Look Okay I Was Sad And I Cant Write Angst But Damn You Can And You Nailed It You Ripped My Heart Out

look okay i was sad and i can’t write angst but damn you can and you nailed it you ripped my heart out and river dance stomped it to death. I loved every minute. i regret nothing

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Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Relationship: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi x MC, (Implied other pairings)

Characters: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi, Yoosung Kim, Zen/Hyun Ryu, Jumin Han MC, Unknown/Saeran Choi, Jaehee Kang

Additional Tags: 707 reset hallucinations, Angst cause why not, what's going on? you tell me

Notes: Blame @joy1579 for this

Saeyoung didn't know when it started, but it persisted. The hallucinations. The nightmares. Waking up without MC in his arms then suddenly feeling her hair tickle his neck.

It happened without warning. Watching MC kiss Jumin at the Christmas party only to blink, finding his hand casually held in her own. Blinking again for his ears to pick up her chatter about decorations instead of whispered sweet nothings and giggles under the mistletoe.

MC playing with Zen's hair in the shade of a tree. Matching sets of adoring eyes meeting then darting away at Yoosung's graduation. All this to wake up or blink or yawn and see her beside him, sense her hand idly tracing the lines of his palm, and feel shame in his veins. Shame for the jealousy her felt towards his closest friends. Shame for MC's constant reassurances that he is more than enough and not believing it himself. Shame for being unable to stop what was happening to him.

The next "reset" happened at a coffee shop where he swore Jaehee was the cashier.

Another reset, playfully dodging Zen's kisses as she booked his next audition.

Reset. An extravagant wedding. Jumin standing tall at the alter, sweeping MC into a kiss.

Reset. MC broadcasting live with his brother. Their hands clasped firmly in defiance.

MC and V... STOP!

Reset.

Reset.

Tripping down the stairs of Rika's apartment building. Chasing her. Watching her leave. Knowing this wasn't the first time.

Reset.

She pulled out her phone and opened the door, "I'll be back. I just need to save him!"

Reset.

"It's the last time. She needs my help, if not for herself then for Yoosung."

RESET.

RESET.

"Saeyoung! Are you okay?"

She hovered over him, holding onto his shoulders tightly.

Saeyoung reached up and pushed back her bangs. Tiredly searching for answers in her hazel eyes, "Please don't leave me again."

Her gaze softened, "I never left."

Saeyoung blinks. The warmth of her hand is gone. She's gone.

Reset.

such a good comic i love cal in protective dad mode!!

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RFA boys + saeran helping surrogate MC through pregnancy and meeting her baby

so this is the other interpretation of that request i got. i hope its okay! i wrote this one out side which was really nice for a change. please leave a comment if you enjoyed it

also master list if your into it

Jumin

During the pregnancy

-        Since he met you later in your surrogacy he only gets 2 months to help you through your pregnancy

-        But he does everything he can

-        You get one of those super fancy pregnancy body pillows

-        He declines the private nurse though reminding him that every woman ancestor he has gave birth even before private nurses were a thing

-        He picks apart the line saying that his great aunt never had children so not every

-        You cut him off with a gently kiss before saying “hush I’m pregnant and therefore right”

-        He would argue with you but you’re already walking away towards the kitchen where your latest snack craving was hidden away.

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        He was a tad upset that he couldn’t be with you in the delivery room

-        But he understood that your sister and her husband (the parents) took priority over him

-        At least he said he did but his grim look and constant foot tapping  said otherwise

-        “Jumin” your sister called “do you want to see your future nephew?” his heart jumped at that.

-        Your sister hadn’t been cold to him certainly but she had always referred to him as your boyfriend despite his proposal.

