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firm believer that levi would leave you little notes on the kitchen counter before heading to work early in the morning while your still sound asleep in bed, telling you to have a good day & how much he loves you & how he can’t wait to see you when he gets home
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currently writing a nsfw christmas jean x reader one shot.. not sure if i should keep it short and sweet or if i should dedicate some time to a longer one
decisions decisions..
a kirschtein holiday
jean x reader
tags: // general smutt //overstimulation// masterbation // use of good girl // curse words // nipple play // fluff
word count: 2k
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“i’ve been thinking about you all day”
you blushed at the sound of jean’s voice coming through the other side of the phone.
you audibly sighed into the device. you missed jean so much, it was hard being away from him especially when you were lying in bed at night without his warm body next to yours.
you were back home visiting family for the holidays while jean stayed behind in the city. “i’ve been thinking about you too actually, even being around my family doesn’t keep me from missing you.” you said as you stared at the sun drenched ceiling of your childhood bedroom, the blinds on your window casting a shadow onto the surface.
a beat passed before jean’s voice came through the phone again, “say the word baby, and i’ll be on the first flight out to you.”
you shot up from the bed, you felt like electricity was pumping through your veins as the warm sensation of hope filled your chest. “don’t say things you don’t mean jean, i mean it. don’t get my hopes up.”
you could hear jean speaking through the smile that was plastered on his face, “oh i mean it, all you have to do is say the word princess, your wish is my command.”
the warm sensation in your chest spread throughout your whole body, you tried to conceal your tone not wanting to sound too excited, “but what about my family? are you sure you’re ready to meet them?”
“i’m ready if you are, princess.”
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later that evening, you noticed snow beginning to fall outside of your family’s dining room window. your mother and father were in a deep conversation over the neighbor's dog, while your grandmother was trying to explain the new bill that just passed congress to your hard hearing grandfather after finishing your mothers famous casserole. you disregarded your plate as you moved towards the window to take in the view, the snow looked so beautiful falling against the christmas decorations in the front yard, the powder white snow perfectly blanketed the red and green lights that lined the driveway.
your breath hitched in your throat when you saw a yellow taxi cab pull into the drive, you tried to bury the giddy feeling that was rising in your stomach, knowing exactly who was inside the vehicle.
you felt kind of creepy, just blatantly staring out the window but you couldn’t peel your gaze away when you saw jean’s tall frame exit the vehicle. he was dressed as dapper as ever, fitting for the freezing temperatures wearing a white button down shirt and slacks with a long wool coat on top. you could tell he left directly from work to catch his flight. you also took notice of the red poinsettia flowers and the bottle of wine that jean had in hand as he made his way to the front door.
your excitement rose to the surface when the doorbell rang, “i’ll get it!” you said as you raced to the front door.
jean smiled down at you fondly when you flung the door open, “hey-“ you didn’t give him a moment to speak, you immediately wrapped your arms around his neck, taking him into a tight embrace.
jean hummed in your ear, “huh, guess you really did miss me.” he said as he placed a kiss into your hair.
“well hello there! you must be jean.” you released your boyfriend from your embrace at the sound of your mother’s voice.
jean attempted to readjust himself, having almost dropped the items in his hands from you pouncing on him. “yes ma’am, and it is a pleasure to meet you. i’m sorry for being late, it turned out to be quite a challenge finding a good bottle of wine inside the airport.”
your mother laughed as she took the items off of jean’s hands, “please come in, you must be freezing out here.”
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you were originally very nervous about how jean meeting your family would go, but it turns out your family just might like your boyfriend more than yourself. you were actually impressed with how jean was able to strike up a conversation with your typically reserved father.
there must be something in the wine. you thought as the two men cackled at each other's jokes.
the anxiety you felt before jean met your family completely melted away as you watched the scene play out before you.
your mother passed you a plate of pie as she took a seat next to you, “this one might be a keeper. he somehow broke your father out of his shell, if he successfully did that then.. well he must be a keeper.”
you blushed, still watching jean fraternize with your father and now grandfather.
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your heart deflated a little when your mother broke the news that you and jean would have to sleep in separate rooms, she didn’t care how old you are now, there would be no “hanky panky” under her roof.
jesus christ.
jean placed a kiss upon your forehead before entering the guest bedroom for the night.
you pouted when he pulled away, missing the feeling of his lips on your skin. jeans hand gripped your waist while his tall frame loomed over yours looking down on your face intently, “i’ll see you in the morning.” his whisper of words caressed your ears sweetly, while the deepness of his voice compelled your pussy to grow wet. you instinctively pressed your thighs together in an attempt to push those feelings away, the last thing you needed was to get yourself all hot and bothered while you were home for the holidays. being horny in your parents house just felt completely wrong on all levels.
“okay, see you tomorrow.” you said as you quickly entered your room directly next to jean’s.
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you tossed and turned in bed for what felt like hours before you let out a huff of breath, abandoning the idea of sleep. you felt too pent up, you just wanted jean’s hands on your body but even if you were brave enough to disobey your mothers demand, you figured jean must’ve been asleep already.
conceding to your body’s needs, you flopped onto your back. you couldn’t believe that you were about to masterbate in your parents house all while imagining your boyfriend working your clit in the most heavenly way possible, the way only he can.
you slipped your sleep shorts off, discarding them on the floor and began to rub soft circles on your clit while snaking a free hand up your shirt to tease your already hard nipples. all thoughts evaporated from your mind as your hips began to instinctively roll against your hand, you picked up your pace against your throbbing clit. the temperature seemed to rise as warmth washed over your body, your mouth hung open as you panted heavily from pleasure.
your eyes went wide when you accidentally let a soft moan escape your lips, you were too lust drunk to stop your ministrations on your swollen clit, so you used your free hand to cover your mouth in an attempt to muffle the sweet sounds flowing from it.
jean was wide awake, staring at the snow falling past his window, he already had a hard time sleeping without you, and knowing that you were just one room away somehow made it even harder. jean’s mind was filled with thoughts of you and your body, wishing that he could palm your soft tits as your nipples grew hard under his touch, while fucking you so slowly that your body ached from ecstasy. jean pictured your form perfectly in his mind's eye, squirming and writhing under his touch.
jean’s gaze moved to the tent that his hard cock made in the fabric of his sleep pants. he sighed, not wanting to act on his horny thoughts by jacking off to the thought of his girlfriend that was probably fast asleep just one room over.
jean was stunned when his ears picked up on the sound of your sweet moan coming from the other side of the wall, he held his breath for a moment trying to listen closer, thinking that maybe he was hearing things. a beat passed, and your voice was heard once again, though much quieter this time.
whimpers fell from your mouth, now that your hand was not there to prevent it. you were so lost in the moment from both of your hands being put to use, one hand worked circles fervently on your clit while the other pounded your g spot. you didn’t even notice the sounds leaving your mouth, your eyes were clamped shut picturing it was jean going to work on your cunt instead of own hands.
you were so lost in pleasure that you didn’t hear jean stealthy enter the room. his broad frame towered over you at the end of the bed, watching you in complete awe as your hands vigorously worked your beautiful soaking cunt.
jean was grateful that your eyes were still closed as your cunt began to quiver around your fingers.
you quietly whimpered jean’s name over and over as you came, your body shook still picturing him in your brain.
a deep voice broke through the silence, “i’m right here baby.” you gasped when your gaze met jean’s, noticing his hard cock poking through his pants, just begging to be let out of the prison of fabric that it was encased in. “you look so pretty like this, i didn’t want to interrupt you.” he said with lust filled eyes.
you simultaneously felt relieved by jean’s presence, while also feeling much more needy now that he was standing before you. tears pricked your eyes at the sight of the beautiful man admiring your naked body from above you.
your body too cried out for his touch, “please” you whispered, “i need you, now.”
jean didn’t waste a second, seeing you in this state could almost make him cum on the spot, he loved seeing you all needy and strung out. jean settled between your already parted legs as he cupped your face, “goddamn i’ve missed you so much.” he didn’t allow you time to respond, jean’s lips immediately locked onto yours initiating a long overdue kiss.
you moaned into your boyfriends mouth when his large hand palmed your sensitive breast, jean’s body responded to the sweet sound by rubbing his clothed cock over your overstimulated clit.
the motion sent shockwaves through your body, you couldn’t help but scream into his mouth.
jean broke the kiss to place a palm over your mouth, as he still grinded himself against your soaking wet cunt.
“shh shh shh… i know baby, i know. be a good girl, and stay quiet for me. okay?”
you nodded your head, as you stifled another whine when his free hand rolled your nipple between his fingers.
your overstimulated cunt was crying out for jean’s cock, your hips bucked against his clothed length, causing his cock to twitch at the motion. jean leaned down to place a sweet kiss on top of the hand that was covering your mouth, “mm.. gonna be a good girl and take all of my cock without making a peep? hm?” a single tear slid across your cheek, you felt like your body was about to combust waiting for jean to take you, you nodded your head in affirmation.
jean’s cock sprung up, after being freed from the tight confines of his pants. the tip of his cock glistened with pre cum as he kept one hand over your mouth, and used the other to grip your waist tightly while he sheathed himself fully into your swollen cunt.
your mouth gaped open under jean’s hand as your back arched off of the mattress, your pussy was already fluttering around his length while the tip of his cock pounded the spongy material that was your g spot.
jean wished that he could hear all of your sweet whimpers that his cock elicited from your mouth, but he couldn’t risk waking up the rest of the house if he removed his hand.
jean leaned down, placing an open mouth kiss on your tender neck while quietly moaning into your ear as he pumped deep inside of your core,
“mm. such a good girl, your doing so good for me.”
more overstimulated tears streamed across your face, as jean’s cock forced a second orgasm from your pussy. jean moaned into your neck again at the feeling of your cunt fluttering around his cock, causing him to cum deep inside you.
your hands raked through his hair while the both of you rode out your orgasms. jean’s hand left your mouth, and was replaced with a long languid kiss.
you both cringed when jean unsheathed himself from your tired cunt, he reached his hand up to cup your face again while his thumb traced circles over the tear streaked flesh, “i love you so much.” he said with a smile, as he placed a loving kiss on your forehead.
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“so did you sleep well in the guest bedroom jean? it can get a little drafty in there during this time of year.” your eyes went wide at your fathers question during breakfast.
