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This insane stormy weather we've had for the last 2 days straight is boosting me so much. This is MY weather ⛈🌩🥰
My body always feels better when it storms. My mood improves. My energy levels go up. It's like it's recharging me as it rages.
Love it.
My breakfast in bed this morning because this is all I can stomach for an actual meal.
~Tried drinking a glass of water, but aversion made me dump the 2nd half out.
~Ate two slices from the apple my son is having with his breakfast
~🫠
It is 1am and I have to start getting ready for my dr appointment around 8am....
I have to wash my clothes because I only have one pair of jeans that fit me and limited shirts to choose from (not to mention undergarments) so I have to stay up to make sure they make it in the dryer before hopefully passing out before I gotta get up.
🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠
Limited sleep is gonna exacerbate my pots and I can't just skip laundry because my audhd won't let me wear just *any 'ol thing* out of the house. 🥲
I really need to go to the local thrift stores for a new wardrobe again because.... I just can't do this 'one outfit available to leave the house' thing anymore.... it's getting ridiculous... but I can't even afford thrift right now and the earliest I can probably swing it is months away in late autumn/winter... 🥲
Today was a day.
I'm still sick, with something???? Although it feels like..... I got sick... then when the sickness ended, my pots nausea and gastrointestinal issues just continued? I've spent the last couple of days utterly nauseous, dizzy, and cramped up.
I will say I'm glad I just got some dishes done. They'd sat in the sink for 3 days because I simply couldn't tend to them. Our dishwasher broke and we don't know what's wrong with it. (It's a nice one too so extra devastating, I feel like.)
We need it to get fixed soon, each day that passes I get more anxiety about dishes piling up again. Standing, even sitting, at the sink to do them hurts my body so much. My entire back/shoulders & hands cramp up, which is the biggest dissuasion from the task.
That's all I can remember from today, pretty much. Tons of feeling sick. Had a salad for lunch. Then did dishes. Suddenly it's 10pm. Where did the day go?
Our family accidentally got on a day/night schedule again and it's also probably a factor in being out of sorts. Most everyone we know is more on a 7a-7p schedule. (Give or take a couple hours) But we have been on a 12p-12a schedule for ages.
I want to blame me getting sick, but, it started before that happened. It took 2? days to swing to a random 7a-8p schedule and I hate iiiiiiit.
Honestly my ideal schedule is waking up a couple of hours before sunset, and going to bed a couple of hours after sunrise. Like a 5p-5a thing maybe? Idk... I've sat for a moment mid-type and now have lost my entire train of thought. Oh well.
I did dishes this morning again. Fed the dogs. Had a decent morning. Spontaneously passed tf out for 4? hours.... woke up in a late afternoon daze. Didn't understand what time it was. Felt more tired than before I passed out. Used a bunch of spoons to cook lunch and wash another round of dishes. Aaaaaaand I'm horizontal again. 🫠
Slept last night from maybe 10:45pm to 1am. Couldn't sleep again after that. Was horrendously exhausted during the morning. Passed out (unexpectedly again) around 11am? Partner woke me up about 5pm because he was exhausted too from picking up my slack during my mini coma. Did evening routine then simply rested consciously the whole evening. Talked to some friends in discord. Then did night routine.
Got set up on a new game I'm playing tomorrow with friends, so that's exciting. (Got my bestie to download it too so she'll meet my discord pals in chat for the first time)
It's 1am and I'm unable to get settled to sleep again. This is exhausting.
I feel stupid but sometimes when I see fighting in the comments of a post my fight/flight gets triggered 😅😬💀
My partner introduced me to the Palia game and I cannot stop binge-playing...
....
It is a
PROBLEM
Doesn't eat or drink water for an extended period of time:
Why do I feel like DEATH
Credit: Sarah Andersen - Sarah Scribbles
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Husband and I have been afflicted by... something??? Awful.
Both of us are in horrendous stomach/abdominal pain. We're probably going to emergency here soon.
I'd rather be having contractions during labor vs what is hitting me now.
We both took the last two hydros from my old postpartum meds. For him it did nothing and for me it only took the edge off barely for maybe an hour before coming right back and knocking me out it got so bad.
Husband is someone who sorta goes by something similar to the farmer pain scale. If he's hurting, it's severe. Last time he was actually incapacitated, it was his first ever severe case of shingles.
He went to the hospital, and was on pain medication for a month or more. Which, if you knew him, you'd go "oh shit", cuz this man simply, powers through everything else below the severe category.
My only concern whenever needing the er for pain relief is their hoops to jump through. I'm autistic-adhd and do not display my pain like they expect.
My 6-10 and upwards on the pain scale is me internalizing it, shutting down, going non-verbal. I appear calm and collected which always makes them doubt the sincerity/severity of the pain level.
Hopefully with my husband and I both going in, he's verbal, we can get some relief. (Vent - Which is really irritating with doctors because last time I went nonverbal, I was still able to write it all down and the doctor refused to even look at the paper. So we fucking sat in silence until I choked out like 3 words and she based her entire limited understanding of my issues based on that. Not. You know. The extremely detailed notecard I brought in as a communication aid.)
I really wish doctors would see someone who's nonverbal from pain, unable to even hold focus/gaze, and general inability to interact as someone who hmmm might need help vs "I'm frustrated and flabbergasted that I can't easily checkmark boxes and send you on your way easy peasy" reaction a lot of doctors give in the city closest to us.
The moment they can't cure you from their pamplet checklist and get that pat on their back for doing a doctoring, they're fed up with you and instead make it your fault for being 'difficult'. (Sorry, vent because I just hate needing to go to the doctor for pain like this.)
The pain is creeping up into my chest now so I'm going to rest. We're waiting on a friend to come over to stay with our littles so we can go.
Wish us luck. 🤞🏻
has anyone else ever mistaken an adhd hyperfixation on a person for a crush? because i swear it happens to me every other month.
i love tea but i have adhd and always forget i’m making it and leave the bag in for too long so long story short i have developed a taste for strong tea
i hate spinach. ooh look at me chewing these leaves like a little rabbit. mmm crunchity munchity. fuck is that about
i love long conversations about nothing cuz like yeah i’ve known you for a year but in the past two and a half hours i’ve learned that we have the same cracker barrel order and i told you that i used to have recurring nightmares about the chick fil a cow
brain itchy. can't scratch it
i don't have "a touch of the tism" the tism fucking roundhoused me in my solar plexus
One brain cell to rule them all, and in the spiral bind them. 😅
My mental illnesses manifest as being a paladin main.
Neurotypical parents will force you to complete an overestimulating task while you are having an actual meltdown and call you dramatic then turn around and say: see, i knew you could do it!! 🥰!! Like what happened wasn't trauma.