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𝑎𝑐𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑚𝑖𝑐 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑠 • 𝑎𝑟𝑚𝑖𝑛 𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑙𝑒𝑟𝑡 𝑥 𝑏𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟
just some adorable headcanons with armin and his long time academic sweetheart.
cw: black fem!, plus sized reader, both armin and reader are researchers and engaged, major fluff, mentions of med terms, comedy and banter, light nsfw, light angst
you first met armin when the two of you were in high school. He was the top of his class, excelling in all subjects and only rivaled by his fellow scholar, (y/n) (l/n). Your test scores were always neck and neck of course, the highest in the entire class. You guys weren’t exactly rivals but you didn’t talk much either.
that was until he noticed that you would sneak away from the class during lunch period and it wasn’t until he went to return a book did he realize that you were eating in the library by yourself this entire time. And of course, with your nose in a textbook.
“Mind if I join you?” “No..not at all..”
armin couldn’t understand for the life of him why such a sweet and gorgeous girl like you always ate alone. From what he could tell, you had no enemies..or any friends for that matter..even the would be cliche bullies never messed with you. So why? He couldn’t help but to ask.
“No one wants to be around someone with their face in a book and their mind in the clouds all day. Someone who has nothing to talk about except schoolwork. It’s always ‘boys, hanging out, hooking up’….none of that stuff interests me, y’know? So I gave up on trying to fit in. Not like anyone notices me anyway.”
armin most certainly did, he couldn’t help it when he watched you walk by on your way to your desk..smelling of vanilla, gorgeous face surrounded by big curls and round glasses, and of course, dressing so cute. Not to mention..you were brilliant. Matching his own intellect tenfold.
“I noticed..and I’d love to be your friend if you’ll let me.”
from that moment on, the two of you spoke everyday..always greeting you and even inviting you to hang with him and his friends. From there, you guys studied together, picked each other’s brains and you finally felt as if you belonged. But soon, that beautiful friendship, blossomed into a budding crush..on both sides! You fell for Armin after only a few months and it didn’t even take him a few weeks. He always wanted to be by your side, spend as much time with you as possible and even wanted to walk you home.
you guys would often go to the local coffee shop to talk about the new book you were reading or discussed some new discovery that had been made in scientific news..getting so swept in your conversations and each other, you’d be there until the streets lights came on and he’d have you sprinting to get home. You didn’t mind it though because you were happy to be with him.
high school was much more tolerable and a lot more fun. By senior year, you and armin were locked in, super close and practically in love. Voted student council presidents and for the first time, graduated as the only co-valedictorians because your GPA’s were too high and close to call it for one to be salutatorian. You guys attended prom together and looked absolutely darling. Literally everyone’s goals.
he even asked you to go with a sign of the periodic table and the elements spelling out prom and a box of nerds candy.
“Are you kidding? That’s the cutest thing I’ve ever seen.”
fast forward a few years, and not much changed! You guys were still two big nerds madly obsessed with one another. Eventually going on to a top university, majoring in the same field; pathology, research and development and sitting at the top of the class yet again. You guys done a lot of maturing during that time and grew into proper young adults. Even losing your virginity to one another..crying together on the night that you did so because it was so beautiful and overwhelming.
even thought your academic lives were quite hectic..sitting on this council, apart of this group and that research committee, you guys always made time for one another. Whether on one of your date nights where you’d get all dressed up to go out to a nice dinner and the museum or a play at the local amphitheater, it was always a great time. Or if you guys spent the day lazing around your off campus apartment, curled up in bed, drinking coffee while your two cats scoured the sheets as you binged your favorite movies together. Or even watching Jeopardy and seeing who can solve the most problems.
during college graduation and as your families snapped photos of you two in cap and gowns in front of your alma mater, he’d surprise you with a beautiful proposal by enlisting their help. Practically ruining the makeup you did prior because you were sobbing by the time he finished. And so was he..
“(Y/N), I don’t think—matter of fact, I know there isn’t a soul on this earth that completes me the way you do. Would you do me the absolute honor of spending the rest of our days together?” “Of course I will, ‘Min. I love you so much.”
a year or so passed and as you worked towards being able to afford the wedding you deserved, you guys began your residency at an esteemed research lab, practicing under top doctors and making names for yourselves in the scientific world. You had been featured in several publications, documenting your respective findings and what it could all mean for the world of medicine. You worked extremely hard but your main priorities were always one another!
♡ ౨ৎ 𝐍𝐞𝐫𝐝!𝐀𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 ౨ৎ ♡
₊ ⊹ armin definitely wears his glasses on the tip of his nose and constantly has to push them up
₊ ⊹ its because his little button nose!!! they are too big :(
₊ ⊹ all A’s. hes very strict about his work, lives for praise !!
₊ ⊹ always dresses in that dark academia vibe, and looks sooo gooood
₊ ⊹ he’s a neat freak, hates when everything is untidy it freaks him out
₊ ⊹ since he was an only child, ofc he was good at getting what he wants!
₊ ⊹ #1 manipulator .
₊ ⊹ has only two friends, eren and mikasa but eren is a airhead jock while mika is a goth.
₊ ⊹ accessories are a must for him
₊ ⊹ he loves rings!!
₊ ⊹ a sweet talker, but also very shy
₊ ⊹ man has NO games on his phone. loser.
₊ ⊹ his fav subject is def oceanography and marine biology
₊ ⊹ u were a freshman in college when u first meet, while he was a sophomore
₊ ⊹ u we’re struggling ofc, college was hard
₊ ⊹ and thankfully armin was willing to help!
₊ ⊹ and god.. u needed some work, u didnt know ANYTHING
౨ৎ
“alright.. so this is a trick question. which one is older? sponges, or dinosaurs?” he asked you, underlining and reader the question off of your textbook. “easy!! dinosaurs!” you excitedly answer, fixing the pink bows in your hair. “hm, can you tell me why?” he asked patiently, tilting his head and sitting the pen down, crossing his arms.
“well because, dinosaurs are like super duper old.. and like! they go waaay back!” you said confidently, earning a smile and a praise from armin. “good. and what about sponges?” he asked.
“well like you can make sponges whenever n like! m pretty sure there was no machines to make em!” you chirped. making armin way beyond confused. “what do you mean?” he furrowed his eyebrows. “yanno..? like, dish sponges..?” you answered in a sarcastic manner.
‘oh lord..’ he thought. “no.. no y/n. sea, sea sponges.” he sighed out, pinching the bridge of his nose. “ooooh!!” you said loudly, letting out a giggle.
“then dinosaurs ^_^.” ( the answer was sea sponges. )
౨ৎ
a/n: tehe!
hi first time ask so please can i request armin and jean and arwen moodboards please <3?
Dating Armin Arlert <3
=͟͟͞͞ ⌧ : bbyboy material. the other two will follow soon!!
𝐒𝐦𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐡 𝐰/ 𝐄𝐫𝐞𝐧, 𝐀𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧, 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐧 💨
Eren Yeager x Fem!reader | MDNI
Mentions of: roommate Armin, Connie, Jean and angry neighbor Levi
Synopsis: You’re Eren's girlfriend and he invited his friends over for a smoke session wich kinda escalated.
Warnings: Nsfw, drug use, slight exhibitionism, nipple play, slight humiliation, Connie and Jean recording your voices, fingering, penetration, lots of cuss words, Everyone being a dickhead aside from Armin cause he’s great <3
Wc: 3k+
Eren has been your boyfriend for almost 8 months now. You don’t know a lot of his friends besides Armin because he’s Eren's roommate, but you’ve heard about Connie and Jean before so you didn’t feel uncomfortable when Eren told you that they’re coming over.
He knows that you’re not the most extroverted, that’s why he told you that if you felt uneasy he’d tell them to leave but you were not bothered by Connie and Jean at all. They were really funny, and even Armin who has been pretty stressed lately was laughing at their jokes like crazy.
"No, I swear! He hit his head so hard that he walked around with a huge bruise on his forehead for at least two whole weeks!" Connie giggles at the story he just told while rolling two Joints so that Jean could pass in Erens direction and he could pass to Armin.
He’s sitting next to Jean on the end of Eren's bed wich is placed in on of the corners in his room.
He licks on the thin paper and rolls it up.
"Oh yeah? You don’t even get to talk Connie, at least my forehead isn’t as big as a fucking football helmet!" Jean yells while Armin is trying to keep his laughter in.
"Ohh shut up! Stop lying just cause you’re embarrassed!" Connie argues back.
"Guys stop yelling, I don’t want this short angry man hammering against my door again." Eren hushes them.
He sits on the head of the bed, with his back against the headboard while you’re placed between his legs, resting your head against his chest.
"Dude what are you talking about?" Connie laughs as he passes one of the joints to Jean.
"He’s talking about Mr. Ackerman, our neighbor." Armin explains. He sits with his head against the wall right next to you and Eren on the bed.
You have met Mr. Ackerman before, he’s very nice to you and Armin actually but he’s been giving your boyfriend a hard time lately.
"That man despises me!" Eren groans while rolling his eyes back.
"No he just… he thinks you’re a bit loud sometimes that’s it." Armin looks over to Eren.
"He called me a thug, and he said my music taste is trashy!" Eren says with a disgusted look on his face. He just can’t understand how his neighbor could dislike him after having such a nice talk with his mom just a week ago but he won’t let it get to him to much, at least he likes him more than his older brother.
"Somebody got a lighter?" Connie interrupts.
Jean reaches into his pocket and hands Connie a pink hello kitty lighter.
You immediately notice how familiar it looks as Connie lit up the Joint in his hand to pass the lighter back to Jean so that he could do the same.
"Hey that’s mine." You pout at Eren.
It’s the one he bought you about a month ago because you said it looked cute.
"'M sorry baby, I couldn’t find mine so I took yours when I went over to Jean last Friday." He says softly while he looks into your eyes and brushes a strand of hair out of your face.
"That’s a pretty lighter you got there Y/n." You look over at Jean to see him eying it up closely while Connie is taking the first hit. "Do you want it back?."
You nod slowly as he reaches out his arm and places the lighter softly in your hand while smiling at you.
"There you go." He winks.
"T-Thank you Jean." You mumble quietly.
He only smirks at you in response.
Eren isn’t exactly thrilled at the way that Jean looks at you but he won’t let his jealousy get the best of him again.
The next person that Connie passes the Joint to is Armin, since he noticed how exhausted he looked today. Armin has been studying night and day for the past weeks and the more that his grades went up his mood went down.
There’s dark circles around his eyes and his hair is all messed up. It’s normal for Eren to walk around like that but not really for him.
Armin starts inhaling the smoke from the joint and breathes out heavily as he sighs.
"Are you okay Min?” You ask him gently.
The first time you met Armin was almost a year ago during Eren's and your talking stage.
Armin has always been nothing but nice to you and he’s one of the most important people in Eren’s life, so of course you care about his well-being too.
"Yeah I’m just a bit tired today." Armin responds as he takes another hit.
"Cause you were up till like 5am." Jean huffs.
"So were you and Connie." Armin shrugs.
"Yeah but going out is way less exhausting than studying!" Connie comes in Jean's defense.
"Shut up, at least I don’t have to be worried about failing half of my classes." Armin rolls his eyes sarcastically. "Wow that’s how you think about me?"
Connie puts his hand up to his chest, pretending to feel his heart break.
"Don’t let it get to you bro, he’s just showing us his true colors." Jean joins the act.
Armin takes a few more hits before passing the joint to Eren while groaning annoyed.
"You want a hit Y/n?" Jean asks.
You nod and take it between your fingers before you put the tip between your lips and inhale deeply.
You don’t smoke a lot, of course from time to time but mostly when Eren's around.
"How do you feel?" Eren quietly whispers in your ear as his hand softly grabs your waist.
"'M good don’t worry." You wave off.
"Okay but take it easy." Eren responds.
"Fuck man look at Armin." Connie giggles as he points at the blond sitting next to you.
Armin’s eyes are watery and narrowed as he stares holes into the air.
"What’s wrong? Is something on my face?" He snaps out of trance and looks confused at Connie and Jean before turning his head in Eren's and your direction with a flustered look on his face.
"Nothings wrong Min, you look great." You put the hand that’s not holding the joint up to his cheek and check his eyes while you smile softly at him, as he blushes at your warming touch.
It’s easy to tell that Eren doesn’t like what he just saw by the way he pulls you closer.
"You heard that Eren? Armin looks 'great'."
Connie emphasizes the word „great“ while he draws air quotes with his fingers to express his sarcasm.
"Fuck off." Eren mumbles annoyed before taking another hit and passing his joint to Jean, leaving you out since you’re still smoking.
"See what you did y/n? Now he’s gonna act like a bitch all day." Connie complains jokingly.
"Dude don’t blame her, blame him!" Jean points at Armin.
"Why me?" Armin clearly feels insulted by being blamed for Eren's jealousy when everybody knows that Eren gets jealous all the time, even when he forgets why he was jealous in the first place after a few minutes.
"We’re joking, calm down" Connie laughs.
"You guys are so annoying." Armin huffs.
"Ohh so now we’re annoying huh?"
Eren doesn’t even care about his friends being dramatic right now.
The second he felt his body relaxing,
he couldn’t think about anything else besides how pretty you looked.
It was hard for him to focus on anything else as he pulls you closer and places his hand on your stomach.
You smell so good… is that a new fragrance? It definitely isn’t the one he bought you, but it smells really nice.
He takes your joint from between your fingers, puffs on it a single time and hands it to Connie before he slowly starts kissing your jawline down to your neck while ignoring everything happening around you two.
You can feel him sliding his hand under your shirt, just so he can slowly move it up to your chest, where he softly grabs one of your tits and squeezes it.
He so needy for you right now.
Your tits are always so warm and soft, it’s just so comforting to him.
He doesn’t even know why but he always loved your tits, they’re just so perfect and he wishes he could feel them all the time.
"Gross, get a room you two!" Jean grimaced.
"You got a problem Jeanboy?" Eren challenges him as he raises an eyebrow before pinching your nipple hard enough to make you let out a little gasp.
He knows exactly how much Jean hates that stupid nickname he gave him in 8th grade, that’s why it’s so much fun for him to use it all the time.
You’re so embarrassed at the way that Eren touches you in front of everybody.
Maybe you’re just paranoid but it feels like all eyes are laid on your body, watching your fingers trembling and your chest go up and down.
Eren notices your shaking hands gripping on his shirt and the shameful look on your face.
"Whats wrong?" He mumbles quietly, making it impossible for his friends to hear.
"Cut it Eren." Is all you get out.
You don’t want him touching you like this when people are watching and you also don’t want his friends to think badly of you.
"What?" Eren looks at you perplexed.
"Your girl just told you to fuck off!" Jean bawls loudly.
"You guys are fucking cock blocks." By the way Eren hisses at his friends it’s pretty obvious that he is annoyed right now.
"What did I do?" Armin looks at Eren offended, still smoking the joint that Connie had just handed him.
"Wasn’t talking to you." He hushes him.
"Stop the generalizations Yeager, Jean's the one you’re mad at! Armin and I were just enjoying the show!" Connie admits proudly, thinking he’s helping Armin by inserting himself into the conversation.
"What?!" Armin does not look to happy about the false statement Connie had just made.
"Don’t worry bro I got your back!" He just winks at Armin, pretending to be saving their asses right now.
"All of you need to shut the fuck up, just get out!"
At this point Eren is so pissed but he should have known better, he loves his friends but they are dickheads.
"I live here too?" Armin cheekily states as he raises his eyebrow.
He hates always being the one that gets punished for his friends bad behavior.
"I meant the living room." Eren clarifies.
"Ohh I see how it is… Eren's making us leave so he can get his little dick wet."
All of this is so embarrassing to you, you know why Eren told them to leave and the worst part is that they know too.
"Relax, we wanted to order pizza anyway. Let’s just go watch a movie or something." Jean says calmly. He sees how uneasy all of this makes you feel and just figures that you don’t know how to handle Connie’s and his humor yet.
"You’re on his side now?" Connie’s still going with the act.
"There’s no sides dumbass! Just look at Y/n, you’re gonna scare her off you idiot!" Jean's fist strikes Connie’s chest.
You wish you could hide your face right now.
The word 'flustered' is basically written on your forehead by now.
"It’s fine, we’ll go to the living room." Armin is way to exhausted to be dealing with bullshit like this right now.
He stands up and walks out of the room with Jean and Connie following him.
"Have fun bro." Connie boldly says while grinning at Eren as he closes the door.
"Why’d you do that?" you ask angrily as you turn around to face him.
"What?" He answers confused, as if he didn’t just humiliate you.
"What? Are you serious? That was so embarrassing!" You’re stunned at the fact that he literally doesn’t see anything wrong with what had just happened.
"If you think that was embarrassing then you never saw Connie or Jean try to hit on a girl." Eren smirks at the countless memories of his friends trying to impress random girls at parties.
You just huff in response, annoyed at the childish behavior of your boyfriend.
"Oh c’mon, don’t be like that." He pulls you closer and looks you in the eyes while his finger are pressing into the soft skin of your lower stomach.
"I know you want it too baby." A small smirk is painted on his lips as he takes of your shirt before he opens your bra-clamps behind your back with one hand.
As soon as your tits are freed he immediately latches on to them, sucking and biting on one of your nipples while toying with the other one.
Your try your best to stay quiet but when you feel his other hand open the buttons of your pants and slowly rubbing against you’re clit, you just can’t hold back anymore.
You whimper at the feeling of his fingers sliding the fabric of your panties to the side to insert his ring and middle finger in your tight pussy.
"Mhm let me hear you baby."
He smirks, satisfied with the fact that he knew you’d like it, before starting to suck on your other nipple.
Eren just loves the feeling of being right.
He slides his fingers in and out, feeling you clench around them and slowly getting more and more wet for him.
Soon the feeling of just his fingers wasn’t enough for you so you start pawing at the visibly hard bulge on his pants, hoping he’d give you what you want.
He just laughs at your pathetic action, before removing his fingers from your cunt and pressing them between your lips, so you can suck them clean.
"You want me so bad don’t you princess?"
He smirks wickedly.
You just nod, with your tongue still wrapped around his fingers.
"Mhm that’s what I thought. I feel nice today so I’ll give you what you want baby."
He removes your pants and underwear from your already twitching body before he takes off his sweater and loosens his belt to strip out of his pants and boxers too.
You grab him by his neck to pull him closer to place a long and sensual kiss on his lips.
Eren rubs his tip gently along your slit, using your wetness to thrust in easier.
You softly kiss and suck on his neck, leaving a few little hickeys and bruises.
"C’mon baby moan for me, I want everybody to hear how good I make you feel." Eren starts going faster and using his thumb to softly rub up and down your clit.
You cry out when you feel him hammering his dick inside of you, penetrating your g spot.
"Louder princess, I know you can!" He gives your tit a small squeeze before smacking it with his hand.
You whine at the pain, completely forgetting about the fact that his friends could probably hear you right now.
"Oh look at your tits baby, you’re nipples are all perked up." Eren smiles before starting to suck on them again.
You feel his teeth biting around the areola and his tongue leaving kitten licks all over you’re already swollen nipples.
You can tell he’s also close by the way he’s groaning in your ear and the fact that his thrust start getting messier.
He keeps on switching back and forth between your nipples, trying to give them his attention equally.
By the time he stops your nipples are already so puffy and sensitive that the feeling of his thumb rubbing over them feels ten times more arousing then normally.
"Are you close baby?" Eren asks as he looks down on you.
"Mhm m' so close Eren, please make me cum." You beg desperately.
"Let me hear your pretty moans again and I’ll let you cum." He says, speeding up one more time.
