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i fucking hate it when i watch a new movie or show or whatever and slowly realizing my inner voice fucking animorphed itself into the voice of that character. immediate Curse of 1 Billion Years of Voice Dysphoria. no cure

Truths and Myths: Pluralpedia Part 4, Alter Roles.

This is an educational post.

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And at the same time

A part that is designed to hold trauma, known as an emotional part, may remain stuck at the age when the trauma occurred. This can be part of the process in which the individual part repeatedly relives the trauma or unconsciously reenacts it in their actions when taking executive control, even though the trauma has ended but they are unaware. As a result, they are unable to age past the age of the trauma. Later in therapy, trauma can be processed and this can relieve that part from their need to be fixed in time

Further discussed in Van der Hart, Nijenhuis, and Steele’s book (2006) “The Haunted Self: Structural Dissociation and the Treatment of Chronic Traumatization”. The authors disscuss a patient whose child emotional part would reenact situations from the trauma in an attempt to prevent it from happening again. Additionally, they discuss that some emotional parts can experience severe nonrealisation therefore that part may literally experience themselves as being the age they are stuck at, in the book this is used in context of child parts.

According to the NHS (2024) website on eating disorders, there are many potential causes for them, including various traumas. An individual experiencing an eating disorder or in recovery may also experience trauma or stress, on a psychological, physical, and social level. As a result, an alter may split due to the eating disorder as parts are fragmented due to trauma. This alter may serve as a protective/caretaker part, ensuring the survival of the body, but it may also be a part that has split off due to denial of the eating disorder. This part may be used by the brain to hide the parts of the individual that are heavily affected by the trauma of the eating disorder.  This can also allow the affected parts to recover at their own pace, as they are aware that the body will be fine. However, this alter may also serve as an unhelpful crutch, causing other parts to believe that they do not need to recover or are not ready to do so. In reality, it is crucial for all parts to recover in order to aid in trauma healing and move towards a more sustainable life. Relying too heavily on one part can result in their exhaustion as they will be using their available resources to focus and take care of the needs of others. If this is their only role, it may result in a lack of self-awareness of their own needs, making it difficult for them to meet them. This point is supported by Van der Hart, Nijenhuis, and Steele's book (2006) "The Haunted Self: Structural Dissociation and the Treatment of Chronic Traumatization" when discussing caretaker parts in systems. It is important to allow a part to take a break, otherwise they may begin to dread their role or task, leading to unpleasant or even stressful experiences. Therefore, it is necessary for parts to have the capability to share responsibility for tasks, even if only for a short time, to give the main part a chance to rest, another reason why recovery for those parts heavily affected should be encouraged. This idea and self-care is discussed more in W AT’s book “Got Parts: An Insider’s Guide to Managing Life Successfully with Dissociative Identity Disorder”. 

The term "called out" may refer to this alter being triggered when food is present or is brought out when a part is triggered by food, allowing it to take control of the situation. Alternatively, it may refer to the switching technique learnt in therapy, where communication between alters is improved to the point where one alter can reach out and ask another to take control. However, this is a complex skill, as it is considered, to master and there will always be a risk of failure, so it cannot be guaranteed to work every time. Based on this, it can be assumed that the term refers to the act of this alter stepping into either calm or avoid a trigger.

Van der Hart O, Steele K, Nijenhuis E. The Haunted Self : Structural Dissociation and the Treatment of Chronic Traumatization. W.W. Norton; 2006.

NHS. Overview - Eating Disorders. NHS. Published 2021. https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/feelings-symptoms-behaviours/behaviours/eating-disorders/overview/

W AT. Got Parts? : An Insider’s Guide to Managing Life Successfully with Dissociative Identity Disorder. Loving Healing Press; 2005.

Echoes in the Multiverse . Echoes in the Multiverse. Tumblr. Published June 16, 2024. Accessed August 2, 2024. https://www.tumblr.com/echoes-in-the-multiverse/753468998583271424/what-is-switching-technique-in-your-last-post-you?source=share

Bibliography link 4 is to a post we made discussing more about the Switching technique and the resources we used to write that post and expand our own knowledge we gained in therapy.

