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Ma Belle Evangeline - by ME
(Happy early Valentine’s Day! 2022)
remembered an old doodle I sent to the TPN zine discord
Norman: You're right. Ray: That's... That's an unusual phrase for you. Did you just learn it?
Emma: Ok, maybe playing ‘whose family is most dysfunctional’ wasn’t the best idea we’ve had. Ray's been crying in the bathroom for an hour. We can’t get him out...
Ray: We need a distraction. Norman: Is anyone here good at jumping up and down and making weird noises? Emma, whispering: My time has come
Emma: So that’s my plan. Ray: Are you alright with constructive criticism? I don’t want to sound mean. Emma: No, go ahead, I want to hear it. Ray: It fucking sucks. Emma: That’s not constructive criticism.
Ray: Goodnight moon. Ray: Goodnight tree. Ray: Goodnight ghosts that only I can see.
Ray: I slept for almost 12 hours but I might still be tired so lets go for 12 more just incase. Norman: Ray, that's a coma. Ray: Sounds festive.
So You Speak to Me of Sadness
And you wonder where we’re going Where’s the rhyme and where’s the reason And it’s you cannot accept It is here we must begin To seek the wisdom of the children And the graceful way of flowers in the wind For the children and the flowers Are my sisters and my brothers Their laughter and their loveliness Could clear a cloudy day And the song that I am singing Is a prayer to non-believers Come and stand beside us We can find a better way
repost
random HC but there’s like spoilers for ray’s routs on MYSME so I’m putting it under a cut that way you can avoid it if you haven’t played that yet
its short and a little sad but guys I gotta get this outta my head
i think it would bother saeran a lot if he heard MC singing mary had a little lamb to kids (be it theirs or other peoples)
because rika used to refer to him as a little lamb. specifically she used this term when she was belittling him or planning a “cleansing” ceremony.
it’s a small thing but lambs and sheep are known for getting lost, for hurting themselves when they are on there own, for being incapable of living without their shepherd. at one point she even mentions MC being a lamb for slaughter. can you imagine something being used to threaten and belittle you for years only to turn around and hear that same term sung to children as a lullaby
Imagine MC singing
“mary had a little lamb, little lamb little lamb” and saeran remembering every time Rika had forced the elixer upon him saying “you are lost my little lamb”
or
“and every where that mary went the lamb was sure to go” and he remembers every bad decision he made to hurt MC while following Rika every missed meal, every harsh word every broken promise or new bruise.
basically i just have a lot of feelings regarding Saeran and his story and also I’m getting really sleep deprived because like family time during the day writing time at night and MYSME every 2 freaking hours guys after this route I’m taking a day off to sleep.
... and then I’m playing V’s route because i hate myself
the RFA reacting to MC saying something creepy in her sleep
so I went to a con and in one of the panels the speaker mentioned her boyfriend (also a speaker there) talked in his sleep and said only the creepiest shiz (she also mentioned him sleep fighting which is hilarious but not what this story is about) one of the things he had said that really shook her was the phrase “the wall’s demand a sacrifice” and i really like that phrase.
so yeah that’s where this came from
oh and ya know master list
Jumin
- it was past midnight and he was up to respond to a foreign business partner
- he wasn’t fazed when you shifted and mumbled something incomprehensible
- you had always talked a little in your sleep, mostly cute nonsense from your dreams
- “the walls demand a sacrifice”
- Well that was new
- He debated waking you up, if it were a nightmare he certainly didn’t want you to suffer longer
- Then you chuckled and he felt a shiver run up his spine.
- He had never her you laugh quite like that
- Perhaps he should make some tea and finish his work in the other room
Yoosung
- He had woken up when a particularly loud crack of thunder rang through the stormy night
- Jolted awake he looked around to check on you
- But you were snuggled up just as cute as ever
- “the walls”
- He smiled a little to himself, he loved when you talked in your sleep
- Sometimes if he goaded you along he could get you to say his name
- “what was that MC” he asked gently prompting you
- “the wall’s they want a sacrifice”
- That was all he needed to hear to know he would not be sleeping that night.
- He sat in the well-lit kitchen watching cute animal videos
- Anything to not think about the ominous warning you had muttered
Saeyoung
- You had your head on his lap as he worked on his laptop at the coffee table
- He chuckled at your occasional grimace or smile as you dreamed
- That is until you spoke
- “we must give the walls their sacrifice”
- “heh what was that?”
- “the walls demand a sacrifice”
- A second later you were shaken awake
- “MC if you ever do that again I will douse you in holy water”
- “huh?”
- “nothing just um, time to head to bed I think”
- You grumbled something about already being asleep before you shook you but relented and followed him to bed
- not noticing as he absentmindedly fumbled with the cross around his neck
Zen
- he’s occupied with character analysis when you appear in the doorway glassy eyed and vacant
- he had seen you sleep walk before when work stress got particularly bed so he wasn’t too surprised
- he stood, prepairing to gently guide you back to bed you turned your head towards the window and muttered something
- he chuckled quietly thrilled by how cute you always were
- he placed his arm gently around your shoulders and began to hush you gently as he walked you back to the bedroom
- “the walls demand their due”
- That stopped him in his tracks as he searched your blank and unfocused gaze still turned towards the only small window his apartment had
- “jagiya?” he prompted gently trying to rouse you “are you okay babe?”
- You shook your head blinking rapidly and coming back to yourself
- “Zenny? What? Was I sleep walking again?”