“oh it wasn’t drafty at all, i was actually quite warm last night, i slept like a baby.” jean said with a smile as his gaze moved to you, “what about you babe? how’d you sleep last night?”
asshole.
you immediately changed the subject, “the christmas tree really looks great this year mom, good job.”
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a/n: i just made a kofi you can get to it here or in my masterlist thanks for your support love y’all x
art credit: pwkj_cos on twitter
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aot & jjk men on if they would let you peg them
18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+ 18+
this is so foul i know. LMAO
eren // jean // levi // reiner // gojo // toji
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eren
eren would pretend to be disgusted by your request but would ask a million questions like, “what even is that?”
“you want to put that where?”
“how long have you been thinking about this?”
eren would think about it for a while, he does wonder what it would be like… to be the submissive one. the more he thought about it, the more he realized that being dominated might be a nice change from being the dominant one all the time.
eren would later approach you about it, “hey, do you uh.. still want to try that thing?”
jean
jean goes all wide-eyed after hearing your request, but doesn’t really object.
jean would try anything at least once with you.
he would feel nervous about it for a bit but after visualizing your body pounding his into the mattress, he can’t help but let his cock grow hard in his pants.
jean boy is kinda soft so you would have to give him lots of praise during.
jean would let out a guttural moan at the sound of your voice coming from behind him showering him with plenty of praises like, “good boy” and “you doing so good for me puppy”
levi
immediately no, he wouldn’t even give it a second thought. absolutely not.
“you must be dehydrated, saying such crazy things. a cup of tea should remedy that.”
reiner
absolutely.
reiner would 100% let you peg him, he’s tired of trying to uphold this big masculine man act.
would probably cry after, and would definitely need to be the little spoon that night.
gojo
gojo wouldn’t even give you the chance to propose the question.
gojo would show up to your house, strap in hand telling you exactly how he wants it.
would expect you to be rough, and would yell for you to go faster or harder throughout.
would give you a high five after
toji
would laugh in your face upon hearing your question, and as soon as he realized how serious you were he would aggressively pull you into his lap for a hard spanking as punishment.
all while still laughing from above you, “hah! nice try, brat.”
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Hey!
I'm in love with your blog! QWQ
I was wondering if I could request a fic about Levi, where his s/o doesn't get back from a simple supply mission but everyone else did, and Levi has a break down at front of his cadets or the veterans or both (whatever you prefer) because he thinks it was his fault or this is his life where he gonna lost everyone but after few days his s/o get back to the headquarters with cuts and bruises after those hard days outside of the wall and Levi can't believe it is real and not some daydream about his love. Long story short I need an angst fic with happy ending! QwQ
Thank you so much, feel free to ignore this if you don't like it or if you don't want to. You're amazing and I hope you have an amazing day!
the castle
levi x reader
a/n: i took some liberties with this one, hope you enjoy
tags: angst // fluff // curse words // violence // blood //
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“i won’t let you do this.” a stern voice sounded off in the night air as you mounted your horse. you sighed, looking at the stars that peaked out behind the tree tops above you. not bothering to turn around, you knew who that voice belonged to, you were intimately familiar with it.
“it’s not your decision to make, i have to do this with or without your blessing. this is bigger than both of us.” you said, grimacing at your own words. you wished you could choose to be selfish, and stay behind with levi. part of you thought that all of humanity could be shot straight to hell for all you cared, as long as you and levi could be here together in the sanctity of the wooded fortress, but you couldn’t afford to think that way. you had a job to do.
levi made his way around your horse yanking you down in the process, thankfully he caught you on the way down. levi’s strong arms pinned your form to his chest, so tightly that you felt as if your lungs could collapse under the pressure.
“fuck whoever’s decision it is, it’s my decision that i can’t let you go.”
your heart melted at the sight of Levi being so worried over you. his hand held a firm grip on the small of your back, while the other held the base of your head. his strong hold made your body turn to putty in his embrace.
your voice came almost as a whisper, “it’s a stealth mission levi, you heard the commanders orders.” your tone faltered when his gaze intensified. you reached a hand up to cup his face in an attempt to ease him, “it’s for the good of humanity.”
he nodded your hand away, “i don’t give a fuck about humanity. you are what matters to me, and i need you to stay alive. this mission only puts your life in jeopardy.”
you ignored his protest and cupped his face anyways as a frown formed on your face.
levi wasn’t really mad.. you knew that. he was scared, and so were you but you knew that if you followed the commanders instructions correctly, you should be back to the fortress by dawn, back in levi’s arms once more.
“you know i love you right?” levi’s face finally softened at your words, a smile formed on your face at the sight. “the sooner i can do this, the sooner i’ll be back here with you. it’s a simple in and out mission, i just have to sneak into the MP’s base, snag the supplies, and get out of there. simple as that.”
levi rolled his eyes at your oversimplification.
“yeah, and you could get caught and killed in the process.” you leaned in closer, your lips were just a hair’s length distance away from levi’s, “you trust me don’t you? am i not capable, captain?”
his jaw clenched, “goddamn it, you're not going to let me win this one are you?”
you winked at your boyfriend playfully, “i’ll be back before you know it.”
levi’s grip tightened on your neck, as he closed the distance between your lips. the kiss was much more passionate than usual, your tongues danced around each other frantically in an attempt to quell the fear that was rising in both of your stomachs. levi’s hands caressed your figure desperately, trying to memorize every plain and curve that made up your body. he knew that he had to let you go, there was no stopping you when your mind was made up, but he couldn’t shake the bad feeling his intuition was giving him about this mission. if the MP’s didn’t catch you, there would still be a chance that you could run into any number of titans while you were traveling.
levi finally broke the kiss, looking upon your face with that same stoic expression that you have grown to love, “don’t get caught, and don’t you dare get killed by a fucking titan either.”
you chuckled at his words as your bodies finally separated. levi was never great with words but you knew what he was trying to say, “yeah, i love you too.” you climbed back on top of your horse. levi reached up to place a hand on your thigh,
“remember-“ you covered his hand with your own giving a tender squeeze, “don’t die, yes i remember.”
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you were grateful for the cover that the night gave you, no titans would be active at this hour.
this will be a simple in and out mission just like the commander said. you thought.
you were feeling very optimistic, you were able to sneak into the MP’s base with no issue but now it was a matter of finding the supplies. all you knew to look for was a wooden crate with ‘fragile’ stamped on the front, that is all the commander would divulge about the supplies you were seeking out.
you snuck into the facility’s basement and made your way through the maze-like corridors, not finding anything that fit the commander's description. you knew that dawn would come soon, which meant that the possibility of getting caught, or eaten by a titan on your way back grew greater.
time wandered on as you diligently searched through the labyrinth that was the cold, dark basement. you inspected every dusty room with no luck. adrenaline and anxiety pumped through your veins, you knew that you had spent too much time in the basement. a key part of the mission was to be back to the castle by dawn.
you had almost given up your search when an object in the corner caught your eye. you hastily brushed the dust off the large box, revealing the words ‘fragile’ printed on.
this better be the right box, cause i gotta get the fuck out of here.
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levi knew he wouldn’t sleep until you made it back safely. he tried to occupy his mind with the mountain of paperwork that desperately needed tending to on his desk, but he found himself watching the clock, counting the minutes until you were back to the castle.
dawn was approaching. many members of the scout regiment were already getting an early start to their day, some getting ready for training, while others tended to the horses. levi decided that he was much too anxious to stay confined in his quarters. the captain marched out to the front of the castle and busied himself with cleaning his already spotless ODM gear just so he could keep an eye out for your approach.
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shit, the suns coming up. you thought as you finally tied the supply box to the side of your horse’s saddle bag. titan’s would be active soon. you made sure to stay hyper vigilant once you lead your horse galloping through the forest.
your anxiety rose along with the sun that was beginning to peak over the treetops. you still had a good way to go before you could reach the castle, you knew that some sort of interaction with a titan was inevitable at this point. you tried to ease your fearful mind, your thoughts were racing. you knew that you would have an advantage over a titan in this environment if you initiated your ODM gear, but you had to make sure the supplies made it back to the castle safely. your gear was virtually useless in this situation.
time passed slowly and the distance ahead seemed never ending. the sun continued its ascension, now beaming directly upon you.
the sound of your horse’s feet pounding the terrain below filled your ears. your ears perked when you picked up on the loud thunderous steps in the distance. steps that could only belong to a titan. judging by the sounds that continued to grow louder, you knew that you had mere seconds before it would be on top of you.
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levi paced in front of the castle, “she should have been back by now. the sun is almost at its midday mark, what if she was intercepted by a titan on the way back?”
“oh! i’m sure she’s fine! hopefully she killed one so i can run some tests on it!” hange said enthusiastically.
“please shut the fuck up hange.”
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well i really am shit out of luck. you thought as a 17 meter titans gained on you. you really didn’t know how you were going to get out of this one, the mission comes first and you couldn’t leave the supplies or your horse behind. you couldn’t live with yourself if you did.
you unsheathed your swords, gripping the sides of the horse tight with your thighs praying to the gods that you don’t fall off.
the titan gained on you on your right side, attempting to pull you from your horse. you noticed that this particular titan had long, sharp nails. you knew that you definitely didn’t want to get sliced by those things.
you aggressively swung and jabbed at the titan with both swords, but you didn’t make contact.
shit shit shit.
the beastly looking creature swung wide with its giant hand, cutting you deep across your back.
you shrieked out in burning pain. the cuts were so deep your clothing was ripped and already soaked in blood.
you knew you couldn’t falter, not now. you took the opening and sliced through the thick flesh of the titans fore arm, completely removing the limb causing it to fall back.
your vision became dark and splotchy, you knew you were close to losing consciousness from the loss of blood. you roused up every ounce of willpower to guide your horse on.
just a little bit farther..i’m almost there levi. you thought as your vision went black.
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levi was trying his best to conceal his emotions, he felt like a ball of nerves right now, you were supposed to be back hours ago. levi still stood in front of the castle, now joined by his squad. he was about to order a search party for you, he was so anxious.
