It Was A Real Roller Coaster, It Was A Mix Of A Bunch Of This Things And Similar Things... It Was Wild

It was a real roller coaster, it was a mix of a bunch of this things and similar things... It was wild because I tend to forget about it and till I accept it well I remember all those past semi-discoveries (I call them like that because I was aware of the disorder but not the system... Does that make sense??)

This is regardless of if you are self diagnosed or professionally diagnosed.

Ask game! 💚🎞️📺🎙️

The ask game here

💚 - Do you have a high or low split tolerance?

Low one, WE FUCKING SPLIT A LOT FOR STUPID REASONS I HATE IT, STOP BRAIN

🎞️ - Do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

We use both, we also use terms that we coined for ourselves like persmo as an alternative for alter and doemo as an alternative for inner world/headspace, we like more the ones we made ourselves

I think the problem is the medical roles/terms feel too formal and bad for us, and the community ones we feel too disconnected and uncomfy using them because we're not that part of the community and we don't like it that much so... It's we use both because we're lazy and explaining things

The 📺 I already answer it in the previous answer :D

🎙️ - Does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

It kinda does, like 50/50, most of us enjoy almost all the music types so we can listen to almost everything, our favorite songs and artist are different, but between frequent fronters we have a similar, but no the same, music taste

But we do have different music tastes and preferences lol

Most of the time I feel like a spy, a double agent or something similar when interacting with some people here on tumblr, and it's kinda strange because I feel like I'm doing something bad but like, they don't know nor mind so... I just kinda vibing there

This type of things are so funny to me ngl

🌎!!!

Ask game here

Tho I already answered this one I have not problem putting it alone with a copypaste

🌎-Do any alters in your system speak in a different language?

They do! We're a bilingual system whose also learning other languages, specifically german and esperanto, but only like two are semi good in that ones

Outside those we two alters who speak one language that the body don't speak, so we kinda hear it very blurry and strange, the language is the one we're creating like a personal project so that also explain why we can't understand them very well

New terms

Have you ever had this feeling of being dysphoric because you're an alter? Or because you have a CDD? A similar feeling to that? Do you use terms like alter/front dysphoria because you don't have a better way of calling it?

Well we made terms that are similar to dysphoria and dysmorphia to describe the unique and exclusive experiences some CDDs can have regarding this topics/feelings!

Is a big list of terms, all of them in some kind of way describes this feeling but have their unique difference, but you can use any of this for a general experience even if it's outside some of this specifications stated in the meaning

THIS TERMS ARE EXCLUSIVE TO CDD, NO ENDOS CAN USE IT PLEASE, THIS IS TO DESCRIBE EXPERIENCES OF A DISORDER

Behold the long post explaining each of the terms

Dysoma

General meaning: Describe the feeling of the body being bad (in meaning isn't how you want it to be) or hard to have (in the meaning of being hard to be in that body because isn't yours)

In depth meaning: This terms is to describe the feeling of the body being wrong, the body not being "good enough" just because isn't yours, it is hard to see and live with the body because it feels off, it doesn't feel yours, it's bad to your eyes and can give you discomfort because is not your body, the general negative and maladaptive feeling surrounding your body and not being able to feel it yours because is different from your body

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word soma (body)

Dysdokein

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a hard/bad time because of pretending to be and appearing as someone you're not, this can be in many things not only with the body appearance

In depth meaning: This term is to describe that feeling of uncomfort of having to pretend you're someone else because you're in someone else body and life, people will see you as the person you're not but you have to pretend to be and it's something distressing, this feelings isn't completely about the body feeling off because isn't yours but rather you feeling off, bad and hard to keep up an external life and body so you feel a stranger because of it

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word dokein (to seem, to appear, to think, to imagine)

Dysproso

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a bad or hard time to keep up the "acting" of being someone you're not like using a mask or custom of someone else

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the distress caused by having to act and present as someone you're not and having to use their face and life as your new face, this "mask", body and life that you have to deal with gives you the off feeling, the sense of you're not yourself and an uncomfortable time, people referring you and seeing you as that other someone makes you feel disconnected from yourself and like you don't have control in your own life

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word prosōpon (face, mask)

