Ahhh No One Had Messaged You Yet?! Seriously?! I'm So Surprised That You're New To MysMe, You Already

Ahhh no one had messaged you yet?! Seriously?! I'm so surprised that you're new to MysMe, you already have all of the characters' personalities down so well in your writing! Keep up the good work!

I hope your the same person that asked me to add Saeran and V to the Depressed MC and MC that leaves when angry

I added Saeran to both but umm I’ll be honest I’m 8 days into V’s route and i don’t think i can write for V. I have a pretty long history of being a codependent enabler and V hits a bit close to him so it’s really hard for me to write that without going back to some really unpleasant hurts. 

sorry. i really wanted to write both for you but even just playing his route is really difficult for me because i see so much of my past in his actions.

um anyway i did add saeran so i hope you enjoy those at least.

RFA + Saeran react to MC with depression

RFA + Saeran react to MC that leaves when angry

look okay i was sad and i can’t write angst but damn you can and you nailed it you ripped my heart out and river dance stomped it to death. I loved every minute. i regret nothing

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Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Relationship: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi x MC, (Implied other pairings)

Characters: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi, Yoosung Kim, Zen/Hyun Ryu, Jumin Han MC, Unknown/Saeran Choi, Jaehee Kang

Additional Tags: 707 reset hallucinations, Angst cause why not, what's going on? you tell me

Notes: Blame @joy1579 for this

Saeyoung didn't know when it started, but it persisted. The hallucinations. The nightmares. Waking up without MC in his arms then suddenly feeling her hair tickle his neck.

It happened without warning. Watching MC kiss Jumin at the Christmas party only to blink, finding his hand casually held in her own. Blinking again for his ears to pick up her chatter about decorations instead of whispered sweet nothings and giggles under the mistletoe.

MC playing with Zen's hair in the shade of a tree. Matching sets of adoring eyes meeting then darting away at Yoosung's graduation. All this to wake up or blink or yawn and see her beside him, sense her hand idly tracing the lines of his palm, and feel shame in his veins. Shame for the jealousy her felt towards his closest friends. Shame for MC's constant reassurances that he is more than enough and not believing it himself. Shame for being unable to stop what was happening to him.

The next "reset" happened at a coffee shop where he swore Jaehee was the cashier.

Another reset, playfully dodging Zen's kisses as she booked his next audition.

Reset. An extravagant wedding. Jumin standing tall at the alter, sweeping MC into a kiss.

Reset. MC broadcasting live with his brother. Their hands clasped firmly in defiance.

MC and V... STOP!

Reset.

Reset.

Tripping down the stairs of Rika's apartment building. Chasing her. Watching her leave. Knowing this wasn't the first time.

Reset.

She pulled out her phone and opened the door, "I'll be back. I just need to save him!"

Reset.

"It's the last time. She needs my help, if not for herself then for Yoosung."

RESET.

RESET.

"Saeyoung! Are you okay?"

She hovered over him, holding onto his shoulders tightly.

Saeyoung reached up and pushed back her bangs. Tiredly searching for answers in her hazel eyes, "Please don't leave me again."

Her gaze softened, "I never left."

Saeyoung blinks. The warmth of her hand is gone. She's gone.

Reset.

such a good comic i love cal in protective dad mode!!

Webtoon vvv

https://www.webtoons.com/en/challenge/between-worlds/list?title_no=199399

Recovering codependent enabler here! You aren't alone! V hits me the same way. My ex even had a cultish following for a while (seriously). I've watched/read summaries of his route because I don't feel they handle a lot of the more serious mental health issues right (psychosis and Stockholm Syndrome being the big two). I actually am working on a fanfic (that will probably never seen the light of day) for him to address a lot of that. In a way, it's cathartic... but I'm also weird.

honestly it makes me feel so much better hearing that! I was worried i was just being a baby ^~^ I know a lot of people like him and my dislike definitely stems from how much he reminds me of myself i hate the way i used to act sometimes. i’ve never dated (i got asked out once and the idea that i might disappoint them because i didn’t feel the same way sent me into my first panic attack) but i became codependent on one of my friends.

as for the fic being cathartic for you, your not weird for that!

everyone handles recovery differently as long as your making progress towards a better and healthier life your good! as far as catharsis goes sometimes things get all caught up and tangled in your head or heart and they way you down they choke you out and make it hard to think so it’s healthy to let that out! i’ve written 2 fanfics to kind of express my feelings like that since quarantine makes it harder for me to do the things that normally help me cope (they closed the state park near where i used to go to calm down) I also write poetry to help kind of purge those feelings. so if this fic is helping you than i thinks it’s a wonderful thing!!

