Gloomy

gloomy

I'm in one of my moods again.

Everything is fucking annoying, some posts I see on here piss me off a lil...

Everything is annoying me rn

I've always known I don't like talking to other people outside of my family (even them too)

Someone that lives in the same area as me my mom and sister was talking with us a lot today n took a lot of interest in me for some unforsaken reason..

I don't like it truthfully I don't, let me be invisible please don't acknowledge me leave me alone.

Their are reasons I keep to myself n have no friends irl but online friends I wouldn't mind because it's stressful but less stressful at the same time.

yeah, sorry i exhibited symptoms of the disorder i told you i have. it will happen again because i have that disorder and will continue having it. hope this helps!! 🫶🫶🫶

Y'know sometimes it takes some tik toks to make you really think..

I don't think I've really thought about or realized how much my childhood really shaped me into the person I am..

How instead of male yelling voices it's female yelling voices that trigger me the most I feel like a lil kid again scared and afraid and I hate feeling like that.

Same old thing no one notices it I tell them but they ignore me.

My mother says are triggers are our own and need to deal with them on our own..

But how when you've never learned how too?

I have audhd and she knows this she's been told since my childhood in school and out of school that things will be harder for me to learn...

Idk I think she thinks I make excuses for why I can't do certain things..

She makes things ten times harder on me "oh it's not that hard" " you can do it it's not that hard" but it is and I don't have the ability to really explain why I can't do it...

It seems like this is just me complaining about the same ol things I already have...

I know I'm pathetic I'm 25 n still living with my mom but I don't have anywhere else to go..