Most Of The Time I Feel Like A Spy, A Double Agent Or Something Similar When Interacting With Some People

Most of the time I feel like a spy, a double agent or something similar when interacting with some people here on tumblr, and it's kinda strange because I feel like I'm doing something bad but like, they don't know nor mind so... I just kinda vibing there

This type of things are so funny to me ngl

Guess who had the idea of three new sideblogs...

ME

I'm gonna decide the aesthetic, photos and name and gonna update y'all when they're ready

(Plus if you want to see a sideblog for systems or CDD related of something you don't find you can request us to make it, we will gladly do it :3)

I was so happy with my spiderman hyperfixation when this fucker (a trauma holder and prosecutor) came to me and told me this hyperfixation has a "dark context"

I didn't know why I became so fixated on spiderman out of nowhere, like yeah I like the superhero but I didn't watch anything of spiderman to get fixated that hard

...

It's based on fucking trauma. The brain relates a very fucked up trauma that affects us really hard and I can't deal with with spiderman so now I'm fixated as a way of trying to cope with that trauma and process it

FUCKING DAMN IT

Spoiler

Problem sources

Systive

Brain sources

Guess who had the idea of three new sideblogs...

ME

I'm gonna decide the aesthetic, photos and name and gonna update y'all when they're ready

(Plus if you want to see a sideblog for systems or CDD related of something you don't find you can request us to make it, we will gladly do it :3)

It was a real roller coaster, it was a mix of a bunch of this things and similar things... It was wild because I tend to forget about it and till I accept it well I remember all those past semi-discoveries (I call them like that because I was aware of the disorder but not the system... Does that make sense??)

This is regardless of if you are self diagnosed or professionally diagnosed.

Ask game! 💚🎞️📺🎙️

The ask game here

💚 - Do you have a high or low split tolerance?

Low one, WE FUCKING SPLIT A LOT FOR STUPID REASONS I HATE IT, STOP BRAIN

🎞️ - Do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

We use both, we also use terms that we coined for ourselves like persmo as an alternative for alter and doemo as an alternative for inner world/headspace, we like more the ones we made ourselves

I think the problem is the medical roles/terms feel too formal and bad for us, and the community ones we feel too disconnected and uncomfy using them because we're not that part of the community and we don't like it that much so... It's we use both because we're lazy and explaining things

The 📺 I already answer it in the previous answer :D

🎙️ - Does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

It kinda does, like 50/50, most of us enjoy almost all the music types so we can listen to almost everything, our favorite songs and artist are different, but between frequent fronters we have a similar, but no the same, music taste

But we do have different music tastes and preferences lol