Look Okay I Was Sad And I Cant Write Angst But Damn You Can And You Nailed It You Ripped My Heart Out

look okay i was sad and i can’t write angst but damn you can and you nailed it you ripped my heart out and river dance stomped it to death. I loved every minute. i regret nothing

Reset?

Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Relationship: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi x MC, (Implied other pairings)

Characters: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi, Yoosung Kim, Zen/Hyun Ryu, Jumin Han MC, Unknown/Saeran Choi, Jaehee Kang

Additional Tags: 707 reset hallucinations, Angst cause why not, what's going on? you tell me

Notes: Blame @joy1579 for this

Saeyoung didn't know when it started, but it persisted. The hallucinations. The nightmares. Waking up without MC in his arms then suddenly feeling her hair tickle his neck.

It happened without warning. Watching MC kiss Jumin at the Christmas party only to blink, finding his hand casually held in her own. Blinking again for his ears to pick up her chatter about decorations instead of whispered sweet nothings and giggles under the mistletoe.

MC playing with Zen's hair in the shade of a tree. Matching sets of adoring eyes meeting then darting away at Yoosung's graduation. All this to wake up or blink or yawn and see her beside him, sense her hand idly tracing the lines of his palm, and feel shame in his veins. Shame for the jealousy her felt towards his closest friends. Shame for MC's constant reassurances that he is more than enough and not believing it himself. Shame for being unable to stop what was happening to him.

The next "reset" happened at a coffee shop where he swore Jaehee was the cashier.

Another reset, playfully dodging Zen's kisses as she booked his next audition.

Reset. An extravagant wedding. Jumin standing tall at the alter, sweeping MC into a kiss.

Reset. MC broadcasting live with his brother. Their hands clasped firmly in defiance.

MC and V... STOP!

Reset.

Reset.

Tripping down the stairs of Rika's apartment building. Chasing her. Watching her leave. Knowing this wasn't the first time.

Reset.

She pulled out her phone and opened the door, "I'll be back. I just need to save him!"

Reset.

"It's the last time. She needs my help, if not for herself then for Yoosung."

RESET.

RESET.

"Saeyoung! Are you okay?"

She hovered over him, holding onto his shoulders tightly.

Saeyoung reached up and pushed back her bangs. Tiredly searching for answers in her hazel eyes, "Please don't leave me again."

Her gaze softened, "I never left."

Saeyoung blinks. The warmth of her hand is gone. She's gone.

Reset.

so my depression has been acting up lately >.> like the asshat it is meaning writing has become ... difficult at best and impossible at worst

so here i am formally requesting that everyone consider a heartbreaking alternate AU to the reset theroy where saeyoung simply experiences hallucinations and delusions that lead him to believe he has watched the love of his life fall for and marry all the other RFA members and reset multiple times

even on medicine when he no longer believes she’s actively lived out separate lives he can get insecure about the possibility of losing her to a reset

yah

just a thought take it use it write it draw it do whatever y’all want with it just idk tag me so i can read it when i start feeling like myself again

RFA + Saeran and MC on a snow day

so where i live it does not snow often. it gets cold but we don’t usually get enough moisture to get snow.  so as much as i would love do do more snow activities tis but a futile dream. maybe when i move. i don’t know. point is i don’t know much about snow day activities so a lot of activities are repeated but hopefully each character is different enough for everyone to enjoy.

oh also so I changed my ask box so y’all know i do take requests for mysme writing. my only current rules are that I don’t write for V and NSFW stuff will be kept vauge. oh but i do LOVE writing for jumin so def hit me up if you got anything for him.

and as always feel free to check out my master list!