Introducing...

The million dollar question!

Did it happen,

Did I imagine it,

Did my sysmate do it,

Did I dream it or was I just so disassociated it feels like it wasn't real?

Hey! Saw your post about Octacon, just wondering what your experience with it is/if it's worth checking out as an alternative to Simply plural? We're just not personally fans of Sp's layout and have only just heard of Octacon

It's 100% a viable alternative to SimplyPlural if you're on android - it's not on iOS yet, last I heard iOS is in development and aiming to be launched in late 2024/early 2025. Octocon doesn't have the web app version (yet) so if that's something you use a lot then it may not work out as well.

SP vs Octo layout

If you find SP's layout pesky, definitely give Octo a go! Currently, Octo doesn't have quite as many features as SimplyPlural but it's a very new app atm and it's improving very quickly :)

If you use discord a lot; it also has a baked in set of features, similar to TupperBox and PluralKit that allow for proxy messaging

There's a lot of information available octo's discord if you're curious: link (https://discord.com/invite/octocon)

[and a little reminder that octo is aimed at CDDs but they aren't banning any systems with other origins from using it — full details of post in alt text]

Plus, Octo has a minecraft server for Patreon supporters if that's something you're into XD

We have another post explaining our personal usage of SP if anyone is curious

Ohh my gosh, all of this.

"just a me thing" was my excuse for everything

don't remember yesterday? forgot to eat? randomly got anxious without a clear trigger? forgot our bff's name? feel disconnected from everyone around me? can't remember my name? suddenly like foods that'd normally make me sick? desire to change gender and name change after stress? age regress and forget what happened when i regressed? randomly behave like a completely different person? have panic attacks after our ex had breakdowns and switched themselves (and then forget later)?

"Haha, sorry. It's just a me thing" I'd say with a smile.

Oh, how wrong I was.... that was an ✨ us ✨thing.

Overcompensation is a massive thing; especially when it came to friend interactions. There are pages and pages of notes where I'd leave reminders for later because 'haha, I'm super forgetful, oopsie! 😅' and the kinds of things were so mundane, like reminding myself I'd already put the rubbish out, or fed the cat or had my medication bc otherwise I wouldn't know it had been done in 1-2 hours.

Frankly, my dual autism and ADHD diagnosis the month before my 17th birthday didn't help — I had a new reason to say I was forgetting things. Without addressing all the underlying disassociation, depersonalisation, derealisation, blacking out/waking up and hearing voices, I could grin and say 'sorry, it's just the ADHD, lemme write that down or I'll forget'. The psych who did the assessment didn't go into trauma stuff and bc me being an oblivious dumbass host, I didn't remember anything and the only way she could explain the symptoms I experienced were AuDHD. I do think the diagnosis was correct though, I've always been autistic and ADHD, which worsened my trauma, just.. didn't have the words nor the memories to give her context for why I got angry and irritable at loud noises, panicked when someone touched my shoulders etc... the context I had was AuDHD.

;-;

thanks to the parts for that lil challenge.

A lot of people think "Wouldn't you easily notice if you had DID?" and even without accounting for amnesia, it's probably harder than you'd think.

Since DID is formed in development and prevents the integration of your personality, you have never lived as a singlet. You have no idea what it's like. Your symptoms are just generally "your normal", as well.

People can also naturally accommodate their own symptoms without realizing by simple trial and error. I used to write my math notes in heavy, near-excessive detail, since I knew there was a chance I wouldn't understand what I meant later.

Finally, a lot of people pre-realization just write off DID symptoms as "just a me thing" or a quirk.

It depends...

We have this thing happened in both ways so it's difficult to say at this point lmao 😭

This is the "What came first? The egg or the chicken?" for systems fr

Since we have many introjects of OCs we tend to think about who came first. Did we introject an OC or did we subconsciously know they were here?