- “what were you dreaming about”
- “I um its fuzzy, you were there I think, but mostly I remember there was someone talking”
- “let um let’s get you to bed jagiya”
- he decides its best to head to bed with you, though he didn’t sleep very well after that
Jaehee
- she woke up to a call from MR.han
- she was ready to turn him down. You had helped her take great strides in being able to say no
- even to him
- she looked at you and readied her resolution
- then you spoke raspy and sleep deep
- “the walls demand their sacrifice”
- Well that was, unsettling to say the least
- When a chuckle escaped your lips the last of her bravery slipped from her grasp
- If she wasn’t going to sleep anyway she may as well work after all
- She left you a note on her way out
- “MC I had to go into the office urgently also you were sleep talking again last night. I read recently sleep talking can be caused by stress and sleep deprivation. Please take care of yourself and be sure to get good rest.”
Saeran
- He doesn’t sleep well
- So he’s used to sitting up watching you sleep it helps him calm down
- The you nuzzle into his lap just a little more and mumble
- “the walls demand a sacrifice”
- He’s more curious than anything else
- what does it mean? how do the walls speak to you? what kind of sacrifice do they want?
- am I in danger? why did they choose to give you their demands?
- I could sacrifice someone to the walls just as easily as you could?
- who are the walls to judge me unfit for preparing their sacrifices?
- He has to shake his head that line of logic was still so easy to fall into
- He would wake you gently then in case the dream that caused the sleep talking was a bad one
- then both of you could start the soothing routine of falling back to sleep together
Mc spoils the RFA + saeran with their perfect bath
guys i love baths. bath bombs, I got a job at bath and body works because i love their products and lush doesn't have a store near me. baths are beautiful wonderful indulgent moments of relaxation and should be treated as sacred and holy times. so here we have MC giving the RFA their perfect bath.
also my master list grows with every new post so be sure to keep an eye on it.
Jumin
- He has been so stressed its affecting his sleep
- So tonight your bound and determined to get him to relax
- He doesn’t usually take baths he’s a shower guy
- His bathtub is HUGE though (mostly because he knows you love baths)
- The water is so hot his skin is a little red but not so hot that hit hurts
- Hot water helps relax the muscles you point out
- you use a bath bomb that colors the water a deep purple with eco safe silver glitter
- it’s scented with cedar wood and lavender oil
- you even dimmed the lights and played cello music to create the optimal relaxation
- he starts soaking as you pour both of you some wine
- he asks you to join him saying that it would be “terribly boring” without you
- you chuckle and slip in with him leaning against his chest
- he tells you about a new cat business
- you tell him about teaching Elizabeth the 3rd to do the obstacle course you and he set up
- you mention that the water looks like the starry night sky and move to kiss him
- he smiles and catches your chin in his hand to deepen the kiss
- he thinks he will indulge in baths more often if you will be joining him like this
Yoosung
- he knows that girls like baths but he’s never really enjoyed them
- he gets antsy if he sits still too long and shows just seem easier
- so you decide to show him the light
- the bathtub at his place isn’t big but you can manage since there isn’t an easy solution
- the water is another problem it doesn’t get hot enough to be relaxing and certainly not hot enough to stay relaxing through the duration of the soak
- so you fill up what you can from the tap and add boiling water to bring the overall temp up
- you have to be really carful to not get it too hot
- you use a light blue bath bomb with gold glitter its shaped like a shooting start and has a tiny toy inside
- you do not tell him about the toy the toy is yours
- its smells like freesia and honey, fresh and lightly sweet
- you play the LOLOL equivalent of the LOZ great fairy fountain music
- he grabs your hand as you go to give him privacy and won’t meet your eyes when he asks you to join him
- you share a bottle of cold cherry flavored sparkling water
- he tells you about the upcoming LOLOL event and you laugh at his animated hand guesturse splashing around
- you give him a bubble beard and when you kiss him you pull away with half the bubbles on your own face
- as great as the bath itself was his favorite part is towel drying your hair because of how messy and super fluffy soft it becomes
Saeyoung
- broski neglects himself when work gets bad
- he can get nasty
- you draw him a bath with the hottest water possible
- you use a bright red bath bomb with black and gold glitter
- it smells exactly like fruit loops
- you also add several rubber duckies (one looks like him and one looks like you)
- you were not planning to join him really
- but he splashes you and I mean you where wet already so when in roam
- you too may or may not play act with the rubber ducky versions of you
- you pour Dr. pepper into those plastic fake champagne flutes and toast to honey buddah chips
- you have to ban honey buddah chips from the bath
- you share memes on each other’s phones
- and play soft 8-bit music as background noise
- you wash his hair and hum a lullaby
- he tries not to get sentimental about a childhood he never had
- but you can tell he’s getting a bit sad so you squish his face and say “my name is Saeyoung and I deserve love” you have him repeat after you while his face is squished until his laughing again
- you wrap his hair in a towel hat then laugh when he forgets and his hair dries all crazy
- bath time becomes a really happy routine for you too
Zen
- he is familiar with baths they are good for your skin every once in a while
- he’s read all about the benefits, the pros and cons, what to add what to steer clear of
- he insists warm not hot water “zen hot water feels the best” “it can irritate our skin jagi!”