Dysalotriu

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a hard and bad time because you suffer the life or someone else and not yours because this isn't your life nor body

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the state of grief and concern regarding having the life of someone else, you have to deal with the problems and life of someone else an that gives you a hard time feeling yourself with the life and body of someone else, seeing that you're another and not you gives you a shock that can affect you negatively, it is based more in the sense of external life and the distress it gives you rather than the actual masking, body or similar feelings of not being you

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word allotríou (of another, foreign) [Yes I changed the word to be more short and pleasant to the term]

Dysantanhetro

General meaning: Describes the feeling of not being able to see your own reflection in the mirror but of someone else, this can also means that you can't see yourself within the body

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the distress caused by the body not being as you want, this is triggered when you see that is way different from yours or when you look at your reflection/shadow you see someone else and not you, this can also be accompanied by a defensive way of trying to modify the body to resemble more of your look and not being able to handle properly and in a adaptive way the different body and appearance

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek words antanáklasis (reflection) and héterou (of another, other) [Yes I changed and mixed the word to be more short and pleasant to the term]

Dysantilep

General meaning: Describes the feeling of a state of depersonalization that cause a hard or bad time related on the way of perceiving because of the body

In depth meaning: This term is to describe a specific kind of depersonalization related to the grief, problem and disconnection to the body, life and the way others see you because of all those things aren't about you but someone else. Being aware or entering in a state of consciousness about the body and life not being yourself but someone else makes you enter in this kind of depersonalization and it's hard to keep up because of it, you can feel other things alongside this depersonalization state or you might not feel anything outside disconnection and uncomfort because of it

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word antilēpsis (perception, grasp)

Dysapopro

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a hard and bad time of keeping up the body persona because you feel too disconnected and separate from it

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the problems, distress and discomfort being a "persona" of someone else brings you, is a creeping feeling of discomfort, fear and detachment of not being yourself and never being able to be you, the fear and anguish of trying to be you, make the body look like you but not being really able to be you because of this persona it exists around the body

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word apo (away, off) and próposo (face, persona) [Yes I changed and mixed the word to be more short and pleasant to the term]

This are all the terms I made to describe my experiences, I never shared them because of the kinda weird names, but if you like them, feel connected and described you can totally use them! I'll feel kinda honored if people started using this terms to describe such a common feeling and experience that didn't have a name up this day

Any questions or comments regarding this terms I'm open to hear them all!

(Sorry for the tag, if you want me to remove it I will do it but tell me, I tagged you because you're the main reason I did this long post @system-cypress)

Ask game! 💙📺🍃🌈🍬 /not forcing all the questions

Ask game here

💙 - Do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

Well it depends on what you see as switching. For example a new alter coming to front or having access to the body is consider switching well almost daily more than one time, but if you ask about switching like me, the host, leaving and another alter taking the principal fronting control it can be very rare and take long times

It mostly depends on triggers, sometimes it can feel like being P-DID but I know it's not because I can leave front and I'm not always conscious, but I don't tend to leave front or the main control of the body lmao

📺 - Do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

Normally nope, my system needs to be more good with me if they want more gifts. If drawings are consider a gif well I kinda do it

One time I make our grandma buy a toy kitchen for one little... He never fronted again so yeah I don't buy gifts since then 😭

🍃 - Do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

Yes, tho we're not sure why this happens ??? Sometimes I, the host, can't even enter there LMAO

I guess it depends in a lot of factors that I'm not very aware of, idk

🌈 - Do you get frontstuck often? What do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

EVERY FUCKING TIME

I cannot front without being frontstucked and IT SUCKS HORRIBLE, like the only way for me leaving the front is being so triggered and in a very delicate/dangerous state so another one needs to front, but outside that it feels almost IMPOSSIBLE for me to leave the front

If not with bad triggers and crisis I can't un-stuck myself... I hate here

🍬 - What’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

I have a list, hold on

"I'm gonna sue you for being the host" "Namelnom, tf is a subsystem of yous? I won't be adopting them all, With Spider-Namel is enough" "Sorry I fucked your parent... Also I'm you mom now-" (She was my aunt before being my mom ??? 😭) "You unfurrified physically but not mentally, fucking furry"

My system is wild LMAO

Thanks for the asks son :D