October 1, 2008

October 1, 2008

Despair.

When despair felt like the best alternative to happiness, it was easier said than done to try and improve. The world was how it was going to be and there was very little I could do to change it… let alone the circumstance I was put inside.

Assistance was something I could only hope for.

Friendship wasn’t likely.

Love isn’t common.

Life never played in my favor. Almost like some story being written as the days went on—nothing was planned, just improvised for someone else’s enjoyment.

All the despair I feel from a life not lived has caught up. This life should have control, maybe I should try after so long.

Today will be the day

I made this a while ago to match the boys and the chibi BGs they got.

Akuma is a character I made to be a boyfriend who would love the "evil" sides of my personally. At this point in my life, I was struggling with feeling like I had darker thoughts than most, it didn't help almost everyone I knew at that point said I was mean and some compared me to a heartless killers. I am a little cynical, but nothing too serious.

At this point, I made a demon love me—a perceived angel with dark thoughts. I tried to see the positive in the world, but at this point I just couldn't and assumed I would be subjected to a life of evil.

The story is made to be humorous at some points as this is Akuma's (and my own) way to diffuse tense situations. Suppressing your heart's words is a running theme as Akuma denies his feelings. So this piece isn't from the story, but an example of Akuma's feelings once he comes to terms with them.

Alright, I'm gonna do something I've never done before...

Be consistent

All jokes aside. Between this being a draft and it going up. I'm going to challenge myself to write character scenes to introduce you all to the world of my many characters and their relationship with with my main character, Cassie.

The challenge: For the whole month of January, I have to post a small scene showcasing a few of my characters. They can be of any length, but they at least have to be more then 1k. If I can't reach that, then I'll have another story making up the difference.

Now, I'm expecting myself to fail because I become overwhelmed very easily; but I'm hoping this challenge will give me the necessary stress to actually finish it.

Update 1/03: I'm four days strong and I'm liking this challenge so far. I made a whole blog for this challenge, so go check it out!

So, wish me luck. If you want, you could participate as well, so I don't suffer alone but tag me so I can see your stories 🤗

Fasting looks interesting

Don't Always Write To Finish a Novel

I've had writer's block for almost a year now and it was only when I took a step back and just wrote whatever I wanted without thinking I needed to finish it, did it clear up. Stress is very real and the stress we give ourselves is stronger than any other.