“uh.. captain..” uruo pointed into the distance at your lifeless body being carried by your horse.
without a second thought levi sprinted in your direction, a woeful expression painted his face as he saw your body lurched over your horse's back, covered in blood.
levi tried to pull you off the horse as quickly and as gently as possible, being very aware of your wounded back. levi felt even more alarmed when you didn’t yell out in pain, he cradled your unanimated form on the ground while all the bystanders were stunned at the scene playing out in front of them.
the trees swayed in the wind while levi looked down on your pale face, “no! no!” levi’s body shook as he pulled you to his chest, propping your head up in his hands, “wake up! don’t you dare die on me!” his chest heaved up and down as tears streamed down his face. levi turned to look at his squad, “what the fuck are you doing? go get a fucking medic!”
half of the crowd turned, running into the castle to retrieve help. levi removed his hand from the small of your back, analyzing all of the blood that covered his hand. ice ran through his veins when the smell of iron entered his nose.
levi continued to shake your body. his tears dripped down on to your face as he cried, “i’m sorry i didn’t say it back! fuck, i love you too damn it! please wake up! you can’t die on me over this fucking mission!”
the medics finally arrived, levi reluctantly let them take you out of his arms. the captain tried to regain his composure, having never shown this much emotion in front of anyone. ever. much less shedding full blown tears in front of half of the scout regiment.
levi followed the medics that carried your unconscious body into the castle, “is she okay? will she make it?”
“she’s lost a lot of blood but she hasn’t left us yet.”
levi felt hope bloom in his chest at the medics words.
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you were stirred from your peace at the sound of china-ware clinging together. you didn’t even have to open your eyes to know exactly where that sound was coming from, you knew it was levi stirring what was probably his third cup of tea.
as soon as you opened your eyes you felt pain. you groaned at the stinging feeling that came from your back muscles. levi jumped at the sound of your voice, moving closer to your side from where he was sitting.
levi observed your features with a careful expression as he craned his neck over your still pale face.
you felt emotion well up from deep inside of you at the sight of the sable haired man, “levi.” you groaned.
you were taken back by how horse your voice sounded.
levi tried to conceal the overwhelming emotions he felt from hearing your sweet voice, “shh. it’s okay, i’m here. i’m here.” you drew in a short breath when you saw tears begin to prick your lovers eyes. you reached up to cup levi’s face, to your surprise levi actually leaned into your touch.
“it’s okay levi, i’m okay.”
“yes but you almost weren’t.” he said in a gruff tone.
he had you there, though you were grateful to have made it out of your titan debacle in one piece, you knew it was a close call with all of the blood you lost.
“well, was the commander pleased that he got his super secret supplies?” you asked playfully in an attempt to lighten the mood.
levi’s usual unamused expression returned to his face, “fuck those supplies.” he deadpanned as he pulled you into a fierce kiss. levi's tongue broke past your lips and immediately intertwined with your own. levi felt desperate, he deeply missed the feeling of your lips on his.
warmth washed over your whole body when levi pulled away, cupping your face with both hands.
you were at a loss of words, you had never seen levi actively show so much emotion in such a short span of time.
“i don’t want to lose you, so please keep that in mind the next time you accept a task from the commander.”
you laughed at levi’s words, “i love you.”
“i love you too. so much, so fucking much.”
levi’s held the back of your head, raking his hands through your hair as he initiated a long and languid kiss on your lips.
you wrapped your arms around levi’s neck, feeling perfectly safe in his arms.
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the shower
jean x reader
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word count: 1k
tags: smutt // fingering // overstimulation // major praise // slight voyeurism // breeding //
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steam filled the air as warm water cascaded over your frame. you lathered your whole body in soap, humming along to the music playing on the speaker. you propped your foot up on the marble seat that was built into the shower wall, scrubbing and cleaning each leg individually.
jean was home from work early. he was surprised that you weren’t there to greet him by jumping into his arms and scattering kisses all over his face, in the way that you usually did when he returned home.
jean made his way through the kitchen and living room in search of you, “baby? i’m home, where are you?” jean’s ears perked up at the sound of the shower running, and quickly made his way to the bathroom. he couldn’t wait to see you, coming home to you was always the highlight of his day.
the sound of music coming from the bathroom danced around his ears, elevating the eagerness he already felt. just picturing your naked body covered in soap suds made his cock twitch. jean stealthy cracked the door open, steam billowed out of the doorway allowing jean to take in the sight of you massaging soap all over your chest.
jean almost felt like a creep by allowing his cock to grow hard as he watched you innocently clean your body, unknowing to his presence.
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your hips swayed to the music as you worked conditioner through your hair. a pair of large hands wrapped around your body from behind, steadying your movements. jean nuzzled his face into your neck allowing you to lean into his large chest.
“home from work early and you're already naked?”
jean laughed at your chide, reaching up to knead your breast eliciting a staggered gasp from your mouth.
“well it seems i couldn’t help myself, you were putting on quite the show.”
“i didn’t know you were into voyeurism jean.” you teased as you wiggled your ass on his erect cock.
jean jumped at the sudden sensation, rolling your nipples between his fingers in response, causing your head to fall back in pleasure. jean watched your face intently, “mm.. maybe i am. i could watch you all day.”
jean took a seat on the marble bench, pulling you onto his lap in the process. warm water misted over your body while jean interlocked your ankles together, allowing him to wedge your legs open from beneath you.
jean whispered into your ear,”ah.. now that’s much better. you look so pretty like this. legs spread wide, ready for my cock.”
jean placed a long languid kiss on your neck. you instinctively ground your hips against his hard cock, your cunt cried out in need of friction. jean moaned into your neck, his hand still working motions on your hard nipples, “want my cock pretty girl?” you could only nod in response. you felt acutely aware of the sensations coursing over your body, each drop of water felt like warm electricity falling on your skin, while your nipples felt incredibly sore under jean’s fingers.
jean spoke in a comforting tone, “no, i don’t think you’re ready for my cock baby. how about i use my fingers to play with that pretty pussy instead?”
you nodded your head quickly, “yes! jean please, anything!” jean hummed in amusement at your whine. both of jean’s large hands left your tender nipples, immediately using one hand to work circles on your clit, while the other entered your cunt with two fingers to pound your g-spot.
you screamed out in intense pleasure, your back arched off of jean’s chest.
you writhed in jean’s lap. it was too much and not enough all at the same time. you chased your pleasure while also running away from it. a fever rose in your body, while jean’s fingers fucked you stupid. you could feel jean’s cock leaking pre cum from beneath you. just seeing you come undone by his fingers alone, made jean want to bust on the spot.
jean’s hold on your body became tighter in an attempt to put a halt on your movements,”your doing so good for me baby, take your time okay? i want you to cum all over my fingers.”
you nodded again, trying to even out your breaths. you continued rolling your hips on jean’s thighs when he changed his movements, no longer pounding his fingers deep into your cunt. jean’s fingers hooked up, to tap against your sweet spot in a ‘come here’ motion. your head fell back on jean's shoulder, he turned his head to meet your gaze while never ceasing his movements. jean’s lips hovered just above yours while your cunt tightened around his fingers, “mm.. that’s my girl. ‘want that pretty pussy to cum all over my hand.”
as if on cue, jean’s words coaxed a powerful orgasm out of you. your whole body stiffened against jean’s frame, your cunt pulsed around his fingers fervently.
jean let you ride out your orgasm on his fingers, only removing his fingers when your breaths evened out. jean looked at you with admiration in his eyes as he placed a kiss on your forehead, “i’m so proud of you, pretty girl.”
a single beat passed and jean was up, quickly whirling you around to face him. your mind was still reeling from your orgasm, that you barely registered jean’s swift movements when he lifted you up, allowing you to wrap your legs around his torso. jean wasted no time, hoisting you up, and bringing you all the way down on his cock.
your swollen cunt screamed out in overstimulation while jean audibly moaned at the feeling of your swollen walls enveloping his large cock. your back met the cold shower wall, as you raked your hands through jean’s damp hair. jean closed the distance between the two of you, initiating a passionate kiss. your tongues danced against each other while jean’s cock striked your sweet spot repeatedly.
you moaned into jean’s mouth, when the two of you came in unison. jean’s arms tightened around your back, finally breaking the kiss as he continued to pump his cum deep inside you, “you feel amazing.”
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jean carried your tired body out of the shower. you massaged the skin at the base of jean’s head while kissing his neck, “come home early more often, yeah?”
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a/n: i almost made this a daddy kink thing it took everything in me not too LMAO
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jean never lets you go to bed angry.
even on the nights when you go back to your place alone needing space after an argument, jean will always show up at your door in the middle of the night looking a complete wreck.
jean just can’t sleep thinking that you would go to bed angry at him. you open your front door, being greeted with the sight of him holding a box of take-out from your favorite late night restaurant, and a worried look plastered all over his face, “please forgive me baby, i can’t bare the thought of you going to bed mad at me.”
the love triangle
levi x reader x jean
+18 +18 +18 +18 +18 +18 +18 +18 +18 +18 +18
tags: love triangle // angst // fluff // smut // wholesome sweet jean boy // kinda toxic levi // curse words
word count: 3k
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getting back on the dating scene after your breakup wasn’t easy at first, the first month afterwards you spent most of your time moping around your apartment, and calling in sick to work every other day. your friends were worried about you during that first month post breakup, constantly calling and texting only to receive no answer from you.
eventually your closest friend, sasha decided that she had had enough of your ‘woe is me’ act and practically broke down your front door. sasha heaved heavily in your doorway, already feeling hungry from the physical exertion.
“jesus christ! you can’t knock?” you said with a mouth full of popcorn. you had just sat down to rewatch your favorite rom-com when your best friend stormed into your apartment.
“you can’t answer your damn phone?” she said as she took a seat next to you on the couch.
“i guess you have me there.” sasha hummed at your response, yanking the bucket of popcorn out of your hands.
you stared at the brunette, who was inhaling the popcorn like a vacuum cleaner, “slow down or you’ll choke.”
“i’ll slow down when you tell me what went down between you and levi.”
your stomach dropped at the sound of his name, you hadn’t talked to anyone about your breakup yet. it was just too painful.
everyone thought that you and levi were end game, the two of you fit together so perfectly. you were the only one that could bring out the soft and vulnerable side of levi, while he was the only one who had ever made you feel safe and secure in a relationship. the two of you were the perfect match. the yin and the yang.. or so you thought.