Jumin

He spends it learning about what other people do on snow days so it’s a little bit of everything

-        You know this man has a real fireplace because that is classy and cozy (at least I think so)

-        Imagine sitting on the floor across from Jumin with Elizabeth between you two

-        Your take turns teasing her with toys as she jumps and plays towards one of you then the other

-        When you do go out you’re in super warm clothes and even then he’ll have his arms around you to keep you close and warm next to him

-        He is not prepared when you pull away from him to run through the snow like a child but he chuckles watching you practically frolic

-        Until he see’s you tumble into a pile of snow and rushes to help you out

-        But when he gets there your giggling like a mad woman and you pull him down to kiss him in the snow

-        “have some fun with me MR. Han”

-        “if you insist MRS. Han”

-        You show him all the commoner Snow day activities

-        Snow angels, snow men, snow ice cream, maple syrup snow candy

-        At the end of the day your curled against him in a big armchair by the fires he’s reading to you while you both warm up

Yoosung

His day is all about fun fair play with intermittent kisses and cuddles he’s just happy to be with you

-        This boy may not have a fireplace but just imagine curling up with him under a heated blanket

-        Also he loves snowball fights. He goes all out building himself a snow wall to hide behind and creating a war cry before popping up to pelt you with snowballs

-        You sneak around and tackle him into the snow peppering his whole face with kisses

-        Y’all try to build an igloo

-        Y’all fail to build an igloo

-        You build an entire family of snowmen to live in your collapsed igloo

-        You and he name each snow man and even try to make them a little snow meal

-        Then you start sneezing and he notices how red your nose and cheeks are from the cold

-        He rubs your hands in his and breaths on them to warm your finger

-        Eskimo kisses while sipping hot chocolate

-        This boy makes the absolute best hot chocolate complete with whip cream and red and green Christmas sprinkles

-        you put your cold hands on his face hot blushing face and laugh when he lurches backwards its less fun when he does the same

Saeyoung

he might take the snow fun a bit too far. But hey you both had fun so it’s cool right?

-        he didn’t know it was snowing until you dropped a half melted snowball on his head while he works

-        he makes a freaking snowball machine gun, his cat robot fights by his side

-        you are out numbered and out gunned but he refuses your surrender you are now a prisoner of snowball war

-        he DID make an igloo (for snowball war prisoners) and you and him bring blankets and watch movies on his laptop while all cuddled up together

-        igloo make outs, until Saeran comes to check on you two

-        not only does he stumble into some ridiculous booby trap Saeyoung made

-        but when he finally makes it through you guys are making out and he tells you two to get a room

-        “we have a room! I built it myself!”

-        Saeran calls Saeyoung an idiot but does tell you to come inside before you catch a cold

-        You make you and Saeran tea, Saeyoung tries hot DR. Pepper (spoiler alert it’s not good)

-        You make soup for everyone and you all have a movie night

Zen

Romance. He will romance the pants off you. quite literally. It wasn’t his plan but he’s not complaining.

-        Boy legit does not get cold so he lends you his coat

-        But it’s so big on you, like floppy sleeves and knee length big. He thinks it’s so cute.

-        And then your nose and cheeks all flushed from the cold.

-        He’s dead, you killed him. Zen doesn’t live in that body anymore, now only the beast remains.

-        He’s afraid you’ll catch a cold so he keeps you inside the rest of the time

-        you and he absolutely go sledding (he’s not gonna miss a chance to hold you that tight against him)

-        it’s hard to control himself when y’all tumble over each other at the bottom of the hill and he ends up laughing on top of you

-        you nose scrunched with your laughter at the crash and pillowey snow around you

-        he sings you “walking in a winter wonderland” as you two get take out from a nearby restaurant

-        hot showers (interpret that HOWEVER you want wink wonk) to help you both warm up

Jaehee

its cozy and warm and peaceful. You spend most of it in shelter watching the snow fall from inside.

-        snow days are actually really good for y’alls business because everyone wants hot drinks when its cold out

-        she bundles the heck up. Coat gloves scarf hat boots earmuffs hat all of it

-        she looks so cute all bundled up you just have to kiss her nose

-        after the café crowd dies down you make her a drink and you two sit letting the drinks warm your hands as you watch the snow outside fall

-        she gasps. You know what would be perfect for cold weather like this? molten lava cake!