You start moaning in his ear, feeling that you’re already on the edge when he hits your g spot again, finally giving you the rest to cream around his cock.
A few seconds later Eren pulls out, releasing himself on your lower stomach.
"Fuck yes." He whispers under his breath before throwing his head back.
"I knew you could do it." He locks eyes with you again, still trying to calm his breath.
He pulls out and gives you a peck on the forehead before grabbing a tissue from his nightstand to wipe away the cum on your body when it suddenly knocks at his bedroom door.
"Eren… uhh I don’t wanna bother you but Mr.Ackerman is at the door and he asked me if I could tell you to uhm… 'keep it down'." Armin stammers.
"Tell him to fuck off." Eren shouts back pissed off at his noisy neighbor not being able to mind his business.
"I refuse to do that." You hear Armin decline your boyfriends offer from the other side of the door.
"Then tell him that I’m busy." Eren groans annoyed.
"Fine but if this happens again I won’t back you up!" Armin states clearly before you can hear his footsteps becoming quieter until he’s completely gone and it’s silent again.
"Can you believe that?" He looks at you irritated.
"Maybe we were being a bit loud." You admit quietly.
"So what? This is my house." He says annoyed.
"Well technically…" you start as he interrupts you. "Don’t even start Y/n!"
"I’m sorry, I love you baby." You giggle.
"Yeah whatever." He looks away with a stern look on his face.
"C’mon say it back!" You playfully hit his chest.
"I love you too." He rolls his eyes before giving you a small peck on the lips.
"Do you think Connie and Jean are still here?" You ask curiously.
Of course you think it’s embarrassing when Armin hears Eren and you having sex, but at least you know that he would never mention it to you.
Connie and Jean on the other hand have no filter. They would totally joke about it.
Eren grabs his phone from his nightstand and looks at his Homescreen.
"They sure are." He sighs.
"How do you know?"
He turns his phone screen towards you and opens a contact named 'Bald bitch'.
"What’s that?" You ask confused. There’s only a single new voice message that’s about 25 seconds long.
"Press play." He calmly speaks.
It’s like your soul left your body when you heard Connie and Jean fake moaning and joking around while Armin was mumbling something along the lines of "he isn’t going to like this guys.".
You could hear yourself whining in the background as Eren was saying something that you couldn’t understand clearly.
"Those two bastards." Eren rolls his eyes.
"That’s what I sound like when I’m having sex?"
"What’s wrong with it? I think you sound beautiful baby."
"This is horrible."
Next time when Eren wants to sleep with you while his friends are over, your definitely saying no.
This was so much fun to write even if it took me forever!!
I noticed that I write a lot about Eren and kinda wanted to get away from that even if I love him lmao.
My newest work:
being best friends with armin arlert headcanons
is- IS THIS AN AOT HC?? tbh i haven’t really done aot hcs before but IM IN AN AOT MOOD. gn!reader ofc
taking this into consideration, SOME POINTS MAY BE INACCURATE OR REPETITIVE AND I’M SORRY (literally say that every time) enjoy tho!
CW: some important spoilers so if you haven’t watched up to s3 don’t read! (unless you want to idk 😟) and hint at death. talking about killing titans. happy reading!
takes place in seasons 1-3
HEY THERE aRemEEn
you guys would meet at cadet corps. one night, you’d overhear him talking about the ocean with ereh and mikasan.
you’d lowk be amazed but think he’s crazy.
promises you he isn’t and rants about the ocean for ages.
after this, you guys would be really acquainted and hang out from time to time.
our buddy armin IS VERY SMART AND READS A LOT! he’ll always tell you all of the new information he’s learned and you’ll always be be down to listen.
“y/n!!! i was reading this book about (insert topic) and...”
if you also like reading, you’d take turns telling each other about your books (mini bookclub).
ofc, befriending armin includes befriending eremika.
mikasa likes to hang with you in the “talks a lot; listens” dynamic. where she’s the listens.
she’ll also help train with you!!
eren would tell you about how much he wants to kill the titans and why he hates them sm. he’d also ask about your techniques.
they like you tho.
armin will remember his grandpa and get sad sometimes and you will notice.
it’ll take him awhile to open up about that and what happened at shiganshina but once he does you’ll always be there for him when times like that happen.
when levi makes you brats guys clean you’ll do chores together.
armin is not very confident with himself and his strategies at times, so you have to be personal hypeman and be like “no❤️”
and vice versa. he thinks you’re so cool and you think he’s super awesome and smart. you can’t have each other doubting yourselves.
he’d share his tactics and thoughts with you for feedback.
when reiner and bertolto reveal they’re the colossal and armored titan you’re there to comfort him during that confusion and mix and jumble of emotions.
and then the whole pretending to be historia act our poor boy 😔.
he needs a break.
HIS HUGS ARE SO COMFORTING
like if you’re not feeling yourself he’ll notice like *snap* that. and give you a hug.
will listen if you wanna talk but if not he’ll just be there to get your mind off of it.
on free days, you guys will do picnics!
really great way to wind down and bond at the same time 😌
if he’s in town and sees a random object that reminds him of you he’d get it and show it to you.
when levi squad finally go to the ocean, everyone is speechless (obvs like in the scene)
while everyone is splashing around armin would be like
“i told you it was real” and get excited at all the things he finds that the book listed. (my wording is so bad i’m so sorry)
omg having a shell collection together
TO SUMMARIZE: armin loves sharing things with you, and is really happy he has another person in his life he cares about :D
aot masterlist
settling in • a. artlert
moving into a new place with your fiancée and he has the perfect idea to get you two acquainted with it!
word count: 3.9K
pwp, black fem reader, nursing au plotline, lowkey filthy smut, spit play, he fucks reader in a chair, praise kink, squirting, oral (f. receiving) brief a eating (iykwim), fingering, creampie, full nelson, pet names + daddy is used.
it’s been forever and fifteen days since I’ve written for my pooh bear armeen (I lowkey missed him) and writing so here we are
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“Is that it?”
“Yeah..looks like it was the last one. Finally.”
a heavy sigh of relief, along with a wave of pride came rushing over the twenty four year old as he faintly kicked the door shut and locked it behind himself and his beautiful bride to be. Carrying in the remaining boxes from a long and daunting move. It was a surreal moment to say the very least. Neither of you could believe that in just a few months, you’d be marrying the love of your life, with successful jobs and what seemed like a far off reality, now owning your place. A single family home with two bedrooms and two baths, a beautiful kitchen and everything that you could’ve ever wanted! If anyone had told you guys that this would be your future, you’d never believe them. It seemed like just yesterday, the two of you were partying and doing dumb, dangerous things. Now, (y/n) was working as a Human Resources manager and in the same hospital where your soon to be husband worked as a registered nurse. It was ideal in all the ways imaginable. Armin Artlert was always regarded as someone who was extremely intelligent with a good head on his shoulders. Someone who’d undoubtedly walk the straight and narrow..unfortunately, he veered from that path when he met you. Not so much that you dragged him down or deterred him from his goals, but you kept him good and preoccupied! Meeting for hookups when the both of you should have been studying. Him snatching you from class early just to smoke you out and have sex..it was very unbecoming of both of you and although you were both madly in love, it wasn’t enough and you made the heartbreaking decision to separate for a while. At least until your goals were met and you were both in a good place. Fast forward almost two years and your lives couldn’t be better. On the day of his nursing school graduation, Armin dropped to a knee in front of everyone and asked you to be his wife. He knew he couldn’t go a step further into his future unless you were right there beside him, to do it for eternity. And with bells, you accepted! Nearly ruining your makeup after his doting speech. Now, things were looking brighter than ever and you both had so much to look forward to. In both your personal lives and careers..
“…we really did it, huh?” The tears welled in your eyes at the uttering of the words. Truthfully, you were overcome with emotion. Especially because you’d never imagined this life for yourself..a wife, a career woman or homeowner. It felt like something you’d never even dreamed of and yet, you were thankful you’d crossed paths with this man. You loved Armin so much and you were so glad that there was no question, that he was all yours. And that this life? It was one that you were going to build together.
“Yes we did..and I’m so proud. Of both of us. I love you, (y/n).” Softly muttering with his hands cradling your own; pulling you closer towards him as he wrapped you in an embrace. “Hey angel..what’s wrong? Why are you crying?” It was inevitable, truly. You were always so emotional..so loving with a sensitive nature but he couldn’t understand why you’d be shedding tears at such a joyous occasion. Even so, he held you close and even swiped your tears away with tender kisses. “I’m sorry..I’m just so happy. ‘S all..” he didn’t hold it against you though. It was quite overwhelming to think about but right now, his focus was on celebration and enjoying your new space. Cradling you to his chest, your fiancé placed a kiss atop your head and cupped your face in his palms. “Well I am too. I love you so much, you know that right?” His cheeks flustered red and raised from ear to ear as he just examined you for a moment. You were so beautiful, he honestly couldn’t believe that he’d be spending the rest of his life, waking up next to this beautiful face. That gorgeous skin, those prominent yet delicate features. Everything about you made his heart flutter..
“I love you too, so much more..”
but alas, it wasn’t the only organ that you seemed to garner a reaction out of..whilst standing there; his frame towering slightly above your own, Armin couldn’t help but to ponder on those past memories. All of those wild nights together..the partying, the drinking and of course, the steamy, late night sexscapades you two partook in. It was truly the highlight of your week and now, you could do so whenever you wanted. Living under the same roof. For the time that he was away from you, Armin had spent many nights thinking of all the things he’d do once he got you back in his life. How he’d spoil you, how'd he cherish you, the way he’d make a conscious effort every single day to show his affection…and of course…
“Mm, is that so? You think you love me more?”
how he’d make love to you in a way that’d transcend all of the drunken, weed fueled sex you’d had in the past! This time was different, more intimate and far more special than all those times before. He wanted you to know that above all else, you were his number one priority.
“Yes I do..” smirking whilst a finger trailed down his chest and back up to his chin; chewing at your lower lip and glancing up at him. It wasn't hard to deduce what was on both of your minds at the moment. The teasing, the playful banter..it was all bound to lead to one thing.
“Well I don’t think that’s possible, babe. I mean…I could just show you how much I adore you…— just then, you’d feel his lips move to your neck and snake up to your ear, where he whispered. “But I don’t think you could handle that.” Still cradling you close. Meanwhile, his ink laden hands; decorated in beautiful tattoos, snakes around to your backside and squeezed it tightly. He’d been trying to contain himself all day but watching you strut about, carrying item after item into your new home, in nothing more than a thin tank top and shorts that had your plump ass swaying with each step. The way your soft skin absolutely flowed underneath the sunlight, almost as if you were some sort of deity, and his favorite…those perfectly round tits sitting up in that shirt. He had to exercise all of his restraint not to rip you out of it right there! But now, you were alone and nothing could stand in the way of it. Besides, what better way to break the new place in?!
“Oh trust, honey. I’m a big girl…I can take whatever you throw at me.” Alluding to much more suggestive things. “Good to know..” There was no need in beating around the bush so with that declaration, Armin roped those hands around the back of your neck as the gap between your bodies closed. It wasn’t long before you were snaking your tongues down each other’s throats, biting at the other’s lower lip and whimpering into the kiss. The teeming passion and unbridled lust that had been bubbling inside of you guys could no longer be sated. Eventually, you found yourselves, trying to rip each other out of your clothes and you’d subtly walk backwards until your calves were knocking against the new recliner..not even out of its plastic yet. (Y/N) took a seat and lowered Armin with you as your hand cradled the back of his head. He didn’t waste any time in teasing you as he was certain you’d become all flustered and just beg him relentlessly. He did however, pull away and tug your tank top down with him. Revealing those beautiful breasts and erect nipples. Those perfect brown buds quickly disappeared into his mouth and he’d suckle; whimpering out of pure pleasure.
“Mmmph..I definitely missed this..”
a look of deviation shrouded his face as he cupped your tits into his palms and ravaged them. “I can tell…mmm!..” He always did have a fixation on your chest and would get lost in foreplay alone. Licking, suckling and latching onto them as he fingered you slowly. Slender digits buried to the hilt inside of you..you’d be left a dripping puddle of cream by the time he finished.
“Put those legs up here for me…” instructing you to place your calves on either side of the chair arms and spread yourself open. To which you’d happily comply…ready to show him exactly how needy and desperate you were for things to escalate. “Thereee we go. God, I can’t wait to taste you..” eagerly rubbing your thighs and leaving a trail of kisses along the insides, even licking all around the skin, just to garner a reaction. He could tell by the way you chewed your finger, you were burning up with equal anticipation to have him devour you..so with those legs parted wide, Armin placed both palms flat into your skin and pinned you down, after removing your shorts and tugging that thong to the side. Part of him wanted to sit here and admire you and the other half just wanted to feast hungrily on this pretty cunt of yours. Dredging his fingertips slightly over the slick lined opening, he’d suck his teeth; grunting and moaning for you..
“This pussy’s so fucking fat..and pretty. And she’s so wet f’r me already…”
just doting on your sex as he peeled the hood of your clit back with his thumb pad to stroke it. Meanwhile, you were about to come undone from anticipation and teasing. Clutching your tits, (y/n) bit your lip once more and whimpered, all but begging him to quit stalling. “Baaabe. Please..” which did nothing more than rile him up even more and give him the deeper urge to mess with you. “What’s the matter? Something on your mind, gorgeous?” Which only earned him a flustered laugh and the cutest plea as you bucked your hips towards his face and against his fingers. Armin was notorious for making you wait and beg for it..something about watching you writhe and moan, begging for him to touch you just really turned him on. “C’mon, baby..if you want something, say it. I’ve got all night..” chuckling with that deviant, icy glare in his eyes. Those blue lens’ fixated on you with precision..he wasn’t moving until he heard the fateful words exit your lips and luckily for the both of you…it didn’t take long to crack!
“Mmmph…just eat my pussy, please..fuck I need it. Need you so bad..”
and with that declaration, Armin felt confident in giving you what you desired.
“Aw, is that it?…well why didn't you just say so, sweetheart?” Just then, with his gaze still very much fixated on his girl, the mischievous blonde slid one single digit inside of you as he watched your reaction shift..pleasure struck all over your face as he finally made contact with that entrance. It had admittedly been nearly a month since the two of you engaged in any sort of sexual activity. With this move, transitioning into new jobs and such, it barely left time for each other. Life hadn’t seemed to slow down at all. However, this was your chance to atone for that and best believe you were going to spend the rest of the night, up until the morning doing so. All in the comfort of your new home.. “You know I aim to please..” finally snaking his tongue out, Armin lapped it against your clit and began swirling it around those folds. Flicking it in and out, suckling and slurping…he didn’t hold back on his little feast. Meanwhile, that finger was still working your over to relieve that tightness. He’d add a second one eventually and pump that little hole while continuing to eat your pussy mercilessly. “Oh fuck…s’ good. Right there, baby..yes..” you’d claw at the unwrapped cushions but he’d instruct you to place your hands elsewhere, wanting you to guide him along for your pleasure. “Pull my hair, baby ... .put that shit in my face..” cursing under his breath as his ascent into your sex continued. Latching onto your clit, Armin suckled on it for a full minute whilst pumping those two digits in and out…by this time, a puddle had begun to form underneath your ass. The pearly shade adding such a beautiful contrast on your skin.
“You’re creaming already, babe? Ooh..you gotta save some for me..need to feel that.” Even so, Armin persisted and kept devouring that delicious cunt whilst your fingers snaked between his blonde tresses and tugged him along. Your head dangled back in pleasure as you cried out, pushing yourself into his face. He was so enamored with the way you reacted to him. The way it spasmed around those knuckles, the way you leaked even more, those sweet juices trickling down his chin, when he touched the tip of his tongue to your aching little bud and especially when he momentarily flicked himself around your other entrance and caused you to release another pretty whimper. “Somebody likes that..sticking my tongue in that pretty little asshole. I think you might come if I keep doing that.” Which made you both giggle. “Yeah..feels so fucking good though.” He’d pause for a brief moment, letting you both recuperate and that’s when you’d all but demand that he give you what you really needed. But not without a little persuasion, of course!
“What was that? You want what?”
“For you to fuck meee..”
drawing out your words in a flustered whine, jolting around as he stroked himself underneath, mocking and taunting your pleas. “To fuck you?” “Yesss, I need that dick so bad.” By this time, you were playing with yourself to quell your urges. Unable to wait for him to do so. “Aw, somebody’s needy today. Don’t worry, sweetheart. I’ll take care of you.” Reassuring you as he rose to his feet. Just then, Armin would lob a trail of spit in between your folds and simultaneously grasp the base of his cock, stroking upwards to get himself aroused. Which was already in play…between eating you out and those adorable whimpers, he was aching to sink himself inside of you. “Look what you did to me…fuck, you turn me on so much, baby..” crying out in that whiny yet sultry tone; sucking his teeth and glaring down at you as he aligned himself with your slit. Tapping that aching head against your entrance, Armin slowly but surely teased the tip right up against you. But alas, you were growing impatient. So with your legs spread wide, feet brushing his forearms and a direct view of both of your lower halves, you’d reach forward to help guide him..
“You gonna put it in for me?” Prompting you to nod and lick your lips as your flesh finally met. “Go ahead, beautiful. This is your dick, you use me how you want to..”
and with that, you’d feed that stiff, throbbing cock into you until it reached the halfway mark. The initial sensation caused both of you to erupt into loud groans and expletives..he was rather girthy despite his lanky stature but he certainly didn’t lack in size either..nearing around seven or so inches with round, plump balls. It was perfect..even so, you were still one and only weakness. He didn’t want to sit idle but he felt the second he began thrusting, his clock would proceed to tick as well..fearful that he may not last as long as he’d hope for. “Fuck, fuck…you’re so tight, angel.” Gripping the back of his chair, he’d attempt to regain his balance and establish a rhythm. Pounding slowly into you whilst not making direct eye contact. That would only shorten his stamina if anything..seeing that pretty face while he was in it? He’d fill you up on the spot.
“I remember when we first started having sex and I couldn’t last more than two minutes with you..” recollecting on your past hookups. Which prompted you both to laugh. Granted, you had only been with two other people prior to Armin, with one night stands but they were never memorable. Lasted all of ten minutes before you dipped..but with him? You could never forget it. Whether it was him being flustered and nervous because you felt way too good. So much so that he came in less than five minutes and was so embarrassed about it. But you thought it was adorable, actually. He was so doting, gentle and made sure you were okay the entire time. You two took the time to actually learn and explore one another’s bodies. Touching, massaging and even masturbating together..it was that sensuality that made it all the more special.
“You say that like it’s a bad thing…and you were the only one to ever make me come that hard.” Doting on your man as he slid in and out of you. (Y/N) slowly stroked your clit to match his pace, rolling those fingertips on that sensitive bud..
“And you stretch me out so fucking good, baby..mm, that dick feels so good..” “..yeah? Feel good, sweetheart? Like the way I’m fucking this little pussy?”
your encouragement seemed to incite something inside of him..just then, you’d feel those strokes get deeper and a tad bit faster. Jolting you around and making those perky titties away with each one. He still had his hands planted to the back of the chair but he was finally able to make eye contact with his beloved and when he saw your expressions, he just became more enthused to fuck you! He’d then snake the free hand around your throat and choke you slightly as he cooed to you. “It feels good when I’m pounding you, baby? Making that shit cream on me?..” Naturally, he knew the response just by your body language and enjoyed hearing you answer with soft whimpers and cries.