- you concede because he’s basically a human furnace anyway
- you choose a dye and glitter free bath bomb
- but it does have seaweed extract, coconut oil, and Epsom salt
- it smells like rose, lemongrass, and mahogany
- he puts his hair in a bun to wash separately (what’s good for skin isn’t always good for hair)
- you both do face masks during the soak and there’s something you really enjoy about seeing him in a face mask
- it’s one of the few times he looks genuinely silly
- you talk about the new part he just got and he admits he’s nervous
- “it’s a romance Jagi what if I can’t act it properly because I’m too busy thinking about you?”
- he either drinks bear or lemon cucumber water depending on if he has an audition tomorrow
- if he drinks beer he shares the can with you since he’s trying to cut back for you
- if it’s the lemon cucumber water absolutely runs the bottom of the ice cold glass against your neck to see you shiver and shudder
- but then you wiggle against him and he’s starting to have a hard time controlling the beast
Jaehee
- this girl needs a tropical vacation bad
- but since you don’t have the money or time you decide a staycation will do
- bath water is hot enough to steam but you give it time to cool a bit before she gets in
- you use and orange, yellow bath bomb with gold glitter that looks like the sunrise
- it smells like guava and mandarin to give it a tropical feel
- you play ocean sounds and quiet ukulele music
- you make chamomile and lemongrass ice tea sweetened with honey
- she chats idly about all the benefits of such a drink and debates whether to add it to the café menu or not
- you can’t help but chuckle at her workaholic nature as you turn to kiss the tip of her nose
- you even move a laptop with its webcam covered because everything with the RFA hacker has made y’all hyper aware of the vulnerability of technology
- to the bathroom counter so you can watch Zen DVD’s while you relax
- afterwards you paint her nails and discuss new cakes for the café
- she’ll admit it’s no trip to Hawaii but it was very relaxing
Saeran
- boy refuses to admit he needs some serious TLC
- but you coax him in if you say you want to share a bath with him
- you bring fresh flowers into the bathroom and make sure everything is perfect
- you use a deep red bath bomb with black glitter
- its shaped like a skull and he enjoys watching it fizz and bubble before you two get in
- it smells like a bouquet of gardenias, roses, and lilies
- you play nature sounds with gentle harp music
- you make sweet hibiscus tea to share with him
- he tells you about his latest therapy appointment and you ask him idle questions
- “did you end up planting all the tulips?”
- “maybe we should build a bird house! Or install a flower box on the window sill!”
- “are you gonna dye your hair again? Or let it grow naturally?”
- A lot of your conversations used to be one sided since he was so unused to make his own decisions
- So conversations where you gently guide him to find his own ideas are helpful
- Especially in safe and relaxing environment like this.
- “I think I’d like to keep it bleached until it grows out” he says cautiously
- “I think when it grows out on its own it’ll feel like the last of mint eye being washed away, and I hope I’ll be better by then. I hope you’ll stay with me until then.”
- “always and forever” you assure him kissing his cheek and giggling at his light blush
the RFA + Saeran sleeping cuddles
cuddles! cuddles galore! look there’s only one thing better than sleep and that’s sleep cuddles.
also ya know master list if your interested
Jumin
He sleeps on his back on arm on his stomach the other to his side. You are curled in a ball hugging the arm at his side like a stuffed animal head on your pillow but face nearly touching his arm. He likes feeling your breath ghost across his skin and every now and then you shift and your lips brush against him in an angel soft kiss. He also thinks its precious how you cling to him in your sleep even if it does make getting up in the morning without waking you up a bit tricky.
Yoosung
This one changes slowly as he matures. At first you face each other curled up and you wrapped your arms around him. in his sleep he would cuddle closer and end up practically burying his face in your breasts. Your legs would tangle up and he would wake up so embarrassed because he always got a face full of boob. (he didn’t complain though). As he got taller and more confident your positions slowly swap until he’s the one holding you curled up against his chest your head tucked just under his chin.
One time y’alls cat broke something shocking you awake your head shot up and hit his jaw. You had a bump he had a bruise and bitten tongue. It wasn’t fun for anyone involved.
Saeyoung
I head cannon that this boy does not enjoy being wrapped up. he doesn’t mind being under a blanket but only if the sides are free. He’s got a thing about being trapped (be it by his mom or his agency or his dad he has a lot of things that have tried to lock him up and he’s learned to fight it hard) and even something as small as being tucked in feels suffocating to him. He has to be able to move his arms and legs freely, so he does not sleep well with you holding him. so he holds you instead and he holds you tight.
Zen
Lay your head on his chest or shoulder he’ll have one arms around you and he’ll hold your hand with the other. You HAVE to be either leaning against him or laying your head on him because I guarantee that the second he doesn’t feel you against him he is up and searching for you. also this guy is a freaking space heater so it’s always nice and toasty in his arms.
Jaehee
your both curled up on your sides and facing each other. she holds your hand like the cutie pie she is. she holds it in both hands near her face while she’s curled up next to you. you may have your other arm slung across her waist to pull her a little closer but she really only needs your hand too know your there and grounding her. When y’all wake up its nice to spend the morning chatting before you actually get out of bed.
Saeran
he doesn’t sleep well, ever. In fact, most of his sleep is from naps on the couch while your still awake and either playing games or watching TV. So more often than not the cuddling happens there starting from him laying sleepily against you while you face sideways on the couch if you’re playing games he’s sleeping against your chest (boobs are amazing pillows) while you hold the controller around his back. If you’re watching TV, you just run your fingers through his hair. It’s always a little saddening when he wakes up and jumps away from you like he’s been burned, whether it’s a nightmare or just his angry embarrassment at being so vulnerable it’s a bummer, he’s still got a long way to go in his recovery but he’s doing so much better.
