Are We Even That Hopeless? Or Are We Just Tired Of Watching The News Everyday And Get Saturated Of How

are we even that hopeless? or are we just tired of watching the news everyday and get saturated of how many people die everyday? of how many people suffer in uncountable ways and we are helpless in the face of it all? in the face of the corrupt? of the consequences of human made disasters?

are we even that delusional? or are we just tired that our dreams might never come true because the arts, as beautiful as they are, are meaningless to capitalism and paints and pretty words dont make money

am i even that bitter? or am i just so alone and in need of a hug and just want to lie in the middle of a forest and let the world just swallow me and to never have to think again? do i just want to lie here with you waiting for the world to end for it to be only ours when everyone else is gone?

am i even who i present myself to be? or am i the persona that created the least problems for those around me and have nailed that skin so hard into my bones i cannot move without feeling it constraints against my soul?

is this my dream or is it the materialized unspoken expectation of everyone around me?

i guess we'll figure it out

being in your early twenties is like [grocery shopping alone] [having instant noodles for dinner] [remembering random details about that one friend you haven't spoken to in five years] [feeling overwhelming guilt for every purchase that isn't strictly "necessary"] [having midday naps] [finding out through facebook that the girl who was mean to you in high school has a husband and a baby] [falling a little in love with every stranger on public transport] [pretending you're not afraid of being alone] [wondering when you'll feel like a fully realized person] [listening to bands you liked in middle school] [blinking and it's suddenly december] [failing to imagine yourself ten years from now] [feeling like you're running out of time]

yes im trying

im always trying

and no matter what i do it doesnt work

im trying dont u get it

Tumblr can’t be swapped for other social media website because Tumblr is the only one whose whole base humor is derived from the art of pretending to be a dumbass.

Like if you get a fact wrong on Reddit, the “well actually” crowd will ooze from their mansplainer holes and I think if you pull that shtick on Twitter someone will use it to win a political argument against you that you weren’t even a part of.

Only on Tumblr can you start a sentence with “well sweaty I have 9 Ph.D. :))” and immediately have the upper hand over any clown trying to reasonably correct you.

If I’m a bi girl and I fuck a bi guy it’s literally gay sex btw like pemdas or whatever like it cancels out