“Yes daddy, oh my gosh! You’re fucking me so good right now…’m gonna come.”
which he knew was no fake out. He could feel that grip tightening more and more by the second. And if that wasn’t any indication, the way you were smacking at his now exposed abs as he tucked the tail end of his shirt between his teeth, was more than enough. “Ooh, I know you do, angel. I can feel how close you are..you’re squeezing me. Tell me, are you gonna give me what I want?” Questioning as that clutched hand brought a thumb up to your soft lips, allowing you to suckle. You knew exactly what he was alluding to and truthfully, he had no other choice..you were prepared to let it all go for him. Whatever he desired..replacing that thumb pad with his own lips, Armin fed you a couple of sloppy kisses, before asking you once more and when you responded accordingly, all but begging him as he sped up again, he’d give you his permission and command..
“That’s all I needed to hear…come, now..” needless to say, he was not disappointed with the result. He’d meet you with as many strokes as possible, letting out tiny spurts of the sweet nectar until you’d all but push him out and squirt all over the place. Armin couldn’t help but to be overcome with excitement as he watched you make a giant mess because of him.
“That’s what I’m talking about, baby..come on this dick..fuuuck yes.” Meanwhile, you were trembling as the remnants of those juices exited your body and you were left trembling from the sensation. Yet you found yourself longing for more and it took your fiancé no time to notice. Leaning forward, he’d cup your face and swish his tongue around in your mouth. But even that wasn’t enough to sate his appetite for you. Because just when you thought he was about to reach that climatic peak along with you, you were in for another surprise. Coiling those legs tightly around his firearms, Armin tugged you closer and instructed you to grab him. “Wrap your arms around me, baby. Hold on.” With that, you found yourself hoisted midair and propelled onto his cock. The sensation is just as equally warming and comforting as the first time…he’d become a lot stronger than the Armin you met in highschool. A lot more muscular and a hell of a lot more confident..
“I swear I’ll never get tired of fucking you..feels so good every time I’m inside of you…don’t even wanna pull out..” as he thrusted and bucked his hips upward into you, he’d rattle off and sing your praises. You were reaching your breaking point but you couldn’t stop glaring into his eyes. Wanting to reach that peak together..needing to watch his reactions. You were fixated, obsessed with one another..madly in love. And you were going to consummate that very love in your new home. “Kiss me..kiss me while I come in that pretty pussy..please..” all but begging as your lower halves smacked together in a sticky sheath. Flailing your head back, (y/n) cried out and clawed your nails into his neck, begging for all he had whilst hammering into that tight cunt. “Just like that, Armin! Right there, baby..” Your tongues clashed in a heated twist of passion and before long…
“Oh fuck..oh fuck..I’m coming, baby..” he couldn’t contain himself any longer and those thrusts became sporadic, a lot more uncontrollable and before long, he was pouring every drop of that warm seed into your womb. Tugging you down and keeping you in place until he couldn’t spill another drop. You’d both release ear shattering cries, laced with passionate ‘I love you’s’ as you rode out those orgasms in unity. It was certainly a night that neither of you would ever forget.
“I’m so happy I get to do this for the rest of my life with you..and to call you my wife.”
Chuckling as the two of you engaged in tender kisses. Letting your bodies become enraptured in the moment. Finally allowing it all to sink in..
“Yeah, you’re stuck with me..get used to it.”
“And I wouldn’t want it any other way. Who else is going to be
From mere strangers to absolute lovers, hooking up to coming home together.. it was funny how life worked…years ago, you’d never imagined that this would be your future. But now? You couldn’t picture a world where this man was not a part of it. You’d cherish this night, this moment and the beautiful ones to come, as long as he was by your side.
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(armin’s ‘super shy’ after meeting you at a bookstore)
a/n: why can’t this happen to meee? anyways here!
c/w: black reader (like always!), cussing, armin seems like a weirdo but it's cute idc, literally soooo much cuteness, i recommend listening to the song it goes well with it!
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opening the bookstore door, you immediately walked towards the young adult section scouting for 2 new books you've wanted for a while, ‘the weight of blood’ and ‘my week with him.’ soft piano covers of pop music played on the store’s radio and when you bent down, you found both books in the same shelf which was very odd, but either way it was a very cool coicendence.
a semi-tall, blonde haired boy whistled around the store, trying to find the young adult section, and when he did, he did a ‘yes’ motion he hoped to find a book that would satisfy his best friend's taste, since her birthday was coming up, and abruptly stopped, noticing a beautiful girl bent down, examining the book she was holding.
he couldn’t help but to stare at you.
he admired your light blue flared leggings, which was his favorite color, that covered your snow covered uggs. matching sweatshirt with the same color, and your black, puffed northface jacket really sealed the look together. it was simple, yet armin was still infatuated with you, especially when you finally got up and and turned his way, letting him see your gorgeous face, “shit”
armin, feeling all flustered and nervous, looked the other way, but you caught him just before he turned and giggled, muttering along the lines with, “....he’s so cute…”
he looked at you once again, seeing you brush your ginger curls from your face, a small smile coated your face, “hm?” “oh-uh nothing! nothing,” you looked at the shelf infront of you, ‘admiring’ the books in your eye sight, hearing the mysterious yet cute blonde chuckle, “you sure, cause i think you just called me…cute? i mean, i’ve been called that many times,” armin cockily boasts, cussing to himself knowing he’s just acting like jean now.
“uhh…okay?” he noticed how your tone changed and saw you staring to walk off, “w-wait, i’m so sorry about that, i’m not u-usually cocky, it’s just my friend jean’s like that when getting girls and told me to try it out…but i see that’s not working on huh?” you stared at the boy for a good 10 seconds, then immediately cackled, “aww oh my god! yeah being cocky isn’t a good look for you, just be yourself.” he nodded and noticed how you suddenly didn’t wanna leave anymore,
“so…what’s your favorite type of book?” he motioned for you to walk around the store with him, “i’m more of a romance and thriller type of reader, specifically more drama and mystery types, what about you?” “i love romance books, and non-fiction books as well, no matter if it’s about plants, animals, sea life, people, you name it! i’ll read it.” you noticed the book choices in his hands, “ahh, well are you in more of a thriller mood this time?”
“hm?” he looked at you in pure confusion. you nudge your head toward the books, “the choice of books in your hand?” “huh? ohhhh no, these are for my best friend mikasa. her birthday’s tomorrow and she’s gushed about these so yeah,” nodding slowly, you walked up to the register, letting the guy ring you up along with armin’s in the same ticket, “uhh-our books are separate-”
“no they’re not,” he swiped his card with quickness, “let me?” you backed up with ease, and when he was all done he put your 2 books in a different bag, following you out the doors “so….”
“so..also thank you for buying my books, you really didn’t have too,”
“it was my pleasure, besides wanna hangout?” “huh? you had a puzzled look on your face but inside you were screeching, “i wanna go out with you,” he smiled at your perplexed face, “you wanna go with me? why?”
“well yeah, duh! you're really cool and interesting and cute.” he winked which left you all smiley and such, “well where do you wanna go?”
“we could find a little spot around, maybe to just sit and talk to each other for a bit.” you looked down at your attire, then back at his face, “but i don’t look nice for us to hangout, i don't have on any makeup and i’m wearing my casual, in the house clothes,”
“i think you’re looking real pretty right now,” thinking to yourself, you thought of all the possibilities of what could go wrong, but armin wasn’t gonna wait around in this cold weather, “come on and follow me,” he walked down the strip with youe soft hand in his, while you were still in thought.
then suddenly, one major question finally popped up!
“you don’t even know my name, do ya?”
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a/n: lowkey liked how i incorporated the lyrics like omggg but this is soooo adorable and soooo fucking short but i might make another part with another newjeans song, anyways bye!
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it’s fascinating how such a small object can subject you to such feelings of trepidation and unease.
you feel silly, however, you suppose these feelings are warranted as you stare at the small key held between two of your fingers. how are you supposed to be one hundred percent sure that he’s okay with this? armin had given it to you weeks ago . . . months ago, even. “use it whenever,” he told you. “i don’t even have to be home.”
he could just be saying that.
you’ve held off on it for so long — and you’re aware he’s noticed. armin’ll never say anything about it, though. that’s the kind of guy he is . . . patient, caring, understanding, likes to let you go through and process situations like these, especially regarding your relationship, on your own time without hovering. and while you appreciate it, sometimes you feel comparatively . . . inane. because while it’s a first relationship for the both of you, armin seems to have it all down pat.
it’s as though he’s mastered the course of perfect partner 101 while you’re still on the first lesson.
it’s just a key, you tell yourself.
he even went out of his way to find one of those key customizer booths and have it layered with a matte baby pink and an engraving of your initials on it . . see. he’s so sweet, it’s vexing.
it’s just a key.
timidly, you lead the ridges of the blade through the slat of the doorlock. there’s a sharp twist as you rotate it towards the left and come the door opening seconds later, you’re greeted with the welcoming scent of woodsy vanilla.
his loft is quiet . . it always is, never mind the building sitting right within the heart of the city. it’s high, though, maybe that’s why . . perched on the highest floor of an old industrial building that got renovated only five or so years back. the wall of windows are all triple paned.
you love armin’s loft.
while modernized with hanging, matte black light fixtures in the kitchen, a seventy inch flat screen that reverts into the floor of his living area whenever no longer needed, and a navy blue, six seater berlin module sectional, there still remains a sort of, timeless, charming edge to it all. you think it’s the open, dark bricked walls and lone canvases of art propped up about — an unfinished chess game still rested upon the living room table and slabs of intricate wood carvings plopped here and there. it’s all so very, armin. so very warm and soothing and poised.
you kick off your shoes in the foyer and push them beside his new balance 550s. it’s comical how small your uggs look beside them.
there’s nothing heard within his loft. it’s eerie.
“ ‘min?” you find yourself subconsciously tiptoeing across dark wood floors, around the sectional to head for the steel, black staircase against the wall. it opens into a second level where his desk, computer, and california king bed all coincide. “minnie?”
he’s home.
you view the slow rise and fall of his bare back from your position at the top of the steps, noting how his sheets are thrown over the slim line of his hips and how one of his legs hangs from over the side of the bed, bare as well. the woodsy vanilla you smelled upon first entering was his favorite incense. they burn atop of his desk a few feet away from him. oh, he’s completely knocked.
you strip out of your outside clothes before slowly climbing in beside him, hesitatingly pushing in close . . needy for his warmth.
you’ve never known a person could be such a pretty sleeper before meeting armin. though half of his face is smooshed against his pillow, he still appears to be posing for a catalogue — with the fluffs of gold atop of his head stuck this way and that, still beautifully managing to frame the bone structure of his face. he breathes out of his nose, slow and deep. and without his glasses obstructing your view, you can individually count each of his long, pale eyelashes and the faint, very, very faint, traces of freckles peppering the bridge of his nose.
such a pretty boy.
you push yourself closer, wanting his touch.
he wears nothing but a pair of shorts. with a slow finger, you trace the line of his back, across the smooth bumps of sinew to his shoulder and arm.
you admire how lithe he is. armin isn’t necessarily buff. you think most of the food he eats goes straight to his feet and cock. he’s agile . . limber. there are the muted lines of abs that carve into his torso and his back flexes with hard cords, it’s more of his arms that reveal his true strength. his biceps and shoulders are quite noticeable, especially when he wears a compression shirt every once in a while. when you softly wrap your fingers around his tricep and grip, you breathe out a little sigh.
it’s your touch that suddenly has his eyes creaking open.
you see the first peeks of pretty, cobalt blue and quickly, you’re snatching your hand away to tuck it under your chin and apologize with a rising flush burning your cheeks, “oh, i’m . . i’m sorry,” you whisper. “i didn’t wanna wake you.”
he blinks softly a few times, clearly gathering his bearings before giving a little, sleepy smirk, “you used your key,” he mumbles.
he’s such a tease.
“shush.” you watch him open an arm and akin to metal and a magnet, you’re gravitating and fusing your body against his. he’s warm — solid as much as he is soft. you melt with a small mewl and close your eyes, nuzzling into him. it feels so nice.
“mmm,” planting a small kiss upon your forehead, armin then wraps his arm around your waist and grumbles out, “missed my baby. how was your day?”
you don’t want to think about it.
the main reason you even used your key for the first time was because you needed him. you refused to wait until later on tonight to bathe within his touch and affection. you’re impatient. a little thing who’s always restless and avid. through a sigh, you admit it, “not good.”
armin makes a small sound of regard, “. . wanna talk about it now or later?”
“later, please?” you’re burying your face within the pocket of his neck, the one that smells like soap and just pure, unrefined him. “wan’ nap . . with you.”
“mkay,” one more kiss then a small, cheeky grip of your butt. “close your eyes and sleep, baby.”
you sigh out a little, “okay,” doing just as he says. there’s darkness for a couple seconds. it stands before you, looming and quiet, until it draws nearer and completely swathes your entire being.
you don’t know when you wake up.
you’re just aware of how.
it’s to a sudden thrush of pleasure suddenly shooting up your spine from your cunt. it causes you to, quite literally, gasp yourself awake, and out of reflex, snap your legs closed — only, you can’t . . because there’s a head between them. how long armin’s been down there? you aren’t sure of that neither. it’s had to be a while though, because on a particular thrust of two of his fingers inside of you, there’s a loud, disgusting squelch. it’s a mess. the sheets underneath your ass are soaked with a mixture of your slick and his saliva and his cheeks are smeared with it, too.
“m-minnie,” you whimper his name and go to lift your legs, holding them by the back of your knees far out of the way, just how he likes. “oh my gosh.”
his glasses are still off. you view the darkness of raw voracity and need that wades within the blues of his eyes as his tongue strokes your clit with wide, rough sweeps. “you had no panties on,” he soon utters, lifting his head to watch his own fingers push and pull out of the soppy wetness that is your pussy. they work with a certain finesse, the screw technique, one where he drives them in and tugs them free, all while continuing to revolve and pivot his wrist. the approach always gets you creaming within a matter of seconds. “. . what did you wear today?”
you hesitate to answer. it was a simple mistake, honest. sometimes you genuinely do forget to put them on, you never sleep with them anyhow.
when you refuse to talk, his eyes are lifting up again.
it’s rare to see armin so . . . dark. there’s only been a single, previous occurrence that’s ignited your boyfriend’s few, pissed off nerves — a few months ago, after attending a music festival together with all your friends. you suppose he had enough with all the stares and sly remarks you’d received all that day because the minute you both stepped foot over your hotel room’s threshold, he practically snatched your fun, little outfit off and fucked you then and there, on the floor. it’s fairly chilling. because you never really know when the switch happens. he’s exceptional at hiding his true feelings behind a handsome smile, albeit, you suppose you take that back. his eyes are always what gives it away. they grow cloudy and cold, always an immediate disclosure.
he’s mumbling, “okay,” while pulling his fingers free. the puffed hole of your cunt winks at him, clearly grumpy with the sudden change. you’re spoiled. you and your pussy. armin had noticed the change only recently. as sweet and good as you are, you don’t do well with . . directions. you like to have it your way and your way always, disregarding armin only ever giving you rules when he knows they’re for your own greater good.
“it was an accident,” you’re whimpering, little hand falling between your legs while he stands at the foot of the bed and pulls down his shorts. prime example. you start to rub at your clit with tight, firm, little circles. left to your own devices, you’d probably force yourself to cum until you couldn’t cum anymore if he weren’t here . . which presents rule number one, ask for permission before touching. now, armin isn’t too strict with this one, he’ll be honest — bodily autonomy and all. however, he’s had a front row seat, yes, indisputably, to watching you make yourself cum until you screwed your own fucking brains out. you have no sense of a limit . . it’s . . . a challenging thing sometimes, because once you’re there, you never like to stop.
he blames it all on your schooling, honestly. you’ve told him it’s the only way you’re really able to destress — by cumming over and over and over again until you can’t take it anymore and, it makes sense. doesn’t mean he thinks it’s healthy, nonetheless.
so, he wastes no time in pushing your hand away preceding him grabbing you by the hips and forcing you on your hands and knees, chest bowed against the bed, “and you took the train here, right?” he spits on his tip prior to finding the seam of your lips. you lean into his touch like the needy thing you are and he watches how you give a meager, little nod. “hm.” he takes his time, rubbing it up and down, tapping the fleshy crown of his cock right on that clit, making you leak until you whimper and wiggle your hips.
spoiled fucking rotten you are.
“rules, rules, rules,” he sighs, spanning the length of his hand against the arch of your back to force you even lower. your ass perks higher in the air like that — it’s fat, round, perky. he can’t help but swat a thick, nice smack to it . . you’re asking for it. “you’re a little troublemaker, you know that?”
as if to prove a point, your hands reach back and you spread the cheeks of your ass . . nice and wide for him to see it all. as big of a brat as you can be, and as much as you seemingly love to press his buttons, you’ve also managed to learn to counter your own entitled ways. “ ‘m sorry, daddy,” you whimper. prime example number two. you’d do something he doesn’t appreciate and always accept that you were a bit of a terror. you never argue . . always admit. you’re still a good girl. this is why he can never stay upset with you for too long.
“mm,” he bends and kisses between the two, deep dimples that crater your lower back. “m’sweet girl,” another one at your spine. “my baby.”
his touch is tender. it makes you emit a precious whine of gaiety while spreading yourself further.
straightening out, armin strokes his cock. once, twice, then breaches his way in. “can n-never,” he tries not to melt too fast. you feel good — always feel so fucking good . . the best pussy he’ll ever have in his life. “be mad at you f-for too long, god.”
it’s a lot for you, too. you feel yourself stretching further and further, walls working adamantly to swallow it all to the base. “papa,” you mewl and sniff, suddenly overwhelmed. it’s too much sometimes, you think. your cunt is only so deep, occasionally there are times when armin has to work himself in slowly . . half an inch, even, regardless of you being wet enough to outline an entire puddle below you both with your slick. “t-too big.”
clicking his tongue, armin cautiously pulls out. “okay, baby. hold on.”
he’s walking over to his nightstand, heavy dick held within his hand to keep it from annoyingly bobbing as he does. he opens is, rummages around for a moment, then produces a moderate sized bottle of lube. when he’s back behind you, you make sure to keep yourself stretched nice and open to give him the open canvas of dribbling some across both your holes.
“eek!” you squeal come the sensation of it, trickling its way down the cleave of your ass. “minnie ‘s cold!”
“need to discipline you somehow.”
he hears you grumble while he’s fisting his cock. you paint a pretty picture for him . . still holding your ass open, perked in the air. your nails are done, of course. this time, long and almond shaped with pearls and glitter all over . . there’s a cursive ‘ A ‘ that’s written on your ring fingers — matches the one that dangles from your neck on a thin, gold chain. “oh, fuck,” he breathes, suddenly wracked with a wave of just . . clear, unalloyed, plain out want. “s-stay still for me, pretty . . let me look at you.”
the squishes of his fist working his cock are loud. you nibble upon your bottom lip, turning your head downwards to get a good view of him. “hmm,” you give a sweet, little giggle and sway your hips . . slow and enticing. there you go again. a fucking minx. “i wore a skirt today, daddy.”
“mm, i know,” armin sighs, arm pumping. “i s-saw. just wanted you to say it. to admit it to daddy.”
one of your hands is releasing a globe and then you’re reaching down between your legs to divide the flesh of your pussy lips and open them — revealing fine, glimmering, bubble gum pink bordered by the sweet brown of your skin. “ ‘m sorry,” you sniffle through a pout. “forgive me.”
armin strokes his cock a little faster, “aweee,” it’s shaky as he drags it out through a low, smooth chuckle. “you are such a little . . .”
it’s no surprise when he pushes back inside. this time the glide is much, much smoother. you choke on your next inhale, eyes crossing, you think.