RFA + Saeran and MC on a snow day
so where i live it does not snow often. it gets cold but we don’t usually get enough moisture to get snow. so as much as i would love do do more snow activities tis but a futile dream. maybe when i move. i don’t know. point is i don’t know much about snow day activities so a lot of activities are repeated but hopefully each character is different enough for everyone to enjoy.
oh also so I changed my ask box so y’all know i do take requests for mysme writing. my only current rules are that I don’t write for V and NSFW stuff will be kept vauge. oh but i do LOVE writing for jumin so def hit me up if you got anything for him.
and as always feel free to check out my master list!
Jumin
He spends it learning about what other people do on snow days so it’s a little bit of everything
- You know this man has a real fireplace because that is classy and cozy (at least I think so)
- Imagine sitting on the floor across from Jumin with Elizabeth between you two
- Your take turns teasing her with toys as she jumps and plays towards one of you then the other
- When you do go out you’re in super warm clothes and even then he’ll have his arms around you to keep you close and warm next to him
- He is not prepared when you pull away from him to run through the snow like a child but he chuckles watching you practically frolic
- Until he see’s you tumble into a pile of snow and rushes to help you out
- But when he gets there your giggling like a mad woman and you pull him down to kiss him in the snow
- “have some fun with me MR. Han”
- “if you insist MRS. Han”
- You show him all the commoner Snow day activities
- Snow angels, snow men, snow ice cream, maple syrup snow candy
- At the end of the day your curled against him in a big armchair by the fires he’s reading to you while you both warm up
Yoosung
His day is all about fun fair play with intermittent kisses and cuddles he’s just happy to be with you
- This boy may not have a fireplace but just imagine curling up with him under a heated blanket
- Also he loves snowball fights. He goes all out building himself a snow wall to hide behind and creating a war cry before popping up to pelt you with snowballs
- You sneak around and tackle him into the snow peppering his whole face with kisses
- Y’all try to build an igloo
- Y’all fail to build an igloo
- You build an entire family of snowmen to live in your collapsed igloo
- You and he name each snow man and even try to make them a little snow meal
- Then you start sneezing and he notices how red your nose and cheeks are from the cold
- He rubs your hands in his and breaths on them to warm your finger
- Eskimo kisses while sipping hot chocolate
- This boy makes the absolute best hot chocolate complete with whip cream and red and green Christmas sprinkles
- you put your cold hands on his face hot blushing face and laugh when he lurches backwards its less fun when he does the same
Saeyoung
he might take the snow fun a bit too far. But hey you both had fun so it’s cool right?
- he didn’t know it was snowing until you dropped a half melted snowball on his head while he works
- he makes a freaking snowball machine gun, his cat robot fights by his side
- you are out numbered and out gunned but he refuses your surrender you are now a prisoner of snowball war
- he DID make an igloo (for snowball war prisoners) and you and him bring blankets and watch movies on his laptop while all cuddled up together
- igloo make outs, until Saeran comes to check on you two
- not only does he stumble into some ridiculous booby trap Saeyoung made
- but when he finally makes it through you guys are making out and he tells you two to get a room
- “we have a room! I built it myself!”
- Saeran calls Saeyoung an idiot but does tell you to come inside before you catch a cold
- You make you and Saeran tea, Saeyoung tries hot DR. Pepper (spoiler alert it’s not good)
- You make soup for everyone and you all have a movie night
Zen
Romance. He will romance the pants off you. quite literally. It wasn’t his plan but he’s not complaining.
- Boy legit does not get cold so he lends you his coat
- But it’s so big on you, like floppy sleeves and knee length big. He thinks it’s so cute.
- And then your nose and cheeks all flushed from the cold.
- He’s dead, you killed him. Zen doesn’t live in that body anymore, now only the beast remains.
- He’s afraid you’ll catch a cold so he keeps you inside the rest of the time
- you and he absolutely go sledding (he’s not gonna miss a chance to hold you that tight against him)
- it’s hard to control himself when y’all tumble over each other at the bottom of the hill and he ends up laughing on top of you
- you nose scrunched with your laughter at the crash and pillowey snow around you
- he sings you “walking in a winter wonderland” as you two get take out from a nearby restaurant
- hot showers (interpret that HOWEVER you want wink wonk) to help you both warm up
Jaehee
its cozy and warm and peaceful. You spend most of it in shelter watching the snow fall from inside.
- snow days are actually really good for y’alls business because everyone wants hot drinks when its cold out
- she bundles the heck up. Coat gloves scarf hat boots earmuffs hat all of it
- she looks so cute all bundled up you just have to kiss her nose
- after the café crowd dies down you make her a drink and you two sit letting the drinks warm your hands as you watch the snow outside fall
- she gasps. You know what would be perfect for cold weather like this? molten lava cake!
- You gasp. You know what would go perfectly with that? fresh snow ice cream
- You both get to work and make what is hands down the best dessert you’ve ever shared
- It won’t work in the café obviously but your both glad you got to enjoy it together
- On your way home you hold her gloved hand and she kisses your cheek
- You spend the night watching DVD’s of Zen’s past Christmas plays
Saeran
It’s all about balance on this day, balance Saeran’s two different sides and balancing him and his brothers sometimes oppositional personalities.