-        You gasp. You know what would go perfectly with that? fresh snow ice cream

-        You both get to work and make what is hands down the best dessert you’ve ever shared

-        It won’t work in the café obviously but your both glad you got to enjoy it together

-        On your way home you hold her gloved hand and she kisses your cheek

-        You spend the night watching DVD’s of Zen’s past Christmas plays

Saeran

It’s all about balance on this day, balance Saeran’s two different sides and balancing him and his brothers sometimes oppositional personalities.

-        Hot tea with all his winter flowers (you know he’s planned his garden with flowers that bloom at all different times)

-        you and he try to catch snowflakes on your tongues and make snow angles

-        he probably gets irrationally angry when something knocks a tree branch and dumps snow on his head

-        you calm him down and promise you two can gang up on Saeyoung in a snowball fight

-        you two forgot he had a snowball machine gun and end up hiding behind a snow pile

-        you call a truce once Saeyoung runs out of ammo and drag Saeran inside so he doesn’t catch a cold

-        you make him chicken noodle soup and snuggle with him until he’s warm again

-        you hear Saeyoung come in and Saeran tells him that if Saeyoung dares touch him with anything cold he will personally throttle Saeyoung with an icicle

-        you hush Saeran gently because that’s not nice besides Saeyoung knows better you say sending a harsh look at a Saeyoung who has a large snowball melting in his hands

-        Saeyoung decides that he probably shouldn’t go against you and Saeran together (clever boy)

such a good comic i love cal in protective dad mode!!

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RFA boys + saeran helping surrogate MC through pregnancy and meeting her baby

so this is the other interpretation of that request i got. i hope its okay! i wrote this one out side which was really nice for a change. please leave a comment if you enjoyed it

also master list if your into it

Jumin

During the pregnancy

-        Since he met you later in your surrogacy he only gets 2 months to help you through your pregnancy

-        But he does everything he can

-        You get one of those super fancy pregnancy body pillows

-        He declines the private nurse though reminding him that every woman ancestor he has gave birth even before private nurses were a thing

-        He picks apart the line saying that his great aunt never had children so not every

-        You cut him off with a gently kiss before saying “hush I’m pregnant and therefore right”

-        He would argue with you but you’re already walking away towards the kitchen where your latest snack craving was hidden away.

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        He was a tad upset that he couldn’t be with you in the delivery room

-        But he understood that your sister and her husband (the parents) took priority over him

-        At least he said he did but his grim look and constant foot tapping  said otherwise

-        “Jumin” your sister called “do you want to see your future nephew?” his heart jumped at that.

-        Your sister hadn’t been cold to him certainly but she had always referred to him as your boyfriend despite his proposal.

-        He had taken it to mean she did not approve of him but if this child was his future nephew then she must have accepted that you were his future wife

-        “yes I would” he said resolutely stepping forward to see the baby in her arms

-        He had you and your sisters eye’s (poor baby ain’t got no eyes JK) and red tinted hair from his father but what hit Jumin most was the simple peace of the child

-        He had expected fussiness and crying. He had asked around and many people warned him that newborns were fussy even on their best days

-        But like you this child had a gentle peace about him a calm and happy light in its bright young eye’s

-        “I’d like to see MC” he said abruptly and your sister chuckled stepping aside so he could visit you

-        He wrapped you in his arms and murmered low in your ear “you never cease to amaze me my love. Marry me? Not in several months not even in days. Tomorrow. The second your discharged.”

Yoosung

During the pregnancy

-        He is trying his absolute best. He knows nothing about pregnancy. So he asks his mom and after calming down her panic she agrees to help.

-        By showing up at his house to see and care for MC.

-        She insists on cleaning and worries over MC whenever MC tries to help

-        Yoosung helps dutifully but you can see a tinge of regret in his eyes when his mother nags him to stop playing lolol

-        She’s there for a week cooking and lecturing Yoosung on everything that a pregnant woman need help with (which according to her is EVERYTHING)

-        You ask her if she had a hard pregnancy by chance and she admits her pregnancy with Yoosung was very difficult (Yoosung had never known that and listens intently from his place cleaning in the kitchen

-        She had pushed herself to hard and ending up going into labor prematurely nearly loosing Yoosung in the process now your crying and Yoosung is rushing to your side his mom hugging you both

-        “you are strong MC anyone who can put up with my son must be but dont forget to take care of yourself, and you Yoosung you help her with this and make me proud” his mom semi scolds with a warm smile

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        Yoosung is sitting in the corner practically bouncing with anxiety

-        Zen has his hand on Yoosung’s shoulder and is looking at his watch every five minutes

-        He was missing a final for this but he had told his professor that his girlfriend was having a baby so the professor would let him retake it tomorrow

-        Technically it wasn’t a lie. It just wasn’t their baby.