“i’d rather not talk about it.” you said as you reverted your gaze back to the TV, blinking away tears that threatened to fall.
sasha spoke with a full mouth. her voice coming out muffled, “well if you refuse to talk about it, i’ll just have to force you out tonight. you’ve been soaking in your sadness for long enough.”
you looked down at your food stained sleep shirt, “sasha do i really look like i’m suited to go out tonight?”
“well you do look pretty pathetic..” she paused to stuff her mouth with the last of the popcorn, “but i know your potential. you just need to shower off whatever that smell is, and put on something black and slutty!”
“black and slutty?” you echoed, taking a stand from the couch.
“yup! now hurry up before i raid your refrigerator.”
you made your way into your bedroom, “eat anything besides my cookie dough ice cream and we’ll be fine.”
you took your time in the shower, making sure to scrub your body clean. it had been at least a week since your last shower, you just couldn’t get the motivation to get up and complete the simple task of managing your hygiene. you felt grateful that sasha was forcing you to do something with yourself, you had isolated yourself for long enough.
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you successfully scrubbed your body clean and even applied makeup. you couldn’t remember the last time you wore makeup, it was definitely before you and levi broke up. you almost found it difficult to recognize yourself, the person you saw in the mirror looked so foreign to you.
you grinned at the reflection, appreciating the job you did on your face. you almost felt like yourself again. almost.
“you have two minutes to get out here before i eat that ice cream! hurry up!” sasha yelled from the living room. you tried to cultivate a sense of urgency and picked out the first black dress that you saw in your closet.
sasha gasped at the sight of you, you wore a silk black slip dress with your favorite pair of black heels. it was a relatively simple get up but having not seen you look presentable in what felt like ages, sasha was at a loss for words. mouth hanging open, sasha stuck a spoon in your ice cream. your eyes followed the movement, “sasha for the love of god, that ice cream was the one thing that i told you not to eat. you said in an unsurprised tone.
“yes well i was hungry and you were taking forever. you ready or what?”
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you couldn’t figure out why sasha chose this bar, she said we would be meeting people here. though you couldn’t figure out how you would find them, the place was packed wall-to-wall with people.
your brain felt overstimulated. having spent so much time indoors lately, you almost forgot how rambunctious places like this could get. you were pushed and shoved the whole way through the building, finally making it to the bar sasha waved down the bartender, “two shots of tito’s! and don’t be afraid to use a heavy hand! this one just had a break up!” she yelled, pointing at you.
you wanted to shrink into your skin, feeling the warm wave of embarrassment crash over you.
the bartender smiled and nodded at your friend's request, while you elbowed her in the side in retaliation.
the bartender seemed to have taken sasha’s words seriously about pouring with a heavy hand, “i poured you a double, you look like you need it.” he said as he slid the shots in your direction.
god. do i look that miserable?
the bartender slid the receipt forward, “that’ll be 23 dollars.”
sasha shook her head, quickly taking her shot. “put it on jean kirschtein’s tab, okay babe?”
the bartender simply nodded in response.
your brows furrowed in confusion, “who’s jean?”
“you’ll see, hurry up and take that shot. there’s more where that came from.”
immediately after taking your shot, sasha locked arms with you and pulled your body through the crowd. the room spun for a moment, the shot seemed to go straight to your head as sasha moved swiftly through the hoard of people.
the two of you finally entered into a separate space that was dimly lit and much less crowded. you let out a sigh of relief, feeling much more comfortable in the tranquil atmosphere.
the room had its own bar, with large round booths lining the walls. a group of people cheered and high-fived each other next to the vintage arcade games, clearly feeling happy over scoring a victory.
a large man sitting in one of the booths waved in your direction, “sasha! over here!”
you followed sasha over to the table, the man with dirty blonde hair whispered something to the guy next to him when his eyes met yours.
his eyes raked over your body. he took his sweet time looking at you from top to bottom, eventually returning to meet your gaze once more. his subtle act suddenly made you feel incredibly self conscious, heat rose in your cheeks while never breaking eye contact with the man.
the guy with short cropped gray hair sitting next to him chuckled at whatever the comment was.
“what’s so funny connie?” sasha asked the gray haired man.
“your ugly ass face! sit down, we ordered shots.”
you tried not to laugh as two of you scooted into the booth, sasha swatted the back of connie’s head in revenge. you couldn’t hold in your laughter at this point and neither could the man next to connie, you both covered your mouths in an attempt to conceal your laughter.
“anyways” sasha said after composing herself while connie still held the back of his head in pain.
your friend went on to introduce you to the two men, jean and connie.
so this is jean.
the corner of jean’s mouth quirked up in a sly smile at the sound of your name leaving sasha’s lips. the man reached out to shake your hand in a laughably formal way, “so you're the one sasha’s been trying to get out of the house forever.”
you knew jean didn’t mean it in a rude way, he didn’t know that you just went through a gut wrenching break up but you couldn’t help but want to shrink into your skin at his playful words.
you pulled your hand from his, suddenly feeling thankful to the cocktail waitress who appeared at the table with a tray of shots.
sasha and connie hooped and hollered in excitement, quickly taking the shots from the waitress.
jean reached up, grabbing two shots from the tray, one for you and one for him. he politely slid yours across the table, your fingers accidentally brushed against his in the process of retrieving the small glass. you took a sharp breath in as heat rose to your cheeks once again. you internally chided yourself for letting yourself get so flustered. it had been quite a while since you last felt the touch of a man in any capacity.
you couldn’t blame yourself too much, jean was handsome, in a really charming sort of way. you could tell just by your short interaction that he was a sincere person, and he really was nice to look at. his ash brown hair framed his face perfectly, thick strands were tucked behind his ears, creating a mullet sort of look. you had never seen someone pull off a mullet so well.
connie and sasha were still bickering about god knows what, while you and jean kept your eyes on eachother, being in your own little world.
jean arched a brow at you playful as he raised his glass, “cheers too..” he took a moment to think about his next words, “cheers to making new friends.”
“too making new friends.” you said as your glasses clinked together.
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weeks had passed since the night you met jean, and the two of you have been seeing each other more and more frequently as the days passed.
you were grateful for his presence, and your initial impression of him was correct, jean is a very sincere person.
after spending a decent amount of time together, you eventually told him about your breakup with levi and how it left you feeling. you were surprised at how gracious and gentle jean was with the whole situation. never once had he invalidated your feelings or rushed you into unwanted physical intimacy.
though it was hard for you to keep your hands off of him, you always felt the need to get close to him whether it be latching onto his arm while out in public, or crawling into his lap while watching TV. jean loved the attention of course, and always returned your affection, but he felt that he should hold back on being the first to initiate physical intimacy. jean just wanted to take things at the speed you were comfortable with and be respectful to your feelings. he knew how hard getting over someone could be, so jean made up his mind to take things as slow as you needed, because he would rather enjoy spending time with you, and doing things on your terms, than not be around you at all.
the days continued to fly by, the weeks turned into months, and you slowly felt the dull ache of your once broken heart grow numb. jean was still as patient and as steadfast with you as ever, and you were still in awe of his graciousness.
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jean smiled down on you, while his hand brushed against the fabric of your dress, cradling the small of your back as the two of you walked into the swanky downtown restaurant. white table clothes covered every table, and the silverwave glistened under the dim light from the large chandelier hanging above.
you didn't realize that you would be going to such a fancy place until jean showed up at your door wearing a suit and tie. your breath hitched in your throat at the sight of him, his suit clung to his body in all the right places, his broad chest looked like it could bust out of that dress shirt at any moment. though you probably wouldn’t complain if it did, you tried not to gawk at his physique for too long, doing so would cause unholy thoughts to fill your mind.
once the two of you were seated, jean allowed the waiter to take his jacket, “thank you kindly.”
he said in his usual joking tone. jean rolled up the sleeves of his white dress shirt allowing you to get a full view of his large forearms. you instinctively clenched your thighs together under the table, in an attempt to quell the warmth pooling in your stomach. you cleared your throat awkwardly, “so what's the occasion? you still havent told me.”
jean smiled at you wholesomely, reaching across the table to grip your hand, “well, we have been seeing each other for a while and..” you blushed at the man, watching him try to collect his thoughts.
your gaze drifted away from jean’s smiling face to a figure moving around the bar positioned at the side of the room. your stomach dropped, you knew exactly who that familiar body belonged to. though you only had a view of the back of his head, you knew exactly who it was, you’d recognize him anywhere. you could be blindfolded in a crowd of a thousand people and still be able to pick levi out of the crowd. that's just how intimately familiar you were with the man.
jean continued talking but you couldn't hear a word. your brain was screaming out, not knowing what to think or how to process the sight before you. as if levi could hear the internal carnage taking place in your brain, he turned around, immediately locking eyes with you.
a dull sound rang loudly in your ears, seeing levi again reopened the wound in your heart that jean so diligently worked to seal. levi held your gaze, his face was totally void of emotion.
jean gripped your hand, noticing that your mind was elsewhere, “hey, are you okay?”
you disconnected the invisible string that connected you and levi in that moment, reverting your eyes back to jean, “im sorry, excuse me. gotta pee.” you said quickly with tear filled eyes.
jean sat confused as you dashed to the ladies room. you were grateful that the restroom was a single room with no stalls, allowing you to come completely apart in private. you immediately sank to the floor, completely forgetting to lock the door. you were a big ball of emotions on the floor, you tucked your head into your knees trying to block out the overwhelming feelings.
God, why did he have to be here? i was doing so good before seeing him.
your body shook, picturing the indifferent look on levi’s face when he saw you. it's like he was looking at a complete stranger that he shared no past with. did your relationship mean nothing to him? were your feelings one sided? had he ever cared for you at all?
the sound of your name broke the silence, your vision was blurry but you knew it was levi who was standing over you. did he look worried? you couldn't tell.
levi moved to lock the door before sitting down in front of you, gathering your body into his arms. you shook even harder now, hyperventilating into his chest. you missed how safe he made you feel.
his fingers traced shapes on your back, attempting to soothe you, “shh. shh. it's okay, you’re okay.”
after regaining control over your breathing you spoke into levi’s chest, “why’d you leave me levi?”
“what?” he said, pulling back so he could see your face.