“y-yeah,” he smiles at your sudden silence, grabs hold of your wrists, holds them together within one of his hands, and gathers a nice, steady, solid rhythm. “take that fuckin’ dick, baby.”
your ass bounces off of his hips . . plump and fleshy — striped with rugged lines of stretched skin. it’s so pretty. you’re so pretty. “ungh!” your hands hold onto his. you keep your arch, losing yourself in the fervor of his desire and need. it’s perfect, it’s everything you need right now. you don’t want to think or stress or worry. in the far part of your empty brain, you think this is what you were made for — to lay pretty and get fucked. just by him. just by your daddy, no one else. “yes,” you squeak. his balls tap solidly against your bulging clit with each forward thrust. your cunt thanks him with a sudden splatter of cream.
“ooh shit,” armin moans and lets your wrists go to simply grab onto your hips and force you to meet him halfway, pound for pound. “look at that . .”
you find yourself a bit embarrassed. squeaking, you bury your face into an arm while reaching down for your cunt to blindly shield it away.
“no,” your arm is now pinned to the mattress beside your head. it leaves armin looming over you, his front to your back. “s-stay still.” he adores when you make a mess. “cream on your fuckin’ dick.”
you’re whimpering, little fingers wriggling against his grasp, “y-you’re so . . mmph, g-gross.” it’s dire how different of a person he becomes as soon as the warm, gushy walls of your pussy are hugged around his cock. while needy, he’s still demanding. whining and huffy, he’s still expectant for you to be good — to take everything he provides. you feel his lips against the slope of your neck, his hand intertwined within yours as his other arm wraps around your waist in order for his opposite fingers to toy with your clit.
“ ‘ll always, fuck, forgive you,” he moans into that tender area of skin beneath your ear. “n-need you to be . . good for me, though.”
brainlessly, you’re nodding, breaths choppy, voice strained, “i’ll be good. i’ll b-be . . good. yr’good girl — promise, daddy.”
smack! armin rolls your ass cheek between the lines of his fingers and gives it a jiggle, “mmm, god, i love you,” he’s fucking you harder, no longer caring to leave an inch or so out . . he buries it all, deep inside of you, squeezing your hand back when you grip his with a hard sob pushed out of your chest. “g-gonna fuckin’ marry you,” he’s whimpering, dropping to his knees and framing them around yours. the position allows him to hump more than pound and naturally, the tip of his cock finds the sensitive dollop of your g spot. it’s as though it’s an activation button to your tears.
you’re nearly weeping when you warble out a pitchy, “oh f-fuck,” only to receive another thick swat to the ass. armin has never been too fond of you cursing, however, you simply can’t help it.
“yeah,” he’s groaning and honing in on it, it seems. he rocks and presses his hips into your ass, making sure you feel it. your knees begin to slip . . inch by inch. you can no longer hold yourself up. armin simply lets you fall, he lets you plop onto your tummy, presses his hands flat upon the bed on either side of your head and raises himself, easily, into a plank.
“daddy, please.” you’re overwhelmed. you need him to take it easy — give you a breather.
“be a big girl and take it.”
he’s resumed pounding you — god, it’s filthy . . the sounds that is. damp skin clapping and your pussy frothing around his cock. your eyes roll into your skull. you’re close. you feel it. “ungh, unh, hmph . . unh!” there’s a hand underneath your chin, forcing your head back. your eyes are leering open, finding armin above you, eyes focused on your lips. he says only one word, “open.”
it’s immediate. your lips part open and you loll your tongue out on show, awaiting the moment he lets a warm seep of his spit dribble from his lips and onto the slat of it. you swallow with a low, content hum, rolling your tongue back out once more to display it. the sight makes armin’s balls swell. “g-god, you make me feel so fuckin’ good,” he whispers before pushing his lips against yours, beckoning your tongue into his own mouth to give a suckle to.
it’s only right you do the same to his.
you’ve realized a long time ago that the two of you are . . kind of disgusting. nevertheless, it’s the grossness of it all that makes your clit thump a little harder, your orgasm approach quicker. it’s armin kissing you until you’re struggling to breathe, him pulling away only to slip a few fingers in your mouth, lift up, then slowly start to creep his opposite thumb inside the tight, puckered hole of your ass. you’re soon full from all ends, it’s . . mind staggering. you’re gone — eyes indelibly stuck within the back of your head, legs trembling, muscles tensing.
“l-lobve . . you,” you babble softly around his fingers. “love you. i laoveyou, lobve g’you.”
oddly, it’s the forehead kiss he deposits right within the center of your brows after you prattle out your sweet sentiments that kindles your orgasm. you cum with a hard inhale. your fingers fist the sheets until your knuckles pale and you feel his fingers pull from your mouth in order to wrap around the column of your throat.
you have a bad habit of biting the sheets to muffle your sounds. armin forces you to keep your head up, forces each of those hiccupy, loud cries out of your mouth to echo within his loft with each thrust he continues to give as your pussy pulses and lathers bubbles of milk around his cock. “dad — dy — please — hng!”
he’s close. he’s so fucking close.
“look at me,” once more, he’s lifting your head. he needs your face, and you obey, holding onto his hand on your throat with one of yours. you’re so fucking beautiful. make up completely ruined, eyes overlaid in tears. he cums as he kisses your lips, burying himself as deep as he can, balls smooshed against the bead of your clit. “ohhh fuck,” he’s panting into your mouth, circling his hips in tight circles to work it in nice and deep. “my b-baby . . ungh, fuck.”
his finger is removed before his cock. he pulls both out slowly, making sure you prepare yourself for the withdraw before doing anything. you’re flipped over onto your back and legs opened soon after. the picture of his cum gradually leaking out of your battered cunt is always so pretty. armin then lays himself beside you, propped up on an elbow, “mm,” he pulls you in close, tucking your face into his neck. and like that, he holds you, hand at the back of your head, arm around your waist. kisses — he powders them everywhere while you sniff and curl against him. “felt good? w . . was i too rough?”
there’s that drastic change again. it’s . . comical honestly. you’re giggling and laying your head upon his bicep, watching him slowly begin to smile. “what?”
“you’re jus’ silly.”
“ ‘m silly?”
languidly, you nod, “mhm.”
you’re so cute. too cute. you watch armin lean over and reach toward the nightstand. he’s unfolding his glasses prior to sliding them on and leaning in to kiss your lips, “gonna run us a bath,” he tells you. there’s a blush hanging high upon his cheeks — rosy and bright. “bath, ‘m gonna order food, and then we’re gonna talk about your day, okay? . . specifically about you wearing skirts on a train with no underwear.”
face burning, you swat at his chest as he smirks and stands, “i said i was sorry.”
“mhm,” he’s walking to the bathroom while he speaks. “you see where it got you.”
i need him . . like so bad ໒꒰ྀི˶ ◞ ˕ ◟ ˶ ꒱ྀི১ .
being best friends with armin arlert headcanons
is- IS THIS AN AOT HC?? tbh i haven’t really done aot hcs before but IM IN AN AOT MOOD. gn!reader ofc
taking this into consideration, SOME POINTS MAY BE INACCURATE OR REPETITIVE AND I’M SORRY (literally say that every time) enjoy tho!
CW: some important spoilers so if you haven’t watched up to s3 don’t read! (unless you want to idk 😟) and hint at death. talking about killing titans. happy reading!
takes place in seasons 1-3
HEY THERE aRemEEn
you guys would meet at cadet corps. one night, you’d overhear him talking about the ocean with ereh and mikasan.
you’d lowk be amazed but think he’s crazy.
promises you he isn’t and rants about the ocean for ages.
after this, you guys would be really acquainted and hang out from time to time.
our buddy armin IS VERY SMART AND READS A LOT! he’ll always tell you all of the new information he’s learned and you’ll always be be down to listen.
“y/n!!! i was reading this book about (insert topic) and...”
if you also like reading, you’d take turns telling each other about your books (mini bookclub).
ofc, befriending armin includes befriending eremika.
mikasa likes to hang with you in the “talks a lot; listens” dynamic. where she’s the listens.
she’ll also help train with you!!
eren would tell you about how much he wants to kill the titans and why he hates them sm. he’d also ask about your techniques.
they like you tho.
armin will remember his grandpa and get sad sometimes and you will notice.
it’ll take him awhile to open up about that and what happened at shiganshina but once he does you’ll always be there for him when times like that happen.
when levi makes you brats guys clean you’ll do chores together.
armin is not very confident with himself and his strategies at times, so you have to be personal hypeman and be like “no❤️”
and vice versa. he thinks you’re so cool and you think he’s super awesome and smart. you can’t have each other doubting yourselves.
he’d share his tactics and thoughts with you for feedback.
when reiner and bertolto reveal they’re the colossal and armored titan you’re there to comfort him during that confusion and mix and jumble of emotions.
and then the whole pretending to be historia act our poor boy 😔.
he needs a break.
HIS HUGS ARE SO COMFORTING
like if you’re not feeling yourself he’ll notice like *snap* that. and give you a hug.
will listen if you wanna talk but if not he’ll just be there to get your mind off of it.
on free days, you guys will do picnics!
really great way to wind down and bond at the same time 😌
if he’s in town and sees a random object that reminds him of you he’d get it and show it to you.
when levi squad finally go to the ocean, everyone is speechless (obvs like in the scene)
while everyone is splashing around armin would be like
“i told you it was real” and get excited at all the things he finds that the book listed. (my wording is so bad i’m so sorry)
omg having a shell collection together
TO SUMMARIZE: armin loves sharing things with you, and is really happy he has another person in his life he cares about :D
aot masterlist
18+ nsfw mdni, nsfw visuals at the end
7:30pm - All training sessions for the day ended. Armin was so excited. He said patiently in your room, waiting for you. He was scheduled to be off duty tomorrow, and so were you out of pure coincidence. Armin could hardly contain himself. He looked forward to catch up with you, hear about your day and all about the week that had just passed, staying up late and sleeping in the next morning, holding you and enjoying your presence. He flipped back on your pillows and took a deep inhale in one of them. They smelled just like you.
9:30pm - The intrusive thoughts come out at night, when all is quiet and there's nothing else to do. Just by existing, you tamed the beats and hushed the voices that lived in Armin's head. He was starting to get sleepy, but his demons buzzed around in his mind like wasps to their nests. Training ended two hours ago, what could you possibly be doing for that long? Perhaps you had gotten sick and fainted somewhere no one could find you? What if you had gotten kidnapped? Did you get lost somehow?
10:30pm - Armin couldn't wait any longer. He just had a bad feeling in his gut. He sped walked to the training grounds, heart anxiously thumping in his chest. He finally found you. You weren't dead, thank goodness, but you weren't "training" at all.
You were goofing off with Jean, Sasha, and Connie. Your laugh filling the outside air with a sweet song. However, Armin clenched his fists at the sight he witnessed, peaking around the side of a building and staying in the shadows as to not be seen. Connie was running around with you riding on his back. The four of you were in stitches. Armin hadn't seen you laugh that hard in a long time. At least, not around him.
Your legs were wrapped around Connie's waist and arms holding onto his neck. He could guarantee that Connie could feel your breasts pressed against his back, and he could also guarantee that he probably liked it. You had never asked Armin to give you a ride on his back. Come to think of it, Armin wasn't completely sure if he could pick you up like that at all. He didn't have the upper body strength compared to Connie... or Jean... or Eren, while he's thinking about it.
Armin suddenly tasted blood, realizing he had bit the inside of his cheek a little too hard. His stomach also began to hurt, as well as his palm from his nails digging into his skin.
11:30pm - He stomped back to his own room. Angry was an understatement. Rage was more like it. Armin was sitting in your room on your bed waiting for you for hours but here you were, blowing him off to hitch rides from Connie? How could you do this to him? Had you forgotten that Armin was expecting you? Would you rather hang out with your friends than him? You saw them every day, but haven't spent time with Armin in a week. Quality time is one of his love languages. Was he not enough?
Armin was beside himself. Hot, furious tears ran down his face as he rocked back and forth on his mattress in a desperate attempt to sooth himself. He could hear your voice in his mind reminding him to breath, "in through your nose, out through your mouth. Inhale, exhale." But that wasn't working. He tucked is head in between his knees and counted backwards from one hundred. That also didn't help.
Armin was beside himself. Hot, furious tears ran down his face as he rocked back and forth on his mattress in a desperate attempt to sooth himself. He could hear your voice in his mind reminding him to breath, "in through your nose, out through your mouth. Inhale, exhale." But that wasn't working. He tucked is head in between his knees and counted backwards from one hundred. That also didn't help.
With one clean swipe, Armin cleared everything off his desk and sent it to the floor with a loud clatter. Books and papers flying across the room. He gave his desk chair a swift kick, crashing into the wall. His temper tantrum was also of no help. He had half a mind to throw his oil lamp out of the window, but that would cause a fire. Armin was livid, but not enough to commit arson.
He sat back on his bed, grabbing his pillow and scream-crying into the down feathers. What exactly did this mean? Did you not want to see Armin at all? Did you still love him?
12:30am - Though you were the reason Armin was in so much pain, he still needed you to sooth him. You were all he wanted, all he needed.
Armin slithered through the dark halls like a snake. He went back to your room, wondering if you had finally decided to go where you were supposed to be. He licked his lips and knocked on the door politely. Much to his relief, you answered on the other side with a "Yes?" Armin swung the door open, slipping through, and closing it quietly.
"There you are!" You smiled at him.
Genuine and warm, happy to see him. Your day clothes were laid out on the bed, you adjusted your night shirt on your shoulders. From the looks of it, you had just changed.
"I was wondering when you were going to show up. I didn't realize it was past midnight, I totally lost track of time." You rolled your eyes at yourself as you folded your clothes and put them in your wardrobe. Armin stood in the middle of the room, hands nervously rubbing together.
"I'm literally, so glad we have the day of tomorrow. We can actually spend some time together. What do you want to do? I was thinking we could- Oh, are you okay? What's wrong?" Your tone changed immediately upon noticing Armin in his current expression.
Armin had The Look. His eyes were red, plush lips turned into a deep frown, eyebrows scrunched together, and his nose pink. You knew he had been crying not too long ago.
"Yeah, I just..." Armin rubbed the back of his neck.
He had to think, and quick. What would you say if he mentioned what he saw, how he felt neglected and left out? Would you be upset over his spying? Guilt caused goosebumps to rise on his skin, feeling silly in the wake of his tantrum. You had already mentioned that you let time slip from you and that you were excited to be with him. He didn't want to make you feel bad, even though your lapse of proper time management and being close with another guy did make Armin upset.
"Lots of work stuff, you know? Paperwork... I'm not the greatest at math." Armin played it cool. You nodded in agreement, crossing the room to place a hand on his shoulder.
"Oh, I see. Don't let the numbers get to you. Math isn't real anyway." You lightly joked. You peppered kisses on Armin's cheek. This was just what he needed; your undivided attention. His negativity dissipated with each little smooch.
1:30am - Naturally you both stayed up talking. You were still wide awake, while Armin's eyes got heavier and heavier. Screaming, crying, throwing and kicking things took a lot of energy out of him. It was Armin's idea to give you a back massage. He needed to feel you under him, rub and squeeze all over you, silently reclaiming what is his. You laid on your stomach, while Armin straddled your backside.
Connie may have won the invisible fight, but he had definitely lost imaginary the war that only took place in Armin's head. At the end of the night, it was Armin who got to kiss you on the back of your neck, who got to caress your soft skin and tell you how pretty you are, who got to hear your angelic groans of relaxation under his firm grip. His fury had subsided long ago, but anxiety still lingered. His drowsiness amplified his anxiety to ninty-nine.
"Do you love me, baby?" Armin asked. You hummed.
"From this day, until my last day." You confirmed, head resting on your hands and eyes sewn shut. Armin kept working on your shoulders.
"No one else? Just me, right?" He quizzed.
"No one."
Armin paused. This was exactly what he wanted to hear, but it wasn't enough. From his outburst to your words of affirmation, he needed more. Blood drained from his head and down to his cock, growing harder at the thought of what he wanted to do; Reclaim you, remind you that Armin -- and only Armin -- can make you happy in ways no one else can. He wanted to rid anyone else touch that might be lingering on your skin, or in your mind.
Armin laid himself on top of you, putting all of his weight onto your back. He buried a hand in your hair and pulled. Hard.
"Promise?" He tested. Armin pulled your hair so your neck would crane backwards, exposing the pulse at your throat. You swallowed, a dark fuzz of arousal coating your vision.
"I promise." You agreed.
2:30am - You didn't really think twice about Armin's behavior. It was no secret to you that Armin dealt with his own insecurities. But, who doesn't? You weren't exempt either, and you were no stranger about requiring emotional reassurance. Not always, but sex was often an escape from the bitch of a reality you both lived. In your personal opinion, Armin fucked you the best when he was needy and had a bad day.
It was almost three in the morning, so out of a consideration of those sleeping in their rooms next door to yours, Armin clamped a hand over your mouth. You panted into his palm whilst he pounded himself into from behind, laying directly on top of you. You couldn't get away if you wanted to, which you didn't. Armin still kept a firm grip in your hair.
"You like the way my cock feels inside of you, love?" Armin huffed in your ear. You moaned quietly under his hand.
"I can't hear you." Armin hissed. He removed his hand.
"Yes, Armin, you feel so fucking good." You whimper. Armin hummed in return. You could feel the bass in his chest through your ribcage.
He cradled your jaw in his hand, forcing your neck to turn as much as it could to look make you look at him. Forehead to forehead. Armin was somewhat hidden behind his hair, but it was impossible to hide his giant blue eyes from looking directly into yours.
"You're still mine, aren't you?" Armin wanted to know. He was teasing, taunting, this much was clear. His hips didn't stutter or falter while he questioned you. Still, there was an underlying bitterness to his question that you picked up on. You were too fucked out to focus on a sentence other than agreeing with Armin.
"Yes, yes, all yours." You sputtered.
With no mercy, Armin sat up on his knees, dragging you up with him with one hand still stuffed in your hair. Armin pressed you up against him, rocking his hips and gripping on your chest. His lips gingerly sucked on your earlobe as he whispered,
"That's what I thought."
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BEFORE AND AFTER. | EREN. J x F!READER 18+
━━━ eren j. x f!reader x armin a. ➝ chapter one
“we can’t choose who we fall in love with but we can choose how to end it.”
in which, you and eren have history that dates back to high school. as adults, you’ve gone your separate ways but have come back together through a reunion. with him back in your life, it’s hard to ignore the feelings you used to have for him as they come rushing back in. in addition, armin can’t seem to get you off of his mind and will do anything to prove to you that he’s the better man for you; even when he’s got a pregnant fiancé waiting for him at home. too bad for him, eren’s never lost a fight and he’s too greedy to share.
genre ➝ modern au, toxic!eren, dilf!armin, romance, fluff, lots of angst, infidelity, hurt/comfort, violence, explicit smut
tags/warnings ➝ sexual content, unprotected sex, f. receiving (oral sex), rough sex, biting/scratching, mean dom eren, toxic relationship, manipulation, possessiveness, hate sex, phone sex, mutual masturbation, an overly flirty armin even though he’s engaged & other tags i can’t rmr at the moment hehe
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a/n: sooo, this series is a repost and has finally made its long awaited comeback, hehe. for those that are familiar with this fic, you’ll notice that i did indeed shove the first two chapters already written into one so that’s why the word count is so much! i will be posting the next chapter once it’s been revised and edited over by me and my bestie @chelamedina <3 enjoy and reblogs are very appreciated!
"Eren? Eren who?"