-        He had taken it to mean she did not approve of him but if this child was his future nephew then she must have accepted that you were his future wife

-        “yes I would” he said resolutely stepping forward to see the baby in her arms

-        He had you and your sisters eye’s (poor baby ain’t got no eyes JK) and red tinted hair from his father but what hit Jumin most was the simple peace of the child

-        He had expected fussiness and crying. He had asked around and many people warned him that newborns were fussy even on their best days

-        But like you this child had a gentle peace about him a calm and happy light in its bright young eye’s

-        “I’d like to see MC” he said abruptly and your sister chuckled stepping aside so he could visit you

-        He wrapped you in his arms and murmered low in your ear “you never cease to amaze me my love. Marry me? Not in several months not even in days. Tomorrow. The second your discharged.”

Yoosung

During the pregnancy

-        He is trying his absolute best. He knows nothing about pregnancy. So he asks his mom and after calming down her panic she agrees to help.

-        By showing up at his house to see and care for MC.

-        She insists on cleaning and worries over MC whenever MC tries to help

-        Yoosung helps dutifully but you can see a tinge of regret in his eyes when his mother nags him to stop playing lolol

-        She’s there for a week cooking and lecturing Yoosung on everything that a pregnant woman need help with (which according to her is EVERYTHING)

-        You ask her if she had a hard pregnancy by chance and she admits her pregnancy with Yoosung was very difficult (Yoosung had never known that and listens intently from his place cleaning in the kitchen

-        She had pushed herself to hard and ending up going into labor prematurely nearly loosing Yoosung in the process now your crying and Yoosung is rushing to your side his mom hugging you both

-        “you are strong MC anyone who can put up with my son must be but dont forget to take care of yourself, and you Yoosung you help her with this and make me proud” his mom semi scolds with a warm smile

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        Yoosung is sitting in the corner practically bouncing with anxiety

-        Zen has his hand on Yoosung’s shoulder and is looking at his watch every five minutes

-        He was missing a final for this but he had told his professor that his girlfriend was having a baby so the professor would let him retake it tomorrow

-        Technically it wasn’t a lie. It just wasn’t their baby.

-        Despite it not being their baby he was still so nervous he thought he might be sick. After hearing his mother’s story, he had researched EVERYTHING that could go wrong (there are a lot of things that could go wrong)

-        So when he heard your sister (who had become a familiar presence in his life) call him he nearly jumped out of his skin

-        He rushed over to where she stood holding a small bundle of blue blankets

-        “you’ll never guess what we named him?” she teased and her small smirked highlighted just how much you two looked alike “MC came up with it, and we thought it was perfect naming him after his uncle”

-        Yoosung looked at her confused and lost tilting his head to the side

-        “meet Yoosung our baby and maybe someday your official nephew”

-        Yoosung turned beet red at that you and he had only been dating for 3 months after all

-        And yet through all the nerves he couldn’t find it in himself to dislike the idea in fact he couldn’t stop the wide smile that grew on his face

-        “hi mini Yoosung. I’ll do my best to be someone you can look up too okay!”

Saeyoung

during pregnancy

-        Look there was A LOT going on during this moment in his life

-        Between the agency and mint eye he could barely think straight

-        And you were his rock grounding him through it all.

-        Vanderwood had never seen a woman 7 months pregnant pick a fight with a cult leader and show no hesitation when looking danger in the face before you

-        You were either incredibly brave or just plain stupid considering you were in love with Saeyoung probably a bit of both

-        He had to admit though your steadfast level headed nurturing was exactly what Saeyoung and his brother needed

-        At every wrong turn and new trouble, you were there cheering Saeyoung on and calming Saeran down (something that amazingly it seemed only you could do)

-        Saeyoung was determined to protect you and his brother and you believed in him whole heartedly

-        It was only after all the chaos was over and Saeyoung had brought you to his bunker that you finally sat down, sighed and called your sister to tell her you were home

-        Saeyoung sat next to you and as soon as you hang up you burst into tears and buried your face in his chest

-        He was surprised when you mentioned how worried for him you were

-        He pulled you back to look at you disbelievingly before kissing you hard

-        After all that nothing could come between you

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        He stood stock still eye’s darting between the doors to the delivery room and the hallway he led to the psychiatric ward where his brother was

-        He wanted to tell his brother that today was the day but everything had been so busy since arriving he didn’t have a chance and now his was stuck unsure of how long it would take.