“why. tell me why.” you said, looking at the man with pleading eyes.
a beat passed as levi analyzed your face, “i thought it was for the best.”
you felt yourself grow irritated, “best for who levi?”
levi gritted his teeth, “you. i thought it would be best for you.. you deserve someone who understands their feelings, and knows how to communicate them properly.” your mind instantly pictured jean, who probably thought you had fallen into the toilet by now.
anger began to bubble in your chest, “bullshit.” levi crooked his head to the side, as if he didn’t understand your words, “what?”
“bullshit.” you said again, attempting to push him off you. Levi didn't budge, still holding your body to his with little effort.
you pushed harder feeling even angrier now, “i hate you!”
levi didn’t respond, he only stared at your tear streaked face as if he was internally trying to make some sort of decision. levi gave you no time to process his next actions, he quickly scooped your face into his hands, pulling your lips to his. your body worked before your mind did, in returning the kiss. the two of you were desperate, your lips and teeth clashed together sloppily while your tongues fought for dominance.
levi slid his hands up your back and around to your chest, you moaned into his mouth when he pulled the top of your dress down exposing your nipples to the cold air.
without breaking the kiss, you moved to straddle levi’s waist rolling your hips on his clothed cock.
this time levi let out a groan into your mouth, you finally broke the kiss to look into his eyes as you raked your fingers through his hair. “fuck, ‘missed you.” he said breathlessly.
you ground your hips against his pants even quicker, your cunt was in desperate need of stimulation.
Levi smiled at you, taking a nipple between his fingers and rolling it causing your head to fall back in pleasure, “you look so pretty like this, sweet girl.” he said as he slid his free hand up your dress, working your needy clit over your panties. you couldn't help but moan out loud, it was all too much.
“i know you want to tell the world how much you missed me, but i need you to stay quiet okay?” you only nodded in response, still riding his fingers chasing your orgasm.
you couldn't wait anymore, you reached down to work levi’s belt off. levi chuckled while you hastily worked at freeing his cock from his trousers, lovingly placing a kiss into your hair. he loved seeing you so needy for him.
once you pulled the band of his boxers down his cock immediately sprang straight up. you wasted no time, immediately sheathing yourself on levi’s cock. you both moaned in unison at the sensation. you had almost forgot how big levi was, having to go incredibly slow fearful of overstimulation. you buried your head into the crook of his neck when he began to suck on your nipple, mewling sweet sounds into his ear.
Levi grew tired of your safe and slow motions, deciding to stand up with his cock still buried deep inside you and set you down on the edge of the bathroom sink. It was a stark contrast between the two of you where levi was almost fully clothed, your dress was pooled at your waist leaving you completely exposed.
you hooked your legs around levi’s hips and held onto the sink tightly, putting yourself on full display for him. “so fucking pretty.” he said admirably. levi held your face in his hands once more, placing a long languid kiss on your lips as he pulled all the way out and rammed deep into your cunt. your face contorted in intense pleasure while you tried to conceal the sound of your moans.
levi’s cock banged against your g-spot mercilessly causing you to cum hard, your pussy fluttered quickly around levi’s cock evoking a strained groan from his throat, cumming at the same time as you. levi pulled you into a tight embrace as you rode out your orgasm, placing another kiss into your hair.
you slowly came back to reality, as you were listening to the heartbeat in levi’s chest.
you both winced when levi finally pulled out of you, he tucked his cock back into his pants and helped you right your now very wrinkled dress.
you noticed levi staring at you with a somber look on his face, “i’m so sorry for what i put you through, but what i said wasn’t bullshit. It was true.”
your mind was brought back to jean, guilt washed over you. jean was such a good guy and you just fucked your ex-boyfriend in the middle of your date.
panic began to set in as you thought, what am i going to do about jean?
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captured
levi x reader
request from: @mysticalduerre
tags: angst // violence // fluff
word count: 2k
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the sound of chains rattling woke you from your already restless slumber, being reminded of your uncomfortable confinement as you blinked fog out of your eyes. you were greeted with the heart wrenching view of levi’s limp form being held up by the wrists from the heavy chains hanging from the stone ceiling.
the man’s black hair was disheveled, creating a dark shadow over his eyes while his head hung over his bare chest. he was finally able to sleep, exhausted from hours of torture. you were surprised when levi had demanded to be tortured in your place, he claimed that you were just a clueless cadet that knew nothing of the scout regiment’s plans. his statement was only half true, you were a cadet, but you weren’t clueless.
levi never kept secrets from you, you were the only person in the regiment that was able to gain the captain’s trust. though, you never knew how or why you were able to gain levi’s favor, you never questioned it. you eyed the captain’s body from the corner that you were chained to.
you felt grateful that you were given a long chain that allowed you some freedom to move.
you couldn’t tell how long you were out, but you figured it must’ve been a while. you tried to silently inch forward in levi’s direction desperately wanting to console him in whatever way you could. the closer you got, the more apparent levi’s wounds became in the low light. deep cuts and slashes were scattered across his pale skin, you took in a sharp breath as you grazed your fingers over his abdomen trying to access the damage.
you had never been so close to levi before, the two of you always kept at a safe distance, not wanting to intrude on each other's boundaries.
your fingers slid over his chiseled abdomen lightly, while you internally chided yourself for never telling the man how you really felt. you wished you could say that it was all the time you spent together that caused you to love him, but that would be a lie. you knew that you loved levi the second you locked eyes with him years ago. you could still remember how his cold eyes and quizzical brow softened when his eyes met yours, it was like the two of you caught onto the same wavelength and never let go since that moment.
your daydream was cut short, levi’s head shot up, groaning loudly into the large gag jammed into his mouth. the crazed look in his eye slowly subsided when he realized that it was you that was caressing his body. you shushed levi, reaching up to cup his blood splotched face, “shh.. it’s me. it’s me. you’re okay.” you reached up to remove the damp cloth out of levi’s mouth, he coughed and sputtered at its removal.
levi’s chest heaved up and down quickly looking at you with half lidded eyes, “hi.” was all he could manage.
you couldn’t help but laugh as you drug your thumb across his cheek. tears pricked your eyes as you looked at the man fondly, your heart swole with love, “hi captain.”
levi leaned into your touch as much as the chains would let him, the two of you stood in silence while his gray eyes bore into yours.
heat rose to your cheeks as you tried to cultivate the bravery to confess to levi how you’ve felt about him all this time. you didn’t know if the two of you would ever make it out of this stone lined hell-hole, and you didn’t want to die letting your words go unsaid. you were never good at putting your thoughts and feelings into words, you were not an articulate poet, you were a soldier. how could you tell him that you loved everything about him?
you loved every little thing about levi. you loved his stern glares. you loved his love for earl grey tea, the way he sucked his teeth when irritated, the way he had the ability to be as strong as a hundred year old oak tree, and as swift as a feral alley cat. you loved how he was effortlessly good at everything, and didn’t chide you when nothing seemed to come easily to you.
the silence was finally broken from levi calling your name. the man realized that your mind was far away, “we don’t have much time, they'll be back any minute.” your eyes lost their glaze as your brain returned to the moment, paying close attention to levi’s words, “i don’t want to scare you but i have to be truthful, my body will probably give out after this next round of lashings. it’s very unlikely that i’ll make it out of here, but that doesn’t mean you can’t. my only priority is keeping you alive, because i-“ his words were cut short at the sound of a key turning in the iron lock of your cell.
a stocky middle aged man dressed in a military police uniform entered the room, locking the door behind him, “unless you want what he’s having i suggest you get back to your corner before i shorten your chain.” if looks could kill, the man would certainly be dead. you inched backwards never breaking eye contact with the MP, while levi kept his gaze on you.
the MP retrieved a leather whip out of his standard issue coat, not bothering to re-gag levi as he positioned himself at the captain's back. your heart pounded in your chest while your mind ran at a thousand miles per hour, desperately trying to think of a way to free levi. you knew levi wouldn’t survive not even ten lashes, he had already lost too much blood.
levi kept his eyes on you, letting out a deep breath readying himself for what would come next, “i was going to say..” levi took a moment to collect his thoughts not wanting to say the wrong thing, “i was going to say that i love you. i’ve always loved you. i’m sorry i didn’t say it sooner.”
you were at a complete loss for words, you never imagined that levi would reciprocate your feelings. you wanted to say ‘i love you too’ but you were in too much shock to form coherent words. before you could respond the MP laughed as he wound the whip around his fist, “ah how sweet. he loves you, now the pretty girl gets to see her lover beaten to death. how romantic.” you glared at the man laughing behind levi, telling yourself that if you had the chance to kill this man you wouldn’t hesitate.
the man lifted the whip above his head and quickly brought it down on levi’s back. a strange sound came out of your mouth as levi’s body jumped from the impact. blood splattered against the whip and the man’s hand. you couldn’t help but scream when the man lifted his hand again, afraid that this could be the blow to end levi’s life.
the MP clumsily lost his grip on the whip as he brought it down, sending it flying just a couple of feet away from you. you didn’t waste a second, immediately reaching down to grip the whip. the man tried to rush you, which only made it easier for you to land a blow across his face. the whip made a sharp snap sound at the contact of his skin. blood gushed from the man’s face as he yelled out in pain, staggering around blindly gripping his face.
you jumped on this man’s back, using your chained wrists to choke the man out. the man fell to his knees but you didn’t relent, you tightened your grip until his body went still. levi was barely conscious, you spoke to him in a pleading tone as you snagged the keys from the man’s coat, “i need you to stay awake levi! i’m getting us out of here just stay awake for me!”
sweat beaded on your forehead as you hastily released your wrists from the confines of the iron cuffs, quickly making your way over to levi. humanity’s strongest solider was barely clinging to life when you unlocked his cuffs. you slung levi’s arm over your shoulder while you tried to make a quick and silent escape. there was no telling how many MP’s could be lurking around this compound. you needed to find a horse quickly.
levi groaned in your ear as you pulled your bodies forward through the stone paved corridors. you followed the flame torches that lined the walls hoping that it would lead you to the outside world. you figured that it must be late in the night since you hadn’t run into any other MP’s on your journey.
the two of you finally made it to a thick wooden door, you prayed that it led outside as you twisted the knob. the cool night air poured over your skin, you let out a sigh of relief as you gripped onto levi tighter, “we’re gonna be okay, just gotta find a horse.” you said as you spotted the stables just a few yards away.
you hurriedly pulled levi’s limping body through the stables seeking out a horse that could easily carry the two of you back to base. levi was still breathing heavily into your neck feeling tired and delusional from the blood loss, “i’m sorry. i’m sorry i couldn’t be the one to save us.” you shushed the man while you decided upon a large black horse near the stable doors, “shh. save your energy. you’ve done enough.” you said as you helped ready him to board the horse.
you were surprised that levi still had enough strength to pull himself onto the horse, he swung himself onto the horse clumsily and you quickly followed suit by settling yourself in front of him so you could guide the horse. you finally felt a sense of safety when levi wrapped his arms around your waist, resting his head in the crook of your neck. you smiled at his action as you snapped at the reins sending the horse galloping forward.
