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The Unmanipulated Diaries

Welcome to the Unmanipulated Diaries! We're Max or Kenneth (or Kenny, for short). This blog is an online diary of our experiences as a transmasc non-binary person that was originally manipulated into "remaining a girl" by our friends and family. This diary is our way of navigating who we are and getting comfortable being in our own skin again!

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I Can't Wait For The Day When We Can Get Our Leg Amputated. It'll Make Our Life So Much Easier, In Regards

I can't wait for the day when we can get our leg amputated. It'll make our life so much easier, in regards to dressing more masculinity or androgynously, in regards to pain levels, and so much more.

For context, our left leg is extremely screwed up (as in permanent damage-wise). Our knee is our biggest issue, constantly in pain, frequently swelling, subluxating and dislocating, giving out and being unsteady, and more—and we don't even have a diagnosis about what's wrong because we can't see all of the damage on MRIs or x-rays! Our ankle is also an issue, with being weak and hypermobile from constantly spraining, straining, and rolling it in elementary school. And last but not least, tendinitis. In not one, but more recently TWO tendons in our lower leg. (There's three tendons in lower legs.)

Our left leg is literally a piece of crap.

Someone take it away, please. I beg you. ToT

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

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Plural Ask Game

We figured we’d try making an ask game! This is for anyone who’s a system–regardless of origin–to use. Remember that you’re not obligated to answer any of these if any are too personal!

How many members are in your system, and does this number change frequently?

What are your collective pronouns, if you have any?

What’s your system name if you have one, and how did you choose it?

Are there any activities your system members like to do together? Collective hobbies? Talk about those!

What sort of music do people in your system like?

What’s the average age of your systemmates?

If you have a singletsona, what is it? Explain a bit about them!

Does anyone in your system have roles? If so, what roles?

How long have you been a system and/or known of your system?

How did you discover your system? What was the process?

What does switching feel like to you, if you switch at all? 

Are your switches voluntary, involuntary or a mix? How often do you do it, if at all?

What’s your favourite part of being a system?

What’s your least favourite part of being a system, if you’re comfortable sharing?

Are your headmates generally different from the physical body? How do they differ from it?

Do you have any fictives/factives/etc? Tell us a little about them!

Does your system have a headspace? Are there multiple of them? What are they like?

Are there differences between systemmates surrounding sensory things? (For example, one person likes the taste of one food and another doesn’t.)

Does anyone have any different accents, or speak any different languages?

How would you describe your system in 3 words or less?

Do you have any LGBT+ headmates? What do they identify as?

Does anyone outside of the internet know you’re a system?

Do you have any cool/funny stories from inside the headspace that you’d like to share?

What’s some advice you’d give to yourself when you were first discovering your system?

What is something you wish singlets knew about plurality?

We had one of our clubs today. It was really fun, though very dysphoric. We're not out to our clubmates yet because I'm the eldest, and we don't want to cause issues with the younger ones who may not understand yet. It was definitely awkward, though, like... that's not our name, but... okay... :,D

On the other hand, we'll be able to see one of our brothers this weekend! Hopefully, at least. (For privacy reasons, we'll just say that his parents and our parents are divorced.) We haven't seen him in almost a month, and he's really good at using our pronouns and names. And we made him a little gift, too, so we're excited to see how he'll react to it.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Michael (he/corpse/death), Mimic (he/it)


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Dysphoria is kicking our ass today, and we just woke up an hour ago.

Today's gonna be fun. /sarc

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)


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Absolutely Love Our Cargo Pants, Makes Us Feel So Masculine.

Absolutely love our cargo pants, makes us feel so masculine. <3

Just love our outfit in general, flannel is just so madculine-izing (in our opinion) and it's so nice.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Andie (he/she/web), Evan (xe/they)

We (most likely) get to see our (fellow trans) brother today! :D

We're excited lol—we made a bracelet for him at school a couple weeks ago with his favorite color, the trans flag, and his name, and we can't wait to see how he reacts!

So hopefully, we'll actually get to see him.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Andie (he/she/web)

Side note, I've been in front a lot recently. I wonder why that is... I'm literally just a fictive, I have no other role. xD


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