✎...Side blogs list (Not personal)↫

This posts is to enlist all our side blogs that aren't personal and are system related so if you wanna go and check them out, or if you know one of this and want to interact more with the system behind them!

[For the alter and some alter sideblogs list look here]

We also gonna add some kind of description to the side blogs so you understand better about them

This might be constantly updated because we love making side blogs, so keep this in mind to check it sometimes to see if there's an update

@syspport

Syspport is a blog oriented to help & support CDD systems with all kinds of problems, we also do requests of multiple kind of things and sometimes we do positivity and validation posts

Information, ask and visibilization of things are one of our goals, we want people to understand and know a little bit more about CDD and how they can understand this disorders in a way it can be helpful

Is a safe space to learn, ask, and request, an all in one place!!

@nonaltercdd

Non alter CDD is a blog oriented to all the aspects outside the alters in the CDDs, to bring awareness and visibilize the other aspects in hopes the CDD community stop treating this disorders like "the alters disorder" and more like a complex and difficult disorder

This is a completely safe space and open to interaction, questions, ask, positivity, visibilization, vents and all those things are allowed, the only rule is that it's about CDD and isn't about the alter part, or if you're gonna bring them out the alters aren't the main topic

@cringesys

The cringe systems place is a blog for all the systems who are cringe or considered cringe for one or another reason to have a safe place to be themselves without being judge

This blog mainly functions with "Cringe system culture is" kind of posts, but isn't exclusively to that

@sillysystems

The silly systems is a blog for all the systems to be as silly they want, to share about something they find silly about themselves or similar things, just to be silly, random and all that kind of stuff, it's a safe space where no one's gonna judge you because for being a silly system/alter

@queersys

Queer systems place is a blog for all the systems who are queer (this can be because of one or multiple alters, or being collectively queer) to have a safe space to talk about it and express themselves without the fear of being judged or something similar

We accept all kind of requests, but mostly there are "Queer system culture is" and similar ones to that

@systorytimes

System storytimes is a blog to share storytimes of your system, this can be any kind of storytimes that are aligned to your CDD, can be good, bad or neutral, we don't judge

The point is sharing your experiences and storytimes you want and giving a place for all the systems who want to

@antipsychiatrist

Fuck psychiatrists is a blog that talks critically about the psychiatric field and how there's a lot of abuse, neglect and ableism in the mental health area, specially surrounding psychiatric

Here you can be real and serious about how fucked up the mental health area is regarding the CDD, because this blog is about CDD and for pwCDD, so all this is centric about that, but of course if someone wants to make a submission/ask about this that mix CDD and other disorder or something similar is completely allowed

An interactive blog for all the pwCDD to give their opinions and share their experiences, start talks and ask questions, a critical serious space that sometimes has little hater vibes

@otherkinsys

Otherkin Systems Realm is a blog for all the systems who are also in the otherkin/therian community, this can be collectively or because one or a group of alters, to have a safe place to be themselves, share about their experiences and feel understood without being judge

@cddcommunity

The CDD community is a blog to talk about the CDD community, not only here on tumblr, but in all the internet in general

You can share experiences, vent, send ask and all that kind of things, all about the CDD community. You can be critical about how the current CDD community is, the topics, dramas and all the things going on around here in the community, is to talk about the good, the neutral and the bad things regarding the CDD community, no one's gonna judge you for what you say here, it's a safe space to share about how the CDD community is and works on internet

This isn't a syscourse blog, but syscourse mention is allowed do the nature of the blog and the CDD community

@octendo

Night Ravens is our syscourse blog, not only about endo syscourse but general syscourse, although the blog is kinda lonely because we have to be in the syscourse mood and there are always a lot of text posts or simply short generalized posts to be open to discussion

There's not much to say about this blog, but please let's keep separate this blog form our personal blog (this one)

This is all, if you like this blogs and want more interaction with us go ahead, we love interacting!!