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levi never did much sleeping, you thought about this as you felt your anxiety grow as you watched him rest peacefully under the white sheets. you were afraid that he lost too much blood. afraid that he might not wake up. you paced around the captain’s room not knowing what to do with yourself as you waited for him to show any signs of life.
levi’s voice broke through the silence, “can you please come sit the fuck down, i can hear your loud ass thoughts from over here.” he said in a groggy voice. you couldn’t help the pure excitement that took over your body, you quickly returned to levi’s side. you reached to grip the man’s hand as you pressed your forehead to his, you felt breathless and overcome with joy that the love of your life was alive and well right in front of you.
levi smiled under you, gripping your face, finally closing the distance between your lips. his kiss was strong and resilient, just like the love you had for him. your tongues clashed together fervently, never being able to get enough of each other. his kiss was a place that you could get lost in forever. like home. you never wanted to leave this spot, you wanted to stay in his arms forever with his lips wrapped softly around yours.
you tried not to protest when levi broke the kiss. your foreheads still rested against each other as he looked into your eyes, “you don’t know how long i’ve wanted to do that.” he said breathlessly.
he’s so pretty
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Featuring: Connie, Jean, Sasha, Levi, Armin, Eren, Reiner, Hange, and Mikasa
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18+ MDNI
I cant stop thinking about Eren being desperate for you 24/7...
This man is so whipped for you, its actually comical.
He's constantly asking if he can put his dick in you for a little bit. He doesn't even care if you guys are actually fucking he just likes the intimacy.
He gives absolutely zero fucks about what you two are doing or where you are.
"Baby, let me stuff your pussy while you do your make-up please?"
"Come sit on my cock while I play this game."
Like just imagine...
You're on your bed laying on your stomach just minding your business, trying to take a nap, when you hear him come in. There's a few moments of silence until you feel him strip your yoga pants and panties down to rest under the swell of your ass. In your half asleep dreamy haze you feel him spread your ass open wide which makes you stir
"Shhh, just go back to sleep." You feel him stroke your hair lovingly and slip two fingers into your waiting cunt. You whine and whimper as you grow needier. A quiet whisper "Fuckkkk yesss" can be heard as his long and thick veiny cock sinks into you so deep making you feel so amazingly full as usual.
Don't even get me started on how he gets so horny for you doing mundane tasks
"Lift your skirt for me, please." Missing the questioning tone and sounding more like a demand.
"WE'RE IN A FUCKING GROCERY STORE!"
"So? No one's gonna see, I promise." You didn't even get a chance to reply before he has your skirt in hand. Pulling your panties to the side and thrusting himself violently inside you, bottoming out. You choke out a gasp at being fully impaled on him so suddenly. He kisses your temple when he hears you hiss and whimper as tears start to sting your eyes from the stretch with no prep. You shiver as you hear him mumble a soft "Such a good little whore for me," with a sigh of content in your ear. He starts moving in and out of you slowly, only stopping when another person walks into the aisle.
He let's your skirt hang around you as normally as possible, while he goes in as deep as he can and stills. Grabbing something off the shelves and putting in infront of you as if you both were reading the label. His jacket covering both your sides from view while the cart blocks your front.
The man walks past you both and leaves the aisle, without missing a beat Eren starts pounding into you again. "See, no one will know. So just be a good slut for me while I use this pussy to jerk off my fat cock, yeah?" He ended up cumming deep inside you, making both of you moan louder than you should. He pulled out and tucked himself back in his jeans pulling your panties back into place. He cups your pussy pressing his fingers on top of the cotton, and rubbed rough circles onto your fucked out hole. "Keep all of it inside, baby. We don't want people to ask questions if it starts to drip onto the floor."
How he'd just walk up to you on the couch and spread your legs while you watched you favorite show. He is very happy to see his personal fucktoy so ready for him, splayed out on the couch naked. Wordlessly laying between your thighs, taking his time to eat you out hard bringing you to atleast 3 orgasms before sitting up and sinking his cock into your needy pussy.
He whines so loud and deliciously as he buries himself to the base. He lifts your legs and pushes them to your chest, allowing him to go impossibly deeper. The scream that you let out when he starting roughly humping into you was enough to turn him into an absolute mess. He starts POUNDING that pussy so hard that he barley notices the bulge that forms in your lower belly.
But when he does tho.... he goes absolutely feral with the sight of his cockhead poking out under your skin just bellow your belly button.
He forgot what it even feels like to cum anywhere besides your wet and warm holes. Like this man straight up refuses to cum if he can't stuff it deep inside you one way or another. Even if you ask him to cum somewhere else he only agrees if he can push it into you with his fingers afterwards.
This man's moans, whimpers and whines are fucking immaculate. He is so vocal and absolutely unafraid about being heard, he is so pussy whipped he couldn't care any less if he was being too loud.
In conclusion this man has me by the neck and the pussy. I just know he's packing ONG!😫
aww, baby sora!!🫶🏽😭
girll i need more of plug eren and his family. what would happen if his wife goes into labor while he’s out selling?
“ i cant do this without him “
pairings: plug eren x prego black reader
you were sweating, exposed and crying. it was too much at once. once you felt cramping and looked down to see that your water broke. your sister anastasia scooped you, and drove off fast to the hospital.
you didn’t like how much people were looking at your bare fucking vagina. your sister quiet and eyes wide. she was stuck, in awe and disgust a little. she was by your side. only looking at the doctor.
“where the fuck is eren?” anastasia mumbles to herself.
anastasia didn’t have eren’s number. frankly.. didn’t have anything of his. she was dating connie though, so she called him.
“i’ll be right back y/n, i promise.” ana says. you felt tears running down your face, “i can’t.” you say. your eyebrows furrowed. the doctor looks at you, “we’ll go slow. we don’t want to hurt you. you got this.” she says.
you shake your head, “no i.. i can’t. i can’t do this without him.” you cry. the doctor bites the inside of her cheek.
meanwhile, eren was at some ransom’s house. selling, like always. oblivious to what was happening at the moment.
he was rolling up when connie ran up to him. eren looks at him, mugging him.
“what?” he asks. connie’s face was red and his eyes were wide, “it’s y/n. she’s having the baby!” he says. eren drops the blunt, “what?!? fuck fuck fuck! come on.” he says.
he runs out of the house, connie close behind him.
“bring yo fatass on, connie!” he shouts. connie furrows his eyebrows, “you’re going no faster than me?!” connie says.
they both hop into the car, eren driving faster than light. once they reach the hospital, they both run in. eren looks at the desk lady, “y/n yeager, please what room?” he asks. the lady stares at him, “WHAT’S THE FUCKING ROOM NUMBER?!” connie shouts.
the lady jumps, “okay okay… room 330.” she says. they go to the room, seeing ana and your father standing outside of the door.
eren looks at both of them, connie walks up to ana.
“what are you guys doing out here?” eren asks. they both look at each other, “y/n needs you, eren. our mom and our grandma are in there. but she needs you eren.” ana answers.
eren nods, “thank you, eren.” y/n’s father says. eren softly smiles to him, “go in!” ana shouts. eren walks into the room. seeing your grandma with her hand over her masked mouth, and your mom almost crying.
you’re already crying. eren walks up to you, you looks up at him.
“i can’t.. i’m sorry ren. i can’t do it.” you cry out. eren shakes his head, “yes you can, mama. you got it, you survived 9 months. you got this.” he says.
he steps closer to you, grabbing your hand and your head laying on his lower stomach. your head was pounding, you felt like you were going to pass out any second.
it was about 30 minutes later when your baby girl was born. her crying made you feel relief. your hand still sweaty, and squeezing eren’s. eren look at the baby, “oh my god.. she’s beautiful.” he .
he looks back down at you, “baby?” he says. your head felt limp, like you were sleep. he looked at your chest, it was still rising up and down.
eren bends down to your level, his hand on your face. wiping away tears and sweat, “look at me,
y/n.” he says. you look at him slowly, still crying. he smiles at you, “you did it. i told you, i’m sorry i wasn’t there for the first half.” he says.
you shake your head, “you were here. i would’ve been grateful if you were here for 5 minutes.” you whisper. your voice basically gone. the doctor cleans you up, and fixes your position so you’re laying down regularly.
it was 2 hours later. eren, ana, and connie in the room. you were sleep, been sleep ever since you found out the baby was fully okay. they ran the tests on her, and everything.
she was prefect, your hair, lips and eyes. meanwhile, she had eren’s eyebrows, nose and face structure. her skin was a mix of both.
eren was staring at you, stroking you hair and face. he was so glad you and the baby were okay.
ana was holding your baby. her name was officially sora. she was 7 pounds. she was perfect.
the door to the room slightly opened, eren looked over to see nami. nami smiles at the sight of her parents.
“daddy!” she says. eren shushes her, “mommy’s sleeping.” he whispers. nami nods, “sorry daddy.” she says. eren kisses her forehead, “it’s okay, angel. go with uncle connie.” he says.
nami gasps, looking around the room. connie smiles at nami, opening his arms.
“uncle corny!” she says, running into his arms. connie looks at eren, “we’re gonna go get some food.” he says.
eren nods, “take your time.” they leave the room. ana looks at eren, “oh shit.. i have to go eren. i still have work tonight.” she says.
eren shrugs, “it’s okay.” he whispers. ana hands sora to him, “call me if she needs me.” she walks out of the room.
he looks at sora, “you’re one of the most beautiful things ever.” he mumbles. sora furrows her eyebrows softly, like she was mugging his words.
eren laughs, “you definitely got your mama’s personality.”