"What? You don't remember? The really shy guy with the glasses? He used to sit behind you in 4th period. Oh my god, he was obsessed with you. You really don't remember?"
"I...wait. Hold on...That's Eren?"
"Yep. Not so weird and nerdy now, huh?"
"Not at all."
As you leaned against the back wall of the overcrowded room nursing your glass of wine, your eyes never left the one man that made coming to the reunion worth it.
No more glasses. No more braces. No more baggy clothes that looked like they went two weeks unwashed. No more short hair that always made him look several years younger than he actually was. No more of the sixteen year old boy that you used to know.
Eren Jaeger, now 23, and hotter than all of the guys that tried coming up to talk to you ever since you stepped foot into the party.
Suddenly, a distant memory came to mind and took you away momentarily.
— flashback.
Your hands are shaky. You don't know where to put them as you're positioned right over his face, feeling his tongue lap across your desperate cunt. You're unfocused and you can practically hear your blood pounding in your ears as you settle your fingers into his hair and moan out, earning a groan from the male underneath you.
"Fuck, don't you sound pretty?"
He eats at you, hungry to bring you to the brink so he can feel your thighs shake at either side of him, just barely catching your cry as you release right on his tongue. To know that he's the one that's making you feel good. To know that he's the only one that's allowed to touch you so intimately and have his name roll off of your tongue as you clench onto nothing, trying to not topple over as electricity travels throughout your body, bringing you over the edge.
You cry out his name and finally find purchase in putting your hands in his hair, rocking your hips to ride out your orgasm.
It's only moments after that you're switched underneath him, toned arms hooked at the undersides of your legs, keeping them at his waistline as he fucks into you like it's your last day on earth. It feels like it. Feels as though he's going to lose you. That you'll slip right out of his grasp and never see you again. It's why he has to have you now. To show you why you're better off staying with him. That you can't possibly do better than him.
You whine and pull him down, pressing yourself close enough to melt into him. To tie your bodies and souls together.
He nips and bites at your jawline, moving down to your neck, suckling hard enough to leave a bruise. A mark of his own. One that's viewable to the public eye, announcing that you belong to someone and aren't meant to be touched or even looked at by anyone else.
He's insecure. He's even scared that you will find someone better than him and it eats away at him everyday. Every moment, every second that you're apart because he feels that if he doesnt have eyes on you every waking moment, he'll lose you. He'll do anything to keep you.
Your nails push into the skin of his back, intending to create marks deep enough to last days afterwards. It's not a territorial act, more in the realm of hating who he is. You can't stand the way he looks at you. The way he watches you. It feels as though he's waiting for you to crack. To make a mistake and prove him right that all humans are flawed. All but him. He's perfect and at some point, you began believing that as well. A god living amongst humans, using them like pawns to some sick twisted game he’s created.
You want to leave him. Find better, because there's better out there but you can't. You're in love with him and that's the most dangerous feeling of all.
"I love you," he expresses in a low voice, dark eyes focusing on the way your breath hitches in hearing his confession. It's your first time hearing him say it, and you aren't sure what to say back. You love him but you also know that the moment those three words leave your mouth...that's the day you’ll see how trapped you really are. He's told you that you aren't confined to him, but it's a lie. You can't leave him and he knows it. It's why a confident smirk splits across his face and a hand of his finds its way around your soft throat. He leans up, still moving his hips, looking down at you through dark lashes. "Too afraid to say it back? That's alright. Your silence speaks for itself, you know."
Raw anger courses through your veins as you claw at his back, feeling your walls constrict around him in shame. He's rough and disregarding in the way he slaps you across the cheek, cooing as fresh tears fall down your face. He tells you how pretty you look when you're staring up at him in hate. How much he adores watching you break over and over at the realization that this is your life. Doomed to love a man that's irrevocably insane.
"I hate you so much," you sputter out and feel one of your hands pull away from his back and lock above you. He holds your wrist in an iron grip, head tilting in mild wonder.
"Hate is a strong word when you're crying and babbling about how good I fuck you." His nose skims across the center of your throat before trailing up over your lips and pressing against yours. You can't escape his scent; through the sweat is a faint hint of earthly melange, tonka bean and jasmine. He isn't a cologne sort of guy so he burns through a few candles a day and smells like them without fail. Vanilla also wafts past your nose, caressing your senses like hot rocks on an aching back. It's soothing and it almost makes you forget where you're at.
You blink and are forced back into reality, noticing the frown on your boyfriends' face.
"Where did you go?" He asks you and you think of what to say. The truth?
"I...I was thinking about the candles you like so much. Did you light some today?"
His scoff at your obvious question makes you flinch and think about turning your head to the side, away from his judgemental gaze. What keeps you is that smile... You know that smile.
The day that you met, he was timid. A shy one that caught your eye by the way he made you feel with numerous compliments and shy kisses. The gentleman that walked you home to make sure you made it back safely.
You like looking back on that day. Eren was so nervous, and he made plenty of mistakes to show for it. It was the most you'd ever laughed. After a while, he got comfortable. There were no more surprise dates or spontaneous sex behind a ride at the amusement park. The inquiries about you and your life stopped and you began to feel insignificant in his eyes. Beginning to believe that he's grown bored of you and seeks someone more exciting; refreshing.
It's scary to know that you're being replaced. That you're no longer enough. It has you wondering what you are kept around for if not because you're wanted and loved. Is it because of what you give him, even when you hardly feel like it? Has giving into him each time become boring for him?
You consider yourself to be a people pleaser. Someone that loves to give and doesn't ever expect anything back. It's a double edged sword. Overtime, it hurts to always give and never receive. Especially in a relationship. You love Eren, but loving him has become too painful to bear. There needs to be a breaking point for you...and you're almost positive you've reached it.
"Of course I did," he answers, pecking your lips as he moves his hand from your throat to rest against the cheek he'd previously hit. "I'm sorry, by the way." You release a breath you didn't know you've been holding in. "I don't like being mean, but sometimes the things you say really get under my skin. You know this and still do it. Why?" He questions and there's a sense of deja vu in the air.
Eren is manipulative in every sense of the word. He turns situations around from himself to you, making it seem as though you're the cause. He's always the victim and it's unnerving how well he plays this role of his. Nothing is ever his fault because he's perfect and you're flawed to the soul. Even so, you put up with it all and love him the same because he's all you've ever known. First boyfriend who managed to take all of your other firsts. How can you let go of someone you've known for so long?
He's so imperfect that he's begun appearing absolutely perfect in your eyes. He feeds you many lies, obvious ones, that you end up turning into nothing but truths because he’d never lie to you. He loves you. More than anyone. The love of his life and lying to someone like that—it isn't love.
"I'm sorry," you quickly say. It's meant to disperse the conflict that's sure to come from a topic like this so you're happy to nip it in the bud and move on. It pleases him enough so he peppers your face in gentle kisses, causing you to quickly forget all of the things that's truly wrong with him. Wrong with you, even.
He touches you like you're made of glass now, but the feeling remains at the back of your mind as you fall into a deep black mass of nothingness, too afraid to stay at the surface because that's where Eren is and you want to be as far away from him as humanly possible.
He groans and asks you if you're close. You don't verbally answer but your body takes care of that for you as you fight to hold onto him with your free hand, pulling him even closer than he already is. He's mumbling nonsense in your ear about loving you until the end of time. That you're the only one for him. That he'll never let you go and all of that acts as chains that continue to weigh you down further...and further... Until there isn't any light at the end of the tunnel. When you reach the end, it's black. There's nothing but more false promises that you happily take because you're now positive that you can't get any better than him.
That Eren is all you need.
"Fuck," he groans into your neck, almost biting into your shoulder as you wince, blinking away wave of frustrated tears, trying to egg on your orgasm so that it'll all be over and done with. "Gonna let me breed this tight cunt of yours? Imma fill you up, baby. Get you nice and full. Would you like that?" He's abusing your poor cunt, rendering you almost speechless as you feel yourself tip over the edge just as you go to make a response.
You cum before him and it angers him because you fall limp, and it does almost nothing for him. The moment you realize this, it’s too late.
"Eren, I-"
"Shut up."
You're flipped onto your stomach and feel his hands roughly pull you up into the air, angling you just right. You open your mouth to speak but you’re quickly cut off by a hand clamping over your mouth and feeling his cock sink back inside of you without warning. He's fucking into you with shared hate, telling you that you're useless and warns you not to cum again. Not before he does and it makes you cry. You know that crying only excites him more but you can't help it. Life is unfair. So unfair. You only desire for him to love you like he did in the beginning of your relationship. Wondering how things came to be like this.
Where is the guy that you used to know?
When he cums, he paints your aching walls with white, gripping onto your waist leaving pretty bruises for you to cry more about later. Your entire body hurts when he pulls out and presses you into the sheets. You're panting and he's releasing the rest of himself along your back, mumbling something that you can't quite make out. Your mind feels too foggy to understand anything but you catch the last of what's being said to you, heart wrenching painfully inside of your chest.
"—be back later, kay?"
In truth, you don't want him to come back. You often wish that he'd get into a tragic accident and never make it back home. Or, he decides to stay with the girl he's been fucking behind your back, letting you go completely. Once and for all. You wish for a lot of things but they never seem to come true.
You're doomed to an ugly reality with no means to escape.
You pity the girl that lies on the bed, alone in a room that feels like it's getting closer and closer. Feels sorry for the girl that is overshadowed by another, never meant to be as important as her. You also pity the girl that Eren has his eyes set on. She's been subjected to a life of pain, shame and utter misery but doesn't even know it yet.
You laugh to yourself. Laugh until your sides begin to hurt and the pain near your heart sticks in its final pin.
"I hate this. I hate him so fucking much."
— present.
Bright white teeth flashed underneath the gleaming lights above, clearly laughing over something his friend and date were talking about.
The situation-ship with him had been so toxic, there was nothing you wanted more than to continue ignoring his entire existence. It worked since you graduated and moved away. There was no reason you needed to talk to him again.
That was the moment you'd realized that Armin had changed as well. His glasses were also gone and looked a bit taller. His ears were pierced and there looked to be a shiny new ring on his finger—
"Holy shit, is he getting married?!" You half whispered to yourself, eyes almost popping out of your head. You squinted to see it better and it was unmistakable. The lights in the room reflected off of the silver band wrapped around his ring finger, proving to be true.
"Who?" Sasha squeezed past a couple to get to you, looking around the room once she was by your side again. "Who's getting married?"
"Armin. Remember? The guy that was friends with Eren back in high school," you answered, unable to stop staring at them. Married? It had only been five years. How did someone marry in that short amount of time?
She gasped, looking between you and the blond across the room. "Are you shitting me? That's Armin? Wow," she finished off her glass, shaking her head. "He looks...different."
"Yeah. They both do."
It was strange seeing people from high school and finding out how they grew up years after graduating and leaving. Eren and Armin used to keep to themselves. Were practically loners that talked about star wars and video games. When Eren was brought up in a conversation earlier, you'd acted as if you didn't know who Sasha was referring to. There was no reason to even speak to either of them. Especially Eren. As far as you knew, he was just another person in the room.
"I need me a man," you breathed, taking a sip from your glass. Sasha giggled, placing hers on an empty tray that a waiter was holding, walking past the two of you.
"No you don't. Not just because you see a bunch of these people coupled up." She wrapped her arm around yours, locking it there. She smiled. "We'll get boyfriends. Eventually… In the meantime, I say, let's do a little mingling so we won't give everyone the impression that we don't like them."
You frowned a little. "Yeah but I don't like half of them. Some were real assholes back then."
Sasha sighed before pulling up a fake smile. "Okay. Let's just pretend we forgot, hm?" And just like that, you were pulled off into the crowd you tried your best to stay away from and were forced to say hello, and fall down memory lane with half of the room. Most were boring conversations. Majority of the people you talked to only wanted to boast about their successful businesses and great set of kids they had or were on the way. It was all insanely nauseating, you couldn't think of a lousier way to spend your night.
When it was time to tell stories from high school, you decided that it was time to go and get some air. There was no way you were going to stay and listen to made up stories that didn't even happen. Fabricated and beefed up to sound a little more interesting (and start unnecessary conflict).
None of that was your sort of scene so you chose to stand out by the balcony, letting the cool night air poke and prod at the rising goosebumps along your arms and legs.
With a satisfied sigh, you leaned against the stone railing that held you back from soaring to your death down below into a street that was filled with the usual click clack and chatter of the nightlife.
You'd lost Sasha in the crowd inside before Jean had grabbed the microphone and began spouting off stories you were more than positive no one in the room but him even remembered. She insisted on talking with someone and you tried to keep eyes on her but there were just so many people, it was impossible.
However, having a moment alone didn't seem like a bad thing. It was nice.
"It's peaceful out here, isn't it?" A soft spoken voice said as the owner of it moved forward to stand next to you, but far enough to give you proper space. You were tempted to look but didn't in case it ended up being someone you remembered. A confrontation you clearly wanted to steer clear from considering you'd left the party to stand out under the moonlight, alone.
Or, so you thought.
"I'm not much for parties. I can only assume you feel the same if you're out here, away from everyone."
Why was he talking to you? Did he know you?
You took a small peek at him and thankfully he was looking out into the city. The moonlight was bright enough to illuminate his features, giving you the opportunity to recognize him immediately.
It was Armin and god did he look unreal up close.
Blue eyes that managed to look more prominent under the natural light and blond hair that never looked anything more than perfection splayed around his face.
With a pointed nose and soft, plush lips...you found yourself accidentally staring.
He turned his head towards you with a soft smile, having felt your stare. "You haven't changed a bit."
Blink. "Huh? You...remember me?"
His laugh made your chest do something strange but you ignored it.
"Yeah! Of course, how could I not?" His eyes drifted back forward, little crinkles created next to the corners of his lashes. "You were all that Eren talked about when we were younger. He was at all of your games so by being his friend, I was there too. Plus," he winked, still smiling. "-how can I forget one of the prettiest girls in school that everyone had a crush on."
A rush of heat fought to run across your face but you held it back, biting into your lip instead.
High school was...not one of your best times, to be honest. Sure, you were slightly popular but that was by association.
Mikasa, Annie and Ymir stole the entire school's attention from the moment they walked onto the school grounds. They were transfers and everyone drooled over their presence like it was their first time seeing girls. It didn't bother you because you had Sasha. She didn't want to be a part of their clique and that saved spending three years eating in one of the stalls of the girls' bathroom by yourself.
Sophomore year was when you'd joined the varsity tennis team. You were in a few clubs but nothing major. Tennis was your favorite sport and you were good at it.
Apparently, the clique had ended up joining as well and that was how you got close to them. Sasha was on the team too, after some serious begging, and things felt normal for a while.
Mikasa soon started dating Jean, the captain of the school's soccer team and the locker room talks between you and her got longer and longer until she considered you one of her best friends. You were different though. After declining being a part of her little group, she still wanted to have you around so you were her best friend...without the other two knowing.
After learning how possessive Ymir was over her friend, you did your best to dodge Mikasa but she was hard to push away. She kept asking you why you didn't want to hang out anymore and it was hard to explain to her the reason without worrying about the strain that was going to be put on her friendship with Ymir.
It took a while before you cracked and told her about your run in with Ymir and it went better than expected. She laughed it off and said that Ymir tended to get that way with new people. She needed to get used to you being around. That it was going to be fine.
You believed her...until your racket started to go missing from your locker. Then it moved on to finding the grip all torn up.
There was a lot of sabotaging and it wasn't like you could've gone to the coach about it because she was only going to demand a name and you couldn't tell her who you knew it was. So, you dealt with it.
Not long after that did you find out that Ymir had a crush on Mikasa and then it all ended up making a little sense. Her behavior was finally answered for and you'd known it all along. Though, you didn't use the information to your advantage. It was just relieving to understand where Ymir was coming from.
Junior year was when the distance started.
Less texting, less calling. Little to no contact when at school and tennis practice was agonizing because Mikasa stuck with Ymir the entire time. It was like she had forgotten who you were over the summer break and it felt a lot more painful than it was probably supposed to. It was only one year that you'd gotten to know her. Why had it hurt so bad if it was only just a year together?
Senior year came around quickly and it was all about making sure you picked the right college to go to. There was talk about where Mikasa had gotten accepted into and it ended up being the exact same university that you were thinking about applying at. After some thought, you decided to change colleges and let Sasha pick the one you two were going to try and get into together.
Everything ended up working out but your friendship with Mikasa was close to nonexistent.
Now, as you stood outside of the party (practically hiding from her), none of the experience at once being one of her closest friends felt real.
It'd almost felt like a dream.
When you tried to remember Armin and Eren, the memories were either too hazy or pushed to the back of your mind for specific reasons.
Armin, the boy with large circle glasses and Eren, the guy that couldn't stop talking about star wars and tended to play minecraft in photography class. There were a few instances where you remembered catching him pointing a camera at you but had quickly averted to snapshotting a squirrel in a tree with a very red face. Or when you two had been partners for two seconds. It was only after saying one word to him that he ended up speaking with the teacher again, begging to switch partners for the photography project.
You two stayed partners and that was how you became friends with benefits. It hadn't taken very long for him to ask you out shortly after he realized that he wanted you to be more than sex for him and you agreed.
It was good...for a while. Then it just got bad.
Eren couldn't understand why you went to so many parties despite knowing it wasn't his scene but you couldn't understand why he cared so much when there was no reason to be so worried about you. It was a party. You always went with Mikasa and Sasha so it wasn't as if you were going to them alone and hooking up with random people.
It was just the difference between two people.
But he got attached and possessive over you.
Stole you from classes so often that it started to affect your grades.
If he wasn't kissing along your body, forcing you to say things you didn't mean while several inches deep in you taking advantage of your hazed state–he was manipulating you into doing whatever else he wanted you to do.
Anything to keep you near.
Anything to keep every other guy in school far away from you. The marks and bruises certainly did that for him.
There wasn't much to hold onto when it came to remembering the two; more specifically Eren. Both stayed to themselves after you and him broke him and when everyone graduated, you never heard or saw them again.
That was why seeing Eren after all of those years again was a little startling and unsettling. Especially considering how different he not only dressed now but how grown up he looked.
"So, married huh?"
Armin blew out a breath, opening his eyes to focus on the way the clouds moved throughout the sky. "Yeah. Crazy, right?" He chuckled. "Truthfully, I didn't see myself getting married until my late 20s but...here I am."
Telling by the tone of his voice, it hadn't sounded like someone excited about spending the rest of their life with someone. It made you frown a little, wondering if he had been the one proposed to instead.
"I'm 23. I'm not sure I'm actually ready for marriage."
You studied his face and knew that he was being honest. What were you supposed to say? Or were you meant to just listen?
"I love Annie. I do." He poured his body weight into his dominant arm, using the other to run a hand through his hair with a sigh, ruining the perfect style that it was just in. "I'm just starting to think that this marriage thing is happening a little fast. Sure, we've got a baby on the way, but who said we had to be married before the baby came," he looked at you, amused by the shock on your face. "Oh. It doesn't look like you were informed." He giggled. "Yeah. I'm going to be a dad soon."
"Wha- When did this happen? Wait," you shook your head, trying to process the new information. "A baby?"
His face stretched into a beautiful smile, head tilted as he stared at you. "Yeah, a baby. This party is sort of surrounded by the news, actually." His face fell a little. "It's kind of why I'm hiding out here with you. Between all of the questions concerning us and the baby and talking about our engagement and the wedding...I just needed some air."
You fixed your lips into the form of a pout as you gave it some thought before opening your mouth again.
"You know...there's still time to run."
His laugh was genuine and filled the air quickly. You couldn't even bite back the smile that fought its way across your face.