-        Logically he was sure he had enough time since his brother never wanted to see him for very long. They were doing better of course but at most they could only spend 20 to 30 minutes together before Saeran would have an episode and Saeyoung would be ushered away.

-        Still he didn’t want to risk being absent when the baby was born and he could see you safe and sound again.

-        Your sister had barely stepped through the door before Saeyoung was burying her in questions

-        “is MC okay? What about the baby? Is it a boy or a girl? When can I see MC again?”

-        Your sister chuckled at that nodding down the bundle of blue blankets in her arms

-        “MC’s is okay their helping her clean up now. This is our little boy here and you can see MC as soon as you answer a question for us.” Her gentle voice reminded him so much of yours whenever you tried to soothe Saeran and he nodded urgently. He desperately wanted to see you.

-        “will you be the God father luciel?”

-        Ice ran through his veins as he froze. Godfather. He couldn’t, there was no way he could with everything he’s done everything he’s caught up in but hadn’t he thought the same about being with you, and about seeing his brother again too

-        He looked at the tiny infant, it slept soundly in its mothers arms and he tried to find a reason to dislike the small boy, any reason to say no to the question your sister had just asked. Slowly the baby opened his eyes and he marveled at how clear and innocent they were.

-        He’s tremulously nod’s and is suddenly caught up in a gentle hug from your sister and her quiet husband, before being ushered back to meet you.

Zen

During the pregnancy

-        Absolutely gives you anything and everything your craving

-        Completely quits smoking because what if it hurts the baby (still drinks beer though)

-        he lays his head on your belly and talks to the baby telling it how it has the best kindest strongest angel of a mother ever

-        surrogate mother you point out and he looks so confused because what’s the difference?

-        You explain that the baby isn’t yours in any way except for it growing in your womb. The egg was your sisters so the baby is hers not yours

-        He still looks a little confused but takes your word for it after all you would know best

-        You and he have A LOT of dinners with your sister and her husband

-        He’s still getting used to the whole family dynamic since he hasn’t had it in so long

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        He is pacing because he does not enjoy sitting still while anxious

-        he can’t calm down and he’s angry that they won’t let him in the delivery room with you

-        Yoosung touches his shoulder and he turns on him about to snap but stopping himself when he sees its Yoosung and not Jumin

-        Yoosung asks him if he wants some water and offers to walk with him to the hospital cafeteria

-        They are almost out the door when he hears your sister call for him

-        “zen would you like to see the baby?”

-        He sprints over to see the little boy and in that moment he vows to teach this child everything he knows

-        It may not be his son but he swears to support the kid to the ends of the earth and if the kid ever needs a place to go. Well that’s what uncles should be for.

-        The baby grabs at a stray lock of Zen’s hair and its one of the few times Zen lets anyone but you and his hairdresser touch his hair

-        Then the baby tugs just a little too much and Zen decided that the no touch rule is completely valid as your sister tuts and untangles the tiny fist

-        He still loves this kid though

-        Your sisters been talking this whole time but he hasn’t heard a word so she snaps in front of his face to get his attention

-        “do you want to see MC”

-        “yes” he nearly shouts before speed walking to your room

Saeran

During the pregnancy

-        After the chaos of mint eye and looking for his brother he is happy to settle down

-        He cooks for you, and of course you and he share so much ice-cream (midnight ice-cream runs because of craving happen almost weekly at first)

-        He brushes your hair and tries to wait on you hand and foot until you put that foot down

-        You have to give him a serious talk about making his own decisions and choosing things for himself because you don’t want to see him fall back into his mint eye habits

-        He nods and starts to give you a little space but he still brushes your hair. Saying he genuinely enjoys it

-        You encourage him in his recovery and sit outside while he gardens

-        When he gets angry you do what you can to calm him down. People are worried he might hurt you but you have faith in him. (and the self-defense training Jaehee gave you)

-        Your sister is admittedly nervous but your unwavering faith bolsters her trust in saeran as well as his trust in himself

