Then Don't Live Your Authentic Life Being Autistic. Get A New Therapist That Specializes In Autism. Having

Then don't 💕✨️ Live your authentic life being autistic. Get a new therapist that specializes in autism. Having someone explain to you why you do things the way you do it, and tell you IT'S OK, is pretty rad. Don't let people try to force you into a NT frame. 💕

Change

Is it such a radical statement to say I don't want to change? Is it so hard to understand that I don't want to force myself to make eye contact in an interview for a job I don't want? To drain my energy by talking to people I don't feel comfortable with?

My comfort zone is just that. I like it here. I don't want to leave. I want to get better at taking the bus, I want to get better at managing my panic attacks, but I don't feel the need to pressure people into being my friends or be dishonest about who I am, the way my parents and my therapist say I should.

I am in no way saying I want the world to change to better suit my needs. I would just like to be able to make small adjustments to make my immediate environment suck a little less butt without feeling judged. I don't want to just live with it. I don't want to let go of things that aren't a big deal. I don't want to calm down. I don't want to try to live an allistic life in an autistic body. I just want to exist peacefully.

My favorite time of the year, I wish it would last all year 😢

me for the next three months babes

The amount of therapy I've had to go through. That I'm still going through. That I will have to go through. To sort out the last 8 yrs. To figure out why I made excuses for things that were right in front of me. Your constant lying. Blaming everyone and everything else. Never taking any accountability. The numerous grape accusations against people that NEVER HAPPENED to the point you could never keep your stories straight and lying about being drugged when you obviously don't know what that is like? Taking people's survivor stories and making them part of your own for sympathy and attention. Making up lies about your friends, family, and exes... like I wouldn't reach out and talk to people? Stalking accounts that actually have survived narcissistic abuse so you can pretend to not be one? Acting accounts so you can mimic facial expressions and body language? Trying to turn me into some villan too, like you aren't going to do what you've done to literally everyone else in your life to your current partner. And she's so isolated and obsessed it's going to take so long for her to figure anything out.

You're a sociopath. The MOST vile, evil person I wish I had never come across. SA victims aren't believed because of people like you. Disgusting piece of trash.

Nope. This is helpful. Thank you.

i'm afraid to live my life, i feel guilty, i feel—shut the fuck up. step 1. shut the fuck up. step 2. shut the fuck up. step 3. focus on your breath. ruminating doesn't do shit. it just makes you feel bad. you're not accomplishing anything, you're not even being introspective, you're not being a 'good person' by telling yourself that you're a bad person; you're just sitting there exacerbating your anxiety. feel the cool air going in and out of your nostrils. feel your neck, arms, legs, shoulders, jaw, and whatever else that is tense. relax that shit or at least release some of the tension, if possible. stop clenching things. remember breath. remember cool air. fix posture. relax shoulders. sit or stand or lay comfortably. remember breath. remember cool air. don't try to avoid the thoughts but, rather, acknowledge them and move on lightly. it's ok if you can't. but remember that they are just there. they are guests who have overstayed their welcome. they are just thoughts. you will be ok. remember breath. remember cool air. you will be ok

Queer 👏 people 👏 are 👏 not 👏 all 👏 fucking 👏 activists 👏

Stop quizzing us on queer history and asking us questions we aren’t qualified to answer about the world and about politics and about our identities

Stop trying to back us into a corner so you can justify your discrimination on the basis that we don’t know what we’re talking about or can’t “defend” ourselves to you

Stop treating every queer person that stands up and says “I want to be treated like a person” as if they’re an activist

Cut that bullshit out

Marginalised people just want to exist and be happy

I don’t know everything, and that doesn’t make me undeserving of your respect or my human rights you fucker

I don’t even owe you the stuff I do know- I still am entitled to basic fucking respect

TLDR; Queer people shouldn’t have to be historians or scientists for you to not be a fucking dick

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Today my therapist asked me how I deal with so many parts of my life being so difficult. Well obviously I don't deal with it very well otherwise I wouldn't pay to talk to her once a week.