- Hot tea with all his winter flowers (you know he’s planned his garden with flowers that bloom at all different times)
- you and he try to catch snowflakes on your tongues and make snow angles
- he probably gets irrationally angry when something knocks a tree branch and dumps snow on his head
- you calm him down and promise you two can gang up on Saeyoung in a snowball fight
- you two forgot he had a snowball machine gun and end up hiding behind a snow pile
- you call a truce once Saeyoung runs out of ammo and drag Saeran inside so he doesn’t catch a cold
- you make him chicken noodle soup and snuggle with him until he’s warm again
- you hear Saeyoung come in and Saeran tells him that if Saeyoung dares touch him with anything cold he will personally throttle Saeyoung with an icicle
- you hush Saeran gently because that’s not nice besides Saeyoung knows better you say sending a harsh look at a Saeyoung who has a large snowball melting in his hands
- Saeyoung decides that he probably shouldn’t go against you and Saeran together (clever boy)
RFA boys + Saeran meet their baby for the first time
so I got a request for this! maybe? or i read it wrong either way i hope everyone enjoys this! i had fun writing this and then half way though zen’s bit i realized i may have read it wrong so i decided i would write the other interpretation of the request too
as always check out my master list if you want more
Jumin
Stiff and nervous (though he would never admit it) he’s definitely worried his kids will think he’s cold like everyone else. He doesn’t play favorite but your daughter definitely does and she is a daddy’s girl through and through.
- He has prepared for this moment for nine months
- So of course he feels like he’s ready for it
- When the nurse hands him his daughter for the first time he is stiff
- It takes your hand on his forearm your thumb rubbing soothing circles there for him to soften
- you can see the same hazy sheen from your wedding in his eyes
- he’s not crying but the sentiment is there in his eyes
- he sings a gentle lullaby when she starts fussing and when she calms down at his voice that’s it for Jumin he is wrapped around this child’s finger
- you’re hold your newborn son but you can already tell that your daughter is going to be a daddy’s girl
- when your son starts crying Jumin is there in a second but since his arms are full with his daughter he looks lost
- you chuckle at his look he clearly wants to help he is a man of action after all
- then your daughter is crying in his arms and he stiffens again
- people have called him cold all his life and now he’s panicking because babies need warmth and these tears feel like rejection
- at least until the nurse pulls her from his arms gently to help you breast feed them for the first time assuring him that the children are simply hungry (being born is hard work after all)
- he takes time off to help you and the babies settle in and he absolutely takes an active role is soothing them to sleep (there’s two of them so you welcome the help)
Yoosung
Cries and feels woefully unprepared. He’s closer to his mother so he’s determined to be a very active parent so that doesn’t happen with his son. (he’s always been sensitive about being left out)
- he tried to prepare but he feels so monumentally unprepared
- he’s watching you hold your son and 100% crying he just has a lot of emotions okay
- you motion to have him come closer and slowly transfer the little bundle of joy into his arms
- this boy melts Yoosung sinks into the chair by your bed and looks in awe at this tiny child in his arms
- he tries to welcome his son into the world but his voice breaks and he settles for kissing him on the forehead
- when the baby opens his eyes and he sees the lilac that’s near identical to his it hits him
- this is his baby, HE helped make this baby, it’s in this moment that he makes himself several promise’s
- one: he will do everything he can to make sure this child is safe, happy, and loved
- two: he will make sure YOU are safe, happy, and loved.
- Three: he will learn and try to teach his son about the importance of moderation and balance because it’s something he struggles with and he wants better for his son
Saeyoung
He is super scared of hurting them. He doesn’t want to be like his parents and he still thinks he has a dangerous life. So it’ll take some prompting but only a little since you’ve already melted his heart a lot.
- Scared as all hell
- You can see it in his eyes even as he asks if the baby blankets are “womb” temperature
- He’s honestly afraid to hold them at first, what if he’s like his parents what if he hurts them
- You insist because there is no way you are letting him get away with his “you can’t be around me I’m dangerous” bull
- “Saeyoung you will hold one of these babies right now it’s your fault we have two after all!”
- He’s not crying he just has something in his eye is all
- The baby starts crying and he panics thinking he hurt the child he tries to return the baby but you refuse telling him to make a funny face or sing a silly song (its his kid after all you know its got a great sense of humor)
- He swallows nervously but tries to make the silliest face he can.
- And the baby has stopped crying in favor of staring up at Saeyoung with wide eye’s
- This is the moment that Saeyoung starts to feel a bit more confident
- He swears that he saw the baby smile (even though you tell him it takes almost 2 months for children to be able to genuinely smile)
- He is now hooked on making funny faces at these kids and you are legitimately starting to worry about all those moments you mother told you your face would freeze that way. If it was going to happen to anyone it would be Saeyoung right now.
- He insists his babies are humor savants the smiled and laughed their first day of life they are comedy geniuses
Zen
Look the second he sees his daughter he is wrapped around her finger like a ring. I want to give her the world on a string. She is a princes and you are his queen.
