Dream Report For September 4th, 2019:

Dream report for September 4th, 2019:

      I lived in a four bedroom home with my Mom and my brothers. Everyone had a space for themselves but there was extra room and apparently my Mom invited my Father to visit us...

      When he showed up, he was acting very out of character, as if he had moved on from the past and wanted us to forget it too. But we felt he was being passive aggressive the whole time, as he was pretending to praise the nice home we have... The lighting in the room just warped around him the more we gave him attention.

      We ended up looking for a new home, away from P.A and back to Puerto Rico. My father was insisting on helping us find one. Except every house he brought us to see, was too small, or infested with bugs/rats. My brothers and I tried to enter each house, tried to make them fit our needs, but they got progressively worse.

      September is my personal month of The Moon. While my natal Moon sits in the house of Public life, its current transit fell over my 3rd house. The eighteenth Major arcana, represents Mars’ influence over the Third-Eye... The Moon naturally rules over this chakra, where our subconscious emotions and memories blend with our reality.

      Pluto teaches me the lessons of my 3rd house, as I learn to pair my internal reality along with my lived experiences. The sign of self-union reveals that I must personally explore social ideas and concepts that attach me to my beliefs, so that I might experience healthier duality in my self-enlightenment.

      As someone who has grown up estranged from my father, I had only so many memories to keep, and even less good ones. My parents would constantly fight in front of my brothers and I, inadvertently putting us in the middle of all their issues. It’s only because I’m able to reflect on the past as an adult, that I can safely process what those memories meant to me.

      Since I grew up in a broken household, and also as an immigrant, culturally estranged in a foreign land-- my values were also broken, estranged, foreign. I had to develop my own ideas about the world. And it did mean growing up quicker than I could process my childhood.

      While I didn’t have the agency of understanding how my traumas affected me, I was always conscientious of my own behaviors even as a kid. Being visibly queer, and constantly at the receiving end of unwanted attention-- my ability to transmute my self-conscious fixation, especially over my appearance, allowed me to reclaim a certain awareness. Really being able to channel that first house Mars, facing my ego. So it was my fears that informed how I could realize an identity that I was confident and secure with.

      As someone who lived on welfare, it was normal for my family to change address, practically bi-annually. The one thing that seemed consistent in my life, was actually school. Besides my parents being unavailable to raise me, at least my mother knew that I should stay in school. Except she didn’t catch on to the bullying and harassment I was experiencing. Long story short, I dropped out of high-school.

      This dream reflected to me how the cycle of insecurity rippled from my parents relationship, into my own relationship with my identity. I had been retracting myself from the conventional things that should represent my identity such as: money and class... So that I could find my real self beyond the weight of my unstable circumstances. That’s how my 5th house Neptune allowed me to actualize detachment from realities that I don’t value.

      In Joy’s case, her placement of Sun in Virgo highlights self-awareness as the method to progress into wholeness. The Violet aura resonates within abilities of the Crown chakra, which rules Aries and Leo. In Joy’s chart: Saturn in Aries could reveal where the main obstacles in her life are rooted, while Black Moon Lilith in Leo speaks to the depth of how that affects her character.

       The energy leak takes away from the quality of her bright personality which is a huge point of magnetism in her life. She’s meant to draw in the right people who share the same work ethic. However, her ability to enjoy the work she does may be thwarted by her ideals and expectations. 

      I’m getting that she is overwhelmed by coworkers and employers because of inconsistent communication. Stress around those situations goes straight to her head if she’s unable to express her thoughts candidly.

I designed this birth chart style to visualize the energy of the chakra system which corresponds to their ruling planet.

scott pilgrim vs the chakras!

i strung up a theory based within my personal understanding of the chakra system, because i found it was inconspicuously interpreted through the caricatures in this story. though i considered the movie more heavily, i pretty much merged the content of the storyline together with that of the comics so that i could draw out more tangible context.

the basis of this theory is mainly found in highlighting ramona’s exes to mirror characteristics of the chakras. i also analyze scott’s exes to round it off, further centering our main couple.

Lucas Lee: the Sacral Blocked by Sloth 

the skate-boarder turned movie-star shares a pretty uneventful past with ramona flowers. “sitting on the curb smoking” was the only thing flowers could recall about their relationship. but considering that she was pressured by his persistence, its clear that his energy as her partner didn’t live up to those stalker motivations at all. lee’s newfound popularity only managed to reinforce that one-sided infatuation. even though he has managed to build a career as an action movie-star, he is surrounded by doubles who do all his stunts. this signals to his weak identity and lack of inspiration. of course he’s defeated by a skateboarding dare because his sin of sloth blocked him from following through with his passions!

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      A 9th house Sun in Pisces means that you’re learning to surrender your personal beliefs in order to grow as a part of something bigger. So we would look across to the house of communication, sharing rulership between Virgo and Libra in your chart. While Mercury rules over that sign of self-awareness, your natal Mercury is in the house of Karmic attachments. That 8th house is specifically “splashing” into your 3rd!

We got here because of your life path 1, which is ruled by the Sun’s placement in your chart.

      I think that you are always a more observant and adaptive type of person, which has helped you become open towards other people’s ideas. But the 8th house planets: Mercury, Uranus and also Neptune will teach you to not rely on other people…

      Maybe you’re realizing that people around you are holding onto traditions that everyone seems to go along with even though it personally doesn’t really connect to who they are. Isn’t it weird how adult in our lives can convince themselves to follow certain rules... just because someone else said so-- and that someone else was told by someone else too?

If you’ve ever felt disappointed by people “in charge” it’s because they don’t inspire you. Maybe you’re meant to lead into inspiration by example. And a lot of people won’t see what you see or really get what you’re about.

      It will be challenging and even lonely to stray from the norm... but you won’t necessarily have to do it alone. Because as you realize your purpose you’re beginning to connect with the world you want to create. You have to reframe your beliefs to support your vision, which other people will absolutely share.

      The doodle I did looks like a piglet to me. It feels like you’re experiencing a throat chakra block because you take in too many ideas. Mercury and Jupiter in your chart are both in Air signs which focus on the power of sharing ideas. Consider how your character needs to be refined, so that you can cultivate your unique tastes and communicate what you really feel.

      Uranus and Neptune are powerful planets for our generation (Z-X) they want to awaken you to your higher potential so that you can be a contribution. Especially shedding cycles that have long run their course! But discovering your life’s purpose depends on how much work you’ve done to clear your personal blockages. Otherwise the lessons of the bigger planets will frustrate you.

Good luck~

      Your life purpose is different than your soul purpose. While your life purpose is defined by the work that you do, your soul purpose is defined by the lessons you receive throughout life.

      The first six houses show a range of autonomous states of consciousness which perpetuate our awareness of life. From our identity, possessions, duality, we naturally learn these lessons in engagement with fellow humankind.

      For instance: the sixth house represents lifestyle. This encompasses both the mundane tasks we carry to completion, as well as the elaborate rituals we orchestrate. It only takes a common understanding of our self autonomy, to be aware of the time we spend on varying activities...

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An excerpt of ZOMBIELAND (2009) script

This just shows me everything about Flagstaff as our main character. You see how he consolidates the catastrophe of “zombieism” by humanizing their context. He know’s that was just his neighbor at some point, and its clear he would likely had never gotten close to her apart from this drastic situation.