Am I The Only One That Hates Mascara? You Can Never Get It Off, It Flakes During The Day, It Melts In

am I the only one that hates mascara? you can never get it off, it flakes during the day, it melts in hot weather or if your eyes are watery (my eyes are super watery)

when I was younger I used to be addicted to mascara, I literally used to wear it every day at school (with other makeup too, but if I didn't have the time I would have definitely put mascara on at least)

It's because I used to think that I'm ugly and that my lips are too small for any lip products that is not lip balm, but as I grow up I realized that I look so much better and cleaner without any kind of eye makeup

and believe it or not it had a little impact on my mental state: everyday I was in a rush and I always used to mess it up, I used to have literal breakdowns because I was running late and I couldn't put on mascara properly, and at night it was a pain in the ass to take off. and my whole self esteem was attached to it, for some reason in my head if I wore mascara I would have looked a lot better.

I love my makeup routine now (even if I want to make it smaller) especially because it doesn't have mascara. oh and I love love loove lip products now <3

yes, I still think that my lips are small (I will get injections in the future :p) but lip liner and lip oil help so much, now if I have to leave the house and I don't want to wear makeup I always have my little lip combo moment that I love sooo much (I use essence 8h matte lip liner in the shade 04 and the essence cranberry oil (that is sadly out of production)) and absolutely no mascara never ever again in my whole life

and before anyone says that this is a metaphor, no it's not I really just hate mascara

thank you for making it this far, I hope somebody actually appreciates my little silly talk

3 ff- cookies, pizza, any sort of packaged sweet

3 sf- cucumber, rice paper, blueberries

dslb: 8 days

dslp: 257 days

dyfkaye: my family is my mom and she's an orthorexic that doesn't want to accept that she has a problem, so yes she knows about it but she doesn't think that is a problem

aycit: I see a therapist smt but we really don't talk about it

hybi: if that means restrict super hard just to see results faster, yes, I've been impatient in the past.

dywtr: I think that anorexia was a problem, but my orthorexia can actually be a good thing to me, so no I don't want to recover

𐙚 ED QUESTIONS 𐙚

3 FEAR FOODS

• 𝐹𝓇𝒾𝑒𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝑜𝒹𝓈

• 𝐵𝒶𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝓈𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓉𝓈

• 𝒫𝓇𝑜𝒸𝑒𝓈𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓈𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈

3 SAFE FOODS

• 𝑅𝒾𝒸𝑒

• 𝒮𝒶𝓁𝓂𝑜𝓃

• 𝒱𝑒𝑔𝑔𝒾𝑒𝓈/𝒻𝓇𝓊𝒾𝓉𝓈

DAYS SINCE LAST BINGE: 10

DAYS SINCE LAST PURGE: I do not purge

DOES YOUR FAMILY KNOW ABOUT YOUR ED?

𝓝𝓸

ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN TREATMENT?

𝓝𝓸

HAVE YOU BEEN INPATIENT?

𝓝𝓸

DO YOU WANT TO RECOVER?

𝓝𝓸

why I want to become skinny

1. I HATE MY BOOBS SOOOO MUCH OMG

they became so big because I gained weight, I feel so ridiculous because I'm a blonde with big boobs and a mediocre face and it's driving me crazy

also they ruin every outfit, because they are not nice boobs, they are fat boobs so they just make me look a hundred times fatter than what I actually am, I hate them so much

(manifesting an A cup)

2. to let that specific person know that I am able to lose weight and she isn't.

she's obese, we are not friends anymore because she's a fucking finger in the ass, she's rude, she thinks she's better than anyone else, SHE EVEN CALLED MY MOM A WHORE AND A SLUT BECAUSE MY MOM SAID (to me in private) THAT SHE THINKS SHE'S A LOSER (she's right btw)

and she even fucking risked my life by giving confidence to a fucking creepy man on the bus we were on, all of this just because she's desperate for cock and she hates the fact that she's 21 and still a virgin (there is literally nothing wrong with this but pop off dainty queen)

I hate her so much, I'm not usually fatphobic but she fucking deserve it, she uses any kind of excuse to not lose weight, if gluttony was a person it would be her, she's so fat I'm so lucky to not be her, I mean yeah I let myself go but I'm still able to see my ribs at least while she can't even sit properly on a chair

so yeah I hope one day she'll be able to see how thin and skinny I have become 🎀🩷

3. I need new clothes and I want to dress like I dream of !!

as a young girl I had imaginary friends. as an adult I have an imaginary Russian ballet instructor who shames me for eating and makes me workout for 2 hours a day.

day 3 ✅

tomorrow I will start this diet plan 🩷

next time you think you'll "just have a little bit" remember that processed foods are engineered to *create* cravings, not to satisfy them