-        He’ll be the first to admit though he does NOT like the look of discomfort on your face when the baby kicks but he’s learning to keep himself calm and to walk away from things that upset him rather than try to fight them head on

Meeting the baby in the waiting room

-        EVERYONE can feel how tense he is

-        He’s sitting straight backed with his fists clenched on his knees

-        Your sister is honestly a little afraid to take her newborn baby out their despite how sweet he seemed sometimes. It’s the times he didn’t seem sweet that she worried about. Even if you swore up and down he was more than safe

-        His head shot up at the sound of the door and he rushed to your sister the second he saw her

-        “where’s MC? is she safe? I need to see her NOW?” that last word came out harsher than he meant and Jumin put his hand on Saeran’s shoulder

-        “I’m sure MC is fine. Isn’t that right?” he said calmly

-        Your sister nodded a little before speaking “MC is fine the nurses are helping her clean up you’ll be allowed back as soon as she’s done I just thought you might want to see the baby since you helped MC through this”

-        Saeran swallowed hard, he wasn’t sure he wanted to see the baby. Wasn’t sure if he should see the baby

-        But when he locked eyes with the small infant he swore he could see so much of you in its face (or was it your sister? Did it matter? Not to him)

-        It was the first time he had actually thought of starting a family with you. later when he is farther into his recovery, when his relationship with his brother is better, when you and he are married maybe.

-        When a nurse called for your visitors and he lunged forward baby forgotten you where most important

Ahhh no one had messaged you yet?! Seriously?! I'm so surprised that you're new to MysMe, you already have all of the characters' personalities down so well in your writing! Keep up the good work!

I hope your the same person that asked me to add Saeran and V to the Depressed MC and MC that leaves when angry

I added Saeran to both but umm I’ll be honest I’m 8 days into V’s route and i don’t think i can write for V. I have a pretty long history of being a codependent enabler and V hits a bit close to him so it’s really hard for me to write that without going back to some really unpleasant hurts. 

sorry. i really wanted to write both for you but even just playing his route is really difficult for me because i see so much of my past in his actions.

um anyway i did add saeran so i hope you enjoy those at least.

RFA + Saeran react to MC with depression

RFA + Saeran react to MC that leaves when angry

Jumin x MC and the fate of C&R’s cat projects

this is the first thing I’ve written in literal days and its scattered and short and honestly I’m not to happy with it. it feels less then great. actually it feel a peg below adequate if we’re being honest but I’m forcing myself to write because when i got out of the pavilion they said to force yourself to do something that made you happy before because it can help. so ya know, I’m trying because i want to believe it will get better.

okay without further ado Master List

MC takes over all Jumin’s cat projects

o   She gets some help from Jaehee at first to learn more about organization, scheduling and other job necessities

o   Soon MC is on roll not only finding ways to make the cat projects profitable

o   But also finding ways to connect them to actual charitable organizations so what isn’t profitable is written off for tax purposes

o   Jumin has never been happier he can see his wife at work discuss cat projects and grow C&R

o   The chairman is also impressed and Jaehee doesn’t have to worry about Jumin’s crazy cat projects now

o   Zen is Not modeling for the cat projects themselves but MC and Jumin plan to venture into allergy medicine research soon (MC convinced him talking about all the cats that don’t have owners because their perfect person is allergic)

Jumin and MC foster kittens

o   The devote 3 interconnected rooms to the kittens and their mothers

o   Them and their children help socialize the kittens to prepare them for adoption

o   On stressful days Jumin goes into the kitten’s rooms and lays down on the floor the kittens love him and crawl all over him.

o   He likes to watch MC bottle feed the especially small ones that the mothers tend to give up on

o   The first few adoptions are REALLY hard on Jumin but MC thinks it’s probably good for him to learn how to open up and let go like this

o   Elizabeth is still his number one kitty and she even takes to helping the newer cat moms wrangle the kittens in and groom them

o   The install a special cat door to the foster area that only lets Elizabeth through that way she can come and go as she pleases

