Khalid - Coaster

Khalid - Coaster

As time passes, I feel so low

Searchin' for pieces, covering up the holes

I'll fight for your love, I'll fight for your soul

I'll throw all of my cares away for you

I'll be there to wait for you

Maybe you weren't the one for me

But deep down I wanted you to be

I'll still see you in my dreams

All the things that I did for you, just wasn't it for you

So I'll be coasting, roller-coasting

Through my emotion

I will be coasting, roller-coasting

I'm hoping that you'll come back to me

Moving on seems harder to do

When the one that you love moves faster than you

I gave you my all, I showed the proof of your lies

And you weren't worth it, you don't deserve me

As time passes I'm feeling high

You're not the one I'm thinking of tonight

I may not be over you, but I'll try inside

I'm feeling better now, finally feeling special now, oh

Coasting, roller-coasting

In my emotions, oh

I will be coasting, roller-coasting

I noticed you weren't the one for me

You weren't the one for me

You weren't the one for me

You weren't the one for me

You weren't the one for me

Weren't the one for me

You weren't the one

You weren't the one for me

So don't come back to me, no

No, don't come back to me, no

No, don't come back to me

No, don't come back to me, no

No, don't come back to me

You weren't the one for me

You weren't the one for me

You weren't the one for me

You weren't the one for me

Yesss.

“You lied. And I think that’s what hurts the most. That I wasn’t worth the truth in your eyes.”

–4:07 PM

Sometimes they were not the right person for you. Even though at the time you thought they were.

Been reminiscing about our memories for the past two days. Specifically our first trip today to celebrate my birthday. He took me to a nice seafood restaurant that over looked the bay. Walked down the streets holding hands and talking. Had our first kiss later that night. He shared some personal information with me that he had never shared with anyone before. Held him as we both cried.

I will never get to hold his hands again, never get to feel his touches, never get to feel his hugs, never get to feel his lips on me, never get to be intimate with him again. He's moved on and found someone new. He now gets to experience all these things with his new person. I've been replaced with a 20 year. Replaced and forgotten. No longer in his heart or mind.

Hurts, a lot to think that I once dreamt of a future for us. Now that future no longer exist, no longer a reality. It's all in the past now. Sadden for what could have been. Grief for the lost of us and what we could have together. Grief for the lost of my bestfriend, my partner, my lover, my first love.

Acceptance is a hard reality to accept. But it's a reality I have to accept because he had shown me he has moved on. His message was loud and clear for me to see. How cold and mean of him to showed me the way he did.

I can forgive but I'll never forget his treatment of me and what we had together. Such a big FU to what he thought of my feelings and our relationship.

Some beautiful pics from today's hike. Much needed for sure.