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i had such a weird dream this night about "purging" tea in the kitchen, except the purging was just adding it and then deleting it in mfp, but i actually kind of added the c@ls up in my head, i was like, "there are 2 in one cup, so i've had 50" and i guess it's cool that i can still do math asleep, but like wtf 😃

Breakfast guys 😍

when the ed is not ed-ing

always looking for nutrition facts on packaging before i buy something has become such a habit that now i always try to check hygiene and beauty product too 🥲

god I love shitposting so much

more anime gif

I can't keep being a slave to my period, today I will fast and tomorrow I will eat in a 900 kcal limit

ngl I'm scared of fasting, I haven't fast in a long time (that's probably why I'm so fucking fat) but I need discipline, luckily today I woke up nauseous 🙏

if you have any tips on fasting pls let me know

the nikocado avocado situation was really a wake up call

my ed isn't necessarily a bad thing

I understand that when I was deeply into anorexia (I was eating 200/300 cals a day, I used to starve for more than 4 days) I didn't feel good, I didn't have a life, food was the only thing in my mind, and also I was eating really shitty, only processed food, no veggies, basically no water and only diet coke and other zero cal drinks.

and bulimia ofc wasn't a good thing, I've been clean for more than 250 days

(yippie)

but then I tried recovering... and omg worst decision ever

my weight before, at the time was 57 kg, but usually it was always around 63 kg and now I'm over 70, and I get that all the meds that I took have a huge part in this, but I gained so much when I tried to eat like a normal human being, and oh man if I hate it.

I hate it so much.

my arms are huge, my belly is colossal, my legs look like two giant hams, my face went back to being chubby and puffy, my boobs are enormous, they ruin every outfit, even my hands become so big.

I look so stupid, everything that I wear looks embarrassing because I'm fucking fat.

I don't want a relationship now because I'm too fat to be fucked, I know that I am not disgusting, because what's really disgusting is all this fat that needs to be GONE asap

the plan that my nutritionist gave me didn't change anything, but at least now I know how to balance a meal properly

I lost all of my discipline in these two years, I need to get back on track.

I'm not a free spirit, I crave control, I crave order, it was always like this and this needs to be embraced.

I'm not going to fall into a deep hole, I'm not going to eat less than 700 cal, I will simply eat from 700 to 1000 cal, adding some work out.

AND BINGES ARE NOT ALLOWED

I'm going to start college, I need amazing grades, I need to clean my room and my house, I don't want to live in the dirt anymore, I need to study piano again, I was really good and I love the attention of people when I play it, and I need to start reading again because I can't be this ignorant.

and, the most important, I NEED TO BE SKINNY

If you're skinny people take you seriously, people actually like you, being skinny is a literal flex, clothes look good on you, and you just become prettier because your face slim down.

oh, to be a simple pretty white girl.

I was always the weird one, the stupid one, the funny one, the kind one, but never the skinnier or the prettiest or the smartest.

I want that to change.

I need to change.

I need to be untouchable.

I want to finally be pretty, be desired, be liked.

most teenagers start off with anorexia

then they decide to see if orthorexia has any kick

it does

GUYS OMG I THOUGHT I GAINED MORE WEIGHT BUT I WENT FROM 71.9 TO 69.1 KG AAAAAA I'M SO HAPPY TO BE IN THE 60S AGAIN 😭😭😭

mealspo ⭐ (226 cal)

period has come

let's see if I'm able to go through it without having cravings

my current fear foods and some safe foods + explanation

(!!!! I don't eat meat or any dairy products because I'm lactose intolerant)

bananas: so tasty and doesn't have too many calories (I don't eat under 700 cal) and it's also full of potassium!!

any type of bars or industrial snack: even if it's low in calories it's so bad, they have a lot of additives and other chemicals that keep the body full of inflammation

nuts: idk I never liked them, I feel like eating any type of nuts, almonds etc is a waste of calories because they taste like wood

pizza: it's so high in calories, also I try to never eat a full pizza because it's not good for the stomach, I usually eat half and then eat the other half the day after

peanut butter: I recently tried it (I'm not American so here it's not a common food) and it was so sticky and had SO MANY CALORIES OMGG like I tried once bread with pj and it was awful, all I could think about was all the calories that I was consuming

eggs (without the bacon): I love eggs they are a good search of protein and they are low cal, I love toast with egg on top!! so yummy and reminds me of that Ghibli movie (sorry I forgot the name in english)

brioche/croissant: tremendous tbh, so high in calories, in fats, not healthy at all (especially industrial ones)

cucumber sushi: it's so good and healthy and fresh, also has not a lot of calories! but I try to not consume it often because the vinegar and other things that are used to make the rice sticky are not very good for inflammation

sugar: it literally causes cancer wth

cakes: soooo full of sugar and additives even if you buy them from a bakery, they are def a once a year meal, it's so bad for you, and the vegan ones have like double the calories of the normal ones

Starbucks thing? whatever: I never had Starbucks and I never will, it's so high in sugar and additives (and it's so expensive like wth just drink water) also I don't trust people with making my thing to drink

dark chocolate: if you eat a small piece of it quite often it's actually good for your heart and other cardiac things! also it helps me to prevent binges, and it doesn't have that many bad things in it

hamburger: lol I had only one hamburger in my entire life and it was when I was 7, it's just not good. like, I get making a similar sandwich at home, but buying an hamburger from McDonald's or smt? crazy, that's exactly why people are obese

pringles: they are SO FULL of chemicals and salt, they are so bad for health in general 😭 I'd rather have normal chips (where here the ingredients are just potatoes, salt, and usually seeds oil) but I prefer to avoid chips because first of all they are full of salt, and second they trigger my binges

toast: it's not a fear food but it's not even a safe food, I can eat it sometimes, it's okay, I mean it's just toast

cheese: any kind of dairy products it's so bad for humans, even my nutritionist explained to me that we are not supposed to eat dairy because milk it's supposed to be for babies (of that spieces), it also causes acne and other stuff that I don't want.

oh and also I try to avoid vegan cheese but just because it's very high in calories.

olive oil: healthy fat!! very good for lots of reasons, honestly I just cook with it (without frying things obv), I don't really add it to my usual meals but it's pretty okay

pasta: it used to be a fear food but now I tolerate it, ofc I try to avoid it because it still is a defined carb

meat: If you want to die of cancer or other terrible diseases, eat red meat. it's so bad for the body, even white meat.

smoothies: I love smoothies that I make at home, they are so yummy and they make me feel good afterwards, also they are great when doing liquid fasts 💚

sushi? cat thing?: same as the cucumber sushi, it's good but I try to avoid it.

m&ms: sweets in general are like so bad for you, so full of additives, chemicals, refined sugar, horrible for the body. and also they cause sugar addiction.

fries: they are literally fried potatoes, any type of fried food it's not good

tomato soup: here we don't have tomato soup but sometimes I make it with tomato sauce (basically the same thing) and it's good, low cal too! but I try to not eat it too often because tomatoes give me terrible acid reflux

cookies: same as the m&ms, also they trigger my binges so bad

has anybody tried chia pudding? I prepared it like ten minutes ago and now it has to sit overnight in the fridge, is it good/does chia actually help with snatching your waist?

my only 3 rules for this 31 days hello kitty diet:

- no binges

- no cravings

- at least 2 l of water everyday

pls where can I find more before and after ed pictures? they are sooo motivating

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him: “what are you hiding? why do you have so many secrets?”

me: looking at the n@kd pictures of myself to see if i gained any visible w8, also looking at half n@kd strangers bones to compare