- He absolutely kisses the heck out of you, he’s just loves you so much and you’ve given him a family and he’s never been happier than the moment he first saw his daughter
- When the nurse hands him his child he cries but only a little
- He’s just so proud and filled with emotions
- He’s showing her off and braging to all the nurses that a more beautiful baby has never been born
- He Instantly takes a new dad selfie but you decline saying you look awful (labor is not a pretty process)
- he tells you tour glowing and beautiful and magical, and finally he talks you into a family selfie to post in the RFA chat
- He absolutely has cute outfits all picked out for your baby and is a little disappointed when the nurses say no dress up until y’all get home
- He is ready to fight someone when he sees the nurse giving his baby girl her first bath and she cries
- He holds his daughter every chance he gets. So much that you have to ask him to let you hold her
- You have no doubt whatsoever that this little girl will grow up knowing her worth. Her doting father is already telling her how spectacular, beautiful and loved she is.
Saeran
Even more cautious than Saeyoung. Refuses to hold the baby at first. Insisting the baby would be better off without him. it isn’t until the baby won’t stop crying no matter what you do but does stop when it holds his finger that he relents.
- He stays out of the delivery room. He’s not sure he’s strong enough to hear you in pain even if it is normal for labor.
- so when the nurse ushers him in to see his child he’s more nervous than he’s ever been.
- Seeing the baby for the first time he feels like he can’t breathe. The nurse offers to let him hold her and he refuses
- The nurse tries to push but you step in to let him have some time to get used to the idea.
- He watches silently as you feed the tiny infant and then rock her gently as she wriggles peacefully
- Then she starts crying and he’s on his feet to help but unsure what he should do. He doesn’t want to touch her for fear that heal hurt her.
- you hush her gently, attempt singing to her, check her diaper, everything you can think of but she’s still whimpering quietly and you can see Saeran getting antsier by the minute
- you get an idea and guide his hand gently to hers. She grips his index finger and mouths at it immediately quieting down
- you can see the fear and anxiety in his eyes slowly shift to wonder as his little girl gums absently at his knuckle
- “I never thought” he starts before trailing off
- “you’ll make a great father Sae. I know you will.”
RFA boys + saeran helping surrogate MC through pregnancy and meeting her baby
so this is the other interpretation of that request i got. i hope its okay! i wrote this one out side which was really nice for a change. please leave a comment if you enjoyed it
also master list if your into it
Jumin
During the pregnancy
- Since he met you later in your surrogacy he only gets 2 months to help you through your pregnancy
- But he does everything he can
- You get one of those super fancy pregnancy body pillows
- He declines the private nurse though reminding him that every woman ancestor he has gave birth even before private nurses were a thing
- He picks apart the line saying that his great aunt never had children so not every
- You cut him off with a gently kiss before saying “hush I’m pregnant and therefore right”
- He would argue with you but you’re already walking away towards the kitchen where your latest snack craving was hidden away.
Meeting the baby in the waiting room
- He was a tad upset that he couldn’t be with you in the delivery room
- But he understood that your sister and her husband (the parents) took priority over him
- At least he said he did but his grim look and constant foot tapping said otherwise
- “Jumin” your sister called “do you want to see your future nephew?” his heart jumped at that.
- Your sister hadn’t been cold to him certainly but she had always referred to him as your boyfriend despite his proposal.
- He had taken it to mean she did not approve of him but if this child was his future nephew then she must have accepted that you were his future wife
- “yes I would” he said resolutely stepping forward to see the baby in her arms
- He had you and your sisters eye’s (poor baby ain’t got no eyes JK) and red tinted hair from his father but what hit Jumin most was the simple peace of the child
- He had expected fussiness and crying. He had asked around and many people warned him that newborns were fussy even on their best days
- But like you this child had a gentle peace about him a calm and happy light in its bright young eye’s
- “I’d like to see MC” he said abruptly and your sister chuckled stepping aside so he could visit you
- He wrapped you in his arms and murmered low in your ear “you never cease to amaze me my love. Marry me? Not in several months not even in days. Tomorrow. The second your discharged.”
Yoosung
During the pregnancy
- He is trying his absolute best. He knows nothing about pregnancy. So he asks his mom and after calming down her panic she agrees to help.
- By showing up at his house to see and care for MC.
- She insists on cleaning and worries over MC whenever MC tries to help
- Yoosung helps dutifully but you can see a tinge of regret in his eyes when his mother nags him to stop playing lolol
- She’s there for a week cooking and lecturing Yoosung on everything that a pregnant woman need help with (which according to her is EVERYTHING)
- You ask her if she had a hard pregnancy by chance and she admits her pregnancy with Yoosung was very difficult (Yoosung had never known that and listens intently from his place cleaning in the kitchen
- She had pushed herself to hard and ending up going into labor prematurely nearly loosing Yoosung in the process now your crying and Yoosung is rushing to your side his mom hugging you both
- “you are strong MC anyone who can put up with my son must be but dont forget to take care of yourself, and you Yoosung you help her with this and make me proud” his mom semi scolds with a warm smile
Meeting the baby in the waiting room
- Yoosung is sitting in the corner practically bouncing with anxiety
- Zen has his hand on Yoosung’s shoulder and is looking at his watch every five minutes
- He was missing a final for this but he had told his professor that his girlfriend was having a baby so the professor would let him retake it tomorrow
- Technically it wasn’t a lie. It just wasn’t their baby.
