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The God of fear and hunger acknowledges your suffering.
Babygirl poses for Valentine's
Pour one out for all east coast starkid fans and our inability to see a show live
He told me write out all the things I deserved to reference any time I deigned to feel good. I kept it under my mouse pad at work up until yesterday when I brought it home.
I can’t date this specifically, but I’m thinking Fall 2016. I remember writing it.
Excuse the handwriting.
I forgot, people under 30 in NA can’t read cursive at the best of times:
All the Things I Deserve According to {HIM}:
- to be gang raped - to have acid thrown in my face - to be murdered - various forms - the be gang raped (to death) by my exes and buried in a shallow grave bc that’s what shitty people deserve. - to get Aids and die - to get cervical cancer and rot from the inside out alone in my 1 bedroom apt after my parents have given up on me. - to be punched in the face - to be miserable forever - to have multiple kids w/ multiple dads and have the world know how much of a slut and loser I am. - to always wonder if {HE} sticks w/ me bc he can’t do better or if he actually loves me.
He told me write out all the things I deserved to reference any time I deigned to feel good. I kept it under my mouse pad at work up until yesterday when I brought it home.
I can’t date this specifically, but I’m thinking Fall 2016. I remember writing it.
Excuse the handwriting.
We need media, visual, audio - we'll need music - and text. We had to hit them with everything.
still not over That conversation from System Collapse. what a two-hit combo. what a scene. chefs kiss 🤌
the impulse purchase that was supposed to fix all my problems was cancelled and refunded with no warning or explanation and the item i wanted is now sold out 💔💔💔💔💔
@bustinbustinbustin’s recent mirror meta reminded me of a post I’ve wanted to do for a while: Vegas’s anti-mirror meta!
Because Vegas has a few significant moments in mirrors--the three big ones being naked candle devil time, “I’ll be the leader and my dad will accept me us,” and obviously that final post-credits scene with Pete and Macau--but he also has several where he’s specifically staged to stay out of reflections. Most of these take place during the safehouse arc.
Following the water-reflected drone shot that sets up Vegas’s arrival at the safehouse, the camera begins to avoid showing his reflection.
As he walks up onto the deck and into the house, Vegas gets only an incidental half-reflection and neatly avoids appearing in either the window on the left or the door on the right, where his two henchmen’s reflections ultimately settle to frame and surround him.
The effect is one of being hemmed in--an effect compounded when Vegas enters the house; he passes behind several open windows and (less subtly) the bars made by the stairs. All of Vegas’s machinations have come to naught; he continues trying to present an image of casual authority, but he’s trapped here. And if Vegas looks in mirrors for an idealized version of himself (the leader, the monster)--the safehouse is where those fantasies begin to fall apart.
Reflections are used similarly with Gun in episode 13. Vegas spends his morning trying to build up a domestic dream, cooking a delicious meal for Pete and resolutely pretending it’s no big deal that he left him handcuffed in his bedroom prison. the fucker (affectionate)
The only reflection Vegas gets inside this house is actually the one made by the counter he’s stir-frying his househusband dream on.
The illusion and the meal are both overturned by the arrival of Gun. Vegas attempts to distance himself from his father (“You think I wanted to be your son?”)--but he fails, miserably, with the minor family ring making its mark on his cheek. And we’re left with this tableau: Vegas is framed between two reflective doors. Gun exits from the left; his reflection departs on the right.
Vegas has nowhere to escape. There is no direction he could turn to be free of the man whose ambitions he has turned into his own shackles. There is nowhere he could go that would not leave him literally following in his father’s footsteps.
He was stupid, to briefly imagine he could.
So: Vegas returns to the reflective counter, covered in the remnants of the illusion. He sweeps those remnants away.
And slams his fist into his now-hidden-from-camera reflection for good measure.
Nanami is so reluctantly a good person. It’s so ahhhhhhh
Polites died believing that the world is kind, and yet his death contributes to Odysseus deciding to become a monster. Absolutely devastating
what not moving on for 10 years does to person
All Praise Be To Allah In Every Situation!!!
marcellus williams’ last statement before his execution.
inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji’un.
(indeed, we belong to Allah, and indeed, to Him we return).
those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death.
isaiah 57:2
i pray for our brother, marcellus williams, that he is reunited with god, and that his family is granted peace. rest in paradise, marcellus.
So don’t ever let go of my hand I won’t let you go ever again either… {cr. namuspromised}
+ Without you, I am nothing.
the cutest honey boy for @sugaftrm & @userhobi ♡︎
[cr. namuspromised]