Jumin and MC create cat café and adoption centers

o   The café portion and the cat portion are technically separate but café patrons can watch the cats play romp and explore through the glass and a series of tunnels, shelves and walkways that connect several enclosed play areas around the fairly large café

o   MC helps create recipes for the café that all look like cats or kittens. She also designs cat healthy cat treats shaped like fish or mice for customers to feed to the cats

o   Jumin connects them to shelters and charity groups all over the nation to get shelter cats that may have otherwise been put down into the cafes

o   The café cats get a new lease on life, veterinary care, treats, meals, toys and attention

o   Many are adopted and the ones that aren’t become welcome lifelong café employees

o   Jumin and MC spend most dates in the café

o   When everything has run smoothly for a while MC starts to organize cat handling classes for children (and seven) so that people understand how to care for bond with and avoid hurting cats.

MC absolutely wears cat ears to work

o   It started small cat paw earrings only but after a week of seeing her desk name plate read “head of feline enterprises” she got bolder

o   Cat paw earrings and a cat charm bracelet

o   The next week she added a cat yin and yang necklace

o   Then she switched it all out for cat ear headbands that matched your hair

o   It looked like you legitimately had cat ears and you were thrilled

o   Until you showed Jumin and his face tinted red and he called Jaehee to tell her neither of you would be in today. (hard wink)

o   The ears became a daily thing after that if for no other reason than that you really enjoyed how hard you got to see Jumin work to stay professional in all your meetings

FEELINGS!!!

fraternal twins one girl named Ji-su roughly meaning beautiful wisdom (at least from my short research) and a boy named and Jun-seo meaning open talent

Jumin named Ji-su to acknowledge how he believed she would grow and give her a blessing that wisdom bloom in her life

while MC names Jun-seo to remind him the importance of opening up to people and give him a blessing that he find his talent and chase his passion

they grow up as a close knit family thanks to Jumins familial loyalty and MC’s emotional intelligence. when they are young Jumin insists they learn an art of some kind but it’s MC that helps them choose which one they actually want to learn. she encourages them to do things they actively enjoy and in the end Ji-su ends up learning fencing and Jun-seo takes painting classes with V.

once in middle school Ji-su and Jun-seo are separated into different classes for the first time and NO ONE is happy about it. Ji-su makes it a point to speak with the teacher everyday about changing classes. she is polite but firm. (she uses the business tone she learned from Jumin) appealing to the teachers logic at first but getting slowly frustrated as nothing changes. she cry’s when MC picks them up on Friday after a week of being in different classes. this is when Jun-seo steps up. he had let his sister try her way now it was his turn. the next Monday he struts into Ji-su’s class as if it were his own and sits in the desk next to hers. when the child who is supposed to sit there shows up he gives them a cold side eye he had once seen his mother give a man who had tugged to harshly on his dogs leash before saying, in his best imitation of his moms firm and no nonsense tone. “your new seat is desk A6 in classroom 3B” the child looks confused but wanders of in search of what was supposedly his new seat

the teachers are not amused and MC is called when Jun-seo refuses to move. MC kneels next to both her children and speaks with them gently for a while before standing and taking both of their hands.she takes them both out of school that day and get them ice cream while listening to their anxiety about being separated. that night they all have a family dinner and she had the children tell their father what had happened that day and how they planned to fix it.

“daddy, me and Ji-su are going to write a letter to the principal and all the teacher’s in our grade.” Jun-seo said

“we’ll ask one last time to be put in the same classroom in the letter and if they say no. we’ll accept it but we want to try one last time!” Ji-su chirped

Jumin smiled and nodded but that night he spoke worridly with MC.

“should i speak with the school? if they wish to be together I’m sure i can arrange that”

“actually i think some time apart would be good for them. not to mention they really must learn to do things themselves as well as accept when they don’t get what they want. I think we should let this work itself out. don’t you?”

I HAVE FEELINGS ABOUT THIS OKAY!

Imagine Jumin Han

If you and Jumin had a child, what would you name him/her and why? :) 

Reblog and answer :) Go nuts! xx