- Despite it not being their baby he was still so nervous he thought he might be sick. After hearing his mother’s story, he had researched EVERYTHING that could go wrong (there are a lot of things that could go wrong)
- So when he heard your sister (who had become a familiar presence in his life) call him he nearly jumped out of his skin
- He rushed over to where she stood holding a small bundle of blue blankets
- “you’ll never guess what we named him?” she teased and her small smirked highlighted just how much you two looked alike “MC came up with it, and we thought it was perfect naming him after his uncle”
- Yoosung looked at her confused and lost tilting his head to the side
- “meet Yoosung our baby and maybe someday your official nephew”
- Yoosung turned beet red at that you and he had only been dating for 3 months after all
- And yet through all the nerves he couldn’t find it in himself to dislike the idea in fact he couldn’t stop the wide smile that grew on his face
- “hi mini Yoosung. I’ll do my best to be someone you can look up too okay!”
Saeyoung
during pregnancy
- Look there was A LOT going on during this moment in his life
- Between the agency and mint eye he could barely think straight
- And you were his rock grounding him through it all.
- Vanderwood had never seen a woman 7 months pregnant pick a fight with a cult leader and show no hesitation when looking danger in the face before you
- You were either incredibly brave or just plain stupid considering you were in love with Saeyoung probably a bit of both
- He had to admit though your steadfast level headed nurturing was exactly what Saeyoung and his brother needed
- At every wrong turn and new trouble, you were there cheering Saeyoung on and calming Saeran down (something that amazingly it seemed only you could do)
- Saeyoung was determined to protect you and his brother and you believed in him whole heartedly
- It was only after all the chaos was over and Saeyoung had brought you to his bunker that you finally sat down, sighed and called your sister to tell her you were home
- Saeyoung sat next to you and as soon as you hang up you burst into tears and buried your face in his chest
- He was surprised when you mentioned how worried for him you were
- He pulled you back to look at you disbelievingly before kissing you hard
- After all that nothing could come between you
Meeting the baby in the waiting room
- He stood stock still eye’s darting between the doors to the delivery room and the hallway he led to the psychiatric ward where his brother was
- He wanted to tell his brother that today was the day but everything had been so busy since arriving he didn’t have a chance and now his was stuck unsure of how long it would take.
- Logically he was sure he had enough time since his brother never wanted to see him for very long. They were doing better of course but at most they could only spend 20 to 30 minutes together before Saeran would have an episode and Saeyoung would be ushered away.
- Still he didn’t want to risk being absent when the baby was born and he could see you safe and sound again.
- Your sister had barely stepped through the door before Saeyoung was burying her in questions
- “is MC okay? What about the baby? Is it a boy or a girl? When can I see MC again?”
- Your sister chuckled at that nodding down the bundle of blue blankets in her arms
- “MC’s is okay their helping her clean up now. This is our little boy here and you can see MC as soon as you answer a question for us.” Her gentle voice reminded him so much of yours whenever you tried to soothe Saeran and he nodded urgently. He desperately wanted to see you.
- “will you be the God father luciel?”
- Ice ran through his veins as he froze. Godfather. He couldn’t, there was no way he could with everything he’s done everything he’s caught up in but hadn’t he thought the same about being with you, and about seeing his brother again too
- He looked at the tiny infant, it slept soundly in its mothers arms and he tried to find a reason to dislike the small boy, any reason to say no to the question your sister had just asked. Slowly the baby opened his eyes and he marveled at how clear and innocent they were.
- He’s tremulously nod’s and is suddenly caught up in a gentle hug from your sister and her quiet husband, before being ushered back to meet you.
Zen
During the pregnancy
- Absolutely gives you anything and everything your craving
- Completely quits smoking because what if it hurts the baby (still drinks beer though)
- he lays his head on your belly and talks to the baby telling it how it has the best kindest strongest angel of a mother ever
- surrogate mother you point out and he looks so confused because what’s the difference?
- You explain that the baby isn’t yours in any way except for it growing in your womb. The egg was your sisters so the baby is hers not yours
- He still looks a little confused but takes your word for it after all you would know best
- You and he have A LOT of dinners with your sister and her husband
- He’s still getting used to the whole family dynamic since he hasn’t had it in so long
Meeting the baby in the waiting room
- He is pacing because he does not enjoy sitting still while anxious
- he can’t calm down and he’s angry that they won’t let him in the delivery room with you
- Yoosung touches his shoulder and he turns on him about to snap but stopping himself when he sees its Yoosung and not Jumin
- Yoosung asks him if he wants some water and offers to walk with him to the hospital cafeteria
- They are almost out the door when he hears your sister call for him
- “zen would you like to see the baby?”
- He sprints over to see the little boy and in that moment he vows to teach this child everything he knows
- It may not be his son but he swears to support the kid to the ends of the earth and if the kid ever needs a place to go. Well that’s what uncles should be for.
