My Autistic Ass Should Not Be Able To Write Fanfic Bc Then I'm Usually Forced To Do Research, And When

My autistic ass should not be able to write fanfic bc then I'm usually forced to do research, and when I do, I do way more than necessary and go down the weirdest rabbit holes of random crap.

endverse cas was fruity as hell like what is this!!

Viktor is my new favorite autistic icon.

One of my favorite Malec scenes has got to be after Magnus was swapped with Valentine and he tells Alec about his mom dying and killing his stepfather. Alec desperately tries to cheer him up and make things better, so he tells Magnus it wasn't his fault because he wasn't in control of his powers. But Magnus tells him that he was, and then Alec is at a loss because he's never had to do that before. The only person he'd probably have cheered up in the past is Izzy, and there's a very big difference between cheering up your warrior little sister and your centuries old warlock boyfriend that's carrying some serious family trauma. Alec treis so hard, and Magnus understands, but it still doesn't help much.

And probably the worst part of all of this is this is the first time Alec has ever seen Magnus cry. And then in the middle of crying, he calls him Alexander, which he usually only does during an emotional moment (sometimes not but usually).

Dean misremembering the purgatory portal scene is altering my brain chemistry in so many ways. What do you mean Dean remembered it as him not being able to save Cas because he wasn't strong enough, but in reality Cas let go??? We know he remembers some things perfectly like when Cas went into the lake because he had nightmares about that, but how many other things does he misremember? Does he remember Mary dying? Does he remember all his fights with Cas? Does he remember all the times Sam died? This was such a missed opportunity to do more. They could've made Dean even more traumatized by having him misremember something for so long, and then him having to learn it was completely different and having a whole crisis about it.

whoever said famine didn't affect dean bc his hunger was for cas. im shaking the bars on my cell and screaming and eating my pillow.

he's not into lonely women in bars on valentines this year and he doesn't want the burger he orders. one of the first things he does in the episode is call cas and then he's with cas for the rest of it. so ;mwhdbfng.g um

anyway. um.