-        Despite it not being their baby he was still so nervous he thought he might be sick. After hearing his mother’s story, he had researched EVERYTHING that could go wrong (there are a lot of things that could go wrong)

-        So when he heard your sister (who had become a familiar presence in his life) call him he nearly jumped out of his skin

-        He rushed over to where she stood holding a small bundle of blue blankets

-        “you’ll never guess what we named him?” she teased and her small smirked highlighted just how much you two looked alike “MC came up with it, and we thought it was perfect naming him after his uncle”

-        Yoosung looked at her confused and lost tilting his head to the side

-        “meet Yoosung our baby and maybe someday your official nephew”

-        Yoosung turned beet red at that you and he had only been dating for 3 months after all

-        And yet through all the nerves he couldn’t find it in himself to dislike the idea in fact he couldn’t stop the wide smile that grew on his face

-        “hi mini Yoosung. I’ll do my best to be someone you can look up too okay!”

Saeyoung

during pregnancy

-        Look there was A LOT going on during this moment in his life

-        Between the agency and mint eye he could barely think straight

-        And you were his rock grounding him through it all.

-        Vanderwood had never seen a woman 7 months pregnant pick a fight with a cult leader and show no hesitation when looking danger in the face before you

-        You were either incredibly brave or just plain stupid considering you were in love with Saeyoung probably a bit of both

-        He had to admit though your steadfast level headed nurturing was exactly what Saeyoung and his brother needed

-        At every wrong turn and new trouble, you were there cheering Saeyoung on and calming Saeran down (something that amazingly it seemed only you could do)

-        Saeyoung was determined to protect you and his brother and you believed in him whole heartedly

-        It was only after all the chaos was over and Saeyoung had brought you to his bunker that you finally sat down, sighed and called your sister to tell her you were home

-        Saeyoung sat next to you and as soon as you hang up you burst into tears and buried your face in his chest

-        He was surprised when you mentioned how worried for him you were

-        He pulled you back to look at you disbelievingly before kissing you hard

-        After all that nothing could come between you

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        He stood stock still eye’s darting between the doors to the delivery room and the hallway he led to the psychiatric ward where his brother was

-        He wanted to tell his brother that today was the day but everything had been so busy since arriving he didn’t have a chance and now his was stuck unsure of how long it would take.

-        Logically he was sure he had enough time since his brother never wanted to see him for very long. They were doing better of course but at most they could only spend 20 to 30 minutes together before Saeran would have an episode and Saeyoung would be ushered away.

-        Still he didn’t want to risk being absent when the baby was born and he could see you safe and sound again.

-        Your sister had barely stepped through the door before Saeyoung was burying her in questions

-        “is MC okay? What about the baby? Is it a boy or a girl? When can I see MC again?”

-        Your sister chuckled at that nodding down the bundle of blue blankets in her arms

-        “MC’s is okay their helping her clean up now. This is our little boy here and you can see MC as soon as you answer a question for us.” Her gentle voice reminded him so much of yours whenever you tried to soothe Saeran and he nodded urgently. He desperately wanted to see you.

-        “will you be the God father luciel?”

-        Ice ran through his veins as he froze. Godfather. He couldn’t, there was no way he could with everything he’s done everything he’s caught up in but hadn’t he thought the same about being with you, and about seeing his brother again too

-        He looked at the tiny infant, it slept soundly in its mothers arms and he tried to find a reason to dislike the small boy, any reason to say no to the question your sister had just asked. Slowly the baby opened his eyes and he marveled at how clear and innocent they were.