"Yeah. Running. I could, but I love her. I could never leave her like that."
"Mm. Well, I don't have any experience with marriage or babies but I can tell you that it'll all work itself out. It's valid that you feel this way because it's going to be your first child and your first marriage. It seems like things are moving really fast but...I'm getting the feeling that you'll be able to handle it. If not," you shrugged, smiling. "I'm here if you want to talk. Or I can talk with both of you some time if things get too stressful."
Armin watched you look out into the night sky, eyes sliding down to your all-black attire, finding you seemingly perfect. He knew that you had talked about going into psychology in high school, but he wondered how it all worked out for you in the end.
"Thank you. I mean it. Uh...just out of curiosity, what do you do? If you don't mind me asking."
You smiled and hummed, fiddling with the jewelry around your fingers. "I'm a psychotherapist. I work with people of all ages, tackling their concerns and lending an ear, and giving a little insight on them." You looked at him. "So you were right. I haven't changed much at all."
He nodded. "The job fits you. You're good at this."
And it was back.
You felt your entire body warm up at his compliment. "I...try to do what I can and just hope it's enough."
Blue eyes met you with promise, smiling.
"Trust me. It is."
The talk between you and him lasted a little while longer until Sasha came out, looking for you. She'd also mentioned that Annie was inside searching for him as well so that was his queue to go back in.
"So," Sasha began and watched Armin walk back into the party. She wiggled her eyebrows, smirking. "Wanna tell me what that was about?"
You gave her a strange look and laughed, "You're kidding me, right?" Sasha didn't look like she was joking in the slightest. "Yeah, alright look. He's getting married, okay. I'm not a homewrecker."
Sasha put her hands up in defense, "Not saying you are but uh..." The smirk was back. "With a baby on the way and being 23, not sure he's all that happy so I'm just saying be a friend with a shoulder. Or...if you wanna offer up something else-"
"My god, you're impossible!" You exclaimed in embarrassment, heading back into the party and away from your maniac of a friend. Sasha laughed.
"I'm just sayin'!" as she followed you in.
xxxxxx
The party lasted another hour before everyone had to go back home for either work in the morning, their kids or were just downright exhausted from mingling and drinking too much.
You'd manage to stay out of Mikasa's line of sight the entire time and could enjoy some of the party.
Sasha was riding home with her other close friend, Connie, so there was only you to take care of.
You weren't much of a drinker, so you were still very much sober and could drive yourself back home.
As you were walking towards the entrance, you stopped in your tracks and cursed under your breath. You knew you had forgotten something. Your purse was still laying on the back wall table.
With the determined mind of going back to get it and heading out before anyone you knew saw you, you spun on your heel and ran right into a hard body.
You blinked and opened your mouth to apologize when a voice interrupted you.
"Excuse you?" A feminine voice spoke, and you looked up to see who it was.
Eren?
Did his voice get higher too?
"Wait..." The voice said, a bit cautious. You looked to the left and saw your worst nightmare. In the flesh. "I remember you." This wasn't happening.
You fixed up your best fake smile and widened your eyes to act as if you were surprised yet happy to see her. "Mikasa?" She smiled beautifully and was undeniably stunning up close.
In school, she'd always kept her hair fairly short but the Mikasa that stood in front of you now had grown it out down to her slender waist. It was half up, half down, paired with hairsticks that seemed to do well at keeping the half up portion out from her porcelain face. There was a soft apply of eyeliner and mascara but the bold red lipstick on her lips tied it all together. Everything about her was perfect. Even the long, black bodycon evening dress she had on looked to be molded against her body. Like you remembered, her ease into perfection didn't fail to push you back into that tiny box labeled 'insecurities'.
"Well you look gorgeous," she said, eyeing you down in wonder. "Though, you always did pull off the best suits." The way she said that, it sounded a little condescending but you chose to ignore it. "So," her arm tightened around Eren's, smiling sweetly at you. "I'm a little disappointed that we didn't get to chat tonight. I was looking for you." She giggled and patted his chest with her free hand. "I had Eren here do a little searching for me but," she shrugged. "No luck either. Maybe we could grab a coffee sometime and just catch up?" She then leaned towards you, hand cupped over her mouth and lowered into a whisper. "Then I can tell you all about how the hell I ended up dating this one."
Eren rolled his eyes, smirking. "As if we didn't make out a million times throughout high school. In the janitor's closet, no less."
Your brows twitched. What?
They were seeing each other while you and him were together?
Then what had been the point of being so possessive over you when he was messing around with someone else? Why had he done all of that to keep you when he–
Mikasa straightened up and laughed, hitting his arm. "Well leave something for me to tell my oldest friend about, will ya?"
He chuckled and nodded, looking at you.
For some reason, when his eyes made contact with yours, it was as if your body had tried to shut down. Your heart thumped hard against your chest and your breath hitched. There was something different from catching him across the room than seeing him up close. Much different.
He was taller and his features were sharper. Had his brows always been naturally dark? Jade eyes that pierced through you like they were trying to look into you and see the way he was affecting you. Beautiful viridescent eyes that tried searching yours but for what?
Mikasa looked good with him and he looked good with her. They were perfect for each other, which wasn't how you saw either of their futures panning out. To see them together, it was like two perfect puzzle pieces. It only pained you because it made you realize that the majority of your class had husbands, wives or boyfriends and girlfriends and then...
Well then, there was you.
Whoever said being single isn't all that bad—lied.
"Well, we should probably get going. It's getting late and we've got one more stop before going home." Mikasa grinned at you then at Eren who tore his gaze from you to her. "Are you still up for...?"
"Hell yeah," he said with a smirk. You couldn't help but notice the way his hand squeezed her waist and the look they shared.
You grimaced. Yeah, that was a conversation you definitely didn't want to stay in on.
"Alright, well!" You said with a big smile, pointing to your purse that was still on the table across the room. "Gonna go grab that and head out myself. It was really nice seeing you two again. You both look great by the way." Eren smiled at you. Mikasa quickly dove into her handbag and retrieved her phone.
"Wait, let's exchange numbers." She looked up from her cell and winked. "I was serious about that coffee, you know."
"Oh," you chuckled, having hoped she would have forgotten about that by now. "Yeah, absolutely!" You gave her your number and then they were off. The sigh that slipped past your lips was purely out of dread. There was a good chance that she was going to end up forgetting about that coffee and that was what you were going to hold onto for the next week or so, waiting for her to not contact you.
"Me and Eren have been together ever since. I really...I really love him and I love the way that he loves me. I can't ask for a better boyfriend."
"I'm so happy for you. Really, I am."
"Thank you. I hope that you'll find your perfect person too! They're out there somewhere. Just keep being patient."
"Yeah, hah. We'll see."
"Never know! Could be someone you've already met before."
"And how likely is that?"
"More than you'd know."
Several weeks later, Mikasa had in fact remembered but the coffee date turned out better than you were expecting.
You two caught up on quite a bit and she told you how she ended up dating Eren. They were seeing each other (behind your back) for a few months their senior year and then chose the same college. They went on to make things official their sophomore year.
The way she spoke about him...it was clear that he was a completely different person than when he was with you, back in high school. Despite seeming different now, that didn't mean you were ready to be friends again. If you could hang out with Mikasa and never see him, it sounded perfect.
Knowing that they were dating didn't bother you in the slightest. Or at least, that was what you tried telling yourself.
After the date with Mikasa, you decided to go and visit Armin at his new bakery shop.
It was learned through Mikasa that he was stressed about what goods to display and you loved sweets so why not?
The door chimed as you pushed it open and was welcomed by the fresh smell of baked goods and the strong smell of vanilla with a hint of cinnamon.
"Wow," you breathed, looking at how beautiful the set up around the shop was. There looked to be some real work put into everything.
It had his touch, that was for sure.
"Hey!" Armin said as he rounded the corner, coming out of the kitchen. "What brings you here, pretty girl?"
With a kind smile, you walked up to the counter and stared at all of the baked goods that were in the displays. "A little birdie told me that you needed a taste tester and well," your skin flushed. "I was wondering if I happened to fit the job?"
His smile was bright and immediate, leaning up against the counter with his hands supporting his weight. "You're perfect for the job actually," and you were quickly bombarded with different samples to try.
"So...what do you think?" Armin asked, wiping his hand clean on his apron as he studied your face to catch you in a lie in case you tried to save his feelings from getting hurt.
You nodded, stuffing a cream covered thumb in your mouth with surprised eyes. "Mm! It's really good!"
He chuckled at the way you tried to talk around your thumb. "Yeah?" He moved a hand up to your face and your body went rigid. "Sorry, you've got some whipped cream on your nose. Mind if I...?" You looked at him, sure that your face looked strange, and shook your head as he continued. "Are you usually such a messy eater?" He asked with a laugh, swiping the cream off with his index finger.
"Uh, no. Not really, just," your eyes searched around until he held out what he figured you were looking for. With a shy smile, you took the napkin, cleaning off your other fingers. "The cake was really good. I just wasn't worried about keeping clean."
Armin was still a breath away, close enough to kiss you if he wanted to. Did you want him to?
No. Annie. Think about Annie. Remember? His very pregnant fiancé?
"That's quite alright," he leaned back against the counter, his elbow keeping him up while you were sitting on the counter next to him. You tried to act like you were busy with cleaning your hands but they were already clear of any cake residue. It hadn't felt awkward but you were notorious for creating it in random situations. "So...which one should I display? The cake or the cinnamon rolls?"
You hummed, looking in between the two with narrowed eyes. "Man, that's a tough one. Are you sure you have to choose?" You looked at him and he was staring at the two in thought.
"Yeah, I mean... All of my other displays are full and I don't want to replace any." He looked back at you with a pout. "It's hard to think about getting rid of any of my goods when everyone still likes them all. Including me."
It was between the delicious whipped cake or the buttery cinnamon rolls. It had to go with the season and cinnamon rolls felt reserved for autumn heading into winter. Cakes were all year around but Armin owned a bakery. It needed to be seasonal like the rest of his goods were. With that being said...
"Let's go with the cinnamon rolls." You smiled watching as his eyes lit up. Seemed like that had been his first choice from the start. He didn't want to say anything that would've tampered with your opinion. Thoughtful and smart. No wonder he was married with a baby on the way. "I think they would be perfect around the holidays."
"I love it! You read my mind," he sent you a wink before taking the cake towards the back to store for later.
As you waited for him to come back, you looked around the store and couldn't help but wonder if Armin had fixed up the place on his own or had some help with it.
Dark wooden tables around the shop with the chairs to match and dark flooring that looked close to black. The color scheme of the entire shop was a dark brown and it fit with the atmosphere. It was the first bakery shop you'd ever seen with dark colors. It didn't seem like it would've come as a shock that Armin had done it all by himself. Or the majority of it.
There were low hanging light fixtures all about the shop but only two stayed on, which were those that hung above you to illuminate the space you were still seated at. There was a large case filled with different foods and a smaller case near the register that had nothing but muffins, cookies, small slices of cake and danishes in it.
It was a cozy little shop. It was no wonder Mikasa always talked about Armin being in it instead of going out and doing things with her. She said his shop was like his second home. He baked when he was happy and he baked when he was sad.
"Nothing has ever caught and kept Armin's attention more than baking," Mikasa once told you with a faint smile. "Before meeting Annie, he declined a date with a pretty girl once just because he had catering to do. It could've waited or he could've invited her to his shop and just shown her how he did things there. It would've still been a date. Ah, she was such a sweet one too but he gets so immersed into baking that he isn't able to see anything else. Or anyone else, for that matter. Except Annie." She giggled, downing the last sip of water from her bottle. "But lately...I've been seeing something different." She eyed you down, thinking. "He's been a little...distracted and I haven't been able to understand why. Either way, he bakes for a completely different reason than what I'm sure most people think. He's got a past, like the rest of us, that he doesn't want to confront. Should probably book a session with you sometime, huh?"
It sounded as if she was speaking lightly back then but being with Armin and talking with him...could she have been telling some sort of truth?
"Hey, sorry for taking so long," he said as he came around the corner, cleaning his hands again. There was a clear tint of redness across his face but it was faint and you had to squint to make sure you saw it. "I...accidentally dropped the cake." Ah. He was embarrassed.
You smiled. "Mm. Let me guess, you don't drop cakes very often huh?"
Armin shook his head, "Nah, not really a cake dropper. It's not exactly something I excel at." He smiled back when you laughed, mesmerized by the way the corners of your lips tilted up. "This may sound sudden but you…have a really pretty smile."
You stared at him, barely blinking.
He was definitely flirting and you weren't sure how to respond.
"Oh," you slowly slid off of the counter, looking everywhere but back at him. "Thank you."
"You know," he suddenly reached out, slowly to not startle you. "I'm not sure if I was too obvious or not but," he picked something out of your hair, looking at you. "I like you and that may sound crazy because Annie's still in the picture, but I don't know. I just... I think I want to get to know you better. I do like what I've seen so far, personality wise. I’m obviously very physically attracted to you and want to kno-"
"Armin," you interrupted, gently pushing his hand away. "We... No. I can't let you do this. I'm sorry and I'm saying this because I respect you and Annie." The apologetic look on your face made him back up and lean against the opposite counter with a sigh. "I'm sorry."
"Fuck. No, I'm so sorry," he muttered, looking down in shame. "I've just been so stressed. Me and Annie...we aren't doing so good honestly." The laugh he let out was dry and meaningless. "We put on a front at that party." He sniffled, frowning down at the floor. "I know it's because she's pregnant but lately... Lately it's felt less like we're in a relationship and more like we're just friends having a baby, if that makes any sense."
With a frown, you nodded. "It makes perfect sense, Armin." You stepped forward and placed a hand on his shoulder. He looked at you through wet lashes and you let out a breath. "Just take it a day at a time and I want to suggest that you talk to her about how you feel. Sure she can't read your mind."
He searched through your eyes and found nothing but genuine concern. That calmed him down a bit but that wasn't enough to make him feel any less embarrassed about how he'd just acted towards you.
"Thank you. That means a lot. Again."
The both of you laughed as he got himself together and smiled. "Okay. I should get this place ready to officially open tomorrow and I'll let you get home before it gets too late."
You smiled back and patted his shoulder. "Don't work too late. Annie needs you."
He chuckled, shoving his hands in his apron. Blues shining under the fluorescent lights above. "Yes ma'am."
When you left, it was hard to convince yourself to forget about how good Armin smelled when he got that close to you. The way his voice lowered an octave and held your gaze better than anyone you'd ever met. How gentle he touched you and spoke to you. It only told you how lucky Annie was and how good of a person you were for choosing to not to be a complete home-wrecker just now.
Nothing needed to happen between you two. Friends was a safe bet. Though, if he couldn't handle things as they were now, then when the baby came he was going to be extremely stressed out. Maybe Mikasa had been onto something.
Maybe Armin needed to book a session with you soon.
Him and Annie.
When you got back home, you started with a fresh shower first before heading into the kitchen to warm up some leftovers.
With your damp hair up and your signature robe on, you floated throughout the kitchen. With your mind active in thinking about Armin and what you felt was going to help him the best, you couldn't eat at the table. So, you chose to sit at the bar and eat.
You lazily mixed up the spaghetti and pouted in thought. "Why do I get the feeling that just talking with him won't be enough to help?" You didn't want to get into his business with his relationship with Annie and preferred waiting on one of them to come to you, but you saw the way he struggled earlier. Armin was stressed out and confused. However, a talk with Annie felt like the best route. You assumed that after he spoke with her about how he was feeling, she would end up being understanding. Those things would end up working themselves out (hopefully for the better).
As soon as you were about to stuff a forkful of pasta into your mouth, that was when your phone buzzed. You were going to ignore it but it didn't stop.
"Who's calling this late?"
You flipped the device over to reveal an unknown number trying to face-time you.
Weird. No one you didn't know had your number and those that did were strictly told to not give it out to anyone that asked unless they asked you directly. Your friends, especially Sasha, understood that but then a thought hit you. You'd given your number to Mikasa recently. What if she had given it out? But to whom?
Out of pure curiosity, you decided to hit the 'accept' button but turned your camera off just in case it was someone you didn't know.
The other end was silent for a long while. It made you anxious and you were extremely close to hanging up when a low voice spoke up.
"Yo, are you busy or something?"
You blinked, staring at the device.
Then he laughed. "Is your camera off? What? Do you look like shit right now?"
Eren?
With a sigh in annoyance, wondering why Mikasa had given him your number in the first place, you picked up the phone and turned the camera on. "What the hell do you want? Talk fast. I've got some itchy fingers ready to end this call any second now."
The brunette smirked and placed his arm behind his head. It looked like he was in bed.
'Ugh,' you thought to yourself. He was video calling you while in bed. Him. In bed. You. On the phone. With him.
As if to make matters worse, you saw your reflection in the front view of your phone and squeezed your eyes shut. He was right. You definitely looked like shit.
"Oou shit, you do look gross," he said, laughing again but harder this time.
You reopened your eyes and glared at him with a finger hovering over the 'end' button. "Talk fast, Eren. You're on very thin ice."
As much as you wished he looked equally gross, he didn't. Never could.
He was, in fact, in bed and because of that, he was only wearing sweats and his hair looked damp as well. Seemed like he had just showered too but didn't dry off well enough. His chest was littered with drops of water and it was almost as distracting as his annoying smirk.
It was as if he existed to torture you in the worst possible ways.
"Alright, alright." You noticed that he was chewing gum. As if he wasn't being intrusive enough. "Can you like...add me as a contact in your phone? Because the next time that I call, I don't really wanna wait 80 years for you to pick it up because you don't know who it is."
Your eyes narrowed. "You have one more minute before you're hearing the dial tone."
"Okay!" he exclaimed before pulling a pillow on his chest to hug. He pouted, "You're so bossy. Anyway, I just wanted to see what you were up to. Mikasa's still out and I got a little bored so I thought to just call you."
You sighed, tempted to pinch the bridge of your nose to remind yourself that this was actually happening. "You got bored. Is that really the only reason I'm being forced to talk to you right now?"
Eren picked at the black corded bracelet around his wrist, green eyes focused on the clasp that held it together. "Yeah?"
"Oh my god."
"You called," he said, looking back at the screen with a dumb smile on his face. Was this hell?
"Eren," you said in a warning tone and he groaned, putting the pillow over his face. Even with the cotton in between him and the speaker, it was still hard to ignore the chewing.
"Can't you just entertain a guy?" He asked through the pillow and you mumbled under your breath about a lot of ways you could entertain him when he shoved the pillow down slowly, revealing a devilish half smile. "You know what," he interrupted you. His eyes scoured what he was able to see, which (unfortunately) wasn't much. Although, your robe wasn't secured all the way. He got a good enough view of the top of your breasts and licked his lips. "Maybe you can give me a strip show." He got comfortable in bed, ditching the pillow completely and rested the phone on his chest with his other arm back behind his head. "Just something to pass the time."
You looked at him like he was genuinely insane. Then you nodded, "Yeah, ending the call now."
"Only chickens say no," he sang, teasingly.
"Then I'm a chicken," you snapped back.
Eren pouted again and it was hard to ignore him this time. "Not even a peek? Just a small one?"
In some alternate world, if you had done anything he said, it wasn't going to stop. He was going to want more. That was just how he was. Selfish, and greedy.
Has he really changed all that much from before? Was he still as manipulative as back then? What if instead of getting better, he'd gotten worse over the years? If that was the case, it was a wonder how Mikasa was able to deal with someone like that.
"Uhh, no." You closed your robe even more, frowning. "I don't do that and we're not even close. Not that if we were close, I'd show you anything. Plus, you already know what I look like underneath all of this. Or did you forget."
He jutted his lips out like he was really trying to remember and you set the phone back down, letting him enjoy the view of your ceiling. You heard him laugh through the speakers and was thankful that you had adjusted the view because you couldn't fight off a smile any longer.
Eren was still unbelievably annoying but just as attractive and able to get what he wanted just like before. It wasn't like you were ready to get naked in front of him again...or ever. It was just nice seeing and talking to him again.
Wow, did you really just think that?
It was late and you were losing your mind over what almost happened with Armin earlier.
Yeah. That was it. Had to be it.
"Okay, okay. I won't ask anymore," you heard him say and his voice had trailed off a little bit. It gave you a moment to take the bite you had missed out on when you answered the call earlier.
After a few more bites, you'd noticed how quiet the other line got and with furrowed brows and newfound curiosity, you leaned over to find the screen grayed out. His camera was off. Weird. He must've gone to the bathroom or something. Was it your queue to finally end the call and pretend that the whole conversation never happened?
"Yep."
You were about to hit the 'end' button when you heard a faint groan.
You squinted at the blank screen, having convinced yourself that if you looked hard enough, you were going to see something.
You weren't wrong.
His camera was still on, it was just the view of his ceiling too. The camera shook a little but it would've gone unnoticed if you weren't looking as hard as you were.
Then it was quickly picked up and you moved away from the screen, heart pounding from trying to be so nosy.
But what was that noise about?
"Sorry," Eren mumbled, trying to get comfy in his bed again. "I stubbed my toe before getting back in bed so if you heard that – sorry again."
You rolled your eyes, "Should've known."
"Hey so be honest with me," he shuffled around until he was on his side. As you ate, you watched him struggle to set his phone up against one of his pillows so that he was able to talk, hands free. "Are you still mad at me for how I acted in high school or...?" After you picked the phone back up, there was a weird look on your face and he laughed, covering his face, laying against the bed. "No! Okay I mean like..." he dropped his hands and turned his head to look at you. You gulped down the pasta and paid attention. You had a strange feeling he was about to say something serious for once and didn't want to blow him off. "After finding out, at the reunion, that I was also with Mikasa back then when I was supposed to be with just you."
It took a lot of tries before it actually registered in your head that he was genuinely worried about your feelings.
Maybe it was worth entertaining.
You pushed the bowl of pasta away before giving him a proper answer.
"Truthfully?" He nodded, and it was like he was holding his breath as he got ready to hear what he'd been wanting to know since he’d seen you again. "No. I'm not mad about that. Sure, it was a dick move but that was years ago, Eren. We've grown up a lot since then and I don't hold grudges that old."
He let out a long breath, proving you right. He had been nervous to hear what you were going to say and looked relieved to know that you weren't holding onto any resentment towards how he acted when he was younger.
How could you be upset or even hate him for what he did? It was so long ago and it shouldn't define who he grew up to be. Him and Mikasa looked steady and happy. They were sure to have their own problems, because what relationship didn't? However, it really did look like he wasn't making the same mistakes from back then.
Eren...Eren might've grown up. He wasn't that sixteen year old boy that you'd met, dated and left all those years ago.
The person that stared back at you through the screen was no boy. He was a man now, and it was almost hard to come to terms with because you'd always (secretly) wondered what he ended up being like after graduating.
Maybe a friendship was possible. If there were no real grudges held...what was stopping you?
You didn't hate him. Not really. It was more on the lines of it shouldn't have happened. That the relationship between the two of you back then shouldn't have happened and yet it was a memory that you couldn't erase.
"Good," he said, turning back over onto his side with his head resting against the palm of his hand, staring at the screen. His abdomen flexed with the movement along with the tendons in his arms. "Would probably cry if I found out that my favorite girl hated me."
You smiled a little, looking down. "You're so annoying, you know that?"
"Mmm, I do get that quite often actually so I'm pretty aware," he said through a cheesy grin, messing with his hair.
As you stared at him, using that moment where he was distracted, you couldn't deny the extreme growth he had gone through from high school to now.
From his voice, the length of his hair and how he acted. Moreover, his physique. Lean, athletic. Someone that looked like he worked out a few times a week but wasn't exactly a gym head. Just liked to stay toned. You wondered if he still liked to keep a stash of junk food by his bed like he used to or had he grown out of that as well.
Did he still play video games? What was his job? Mikasa hadn't told you much about him but since she'd given him your number, did that mean that she was open to you talking to him on a friendship level? She didn't seem like someone that was insecure enough to keep her boyfriend away from every girl on the planet but still...
"Probably should take a screenshot," he smirked. "Wouldn't wanna forget what I look like later on, huh?"
You groaned, putting your head down in embarrassment. "Shut. Up."
His annoying laugh flowed through the speakers again, and you smiled so hard that your cheeks began to hurt.
You'd almost forgotten what it was like talking to him again.
It was refreshing and addictive. To hear his voice, his laughter. Those were things that you didn't know you missed but were happy to have again.
After that conversation, to your surprise...there were more.
Eren called you almost every night and you found out it was because Mikasa had the most clients around the late evening, so he was stuck by himself. He told you that he usually would've called Armin or Jean, but both were busy with their girls to entertain him so you were now stuck with the job.
Of course, he'd suggested that the two of you meet up and just catch up in person but you told him that you weren't ready for that yet. That was when he knew that there were still some things from the past that you were holding onto, but claimed weren't grudges.
Were they?
More like things that you were still uneasy about. Things that you couldn’t just store away and pretend hadn’t happened. Nothing like holding a grudge, but just being cautious.
Either way, he understood so he kept his distance and enjoyed what he could get.
Which, unbeknownst to you...that was what he liked.
Not being able to physically see you but still have some sort of contact. To not know when (or if) he was going to be able to talk to you in person again.
Eren always did enjoy the chase.
There was not a phone call that you missed nor a text that you ignored, and it started to become a little too natural. Too easy.
When you got home one night, you ran yourself a bath first before eating dinner. It was like clock work...usually.
By this time, Eren would've called but there was nothing but radio silence.
It was strange.
You sat at the edge of the claw foot tub, brows pushed together as you reached a hand out to test the temperature of the water.
Idiotic. You couldn't help but feel dumb for getting so used to him being there when you forgot that Mikasa was very much in the picture. They were together. A couple. He wasn't supposed to be available for you to talk to whenever you wanted him to be. It didn't work like that and you shouldn't have thought that way.
If he couldn't call, it was normal. Maybe he was out with her. Like on a date or something. If so, it wasn't any of your business and there was always next time. Or a time after that and so on.
You sighed.
"I need to get my crap together."
Maybe a few tinder dates was what you needed sometime soon.
After the water was warm enough to your liking, you disrobed and slowly got in. Your phone was on top of the toilet lid, just at arms reach in case Sasha called you back about the spare key.
It was funny. She had lost it and got it replaced but...lost it again. So, she went back for another replacement and was supposed to be bringing it by to not lose it again. You'd suggested that she put it on a necklace chain, but not wear it as a necklace. Just have it somewhere she would remember but maybe in plain sight.
There was never a time she didn't lose something important.
As you fell into thought, Armin came up in your mind for the millionth time today.
He'd told you recently that things were better between him and Annie. They talked through some things and now their communication skills were a lot better than before. They were both making the necessary adjustments and putting forth the right amount of effort to keep the relationship above water.
You were happy for him.
For both of them.
"Jeez, am I really the only single one out of my friend group now?" You asked yourself as you slid your back down until the water rested just above your chin.
Sasha was starting to see someone and you were happy for her. You didn't know much about the guy other than he was going to school to become a chef. You smiled. She also ranted about him being quite tall and how much she loved that about him.
This was good for her. She deserved to be happy. She'd been single for a pretty long time too.
It was about time that she found someone.
With a sigh, you tilted your head up to look at the ceiling.
"Maybe one day."
Once you had started to notice that you were pruning up from the water, you quickly washed up and got out, drying yourself as you headed back into the room.
You tossed your cell on the bed and went into the closet to find something to throw on. Preferably a big t-shirt.
Your phone was ringing but the volume was set a bit low so you missed the first call. When you walked back into the room, you noticed the screen light up and went over to see who it was.
"Really?" You spoke low amongst yourself in surprise.
It was a shock but nevertheless, you didn't hesitate to pick it up.
"Hey."
"Heyy, sorry to bother you so late. Were you busy?"
You sat on the edge of the bed, smiling. "No, I just got out of the tub actually. Your timing couldn't have been better."
Armin laughed on the other end and pushed his glasses back up his nose, "Well it sounds like I missed the show."
Your skin flushed at him insinuating that he wanted to see you naked but quickly wrote it off as him attempting to be somewhat funny.
"Yeah," you used your ear and shoulder to clamp down on the cell as you slid on a pair of underwear. "You sure did. So, what's got you calling so late? Not that I'm complaining. It's always nice talking to you." It just wasn't normal for him to call during the nights. You didn't want to think about there being something wrong between him and Annie or even with the baby.
"No reason. I just wanted to see how you were doing," he tried to convince you, but his tone was off. There was something else and you weren't entirely sure that you were able to question it because maybe he didn't want to talk about it.
Either way, it was something you were going to have to let him bring up instead.
"Mm, how sweet of you. I've been great actually."
"Still talking to Eren?"
"Mhm! We haven't talked much today but I still do."
"Oh. Cool."
There it was.
Of course.
It made sense. Maybe Armin missed hanging out with his best friend and felt like you were the cause. If you were right, was it serious enough for him to bring it up? How was it not something that could've been settled between the both of them?
You smiled, turning over to lay flat on your stomach with your legs up and crossed. "Don't worry. I'm not trying to steal your best friend."
You heard a deep chuckle on the other end, "Steal him? It's nothing like that. I just missed talking to you, actually." You didn't even have time to scream into your pillow when he continued, "Feel like you enjoy talking to him more than you do with me."
His tone had been light but you could tell by the way he said it that he was actually a bit hurt over not getting the same amount of attention from you as Eren was getting.
"Well you know what, I'm going to start bugging you a lot more." You smiled, "-really shouldn't have said that now."
"Might come off as a shock but I would love that."
"As friends."
"Of course. Nothing more."
The call didn't last long. Not when Eren had been trying to call and text you. Armin understood, said goodnight and you hit Eren's name.
"Mm, what is this?" He asked you.
"I- What?"
"Hold on."
Confused, you laid there and waited until he was done doing whatever it was that he was making you wait for.
Then a facetime call was trying to come through.
Without hesitation, you answered it and saw that he was in the bathroom with wet hair.
Why was he always either getting out of the shower or about to take one when you video called?
"There's my pretty girl," he commented and you rolled your eyes, smiling. "Mm, and she smiles. Lovely."
"You're making it very hard to stay mad at you," you mumbled, picking at a stray thread that was coming out of your blanket. "You got all busy on me."
You watched as he applied shaving cream on his face and tried to set the phone up to where you were still able to see him. The angle wasn't bad at all. You were peering up from a low angle where he was leaned forward, close to the mirror. "Sorry baby, I was a bag boy all day for Mikasa. She bought a lot of stuff and I had to carry it all." He looked down at you with a cheesy grin before flexing his arms, making you laugh. "Totally worth it because that was my arm workout for the day, huh?"
"Bag boy. That's got a nice ring to it."
His face got a little red, going back to shaving. "Use it after today and you're dead."
"Okay, okay. Fine," you casually commented, finding the shaving asmr to be quite soothing.
The sound of him using the blade to remove the little hairs that were once there and brush the shaving cream away, it began to make you a little sleepy. Plus, you were freshly bathed and Eren wasn't helping you stay awake in the slightest.
You decided to venture off onto other apps in order to help you stay awake while still watching him shave. He was humming some tune to himself that provided good background noise once you decided to text some of your friends back.
It was odd how easy you two fell back into old habits. Like there hadn't been an entire five year gap in between the friendship. Or...situation-ship, rather.
Curiously enough, you couldn't help but wonder what Mikasa thought about the two of you having major contact again. It didn't seem like she was all that bothered since she had been the one to connect the two of you but you couldn't help but wonder if there was some other ulterior motive? Was it a test of some kind?
Couldn't put it past her. She'd done it once before with Historia. Only to make sure that she was her friend and not someone wanting to get close just to get juicy intel on her. Then spread it around school. Childish, true, but Mikasa wasn't dumb.
Turns out Historia was a genuine person and had no plans of spying on her for anything. She just wanted to be friends and that was how she claimed her place in the clique. Of course, that had all happened before you came along but Mikasa felt it was something you needed to know about.
Wasn't hard to tell that she told you that story simply because she didn't trust you fully. That was back then. Even after five years of no contact, was it wrong to have your doubts about her? When it came to her trust, it wasn't given out very easily.
It made you wonder.
Did you still have it?
"Aw, your camera's off again,” he whined.
You saw him pout and it annoyed you because he was cute when he got like that.
It was even better when you made him work to get what he wanted from you.
You clicked back into the screen and your face was back in view. He instantly smiled and grabbed a towel to clean up the excess cream.
"There she is."
"Oh my god, Eren, stop talking like that," you groaned, wanting to throw the phone across the room.
His laugh rang through the speakers, undoubtedly at your expense.
"You're still shy, huh?" He checked himself in the mirror before he picked up the device and began walking out of the bathroom with only a short towel draped around his neck and a towel hung low on his hips. You saw everything and wished you didn't because it made you frustrated. There weren't any real feelings for him anymore but did finding him stupidly attractive count?
You hoped not.
"I'm not shy," you flipped onto your back and held the phone out in front of you, in the air.
Eren had moved to the bedroom that was clear of his girlfriend, whom you only assumed was still at work. You smiled to yourself. Instead of texting and calling her, here he was. Facetiming you while shaving and walking around the apartment half naked. He was comfortable with you and you tried to not let that mean anything.
Key word.
Tried.
"Liar," he sang and you flipped him off.
"Aw, c'mon," he plopped down on the edge of the bed. His arm was tired of holding the phone at eye level so he rested his hand against his thigh and again, you had a low angle view of him. He was looking down at you through dark lashes, eyes almost greener than they were in the bathroom. It was almost hard keeping eye contact but you didn't want him to tease you or come up with crazy (not so crazy) assumptions about it.
"You can be a little meanie, can't you."
It sounded rhetorical enough to not entertain him with an answer so you settled for a hum and he smiled, watching you rub at your eyes.
"Hey, I won't hold you up. I know you're tired. We can talk sometime late-"
"No." You quickly answered, frowning. "We're talking until I fall asleep. No objections. I..." you looked to the side, finally releasing the eye contact while you told him your feelings. You would have rather died then be honest about how you felt, but as a therapist – honesty was the best policy. No friendship could survive without proper communication. You understood that more than anyone. "I kind of missed you today." When you heard him speak, you looked back at him, holding up a finger. "And don't let that go to your obnoxiously big head, alright? I only meant that I enjoy our talks so...yeah. No big deal."
Eren couldn't help but find the entire situation funny. The way you expressed your feelings looked painful and it was like watching a car wreck but he always loved every minute of it. At least you were capable of telling him what was on your mind rather than not.
"Yeah, yeah. I won't," he replied with fake sincerity as he used the towel around his neck to dry the ends of his hair. "Okay, I'm gonna put some sweats on and get in bed. Are we..." a slow smirk rose to his face. "Are we really going to fall asleep on the phone together?"
"Oh my god, don't make it a big deal," you whined, sitting up in bed. You didn't have a bra on (because why sleep with something so constricting on?) and that gave Eren a wide and clear view of your nipples that were poking against your shirt from the friction. "You're so annoying. Go put pants on. I think it's weird you've got your dick out right now with me on the phone. Perv."
He laughed out loud and fell back on the bed, looking at you from the side. "I mean, it kinda sounds like you wanna see it..."
"No! I will end this call right now, don't play with me."
Another laugh erupted from the other end, and you watched him position the camera away from the closet but it was still in view of the body mirror that they had in their bedroom. In fact, if you remembered correctly...there were a few other mirrors in the room.
You wondered why someone would want to have more than one mirror in the room unless they were-
"Oh my god."
You wanted to go back to the ten seconds where you didn't put those pieces together and realize something you wished you hadn't.
Luckily, Eren hadn't heard you so that was a conversation you were thankful to skip.
While he was busy dressing, you reached to the side and dimmed your lamp so that it wasn't so bright. The thought of eating something was too far at the back of your mind. You were already so tired. You were just going to have to have a hearty breakfast in the morning to make up for the missed dinner.
Once you were settled into bed, comfortable underneath the sheets, you paid more attention to the screen and almost blinked yourself into another dimension.
"Eren?!"
There he stood. Barebacked in the reflection of the mirror, in front of his closet. Granted, all that you were able to see were his ass cheeks but that was already too much in and of itself.
He looked behind him, looking for the phone he'd set down on the bed and smirked at his own reflection, figuring out that was how you were able to see him.
"I mean, you don't have to look," he responded, sending you a wink that almost made you want to throw up yet cry at the same time because even through the mirror, he looked good.
"I've been skipping leg day for the past couple of days so sorry if they're not up to par," he commented, smirking to himself as he pulled out a pair of dark grey sweats. "Although, I'm getting the feeling that you don't really care. A view is a view right?"
He slipped on the pants and stretched with a yawn, walking back to the bed and snatching the phone up.
The look on your face almost made him want to laugh but he enjoyed teasing you so he gave in again. "What's that look for? Did you not like it?"
Your eyebrows were pushed together and there was a cute pout on your lips. Your facial expression looked as if you'd just smelled something extremely sour and didn't know how to feel about it.
He cracked and laughed, running a hand through his hair.
"Are we sleeping or what?" He asked you.
"...yeah. I guess."
“You guessss,” he teased, reaching over and turning off the only other light in the room and got into bed with a groan, licking his lips. You were still partially visible while he was shrouded in complete darkness. In all honesty, you were thankful that he was out of your line of sight.
You'd had enough of the visuals for one night.
"So..." Eren mumbled, finding comfort at being on top of the covers. "Do we just...fall asleep or-"
"Have you really never fallen asleep on the phone before?" You asked him, the corners of your lips twitching up, wanting to smile. It would've been nice to have something to tease him about in the future. He never had a problem doing it with you.
"Of course I have!" He shot back defensively, and you couldn't help but giggle. "I just don't do it very often so it's kind of awkward."
"Wow. I can't believe the great Eren Jaeger is actually scared of a little vulnerability. Is this...his kryptonite? Stay tuned to find out."
He snorted. "Make fun of me all you want, but I've gotten to be a pretty private person since high school."
"We don't have to stay on the phone together. I mean, we can sleep now actually. Like separately."
Eren brought over the same pillow he'd had earlier and hugged it the same way. "No, this is fine. I don't mind falling asleep next to you...even though I'm pretty positive you still snore like a 30 year old man with three jobs."
You laughed out loud and wished you could hit him with something but you couldn't so you settled for making as much noise from your end. He was saying something but you were too busy rubbing the end of your phone into the sheets.
"-okay, okay! I get it!" You heard him say and laughed, pulling the device away. It was followed by another long, tired yawn. "Well, I'm about to knock out. You'd better be sleeping too."
You smiled and nodded. "I'm extremely exhausted so it won't take me long." You turned off your lamp and you were also engulfed in darkness. He couldn't see you and you couldn't see him. It made things a little less weird. At least, for you.
"Good."
The soft sound of your a/c whirring on provided the perfect background noise as you pulled a pillow close, setting your phone right next to it.
The shuffling sounds on his end had ceased and if you paid close enough attention, his breathing had evened out.
'He's still a fast sleeper I see,' you thought to yourself with a soft smile.
