When I Once Again Remember That I Need To Go To Therapy In This Life. But Because I Still Live With My

When I once again remember that I need to go to therapy in this life. But because I still live with my dad and older brother [I am only 19 before you say anything and am also disabled in multiple ways] I would likely be forced into or "recommended" a Christian therapy place when I am not a Christian (my dad and brother do not know that and they won't until I move out).

This is why I don't see a therapist rn, pretty much, lol. I need to find one, though, and would really like one that will understand and accept my alterhumanity/nonhumanity and shit.

Random little rant/vent? Not really a vent, but idk what to call this

I have like nothing to add. Just mash face like cat.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/xe)

genuinely fucked up that if i want to interact with someone online i have to say words and have a conversation instead of just mashing my face against them like a cat

I mostly try and stay off of Tumblr too much when I'm age regressed cause I never know what I'll see cause not everything is tagged well and stuff.

However, I am on rn while regressed, lol. I wanna talk about memories [happier ones] to do with agere in my life as Zuki.

While I am very much in a partly regressed partly not most of the time in this life, I could fully regress most of the time in my life as Zuki.

When I was regressed, I liked to be called pup by a few people that I gave permission to. Dad and pa had permission as did Toshi and Zuku. Also Kari and Kats, lol.

Kats rarely called me pup though and it wasn't around others really, reputation or something like that, lol.

Being called pup always helped me with regressing as well, so it was pretty much just used when I was already regressed or wanting or needing to regress, lol.

Dad would be able to tell when I needed to regress even if I said I didn't want or need to, lol. He would usually call me pup when he noticed, and then I would regress almost instantly. Sometimes, I would say I wasn't little when I was regressed, lol.

Pa had a harder time seeing through my lies or whatever you wanna call them, lol. But was very great when I was regressed and he knew about it.

Zuku had an even easier time knowing this stuff than dad did cause he knew me longer and stuff. The first person to know about my regression and one of my favorites to go to.

Toshi, like pa, had a hard time knowing this stuff. But was amazing when he took care of me when I was little.

Kari knew almost as much as Zuku, lol. Kari also regressed sometimes [as did Zuku and Toshi and some others], so that helped. They were one of the ones I loved being around best while regressed, but all the ones mentioned are the best ones I loved being around, lol.

Kats knew a little less than Zuku but about the same as dad. He was also cool to be around while I was little, although you probably wouldn't guess that, lol.

This is all I'm gonna mention rn, so yeah.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/xe) :3c

New intro post, you can see my old intro posts by looking for "intro post" as a tag on my blog.

Hello, this is mainly my fictionkin account for my ockin, Zuki Shay Hara-Lupo. I am a noncanon MHA/BNHA being/creature. You can call me Zuki, Shay, or Lupo, whatever you prefer!

My canon was divergent from the manga and anime. If you want to know more about my canon, send in an ask, or you can see some things on my original intro posts. The only thing I will mention here is that UA was a college instead of a high school, so my class and I were all 18 at the start of the first year at UA.

In this life, I am currently 19, so keep that in mind. I don't mind minors interacting. Just know I am more hesitant to interact with minors myself.

I try and make sure my posts are all tagged well, especially for tw or cw, if you see a post of mine that doesn't have a tw or cw that needs to be tagged tagged, then let me know and I'll fix it.

I am alterhuman/nonhuman in more ways in this life and in my life as Zuki, so that will also be brought up on my account.

I will not answer/post any donation asks if you want to know why you should be able to find the posts I made about it by using the tag "donation asks".

I will block for any reason. Especially when it comes to hate.

This is an endo safe space. I will not judge systems/plural beings for their origins. If you don't like this, leave.

I am also disabled, both in this life and in my life as Zuki, so that will also be on my blog. [In this life for all the ones after this]. I am autistic and ADHD for sure. I have a learning disability and depression as well diagnosed. I believe I might have OCD and PTSD but am not sure yet. I know I have some form of anxiety, but it's not diagnosed.

Because of my disabilities, I need a service dog in this life. [I also had one as Zuki]. I will likely post more about the service dog when I finally get my stuff together and do more about it.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/he/hx/xe/ze/it + more neos/xenos) | currently a they/hx/it time for my pronouns

3rd & 4th poems to post. Posting these together cause they are related.

Tw/cw: violence(?), tearing skin, and bone mention.

Bare my Teeth and Tear 'my' Skin & Bare my Claws and Tear 'my' Skin

I want to bare my teeth

And tear at 'my' skin

Until all that's left

Is the bone underneath

For the bone will be

More right than the skin

Despite it still

Being wrong

But I cannot

For this body's

Teeth are not sharp

Enough to tear the skin

So I bare my teeth

At the image in the mirror

For it is wrong

It is not right

-------------------------------------------------------

I want to bare my claws

And tear at 'my' skin

Until all that's left

Is the bone underneath

For the bone will be

More right than the skin

Despite it still

Being wrong

But I cannot

For this body's

'Nails' are not sharp

Enough to tear the skin

So I bare my claws

At the image in the mirror

For it is wrong

It is not right

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

If I remember to actually check my asks, I'll participate!

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

alterhuman trick-or-treat!

as october comes to an end, the time for Spooky approaches. the creatures of the night awaken, their reflecting eyes shine in the darkness. and what better way to celebrate than a good old trick-or-treat?

inbox trick-or-treating is a beloved tradition here on tumblr, which consists in sending an ask to the blog(s) of you choice as if they were houses in your neighborhood and you were the kid politely knocking on their door. you would ask, "trick or treat?" and the asked would then choose whether to reply with a treat (picture of candy) or a trick (a joke, a poem, a haiku, a drawing...).

well... thats the normal one anyways.

i propose something a bit different this year: an alterhuman-themed trick-or-treat! what is that, youll ask? simple: the 31st of october, instead of sharing candy, we will share our 'types snacks! for example, if youre a cat therian you can share a fish-shaped treat, if youre fictionkin you can share your favorite food from your source, if youre alienkin you can share your cultures traditional dish... the possibilities are endless!

how to participate? reblog this post to let your followers know youre doing this! the 31st ill send an ask to everyone who interacted with this post so no one misses out on the fun. see you on halloween!