-        He’s tremulously nod’s and is suddenly caught up in a gentle hug from your sister and her quiet husband, before being ushered back to meet you.

Zen

During the pregnancy

-        Absolutely gives you anything and everything your craving

-        Completely quits smoking because what if it hurts the baby (still drinks beer though)

-        he lays his head on your belly and talks to the baby telling it how it has the best kindest strongest angel of a mother ever

-        surrogate mother you point out and he looks so confused because what’s the difference?

-        You explain that the baby isn’t yours in any way except for it growing in your womb. The egg was your sisters so the baby is hers not yours

-        He still looks a little confused but takes your word for it after all you would know best

-        You and he have A LOT of dinners with your sister and her husband

-        He’s still getting used to the whole family dynamic since he hasn’t had it in so long

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        He is pacing because he does not enjoy sitting still while anxious

-        he can’t calm down and he’s angry that they won’t let him in the delivery room with you

-        Yoosung touches his shoulder and he turns on him about to snap but stopping himself when he sees its Yoosung and not Jumin

-        Yoosung asks him if he wants some water and offers to walk with him to the hospital cafeteria

-        They are almost out the door when he hears your sister call for him

-        “zen would you like to see the baby?”

-        He sprints over to see the little boy and in that moment he vows to teach this child everything he knows

-        It may not be his son but he swears to support the kid to the ends of the earth and if the kid ever needs a place to go. Well that’s what uncles should be for.

-        The baby grabs at a stray lock of Zen’s hair and its one of the few times Zen lets anyone but you and his hairdresser touch his hair

-        Then the baby tugs just a little too much and Zen decided that the no touch rule is completely valid as your sister tuts and untangles the tiny fist

-        He still loves this kid though

-        Your sisters been talking this whole time but he hasn’t heard a word so she snaps in front of his face to get his attention

-        “do you want to see MC”

-        “yes” he nearly shouts before speed walking to your room

Saeran

During the pregnancy

-        After the chaos of mint eye and looking for his brother he is happy to settle down

-        He cooks for you, and of course you and he share so much ice-cream (midnight ice-cream runs because of craving happen almost weekly at first)

-        He brushes your hair and tries to wait on you hand and foot until you put that foot down

-        You have to give him a serious talk about making his own decisions and choosing things for himself because you don’t want to see him fall back into his mint eye habits

-        He nods and starts to give you a little space but he still brushes your hair. Saying he genuinely enjoys it

-        You encourage him in his recovery and sit outside while he gardens

-        When he gets angry you do what you can to calm him down. People are worried he might hurt you but you have faith in him. (and the self-defense training Jaehee gave you)

-        Your sister is admittedly nervous but your unwavering faith bolsters her trust in saeran as well as his trust in himself

-        He’ll be the first to admit though he does NOT like the look of discomfort on your face when the baby kicks but he’s learning to keep himself calm and to walk away from things that upset him rather than try to fight them head on

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        EVERYONE can feel how tense he is

-        He’s sitting straight backed with his fists clenched on his knees

-        Your sister is honestly a little afraid to take her newborn baby out their despite how sweet he seemed sometimes. It’s the times he didn’t seem sweet that she worried about. Even if you swore up and down he was more than safe

-        His head shot up at the sound of the door and he rushed to your sister the second he saw her

-        “where’s MC? is she safe? I need to see her NOW?” that last word came out harsher than he meant and Jumin put his hand on Saeran’s shoulder

-        “I’m sure MC is fine. Isn’t that right?” he said calmly

-        Your sister nodded a little before speaking “MC is fine the nurses are helping her clean up you’ll be allowed back as soon as she’s done I just thought you might want to see the baby since you helped MC through this”

-        Saeran swallowed hard, he wasn’t sure he wanted to see the baby. Wasn’t sure if he should see the baby

-        But when he locked eyes with the small infant he swore he could see so much of you in its face (or was it your sister? Did it matter? Not to him)

-        It was the first time he had actually thought of starting a family with you. later when he is farther into his recovery, when his relationship with his brother is better, when you and he are married maybe.

-        When a nurse called for your visitors and he lunged forward baby forgotten you where most important