Like Why Eat When You Can Slay??

Like why eat when you can slay?? 🤨

May or may not be dying 😀

Made some kimchi jjigae for dinner. Now my neck is stiff, my head hurts, My face feels hot but I also have chills, I can't get up because it feels like my head will explode. Don't know if I poisoned myself because I can't cook or is this some side effect from me restricting. Felt like I was going to pass out at work today but I don't know why either.

Kimchi jjigae 295 cals

half cup of rice 60 cals

Total: 375 cals

The possibly poisoned kimchi jjigae ☺️

Some meals that are easy to cook and healthy ღ

|°|Mealspø|°|

Maybe I am just a dumb ass bitch.

Like why am I doing this to myself. If I have the self controle to eat 500 cals a day why can't I just do this healthily.

Is it because I want fast results, because I don't want to exersize. I'm such a loser if that's the case...

But I love the controle, I love that I'm taking back my power. How my stomach literally hurts if I over eat.

... but does that make me an attention speaker, fuck it I am. I want people to worry about me. Wtf does that make me then? A narrsasitic bitch?

But I'm so scared of being who I was, shoving food mindlessly down my throat. Being the ugly fat friend who always asked people if they were going to finish their food.... wow that was a visceral memory.

Maybe I will just starve till I die. Fuck it

I went from wanting to be with him to wanting to be him in the span of a few days...