RFA boys + Saeran meet their baby for the first time

so I got a request for this! maybe? or i read it wrong either way i hope everyone enjoys this! i had fun writing this and then half way though zen’s bit i realized i may have read it wrong so i decided i would write the other interpretation of the request too

as always check out my master list if you want more

Jumin

Stiff and nervous (though he would never admit it) he’s definitely worried his kids will think he’s cold like everyone else. He doesn’t play favorite but your daughter definitely does and she is a daddy’s girl through and through.

-        He has prepared for this moment for nine months

-        So of course he feels like he’s ready for it

-        When the nurse hands him his daughter for the first time he is stiff

-        It takes your hand on his forearm your thumb rubbing soothing circles there for him to soften

-        you can see the same hazy sheen from your wedding in his eyes

-        he’s not crying but the sentiment is there in his eyes

-        he sings a gentle lullaby when she starts fussing and when she calms down at his voice that’s it for Jumin he is wrapped around this child’s finger

-        you’re hold your newborn son but you can already tell that your daughter is going to be a daddy’s girl

-        when your son starts crying Jumin is there in a second but since his arms are full with his daughter he looks lost

-        you chuckle at his look he clearly wants to help he is a man of action after all

-        then your daughter is crying in his arms and he stiffens again

-        people have called him cold all his life and now he’s panicking because babies need warmth and these tears feel like rejection

-        at least until the nurse pulls her from his arms gently to help you breast feed them for the first time assuring him that the children are simply hungry (being born is hard work after all)

-        he takes time off to help you and the babies settle in and he absolutely takes an active role is soothing them to sleep (there’s two of them so you welcome the help)

Yoosung

Cries and feels woefully unprepared. He’s closer to his mother so he’s determined to be a very active parent so that doesn’t happen with his son. (he’s always been sensitive about being left out)

-        he tried to prepare but he feels so monumentally unprepared

-        he’s watching you hold your son and 100% crying he just has a lot of emotions okay

-        you motion to have him come closer and slowly transfer the little bundle of joy into his arms

-        this boy melts Yoosung sinks into the chair by your bed and looks in awe at this tiny child in his arms

-        he tries to welcome his son into the world but his voice breaks and he settles for kissing him on the forehead

-        when the baby opens his eyes and he sees the lilac that’s near identical to his it hits him

-        this is his baby, HE helped make this baby, it’s in this moment that he makes himself several promise’s

-        one: he will do everything he can to make sure this child is safe, happy, and loved

-        two: he will make sure YOU are safe, happy, and loved.

-        Three: he will learn and try to teach his son about the importance of moderation and balance because it’s something he struggles with and he wants better for his son

Saeyoung

He is super scared of hurting them. He doesn’t want to be like his parents and he still thinks he has a dangerous life. So it’ll take some prompting but only a little since you’ve already melted his heart a lot.

-        Scared as all hell

-        You can see it in his eyes even as he asks if the baby blankets are “womb” temperature

-        He’s honestly afraid to hold them at first, what if he’s like his parents what if he hurts them

-        You insist because there is no way you are letting him get away with his “you can’t be around me I’m dangerous” bull

-        “Saeyoung you will hold one of these babies right now it’s your fault we have two after all!”

-        He’s not crying he just has something in his eye is all

-        The baby starts crying and he panics thinking he hurt the child he tries to return the baby but you refuse telling him to make a funny face or sing a silly song (its his kid after all you know its got a great sense of humor)

-        He swallows nervously but tries to make the silliest face he can.

-        And the baby has stopped crying in favor of staring up at Saeyoung with wide eye’s

-        This is the moment that Saeyoung starts to feel a bit more confident

-        He swears that he saw the baby smile (even though you tell him it takes almost 2 months for children to be able to genuinely smile)

-        He is now hooked on making funny faces at these kids and you are legitimately starting to worry about all those moments you mother told you your face would freeze that way. If it was going to happen to anyone it would be Saeyoung right now.

-        He insists his babies are humor savants the smiled and laughed their first day of life they are comedy geniuses

Zen

Look the second he sees his daughter he is wrapped around her finger like a ring. I want to give her the world on a string. She is a princes and you are his queen.