JUST TAKE IT, TAKE IT . . .
includes. nsfw, eren yeager.
warnings. mdni — fem! reader, riding, dacryphilia, slight sadism, spanking, daddy kink, dumbification, pet names, hair pulling, punishment, brat taming, degradation.
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The sudden movement of his hips as he bucks up into you has you curling your body into his chest and whimpering. He’s hitting you so fucking deep, cock buried up to the hilt in your tight little cunt that it has tears welling up in your eyes.
Eren’s never been this mean before and for a moment you think he’ll give you a break as you panted heavily against him, but no, tonight you didn’t get that privilege. Not when you’ve been such a fucking brat.
He delivers a harsh slap to your ass without warning, chuckling at the way your cunt clenches down on him while a whispered gasp of his name escapes your plump lips.
“Such a slutty girl f’me,” He rasps out. “Even when you’re being punished, you still can’t help but enjoy it, hm?”
His fingers make their way up the nape of your neck before tightly gripping your hair and tugging on it— the slight sting has you desperately trying to hold back a whine, and you plant yourself back up on shaky arms to meet his lust-filled gaze.
“Atta girl, there you go. Now, fuck yourself on my dick, c’mon. You wanna make daddy proud, don’t cha?” The usual soft expression on his handsome face is nowhere to be found, all you can see is desperation. He needs you to know you’re his, he needs you to beg for him to stuff you full and be so drunk on his cock you can’t think of anything but him.
You’re knocked out of your daze with another sharp thrust and this time he’s gripping your jaw, fingers digging into the plush of your cheeks. “Focus, princess, m’not gonna cum if you keep slacking off.”
His words have you shaking your head, thighs quivering from exhaustion. “Mm-mm, can’t— s’.. s’too much!”
“It’s too much?” He echoes, “Aw, that’s cute but I don’t remember asking for excuses, princess.”
He lets go of your face and sneers, “Now shut up and fucking take it, we’re not stopping till that little head of yours understands that I’m in charge.”
BEFORE AND AFTER. | EREN. J x F!READER 18+
━━━ eren j. x f!reader x armin a. ➝ chapter one
“we can’t choose who we fall in love with but we can choose how to end it.”
in which, you and eren have history that dates back to high school. as adults, you’ve gone your separate ways but have come back together through a reunion. with him back in your life, it’s hard to ignore the feelings you used to have for him as they come rushing back in. in addition, armin can’t seem to get you off of his mind and will do anything to prove to you that he’s the better man for you; even when he’s got a pregnant fiancé waiting for him at home. too bad for him, eren’s never lost a fight and he’s too greedy to share.
genre ➝ modern au, toxic!eren, dilf!armin, romance, fluff, lots of angst, infidelity, hurt/comfort, violence, explicit smut
tags/warnings ➝ sexual content, unprotected sex, f. receiving (oral sex), rough sex, biting/scratching, mean dom eren, toxic relationship, manipulation, possessiveness, hate sex, phone sex, mutual masturbation, an overly flirty armin even though he’s engaged & other tags i can’t rmr at the moment hehe
wc ➝ 18.6k
a/n: sooo, this series is a repost and has finally made its long awaited comeback, hehe. for those that are familiar with this fic, you’ll notice that i did indeed shove the first two chapters already written into one so that’s why the word count is so much! i will be posting the next chapter once it’s been revised and edited over by me and my bestie @chelamedina <3 enjoy and reblogs are very appreciated!
"Eren? Eren who?"
"What? You don't remember? The really shy guy with the glasses? He used to sit behind you in 4th period. Oh my god, he was obsessed with you. You really don't remember?"
"I...wait. Hold on...That's Eren?"
"Yep. Not so weird and nerdy now, huh?"
"Not at all."
As you leaned against the back wall of the overcrowded room nursing your glass of wine, your eyes never left the one man that made coming to the reunion worth it.
No more glasses. No more braces. No more baggy clothes that looked like they went two weeks unwashed. No more short hair that always made him look several years younger than he actually was. No more of the sixteen year old boy that you used to know.
Eren Jaeger, now 23, and hotter than all of the guys that tried coming up to talk to you ever since you stepped foot into the party.
Suddenly, a distant memory came to mind and took you away momentarily.
— flashback.
Your hands are shaky. You don't know where to put them as you're positioned right over his face, feeling his tongue lap across your desperate cunt. You're unfocused and you can practically hear your blood pounding in your ears as you settle your fingers into his hair and moan out, earning a groan from the male underneath you.
"Fuck, don't you sound pretty?"
He eats at you, hungry to bring you to the brink so he can feel your thighs shake at either side of him, just barely catching your cry as you release right on his tongue. To know that he's the one that's making you feel good. To know that he's the only one that's allowed to touch you so intimately and have his name roll off of your tongue as you clench onto nothing, trying to not topple over as electricity travels throughout your body, bringing you over the edge.
You cry out his name and finally find purchase in putting your hands in his hair, rocking your hips to ride out your orgasm.
It's only moments after that you're switched underneath him, toned arms hooked at the undersides of your legs, keeping them at his waistline as he fucks into you like it's your last day on earth. It feels like it. Feels as though he's going to lose you. That you'll slip right out of his grasp and never see you again. It's why he has to have you now. To show you why you're better off staying with him. That you can't possibly do better than him.
You whine and pull him down, pressing yourself close enough to melt into him. To tie your bodies and souls together.
He nips and bites at your jawline, moving down to your neck, suckling hard enough to leave a bruise. A mark of his own. One that's viewable to the public eye, announcing that you belong to someone and aren't meant to be touched or even looked at by anyone else.
He's insecure. He's even scared that you will find someone better than him and it eats away at him everyday. Every moment, every second that you're apart because he feels that if he doesnt have eyes on you every waking moment, he'll lose you. He'll do anything to keep you.
Your nails push into the skin of his back, intending to create marks deep enough to last days afterwards. It's not a territorial act, more in the realm of hating who he is. You can't stand the way he looks at you. The way he watches you. It feels as though he's waiting for you to crack. To make a mistake and prove him right that all humans are flawed. All but him. He's perfect and at some point, you began believing that as well. A god living amongst humans, using them like pawns to some sick twisted game he’s created.
You want to leave him. Find better, because there's better out there but you can't. You're in love with him and that's the most dangerous feeling of all.
"I love you," he expresses in a low voice, dark eyes focusing on the way your breath hitches in hearing his confession. It's your first time hearing him say it, and you aren't sure what to say back. You love him but you also know that the moment those three words leave your mouth...that's the day you’ll see how trapped you really are. He's told you that you aren't confined to him, but it's a lie. You can't leave him and he knows it. It's why a confident smirk splits across his face and a hand of his finds its way around your soft throat. He leans up, still moving his hips, looking down at you through dark lashes. "Too afraid to say it back? That's alright. Your silence speaks for itself, you know."
Raw anger courses through your veins as you claw at his back, feeling your walls constrict around him in shame. He's rough and disregarding in the way he slaps you across the cheek, cooing as fresh tears fall down your face. He tells you how pretty you look when you're staring up at him in hate. How much he adores watching you break over and over at the realization that this is your life. Doomed to love a man that's irrevocably insane.
"I hate you so much," you sputter out and feel one of your hands pull away from his back and lock above you. He holds your wrist in an iron grip, head tilting in mild wonder.
"Hate is a strong word when you're crying and babbling about how good I fuck you." His nose skims across the center of your throat before trailing up over your lips and pressing against yours. You can't escape his scent; through the sweat is a faint hint of earthly melange, tonka bean and jasmine. He isn't a cologne sort of guy so he burns through a few candles a day and smells like them without fail. Vanilla also wafts past your nose, caressing your senses like hot rocks on an aching back. It's soothing and it almost makes you forget where you're at.
You blink and are forced back into reality, noticing the frown on your boyfriends' face.
"Where did you go?" He asks you and you think of what to say. The truth?
"I...I was thinking about the candles you like so much. Did you light some today?"
His scoff at your obvious question makes you flinch and think about turning your head to the side, away from his judgemental gaze. What keeps you is that smile... You know that smile.
The day that you met, he was timid. A shy one that caught your eye by the way he made you feel with numerous compliments and shy kisses. The gentleman that walked you home to make sure you made it back safely.
You like looking back on that day. Eren was so nervous, and he made plenty of mistakes to show for it. It was the most you'd ever laughed. After a while, he got comfortable. There were no more surprise dates or spontaneous sex behind a ride at the amusement park. The inquiries about you and your life stopped and you began to feel insignificant in his eyes. Beginning to believe that he's grown bored of you and seeks someone more exciting; refreshing.
It's scary to know that you're being replaced. That you're no longer enough. It has you wondering what you are kept around for if not because you're wanted and loved. Is it because of what you give him, even when you hardly feel like it? Has giving into him each time become boring for him?
You consider yourself to be a people pleaser. Someone that loves to give and doesn't ever expect anything back. It's a double edged sword. Overtime, it hurts to always give and never receive. Especially in a relationship. You love Eren, but loving him has become too painful to bear. There needs to be a breaking point for you...and you're almost positive you've reached it.
"Of course I did," he answers, pecking your lips as he moves his hand from your throat to rest against the cheek he'd previously hit. "I'm sorry, by the way." You release a breath you didn't know you've been holding in. "I don't like being mean, but sometimes the things you say really get under my skin. You know this and still do it. Why?" He questions and there's a sense of deja vu in the air.
Eren is manipulative in every sense of the word. He turns situations around from himself to you, making it seem as though you're the cause. He's always the victim and it's unnerving how well he plays this role of his. Nothing is ever his fault because he's perfect and you're flawed to the soul. Even so, you put up with it all and love him the same because he's all you've ever known. First boyfriend who managed to take all of your other firsts. How can you let go of someone you've known for so long?
He's so imperfect that he's begun appearing absolutely perfect in your eyes. He feeds you many lies, obvious ones, that you end up turning into nothing but truths because he’d never lie to you. He loves you. More than anyone. The love of his life and lying to someone like that—it isn't love.
"I'm sorry," you quickly say. It's meant to disperse the conflict that's sure to come from a topic like this so you're happy to nip it in the bud and move on. It pleases him enough so he peppers your face in gentle kisses, causing you to quickly forget all of the things that's truly wrong with him. Wrong with you, even.