It wasn't as weird as you'd thought it was going to be. Sure, he was at his place and you were at your own, but it still felt like he was right next to you. He made low noises in his sleep but other than that, he was quiet and it was soothing.
Soon enough, you'd found yourself falling asleep to the sound of the air conditioning and his soft snoring.
When you opened your eyes again, it was still pitch black.
You didn't know the time but it was definitely late.
With half lidded eyes and a groggy vision, you picked up the cell that was still next to you and noticed that you'd been on the phone for six hours. It was two in the morning and it seemed like Eren was still fast asleep. The other end was a bit quiet but you figured that he had stopped snoring at some point in the night.
You were about to end the call when you heard a deep groan. It was a bit low but it was unmistakable.
That was Eren.
It sounded a bit similar to the sound he'd made earlier while being on call. It had come from him supposedly stubbing his toe but this sound...it didn't sound like it came from him hurting himself again. Plus, he was supposed to be in bed.
How would he stub his toe in bed?
You rubbed your eyes and quickly muted yourself as you sat up. The phone was still in your hand and you tried looking at every part of the screen to figure out what exactly was going on but it was so dark. You couldn't see anything.
"Fuck."
You froze.
Was he...?
No.
He was just mumbling in his sleep. That was it. Nothing else.
You almost wanted to turn the light on, because listening to him in the dark made it even weirder, when you heard him shift around. Quickly after, a small light was turned on and you heard a drawer open.
With the room illuminated, you saw a bit of the ceiling and what looked to be his arm covering some of the screen. Then the drawer closed and the sound of a cap being popped open made your stomach knot twice over.
What if you had been wrong? What if he was actually about to jerk one off with you still being on call? Then again...it wasn't like he was forcing you to stay there. Maybe he'd forgotten that the call was still going on. That made you feel like a complete pervert. Whatever he was actually doing, six hours was enough. It was late and you needed to get a few more hours of sleep. It was a Saturday which meant no work but that didn't mean you needed to stay up all night. Not with Eren about to do god knows what with you listening on the other end.
"I should hang up," you whispered to yourself, the phone still in your hand. There were more noises on the other end as you stared at whatever view he was giving you. "I need to hang up."
Then, by some strange coincidence, he picked up the phone and stared at it with furrowed brows. It was like he was trying to figure out if it was still on or not when all he had to do was tap the screen to see that it was.
"Oh my god," you breathed, thinking you had been caught. That he could see you, through the dark, watching him.
Eren's green eyes searched all across the dark screen before smirking to himself.
"Guess she fell asleep. Probably won't mind."
You blinked as he set the phone, casually, against a pillow next to him so that you were able to see exactly what he was up to.
If only you had actually still been asleep right now.
He was propped up against the headboard, legs out in front of him and a hand against his abdomen that flexed repeatedly with each heavy breath he took. There was no regard towards being caught by you at all. There was a lazy smile on his face, staring down at the way he leaked across his stomach. You couldn't tear your eyes away from the sight. His pajama pants were pulled down mid-thigh but aside from that, he was completely bare. It was like he wanted to be caught. Wanted you to watch him get off, but for what? What was it going to lead to? Or was it possible that he actually believed that you were still asleep?
Eren smoothed his hand down the underside of his cock while his other hand spread across his chest, moving over a nipple. His lips were parted as he breathed out, not sparing one glance towards the phone. To you, who stared, noticing the way his thighs would twitch every time his thumb would accidentally trace over the head of his cock.
You needed to end the call. You needed to send him a text saying that you ended the call because it was late and you didn't want your phone to overheat with it staying on for more than six hours. Some sort of convincing lie to get you out of the current situation that you were in. There was no good excuse as to why you were watching him touch himself. He had a girlfriend. Mikasa was your friend and here you were – watching her boyfriend get off on facetime, voluntarily invading his privacy. A piece of privacy that he hadn't seemed real inclined on protecting if he wasn't able to tell that the call was still going.
Although, that still didn't justify your desire to continue watching him.
He began to give himself slow and relaxed strokes, abs tensing with each movement, "Fuck," he breathed, voice a bit raspy as he frowned and let his head fall back against the top of the short headboard.
There you were – sat up in bed, cross-legged with a heavy throb in between your legs that wouldn't go away no matter what you tried thinking about. A puppy? Didn't work. Maybe an elderly lady doing yoga...
You squinted for a moment then closed your eyes, thinking that shielding your eyes away from your screen was going to help. That moment away was when you'd heard Eren let out a low groan and swear under his breath again.
"Fuck me," you muttered in frustration, reopening your eyes.
Eren moved his hand easily along his cock, making sure to cover his head before stroking back down. His hips were threatening to move up but he seemed to hold himself back, sliding his other hand down to the bed, gripping into it.
His breathing was picking up and you were unable to pull your eyes away. Watching him, you noticed that he still had the small moles across his abs like before. Except now they were a little darker and there were even a few new ones that were splayed just under his chest. Skin smooth, except for the small patch of hair right at his pelvis.
With each lazy stroke, he made sure to tug at the cock head in long sweeps to keep himself on the edge. His hair was half up but a few strands laid across his damp forehead, sticking from the sweat. As you looked more closely, it was only then did you notice the tattoos.
"He's got tattoos?" you asked yourself with raised brows as your eyes traced over the one on his arm that wrapped around his wrist then to the one at the side of his neck that looked like a line of words that you weren't able to decipher. There was also one on his hip bone that looked to be a small bird in flight and a few smaller ones on his fingers that were on his left hand. How did you manage to miss them? Better question, when did he grow a love for ink? In high school, when you had asked him if he would ever get a tattoo, he made a face and said he could never.
He definitely grew up.
Suddenly, his head turned towards the camera. He was panting and staring at the screen like he was able to see you. Was he?
You pushed the phone out a bit from your face and looked around you to make sure that it was still jet black in the room. To your advantage, it was but that still didn't explain the strange look that was now on his face as he let his cock smack back against his abdomen.
With slight tension in his brows, he grabbed the phone with his other hand, staring and squinting at the screen. You were holding your breath as he tapped the screen. Jade eyes widened in surprise. Telling by the look of horror on his face, it was safe to say that he'd had no clue that the phone was actually still on.
Whoops.
"Dude, are you serious?" He said to himself in a low tone, almost wanting to laugh but actually seemed a little nervous, thinking you could've heard him or worse. Saw him.
You did. In fact, it was more than that. You'd been watching him, which should've made you feel bad but reasonably enough...it didn't.
You weren't buying it. All signs were pointing to him being genuinely confused and scared, but a part of you didn't believe that he was completely unaware the entire time.
"Hey..." he spoke, trying to see if you were going to answer back and answer the one question he had.
There was no reason to hide and lie. If anything, you two were going to laugh and never speak about the situation ever again.
So, you answered.
"Hey..."
"Oh shit."
Silence.
You and Eren sat in your beds, quiet on both ends. He felt a little embarrassed about you catching him but you were the reason behind the extremely awkward air. You didn't know what to say and neither did he, but he wanted to give it a try because awkward silence only made things weirder for him.
Your light was now on so he looked at you through the screen before clearing his throat.
"So...rate me?"
Your burst of laughter made him laugh and the tension filled air was suddenly gone.
You rolled your eyes, looking back at him with a smile. "I'll give you a 9."
He smirked, leaning against the headboard again. "A 9, huh? What's a guy gotta do to get a 10, babe?"
You dipped your head down from the camera, trying to pretend he didn't call you that. "Keep talking like that," you reconnected the eye contact, almost frowning. "-and you're getting debunked to a solid 3."
"Ah damn," he tilted his head, pouting. "I'll take the 9 then."
"Yeah, smart call."
"So..." he looked down to play with the strings to his pajama pants that were now put back on. "Will this make the friendship all weird or like..."
You thought about it for a moment before opening your mouth. "Not...really. I've seen you before. It was just a shock right after waking up." You watched as he took a peek back up at you through his lashes, grinning. You smiled and looked away, already annoyed. "Say it and you're done."
He laughed, "Alright, I won't! I just…Can I be honest about something?"
You nodded, clueless to what he was going to ask you.
"Did you...wake up to seeing me like that or were you watching the entire time?"
Your mind went semi blank. The urge to lie was almost stronger than wanting to tell the truth. One of them had to win and the wrong one did.
"I was watching the entire time."
"Oh?" the dark look in his eyes was almost as annoying as the shit eating grin that was on his face now. "What a perv. I had a feeling you weren't really asleep and came to find out that you weren't." He stretched out and rubbed a hand down his chest that was covered by a shirt, falling out of view.
You rolled your eyes. "And what was I supposed to do? Ignore you?"
"No. Ask if you could help."
Your mouth dropped open. "You can't be serious."
He shrugged, still smiling. "I am."
"No way," you moved out of bed and headed towards the bathroom. "Never in a million years."
"Sad. We could've bonded."
"You're crazy."
“Yeah, crazy over you," he said jokingly.
"Yuck."
Eren laughed, watching you set the phone up on the counter and away from the toilet as you used the bathroom. "So I've upgraded to hearing you pee? Nice."
You frowned and smirked, turning the faucet on. Over the running water, you heard him whine something about "no fair" and it made you giggle as you finished up and flushed. He was able to see you wash your hands and got carried back into the room.
"I'm serious though," he muttered and it was so low that you almost missed it.
With a quirked brow, you sat down at the edge of the bed. "What do you mean?"
His eyes didn't leave yours as he continued, "Helping me."
Wasn't he joking? He couldn't have been actually serious about that. Could he? He was insane. He had a girlfriend and you two were just starting to be friends after spending so many years with zero contact. Plus, it wasn't like that left room to become fuck buddies or anything like that. Hello! Mikasa?
"I...what?" You were insanely confused and couldn't understand where he was expecting the conversation to go because you weren't going to help him in any sort of sexual sense so there was no need to stay on that subject.
Eren took a pillow from beside him and placed it off to the side, setting the phone against it. "You heard me. I want your help so I can finish."
It was a joke. It had to be.
You checked the time at the top of your phone and noticed it was pushing three in the morning. "Eren, I'm over the joke already. Besides, where's Mikasa? She's gotta be home by now, right?"
He nodded, ruffling his hair. "Yeah, but she decided to sleep in the guest room tonight." His eyes weren't very telling. "Around 11, she came home and we had a small argument. Nothing major. It'll blow over by the morning, as usual. Not worried about it." He let out a small yawn, pulling down at his pants to make room. Or was he...adjusting? "So...are you in or...?"
The question was left hanging in the air because there was no way you were going to help him finish off his relationship with Mikasa because you were sure that was what was going to happen if you did 'help him'.
She was going to find out. She always did.
"I won't get into your relationship but-"
"And every time you say that, you're always getting into stuff that has nothing to do with you."
You closed your mouth and looked down, a bit hurt. It wasn't like he was wrong but he didn't have to say it like that.
He saw the look on your face and sighed.
"I shouldn't have said it like that, I'm sorry."
Not like that was triggering or anything. Nope. Not at all.
"No you're right." You bit into your lip and wanted the topic to pass already.
"Uh..." he rubbed at his neck, wishing he hadn't said it like that. If anything, you were just trying to help. "How about I help you instead."
You blinked and looked back at him, confused. "Help me?"
"Yeah," a slow side smile spread across his pretty face. "You couldn't have watched me without getting turned on. It'll be a friend helping out another friend. Won't you let me help?"
Was he crazy? Had to be.
Literally insane.
There was no way you were going to agree to something like that. It was basically like cheating plus just because you found him attractive didn't mean you wanted to go behind your friend's back and help her boyfriend cheat on her.
She would never in a million years forgive you if she found out.
"Eren, no I-"
"Lay down."
His voice was low and authoritative. By the blank expression on his face, it was obvious that he was being entirely serious. He wanted to help you and maybe if it was just a one time thing, could it hurt? Mikasa wasn't going to find out if it was just this once. There were many people in friendships where this sort of thing happened. It wasn't odd or abnormal. Completely normal and if he was going to guide you through video chat without physically being there and touching you — it somehow made it a little easier to get into it.
So with that in mind, you did as you were told and laid down, keeping a leg bent so that it felt less awkward.
He hummed, "Set the phone up to where I can see as much of you as possible."
You did the same thing you saw him do and used a pillow as leverage, keeping the phone perked up against it. "Okay..."
"Now," he slid a hand down his chest to his abdomen, inhaling deeply. "Play with yourself. Start slow. Your tits are usually a good start." There was a smirk in his voice and when you looked at him, it wasn't a surprise that it was there. Right on his annoyingly attractive face.
"This is so weird," you mumbled to yourself, unable to find a moment in your life where you'd ever done anything like this before. It was very new to you. To facetime someone and...touch yourself in front of them.
It was almost a little exciting.
One of your hands skimmed over a nipple, just barely nicking it.
"Oh," you breathed, feeling a tingle swim through your chest.
Eren stared at you intensely, almost too mesmerized to blink in case he missed something.
"Again, pretty girl. Over and over until the pressure in between your legs gets to be too much. Then," he palmed himself lightly, letting his thumb rub over the head of his cock. "Then, I want to hear you beg."
Your skin was hot as you pinched and twisted at your nipples through your shirt, trying to not think about Eren watching everything that you were doing and finding zero shame in it. For you, it was incredibly embarrassing but in some weird way...you liked it. You liked him guiding you and staring at you through the screen as you did so. There was no doubt in your mind that he was secretly touching himself to you and that thought made you close your legs because that gave your mind permission to think about him actually being in the same room as you.
Watching you from across the room but not touching you. Just telling you what to do.
"Eren," you moaned lowly, hoping he didn't hear it.
"Louder. Let me hear you."
Your thighs twitched as you pushed up your shirt and took your nipples back in between your fingers, imagining his mouth over them, swirling the hardened buds with his tongue and groaning about how perfect they were.
How perfect you were.
"Tell me what's on your mind. Be vocal for me. I need to know what you're thinking," he shamelessly pleaded, tugging his pants down low enough to let himself free. You heard his cock hit his abs with a faint smack and the urge to reach a hand down in between your legs almost won if you hadn't remembered what he said.
You had to beg to get permission.
You tossed your head towards the phone next to you and felt your face warm at what you were about to do. "Can I please touch myself now?"
He smirked almost instantly. "Not even going to fight it, huh?" You didn't say a word back. It was all in your eyes. "Pity. I expected more fight from you but then again," he positioned the camera in a similar position yours was in, and you saw the angry head of his cock covered with his arousal. You felt a whine bubble up in your throat at the sight. The thought of that inside of you right now...so deep...pulsating against your walls, threatening to cum from how tight you'd be around him. "Watching me earlier must've been really painful for you, huh baby?"
"Oh my god," you groaned weakly, shoving a hand down and pushing your underwear aside to press a finger against your aching clit. If this truly was a one time thing then what either of you said and thought in the moment wasn't going to matter later. It probably wasn't even going to be brought up again. That was the only way you even allowed yourself to say what you wanted to say. "I wish you were here, Eren. Using your fingers and touching me the way I'm touching myself. So bad," you whispered but it wasn't low enough for him to miss. He'd heard it all.
He gave himself a few slow pumps before smiling to himself, "Soon."
His response had missed you. You were too focused on how good it felt to relieve some of the pressure that had built up from watching him earlier. It was so painful and you were too embarrassed and nervous. It would've been wrong but he ended up knowing that you were watching all along. So maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if you'd looked at it like he had purposely put on a show for you.
Wasn't like he hadn't insinuated that he knew.
A single finger dipped past your slippery folds, easily pushing into your tight hole, going at an easy pace before picking it up. Your other hand was preoccupied with cupping one of your breasts, fingers tweaking at the supple bud sending little shockwaves throughout your body.
Eren was captivated by you. It was nothing like fucking Mikasa or even guiding her into an orgasm. No. Something about the way you moaned and touched yourself for him — it was different. He would've been lying to himself if he didn't admit that he held some sort of desire for you. To see you. To touch you himself and make you cum from his cock alone. To have you begging him to fill you up like the good little whore that you were.
By the looks of it, it didn't seem like you changed much at all.
Just a lot more gullible and needier.
"Ah," he felt his balls tense up from the pressure. He wasn't going to last much longer but he couldn't let himself come before you. That was rude. You needed to be completely satisfied before he found it acceptable.
His eyes were back on you. Your fingers were in your mouth and he could've fallen into a coma at the lewd look on your face before you shoved them back into your pretty pussy.
God, he was going to lose his fucking mind over you.
"Are you close, baby?"
You nodded, "mhm," trying to keep eye contact with him, but it was hard when all you wanted to do was get lost in the feeling with your eyes closed. "M'so close, I won't be able to hold off. I'm sorry."
He could've groaned at the way you apologized for something you could hardly control.
What were you doing to him?
"It's okay, pretty," your thighs twitched at the pet name. "This is about you."
Your body felt tingly. Like it was getting ready to soar down while on a rollercoaster. There was a tight ball of tension at the lower part of your stomach and it was hard to fight off. You'd wanted to last longer, but it was impossible with the way Eren helped you along. He'd made it so hard to hold back. Even for just a second longer.
Your hips slowly rose off of the mattress and your toes curled, feeling the intensity and pleasure all hit you at once. Your release flooded across your fingers, sticking to them like glue. Your legs were a little shaky and you took a few moments to catch your breath.
In the heat of the moment, you'd torn your eyes away from him but when you looked back, you were thankful to not miss it.
The way his abs tensed before flexing and tightening, hearing his breath quicken. One of his legs was bent up but it didn't obstruct your view. His strokes were steady and precise, going over his head each time.
"Oh my god," he moaned, biting into the pillow next to him as he pushed his hips up, fucking into his hand. He was almost there, so unbelievably close, fuck he could feel it.
Then your next set of words sent him right over the edge.
"Come for me, Eren."
His vision blurred enough for him to close his eyes, feeling his thick and creamy release coat his lean upper body. His bun was hanging onto the thin elastic band, most of his hair splayed out on the pillow behind him.
He looked a mess but you found him to be severely captivating.
There was one thing that was bothering you but you chose to not think about it. At least for now.
His hand slowed until he stopped completely, slightly shaking. He brought his hand up to his line of vision, chuckled and dropped it back on his stomach, looking at you.
"You didn't have to do that."
You felt your skin warm. "No, but I kind of remember you asking me to help you and that was me. Helping."
He sent you a lazy smile before humming, sitting up. "Yeah. You're right," he grabbed the phone with his clean hand and slid out of bed. His green eyes were back on you, almost looking through you. "Thanks, pretty girl."
"Eren," you whined, throwing a pillow right over your face to hide the shame of liking the things he called you.
He laughed, making it to the bathroom.
"Cute. You should get some rest. We'll talk tomorrow."
You pushed the cotton aside, staring at him as he cleaned up. "Promise?"
He smiled with a nod. "Of course."
Hesitantly, you believed him but not fully.
Just in case.
"M'kay. Goodnight."
"Night," he sang before hitting the 'end' button.
The screen went back to your lockscreen and you set the device to the side before looking up at the ceiling.
"What the actual fuck am I going to do now?"
There was no going back. Eren cheated on Mikasa, with you no less. How were you supposed to hang out with her knowing that you'd had a mutual masturbation session with her boyfriend? There was also the possibility that she was going to find out but not through you. No. What if she and Eren got into an argument and out of anger, he mentioned you and him? It wasn't like he hadn't done something like that before.
You couldn't put anything past him so the only card you had left to play was denying whatever he could say about you. If not that, then there was always the truth.
That would mean losing Mikasa forever and you didn't want that to happen. Ever.
It was just best to put what just happened behind you. Behind both of you.
It would've been easy to do if it was only just this once.
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