-        He absolutely kisses the heck out of you, he’s just loves you so much and you’ve given him a family and he’s never been happier than the moment he first saw his daughter

-        When the nurse hands him his child he cries but only a little

-        He’s just so proud and filled with emotions

-        He’s showing her off and braging to all the nurses that a more beautiful baby has never been born

-        He Instantly takes a new dad selfie but you decline saying you look awful (labor is not a pretty process)

-        he tells you tour glowing and beautiful and magical, and finally he talks you into a family selfie to post in the RFA chat

-        He absolutely has cute outfits all picked out for your baby and is a little disappointed when the nurses say no dress up until y’all get home

-        He is ready to fight someone when he sees the nurse giving his baby girl her first bath and she cries

-        He holds his daughter every chance he gets. So much that you have to ask him to let you hold her

-        You have no doubt whatsoever that this little girl will grow up knowing her worth. Her doting father is already telling her how spectacular, beautiful and loved she is.

Saeran

Even more cautious than Saeyoung. Refuses to hold the baby at first. Insisting the baby would be better off without him. it isn’t until the baby won’t stop crying no matter what you do but does stop when it holds his finger that he relents.

-        He stays out of the delivery room. He’s not sure he’s strong enough to hear you in pain even if it is normal for labor.

-        so when the nurse ushers him in to see his child he’s more nervous than he’s ever been.

-        Seeing the baby for the first time he feels like he can’t breathe. The nurse offers to let him hold her and he refuses

-        The nurse tries to push but you step in to let him have some time to get used to the idea.

-        He watches silently as you feed the tiny infant and then rock her gently as she wriggles peacefully

-        Then she starts crying and he’s on his feet to help but unsure what he should do. He doesn’t want to touch her for fear that heal hurt her.

-        you hush her gently, attempt singing to her, check her diaper, everything you can think of but she’s still whimpering quietly and you can see Saeran getting antsier by the minute

-        you get an idea and guide his hand gently to hers. She grips his index finger and mouths at it immediately quieting down

-        you can see the fear and anxiety in his eyes slowly shift to wonder as his little girl gums absently at his knuckle

-        “I never thought” he starts before trailing off

-        “you’ll make a great father Sae. I know you will.”

RFA reacts to MC singing in the shower

guys I used to sing in the shower. I haven't in a long time but there’s this song i used to sing in there that i loved and it was sad but like i cant remember what it was called or what the lyrics are because i have the memory of a goldfish that been dropped on his head. anyway it was about someone who worked hard to help everyone else and they were sad but never stopped trying to help people. i remember it talked about how they weren't loved by their parents so now no love can quite replace the love they never got. it had a lot of things in common with mysme and if you know what it is please tell me. its like a slower song idk 

EDIT: writing this out helped me think and i found it! its called “the beacon” by a fine frenzy! ha ha!

sorry lets get on with it you know the drill check out my masterlist if ya want

Jumin

-        Considers recording you, but is worried it’ll be muffled and muddy with all the background sound and the door between you

-        So instead he just joins you in the shower

-        He tells you your siren voice called him

-        He is late for work that day but he can’t find it in himself to feel guilty

-        Later he’ll ask you to sing for him so he can record it.

-        he plays it when he’s away on business and the time change makes it hard for you two to talk

Yoosung

-        he is thrilled because you sound so happy and cute

-        he hums along while he gets dressed for the day

-        probably either know the songs or looks them up

-        wants to know why you chose that song asks what you think the lyrics mean

-        he absolutely plans to have a karaoke date with you just to be able to playfully sing a duet with you

Saeyoung

-        time to dance

-        he busts in scarin the bajeezus outa you (my condolences ya got no bajeezus left)

-        dancing around the bathroom while you scream in surprise

-        once you stop he looks at you mock pouting

-        “aww I was vibeing”

-        And now your laughing because your boy is such a goofball but you love him

-        You gather all the water you can in your hands and use it to splash him out of the bathroom

-        Sometimes it works. Most times he claims that since his clothes are wet there’s no way he can wear them so he just strips and joins you

-        You consider either option a win

Zen

-        Duets through the shower door

-        He actually harmonizes with you really well

-        How are you supposed to be chill while your naked and Zen is singing right outside the door tho

-        You’re not. You poke your head out the door still dripping just barley covering yourself with a towel

-        And now you have unleashed the beast and ended your shower half way through

-        This happens a couple of times before you learn to ignore Zen’s voice

-        But then he gets a little lonely so he decides to join you

-        Dammit Zen I just need to get clean leave me alone for 5 minutes, but I mean you’re already here no point in leaving now

Jaehee

-        It makes her smile

-        It feels homey and sweet while she sips her morning coffee

-        She’ll hum along

-        But she’ll never mention the singing to your face because she doesn’t want to embarrass you

-        As far as you know she’s never heard you

-        But one morning you do catch her soft and tentative voice coming from the shower barely audible

-        It’s the same song you had sung the day before and you can’t help but smile at its warmth