He touches you like you're made of glass now, but the feeling remains at the back of your mind as you fall into a deep black mass of nothingness, too afraid to stay at the surface because that's where Eren is and you want to be as far away from him as humanly possible.
He groans and asks you if you're close. You don't verbally answer but your body takes care of that for you as you fight to hold onto him with your free hand, pulling him even closer than he already is. He's mumbling nonsense in your ear about loving you until the end of time. That you're the only one for him. That he'll never let you go and all of that acts as chains that continue to weigh you down further...and further... Until there isn't any light at the end of the tunnel. When you reach the end, it's black. There's nothing but more false promises that you happily take because you're now positive that you can't get any better than him.
That Eren is all you need.
"Fuck," he groans into your neck, almost biting into your shoulder as you wince, blinking away wave of frustrated tears, trying to egg on your orgasm so that it'll all be over and done with. "Gonna let me breed this tight cunt of yours? Imma fill you up, baby. Get you nice and full. Would you like that?" He's abusing your poor cunt, rendering you almost speechless as you feel yourself tip over the edge just as you go to make a response.
You cum before him and it angers him because you fall limp, and it does almost nothing for him. The moment you realize this, it’s too late.
"Eren, I-"
"Shut up."
You're flipped onto your stomach and feel his hands roughly pull you up into the air, angling you just right. You open your mouth to speak but you’re quickly cut off by a hand clamping over your mouth and feeling his cock sink back inside of you without warning. He's fucking into you with shared hate, telling you that you're useless and warns you not to cum again. Not before he does and it makes you cry. You know that crying only excites him more but you can't help it. Life is unfair. So unfair. You only desire for him to love you like he did in the beginning of your relationship. Wondering how things came to be like this.
Where is the guy that you used to know?
When he cums, he paints your aching walls with white, gripping onto your waist leaving pretty bruises for you to cry more about later. Your entire body hurts when he pulls out and presses you into the sheets. You're panting and he's releasing the rest of himself along your back, mumbling something that you can't quite make out. Your mind feels too foggy to understand anything but you catch the last of what's being said to you, heart wrenching painfully inside of your chest.
"—be back later, kay?"
In truth, you don't want him to come back. You often wish that he'd get into a tragic accident and never make it back home. Or, he decides to stay with the girl he's been fucking behind your back, letting you go completely. Once and for all. You wish for a lot of things but they never seem to come true.
You're doomed to an ugly reality with no means to escape.
You pity the girl that lies on the bed, alone in a room that feels like it's getting closer and closer. Feels sorry for the girl that is overshadowed by another, never meant to be as important as her. You also pity the girl that Eren has his eyes set on. She's been subjected to a life of pain, shame and utter misery but doesn't even know it yet.
You laugh to yourself. Laugh until your sides begin to hurt and the pain near your heart sticks in its final pin.
"I hate this. I hate him so fucking much."
— present.
Bright white teeth flashed underneath the gleaming lights above, clearly laughing over something his friend and date were talking about.
The situation-ship with him had been so toxic, there was nothing you wanted more than to continue ignoring his entire existence. It worked since you graduated and moved away. There was no reason you needed to talk to him again.
That was the moment you'd realized that Armin had changed as well. His glasses were also gone and looked a bit taller. His ears were pierced and there looked to be a shiny new ring on his finger—
"Holy shit, is he getting married?!" You half whispered to yourself, eyes almost popping out of your head. You squinted to see it better and it was unmistakable. The lights in the room reflected off of the silver band wrapped around his ring finger, proving to be true.
"Who?" Sasha squeezed past a couple to get to you, looking around the room once she was by your side again. "Who's getting married?"
"Armin. Remember? The guy that was friends with Eren back in high school," you answered, unable to stop staring at them. Married? It had only been five years. How did someone marry in that short amount of time?
She gasped, looking between you and the blond across the room. "Are you shitting me? That's Armin? Wow," she finished off her glass, shaking her head. "He looks...different."
"Yeah. They both do."
It was strange seeing people from high school and finding out how they grew up years after graduating and leaving. Eren and Armin used to keep to themselves. Were practically loners that talked about star wars and video games. When Eren was brought up in a conversation earlier, you'd acted as if you didn't know who Sasha was referring to. There was no reason to even speak to either of them. Especially Eren. As far as you knew, he was just another person in the room.
"I need me a man," you breathed, taking a sip from your glass. Sasha giggled, placing hers on an empty tray that a waiter was holding, walking past the two of you.
"No you don't. Not just because you see a bunch of these people coupled up." She wrapped her arm around yours, locking it there. She smiled. "We'll get boyfriends. Eventually… In the meantime, I say, let's do a little mingling so we won't give everyone the impression that we don't like them."
You frowned a little. "Yeah but I don't like half of them. Some were real assholes back then."
Sasha sighed before pulling up a fake smile. "Okay. Let's just pretend we forgot, hm?" And just like that, you were pulled off into the crowd you tried your best to stay away from and were forced to say hello, and fall down memory lane with half of the room. Most were boring conversations. Majority of the people you talked to only wanted to boast about their successful businesses and great set of kids they had or were on the way. It was all insanely nauseating, you couldn't think of a lousier way to spend your night.
When it was time to tell stories from high school, you decided that it was time to go and get some air. There was no way you were going to stay and listen to made up stories that didn't even happen. Fabricated and beefed up to sound a little more interesting (and start unnecessary conflict).
None of that was your sort of scene so you chose to stand out by the balcony, letting the cool night air poke and prod at the rising goosebumps along your arms and legs.
With a satisfied sigh, you leaned against the stone railing that held you back from soaring to your death down below into a street that was filled with the usual click clack and chatter of the nightlife.
You'd lost Sasha in the crowd inside before Jean had grabbed the microphone and began spouting off stories you were more than positive no one in the room but him even remembered. She insisted on talking with someone and you tried to keep eyes on her but there were just so many people, it was impossible.
However, having a moment alone didn't seem like a bad thing. It was nice.
"It's peaceful out here, isn't it?" A soft spoken voice said as the owner of it moved forward to stand next to you, but far enough to give you proper space. You were tempted to look but didn't in case it ended up being someone you remembered. A confrontation you clearly wanted to steer clear from considering you'd left the party to stand out under the moonlight, alone.
Or, so you thought.
"I'm not much for parties. I can only assume you feel the same if you're out here, away from everyone."
Why was he talking to you? Did he know you?
You took a small peek at him and thankfully he was looking out into the city. The moonlight was bright enough to illuminate his features, giving you the opportunity to recognize him immediately.
It was Armin and god did he look unreal up close.
Blue eyes that managed to look more prominent under the natural light and blond hair that never looked anything more than perfection splayed around his face.
With a pointed nose and soft, plush lips...you found yourself accidentally staring.
He turned his head towards you with a soft smile, having felt your stare. "You haven't changed a bit."
Blink. "Huh? You...remember me?"
His laugh made your chest do something strange but you ignored it.
"Yeah! Of course, how could I not?" His eyes drifted back forward, little crinkles created next to the corners of his lashes. "You were all that Eren talked about when we were younger. He was at all of your games so by being his friend, I was there too. Plus," he winked, still smiling. "-how can I forget one of the prettiest girls in school that everyone had a crush on."
A rush of heat fought to run across your face but you held it back, biting into your lip instead.
High school was...not one of your best times, to be honest. Sure, you were slightly popular but that was by association.
Mikasa, Annie and Ymir stole the entire school's attention from the moment they walked onto the school grounds. They were transfers and everyone drooled over their presence like it was their first time seeing girls. It didn't bother you because you had Sasha. She didn't want to be a part of their clique and that saved spending three years eating in one of the stalls of the girls' bathroom by yourself.
Sophomore year was when you'd joined the varsity tennis team. You were in a few clubs but nothing major. Tennis was your favorite sport and you were good at it.
Apparently, the clique had ended up joining as well and that was how you got close to them. Sasha was on the team too, after some serious begging, and things felt normal for a while.
Mikasa soon started dating Jean, the captain of the school's soccer team and the locker room talks between you and her got longer and longer until she considered you one of her best friends. You were different though. After declining being a part of her little group, she still wanted to have you around so you were her best friend...without the other two knowing.
After learning how possessive Ymir was over her friend, you did your best to dodge Mikasa but she was hard to push away. She kept asking you why you didn't want to hang out anymore and it was hard to explain to her the reason without worrying about the strain that was going to be put on her friendship with Ymir.
It took a while before you cracked and told her about your run in with Ymir and it went better than expected. She laughed it off and said that Ymir tended to get that way with new people. She needed to get used to you being around. That it was going to be fine.
You believed her...until your racket started to go missing from your locker. Then it moved on to finding the grip all torn up.
There was a lot of sabotaging and it wasn't like you could've gone to the coach about it because she was only going to demand a name and you couldn't tell her who you knew it was. So, you dealt with it.
Not long after that did you find out that Ymir had a crush on Mikasa and then it all ended up making a little sense. Her behavior was finally answered for and you'd known it all along. Though, you didn't use the information to your advantage. It was just relieving to understand where Ymir was coming from.
Junior year was when the distance started.
Less texting, less calling. Little to no contact when at school and tennis practice was agonizing because Mikasa stuck with Ymir the entire time. It was like she had forgotten who you were over the summer break and it felt a lot more painful than it was probably supposed to. It was only one year that you'd gotten to know her. Why had it hurt so bad if it was only just a year together?
Senior year came around quickly and it was all about making sure you picked the right college to go to. There was talk about where Mikasa had gotten accepted into and it ended up being the exact same university that you were thinking about applying at. After some thought, you decided to change colleges and let Sasha pick the one you two were going to try and get into together.
Everything ended up working out but your friendship with Mikasa was close to nonexistent.
Now, as you stood outside of the party (practically hiding from her), none of the experience at once being one of her closest friends felt real.
It'd almost felt like a dream.
When you tried to remember Armin and Eren, the memories were either too hazy or pushed to the back of your mind for specific reasons.
Armin, the boy with large circle glasses and Eren, the guy that couldn't stop talking about star wars and tended to play minecraft in photography class. There were a few instances where you remembered catching him pointing a camera at you but had quickly averted to snapshotting a squirrel in a tree with a very red face. