And I Very Much Dealt With It, Rather Nicely In Fact.

And I very much dealt with it, rather nicely in fact.

rach has to deal w me being a total sap today

Because I can 😌

Harry: I clearly have a thing for assholes.

Draco: *gasps* did you just subtly called me an asshole?

Harry: No... I clearly said you're an asshole.

Harry: I clearly have a thing for assholes.

Draco: *gasps* did you just subtly called me an asshole?

Harry: No... I clearly said you're an asshole.

Okay now that I've finally finished heartstopper as a comic and series too and I know I'm definitely Charlie spring then WHERE IS MY NICK NELSON 💀???????

Apparently I'm having a class at 10 in the night by @drarrywords

Always my home

Hurt/comfort.

Love is perhaps like a wave that hits the shore. It's like when you're little and you go towards the wave to catch it but as soon as it comes towards you, you run away, but when you're old and much wiser and much more heart broken you run towards the wave and you wait for it to drown you. Love is perhaps that wave that never comes back and take you to the widest of the ocean to never be reunited with the shore again. You might reach another shore one day, but it's not home. 

Because home isn't a place, it's a person.

He was my home. All my life I thought loving someone would be the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do but he made it so easy, with his wicked jokes, his beautiful smile, his love for the most ultimate romance of all time, his gorgeous eyes and the heart that only ever had so much love to give. I think every time I looked at him, I loved him more and more and even though I never thought i’d be able to love him, I did and in all the time we spent together, I didn’t regret even a single moment even when he gave made that stupid badge just to get my attention. I loved the conversations we had, the intimacy we had, the calls we had, the texts we had- every moment I spent loving him have been the best moments of my life and I’d cherish them for as long as I live, for as long as the sun loves the moon, for as long as there’s a lover sitting by the window confessing their love to the moon, I’d love him with everything in me. Maybe there is a universe where him and I fight all the battles, where maybe we stay on the same side- always, where maybe we sit under the stars every night and dance, where maybe we go to karaoke’s so we sing our hearts out, where we sit across table and discuss our grocery list, where maybe we joke about in martian language in public and freak everyone out, where we hold each other's hand without ever fearing a moment where we don't hold hands, where we say I love you without fearing the world. Maybe there is a universe where we work out and I hoped that it was this universe but I don't think it is.

This perhaps is the universe where we don't work out because we're not the same him and I. We don't belong together, not here at least. We couldn't share our love in the secrecy of forbidden rooms or in the secrecy of notes passed between hallways. We can't be together because I can't have only half of him when I want to love the whole of him. We can't be together because we're not destined to be. I've heard it often that if things are supposed to work out with someone, they will, but apparently, me and him, thing's between us were never supposed to. I see him from a distance and I know one day he'll be someone else's and as much as that pains my wretched heart, I'm glad that someone would be able to love his heart in the ways I could've done all my life but couldn't but even if one day he comes back to me with his heart in the palm of his hand, I'll open mine and make space for his.

I hoped this was our universe, I still hope that it is but even if it isn't, It'll be okay. We'll be fine, both of us, with our heart's with someone else even if I only wanted my heart to be yours and yours to be mine but it'll be okay, I know one day It will be but if I'm sure of one thing, it's that, no matter what, he will always, always be my home.

An altered draft from what was supposed to be a part of ATW.

Tagging a few people for boost, you can ignore if you like <3 (don't hesitate to tell me if it's a bother)

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