- The baby grabs at a stray lock of Zen’s hair and its one of the few times Zen lets anyone but you and his hairdresser touch his hair
- Then the baby tugs just a little too much and Zen decided that the no touch rule is completely valid as your sister tuts and untangles the tiny fist
- He still loves this kid though
- Your sisters been talking this whole time but he hasn’t heard a word so she snaps in front of his face to get his attention
- “do you want to see MC”
- “yes” he nearly shouts before speed walking to your room
Saeran
During the pregnancy
- After the chaos of mint eye and looking for his brother he is happy to settle down
- He cooks for you, and of course you and he share so much ice-cream (midnight ice-cream runs because of craving happen almost weekly at first)
- He brushes your hair and tries to wait on you hand and foot until you put that foot down
- You have to give him a serious talk about making his own decisions and choosing things for himself because you don’t want to see him fall back into his mint eye habits
- He nods and starts to give you a little space but he still brushes your hair. Saying he genuinely enjoys it
- You encourage him in his recovery and sit outside while he gardens
- When he gets angry you do what you can to calm him down. People are worried he might hurt you but you have faith in him. (and the self-defense training Jaehee gave you)
- Your sister is admittedly nervous but your unwavering faith bolsters her trust in saeran as well as his trust in himself
- He’ll be the first to admit though he does NOT like the look of discomfort on your face when the baby kicks but he’s learning to keep himself calm and to walk away from things that upset him rather than try to fight them head on
Meeting the baby in the waiting room
- EVERYONE can feel how tense he is
- He’s sitting straight backed with his fists clenched on his knees
- Your sister is honestly a little afraid to take her newborn baby out their despite how sweet he seemed sometimes. It’s the times he didn’t seem sweet that she worried about. Even if you swore up and down he was more than safe
- His head shot up at the sound of the door and he rushed to your sister the second he saw her
- “where’s MC? is she safe? I need to see her NOW?” that last word came out harsher than he meant and Jumin put his hand on Saeran’s shoulder
- “I’m sure MC is fine. Isn’t that right?” he said calmly
- Your sister nodded a little before speaking “MC is fine the nurses are helping her clean up you’ll be allowed back as soon as she’s done I just thought you might want to see the baby since you helped MC through this”
- Saeran swallowed hard, he wasn’t sure he wanted to see the baby. Wasn’t sure if he should see the baby
- But when he locked eyes with the small infant he swore he could see so much of you in its face (or was it your sister? Did it matter? Not to him)
- It was the first time he had actually thought of starting a family with you. later when he is farther into his recovery, when his relationship with his brother is better, when you and he are married maybe.
- When a nurse called for your visitors and he lunged forward baby forgotten you where most important
My RFA + Saeran NSFW head cannons
this is probably the only NSFW stuff I’ll write. its difficult since I’m not really into actual NSFW. ya know. mostly i just want my baby boys happy healthy and loved. I’m more about chaste kisses and platonic cuddles than anything else. still every once in a blue moon I have my moments so here’s my thoughts on the RFA + saeran
oh also master list
and I’m putting it under the cut for obvious reasons
Jumin
- Light BDSM no intentional pain
- Mostly bondage and calling you his favorite pet
- Treats you like his most prized possession
- He is all about giving you everything you want
- Is quiet and methodical at first but slowly loses himself
- Absolutely gets off on your noise
- Probably enjoys watching you just as much as he enjoys participating
- Doesn’t intentionally mark you but the occasional love bite happens if he’s not careful
- Takes his time, you get there several times before he even starts his part of the journey
- He’s committing you to memory every single time
Yoosung
- Loves when you ride him
- Will absolutely mark every part of you that you let him
- quick recovery, and multiple rounds
- literally incapable of coherent speech
- loves your dirty talk though
- bites his lip a lot sometimes you worry he’ll bite too hard
- he has a praise kink 100% all day everyday
- shy about saying it but thinks the idea of getting caught is exciting
- really wants to do what you tell him ;)
- so much cuddling afterwards also more praise so much praise
Saeyoung
- he does not take off his cross necklace
- likes when you sound frustrated
- tends to stop right before you get their just to tease you
- plays dumb until you say EXACTLY what you want him to do
- probably still doesn’t do it right away because you didn’t ask nicely enough
- it’s all a big game and he enjoys having the upper hand
- wants you to say his real name. a lot.
- He really likes when you bite his shoulder (it means he’s doing a very good job)
- Probably wears the bite mark as a badge of honor (much to your horror)
- after care is a huge deal for both of you expect lots of gentle reassuring kisses
Zen
- stamina for days
- he is into body worship you cannot stop him when he gets into it
- zero regard for time and place, expect closets bathrooms dressing rooms all of it
- he’s not into marking (his looks are part of his job he can’t risk that no matter how much he really wants to wear your love bites)
- probably lifts you up against walls a lot
- likes to hear your breathy voice whispering in his ear
- is really proud of how disheveled you look afterward
- kisses literally everywhere
- he knows all your weak spots and will exploit that knowledge to tease you in public
Jeahee
- follows your lead at first since it takes her a while to open up
- bites her lip and tries to keep quiet if you top
- hushes you and giggles at your sounds if she’s top
- wants to give as good as she gets
- likes when you kiss her neck
- is VERY private, mention bedroom stuff in front of anyone and you’re in the dog house
- likes when you go down on her best (probably holds your head in just the right place)
- she does actually enjoy taking the lead once she’s warmed up
- low sex drive if not encouraged (like maybe once a week if you don’t initiate it but don’t worry once you initiate she is down to clown)
- bedroom only (except once in the office but she couldn’t relax enough to get there so yeah bedroom only)
Saeran
- he is dominate. Always. (submission is NOT fun for him)
- Makes you promise he’s the only one you’ll ever be with
- Bruises from his fingers on your thighs and bite marks on your shoulder
- A Safe word is a MUST so is a safe signal for both of you in case you need a break or he needs to calm himself down
- Light choking (nothing extreme and you talked about it before hand hence the safe signal)
- AFTER CARE AFTER CARE AFTER CARE
- He knows he’s rough and you have to pull him out of guilt tripping himself afterwards
- “I would have used the safe word if I didn’t like it”
- Lots of reassurance and cuddling as both of you come back to yourselves
- Even after recovery you can see a bit of shift between “unknown saeran” and “ray saeran” in this area