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Goals

Sw: 280

Gw: 260

Gw: 210

Gw: 200

Gw: 170

Gw: 150

Gw: 130

Gw: 120

Gw: 110

Ugw: 107

Wish me fuxking luck since I'm starting at such a high starting weight. Mutuals and buddy's much appreciated.

I can't even walk past a mirror without body checking now adays :/

Babes ima let you in on something 😌 delicious, fresh, diffrent. Get some diet lipton green tea

Frick.

I can't wait to have pretty fingers 🥲

I can't wait...

I can't wait to lose the weight. I'm going to do it and no binge or lack of motivation can stop me.

I can't wait for people to be shocked by my weightloss, for them to smile in my face after looking down on me.

I can't wait to be wanted.

I can't wait for my body to reflect who I am inside.

I can't wait for people to treat me like I'm precious, give me their jacket when I'm cold, for people to back hug me because I'm cute and small.

I can't wait to receive the intimacy and touches that I was deprived of.

I can't wait for the days I feel happy to no longer be interrupted by feelings of self hate when I flip over and my rolls shift.

I can't wait for my family to get off my back and no longer have something to hold over me.

I can't wait to go shopping with my friends and to actually be able to buy something.

I can't wait for my chance at love...

For my girlies who binge, don't record calories, then feel bad. Make a custom food with the estimated cals. I know I ate like 2000+ or so cals throughout that whole day. I'm fasting today 🥲

Guys what am I supposed to do.

The fear of loose skin is terrifying. I can't live with loose skin that ruins everything I'm dreaming of. What do I do, there telling me to loose weight slowly but I can't even properly eat 1000 calories anymore, it's scary I didn't think I was scared of them but I am. People mentioned fasting for more than 3 days but I've seen other people's stories, they don't care about the loose skin but I do. I can't afford a surgery, what do I do, what do I do.

Girl i am fighting for my life over here, trying to prevent a binge with every ounce of my being. Preparing to fast, exersizing, crying because my skin is getting looser and making my body look worse 😩 we are not thriving.

I can't wait till I get to a weight where I can die in peace.

I went from wanting to be with him to wanting to be him in the span of a few days...

i literally just created this acc for my ed diary …

just a silly pic I made last night

I can't keep being a slave to my period, today I will fast and tomorrow I will eat in a 900 kcal limit

ngl I'm scared of fasting, I haven't fast in a long time (that's probably why I'm so fucking fat) but I need discipline, luckily today I woke up nauseous 🙏

if you have any tips on fasting pls let me know

the nikocado avocado situation was really a wake up call

106 kcal matcha latte to help with the fasting 💚

breaking my 22 h fast with pumpkin soup and unleavened bread (315 cal) 🧡

9 things that I've learned in the past few years thanks to having ana, mia and binge ed

1. the only way to actually see progress is to be consistent.

the only time I actually saw results was because I kept it straight for 3 months (but then I binged all the weight back, be careful)

2. don't restrict too much or you'll gain all your weight back (TRUST ME).

instead of eating less than 500 cal a day, calculate you average calorie intake online (for me it was around 1500 because I was eating out of emotions) and subtract not more than 300/400 cal. this will also help with the super hunger moments.

**this DOESN'T mean that now you have to take more calories away from your usual intake if you're already restricting, remember that your brain needs at least 500 cals to work, you can also fuck your metabolism up if you eat too less.

3. don't obsess with fasting.

it will simply fuck you up.

you can still do it sometimes, fasting is actually a healthy way to detoxify your body, just don't do it too often (one or two day a month is enough)

4. just don't think about it.

don't obsess, just try to stay on track, try to do this in the most healthy and responsible way possible, everything will be okay.

5. AVOID ZERO CAL DRINKS!!!!!!!!

I know this is shocking, especially because they help to fill up the hunger, but they also cause lots and lots of inflammation, that is exactly what is keeping you bloated and puffy.

If you don't want to avoid it, just try to drink them as little as possible.

6. throwing up on purpose shouldn't even be on your mind.

vomiting causes dehydration, which causes puffiness, bloating, water retention and plenty of other things that you don't want. it also ruin your teeth, your throat, your stomach, your breath will stink.

don't. do. mia.

7. the key to binges is water.

while you're in the middle of a binge remember to keep drinking water, it will fill you up faster and it will help you with your digestion.

8. unresolved freud oral phase? I got you

(if you don't know what the oral phase is look it up, lots of people with binge ed or food addiction have it)

you may find helpful: chewing gum, toothpick, lollipops, brushing your teeth, drinking water, biting something (a pillow for ex).

there is also smoking cigarettes or vaping, and to be honest it helps a lot, especially when you feel the urge to binge or emotional hunger in general, but you have to be careful to not get addicted (even if the 90% of us edblr people already are). just be careful.

9. if you're sick you have to eat.

you can't get better if you're not getting the right nutrients.

that's it.

most teenagers start off with anorexia

then they decide to see if orthorexia has any kick

it does

GUYS OMG I THOUGHT I GAINED MORE WEIGHT BUT I WENT FROM 71.9 TO 69.1 KG AAAAAA I'M SO HAPPY TO BE IN THE 60S AGAIN 😭😭😭