The Universe Keeps Testing Me And I Keep Telling It To Fuck Off.

the universe keeps testing me and i keep telling it to fuck off.

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What I’m learning, is that I have to trust my intuition and let it guide me, whether or not people agree with me. Other people may have different relationship rules, it doesn’t mean mine are any less than or wrong.

What I’m learning, is that healing and building my sense of self worth isn’t an overnight thing. My mind can think the logic through, but my body still remembers the shame and anxiety that comes with being told (however indirectly) not to trust yourself.

What I’m learning, is that when I feel threatened or scared, I’m not able to rationalize the situation. I’m not able to see the bigger picture. I’m protecting myself and that’s okay. It’s also okay to voice that and take time to process, rather than act or speak impulsively.

What I’m learning, is that I’m stronger and more of a good person than I ever believed I was.

What I’m learning, is to not people please to the point that it becomes detrimental to my self-worth. And why should I? I spent my whole life doing that and look where it got me. The bottom of a bottle, the end of a pipe.

What I’m learning, is that I don’t always get it right the first time and that’s okay.

What I’m learning, is that people are not always deserving of kindness. But I choose to give it anyway because how I treat others is a reflection of me. I am a kind, compassionate person.

What I’m learning, is how to be authentically me and not settle for less than what I want or deserve.

Each day, a little better and brighter.

maybe you’re not up to having a good day, so just have a day.

stay alive, wake up, breathe. eat and drink and rest.

just exist.

have a day.

to myself -

i move forward with grace and compassion.

i trust in my intuition and integrity to guide me.

i treat others with the same respect and honesty i deserve.

i am humble enough to strive for peace, not perfection.

this is where i am and i honor myself in this season of my life.

i make space for my needs.

i validate my thoughts, emotions, and actions.

i nourish and protect my energy.

i forgive myself and gain insight from each new experience.

i let the past go, i embrace the present, i welcome all that is to come.

I often forget.

Don't forget to be proud of yourself for the little things, too.