Also if you want a side blog of a specific topic regarding systems go ahead and tell us, we'll gladly do it, more side blogs probably are being think off to make ✨

We call ourselves persmos! Yeah, like our sys name

It has a very large history and therefore context, it makes us feel mor ourselves persmos than alters, although we tend to use alters when talking about ourselves publicly because people don't know what persmos mean lol

✎...Side blogs list (Personal)↫

This posts is to enlist almost all our side blogs that are personal like alters and grouping of alters so if you wanna go and check them out, or if you know one of this and want to interact more with the system behind them!

[For the non personal but more CDD community/system related sideblogs list look here]

We also gonna add some kind of description to the side blogs so you know about them before looking at them

This might be constantly updated because we love making side blogs, so keep this in mind to check it sometimes to see if there's an update

⋆ Alter Sideblogs ⋆

@namelnom

Principal host personal blog. He's a problematic and persecutor se be cautious when looking at their blog if you want to see it

Most of the content isn't going to be system related because of Namelnom's nature to forget the rest of the alters are there and deny the polyfrag DID that's pretty obvious we have. But when he does post system related he's probably gonna reblog them here too

100% recommend to read their pinned post before interacting and seeing the blog, they don't have a filter and might be triggering in some posts he mades

Says he's introvert but he's actually pretty extrovert so feel free to interact and send asks to him, just be cautious

@rowlpy

Ex principal host, not sure if he's still host or just frequent fronter

Most of its content can be divided in:

CDD related

SP related

Our system related

Pokemon related

So it might be a kinda silly and chill blog to follow and see

Also he's very shy and introvert so if you're going to interact or try to start friendly conversation or something similar be respectful, he's trying its best

⋆ Alter Groups Sideblogs ⋆

@thermelalters

Thermel alters is a blog runned by four octives of our system, this octives are a family and didn't want separate personal blogs so they decided to go on with just one shared blog

I highly recommend seeing their pinned post because it has clarifications and information you need to know before following/interacting

They're pretty chill and are ok with interaction and questions

@factivehaters

Factive haters is a blog for our factives to be haters and yap about their sources

We found a pattern with our factives being disappointed and/or mad with their sources because 95% of the factives in our system are because their sources did shit to us, so they want to be little haters and yap about it

They founded funny that the name could be misinterpreted as a blog that hates the existence of factives as factives themselves running the blog

I recommend not seeing this blog if you don't like cursing, sarcastic and bad comments about people, have to clarify this alters do not condone harassment to their sources, they're also gonna censor and give nicknames to them for privacy reasons

@arachnidsubsys

Arachnid subsystem is our most active subsystem that tends to front most, they want a more prominent online presence to feel more separate from their sources (As a subsystem made purely of factives) so they made a blog for themselves

They don't feel comfortable in our general blog, so if you want to know them it has to be in their blog

Disclaimer, their blog is manly for them to vent, but not exclusive to that, and they're ok with interaction

(Do not ask them to activate asks, they're gonna activate it when they're ready to do it)

@mebhate

M.E.B hater trio is a blog runned by three prosecutors/persecutors and they're gonna be pretty aggressive in there

They don't mind interaction if isn't to change their views or tell them they're doing bad/hurt, they're aware of that, they just don't care and want to throw all their hate and pain in some random account

They don't condone harassment to the three targets of their blog, because yes, they're targeting three specific people, they will censor all the names to keep this three people anonymous

If you're triggered by very sensitive topics or dislikes hate blogs towards specific people I do not recommend looking at their blog, block them please

If you're willing to see be sure to see the pinned post to know what the blog's more about

That's basically all of the blogs now, they're fairly new so expect most of them to be empty, just wait and you'll find their pinned post right before hand

And remember, this are the ones done in the moment, we might be adding more as more alters feel free to have an online presence

It was a real roller coaster, it was a mix of a bunch of this things and similar things... It was wild because I tend to forget about it and till I accept it well I remember all those past semi-discoveries (I call them like that because I was aware of the disorder but not the system... Does that make sense??)

This is regardless of if you are self diagnosed or professionally diagnosed.