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I find so interesting how many times you don't get the proper credit just because you're an alter in a system

Like you do something but other alter, normally the host, takes the credit of that thing you did, and because you all share body you can't say nothing, and if you do people would say "well is a collective thing" so you don't get the proper credit

Sometimes is funny, sometimes is sad, sometimes is frustrating, but at the end you learn how to accept it as your fate

I'm bored, ask me question or send random submissions for us to answer

(Some things we'll just respond with a dot, this means we'll respond it one of our sideblogs)

Being an introject with a problematic source that isn't well known is so strange

What you mean I can't talk about it and can't even say my name in a good way because I'm being offensive when you don't even know my source but because one thing that it has I'm bad?

Introjects are the most stigmatized alters in CDD

—🏳🟥

Online CDD system challenge, make a post or talk about something about CDD that doesn't involve:

Alter or alter mentioning

Trauma as the way of developing the dissorder

Basic dissociation rambling that even singlets know

Idk man, I'm bored and this community doesn't seem to understand and talk about what CDD is

My favorite part about being a factive of someone who did shit to the system is when I talk shit about them and then someone ask my name, and when I told them the name I'm my source they normally end up "Oh-." cause for a bit of moment it's like someone talking shit about themselves

If you notice some of our post are missing, no, we didn't delete them completely, we did here, but we're moving out those post to a sideblog

To be more specific the oct endo post and related to that are gonna be moved out to that blog, so all the topics, post and things related to that posts we're gonna be ignoring them here and putting attention to that only in that sideblog

This is more to keep an order in our blog and be more a personal thing rather what it is now, idk if we explain ourselves

Please let's keep separated this two blogs, if not we're gonna block

The moment when your brain decide is time to get a flashback and dreams about that person/system who hurt us a lot so all the system gets triggered and now all the subsystem of introjects of that person/system is frontstuck alone feeling like they're their source even though they know they're not

Help us, we don't want to front like this

—✍🟥

Sometimes we have this thought and it's weird...

Are we trans because that's what feels right or just because we're a system?

Are we trans because it's just that way or is it based in our trauma and our phobia of women?

Idk... It's strange all of this and every time this question gets in our mind we can't answer it

It's so weird when your not the host but someone new at front and people assuming you're the host just because we share personalities

Bonus points if you believe them because you don't fucking care till you care and you're left wondering "Who tf am I?" without an answer

Did I just use Tumblr to say I'm a new formed alter and people assumed I was the hoste? Yeah pretty much

I only have 3 moods in the CDD community

More bored than ever because

Another fucking drama? /neu

This is why I hate the CDD community

"Are you a overt or covert system?"

I'm me, does that count?

(We just don't fucking know at this point, we're both and at the same time don't)

Constantly using system to describe ourselves buy hating that term for ourselves is a dialy fight

It really depends, talking about frequent fronters and the ones we know best we have a list of likes we commonly share or we're ok with it, after all we need to mask a consistent persona to blend with people

But we do have different likes!!

I find interesting how the english CDD community is more centered around endo drama and spanish CDD community is just fighting itself because of this people who claim themselves to be "activists" and do more anti-recovery shit that I can recall lol

Brain when I said I wanted to be the host again I meant in a "let me be a frequent fronter" not in the replace the actual host with me

Please let me go, I don't like the outside life, stop being dependant on me brain

—🐺🦉

We even have things that we don't track at all and are just for information, like subsystem info and body info so alters can see that info!!

We like to track if we are blurry, dissociated, nobody fronting, asleep, etc. Especially since our partner system checks it.

Here are some of the ones we use and for what they are / how do we use them

Notion: For saving up information about the system, alters, body or life, it's a more complex and free style notes app

Fortelling: It's made to help with writing but we use it as an app to map the inner world and have profiles to the alters, also helps a lot in everything system related information wise

Obsidian: SImilar to fortelling, we use it for system tracking/mapping, you can do separate pages that can be link with each other and then in a map like you'll see them linked if they're in the pages

Notion: Was made to talk with "your emotions" but we use it for system communication so alters can talk with each other in groups or "private" chats

Twinote: It's like a personal twitter app, we also use it for system communication but for more informal things because the communication is based in posts and thread

And this isn't an app, is a website

Lighthouse: It's a website for system journaling and interaction, you can do forums, posts and different personal/groupal journals all private and personalized, it also has an information and resources place that can help you

Idk if you or someone else know more than these or if these help you, but here it is!!

does anyone have good systemhood/plurality apps... other than simply plural

help a pal out 😞

*Talks with someone*

*They mention a specific topic/do a specific question*

*You unlock a memory (might be good, bad or traumatic)*

*You verbalize that memory*

*You and that person talk about that memory*

*You two jump into another topic/finish the conversation*

*You forget the memory you just unlock*

*You immediately forget that you had that talk so you also forget you had that memory*

*Circle repeats*

Hating our brain and how it works

When I'm in a crisis that might put the body in a terrible danger they leave me alone in fronte

But when minor stress we switch

Brain I don't understand you at all /neg

I wanna do more blogs, more system related blogs, but I have many ideas that they made me crazy and end up forgetting them lol

Don't know, maybe someone here wants a blog about something sys-related and we can do it(?

Guys I'm extremely bored yk