Does it annoy me sometimes? Yes. Does it make him a bad boss? No, not at all. He’s a great boss, because he cares about his employees and tries to help them and make us all better. Bobby isn’t a bad boss for incorrectly handling one situation, and he even admitted that he was wrong after (again, beating a dead horse) ONE SHIFT (and also, the fact that “man behind” is even a thing implies that usually there is someone who stays behind, Buck just isn’t used to it being him).

You know who was bullied at work?

Hen and Chimney.

Everything that you guys claim the 118 did to Buck actually happened to Hen and Chimney. 

Chimney was given the cold shoulder by his new teammates. He was held back by his captain during a time when he was supposed to be learning. For months. You want a story about a team ignoring, belittling, and underappreciating the youngest member of the team? Chimney’s right there! You want to write about a captain letting his own personal prejudice and hubris get in the way of actually letting a good firefighter do his job and learn the way he was supposed to during his probationary period: I present to you, Captain Gerard, asshole extraordinaire. We even see a reminder of this in the (one, singular) episode where Buck goes back to work, when Chimney gives Buck advice on how to handle staying cooped up in the station which is very big of him especially considering that Chimney had to deal with that for months for literally no reason while Buck only had to deal with it for one solitary shift.

And speaking of Captain Gerard, what about Hen? The 118, particularly Captain Gerard, straight up harassed her. They made sexist comments, they treated her badly because of her race, they made her feel unwelcome because of her sexuality. That speech that y’all like to write for Buck about how no one appreciates him but they should because he’s a god’s gift to the earth? Yeah, Hen already did that but better and she fucking earned that speech. And even though what Hen went through was actually bullying, and actually abuse, she still went out of her way to make Buck feel welcome on his first day back because she knows what it’s like to feel unwanted and unwelcome at work and she’s too much of a sweetheart to let anyone else feel like that even for a minute, even though what she went through was far, far, far worse.

In conclusion: Buck was not bullied by the 118, he had one slightly uncomfortable day of work where Bobby was trying to teach him a lesson and Eddie was giving him the silent treatment because they were in a fight. Bobby and Eddie were not bullying Buck, and Hen and Chimney certainly were not, and in fact went out of their way to make sure Buck felt welcome because they knew how it felt to be unwanted at work and didn’t want him to think that was happening just because Bobby needed a minute to get over the lawsuit. Hen and Chimney were both legitimately harassed but y’all would rather villainize them because somehow it’s more interesting to write a story about everyone picking on the white boy than acknowledging the actual canon stories dealing with real, workplace issues that POC, women, and LBTQIA+ people actually deal with every day. 

p.s. The Eddie mischaracterization pisses me off just as badly as Hen and Chimney, but so many other people have already made those points better so I’ll just redirect you to the best post I’ve seen on the topic, as well as this post with further reading about latinx and hispanic stereotypes in media. Enjoy. 

I’m screaming at how many mistakes I made at attempting to draw Chimney—so let’s ignore the awful boots, the fact I messed up on coloring the helmet (there’s supposed to be another yellow stripe, which I did have but accidentally colored black 🤦🏻‍♀️), and the fact I didn’t have a skin color that was spot on. Besides that it’s fine for my first attempt at drawing Chimney fully. I’m too scared now to draw Maddie, oh boy.

It also took me 15 different markers to color in. Sometimes I can’t believe how many markers I actually use in one drawing.

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This poem was a direct result of my mom telling me to “write about something positive, like nature!” Anyways, I hope you enjoy hearing about climate change.

Down under water,

No one can tell you to hush.

Let the water fill your lungs,

Hear who lurks beyond the brush.

Under the surface,

Your blood is never red.

Enjoy being pure,

Say what has already been said.

At the mouth of a trench,

The old sailors can be your friends.

Accept the same fate,

This is where it ends.

Embrace the pressure,

The crinkles of the sand.

Live in the undercurrent,

On a body you cannot command.

Allow a millennia to pass,

Notice the stillness.

While dry land may burn,

The sea retains it’s brilliance.

Always welcome someone new,

Guide their ship to sink.

Unleash their lively fluids,

Down here it’s a mixed drink.

Let your essence fly,

Surface tension will clean it up.

The sun may scorch your remains,

But the sea is too deep to burn up.

It’s okay to forget your origins,

Those which are little to be known.

The land cannot hear our secrets,

Nor that we are plants made from bone.

This is our sense of security,

Relying on the strength of the tides.

Until the sea falls ill at the hands of humanity,

Coral will not die again until our reef divides.

Our coral reefs are dying, again.

Please recycle.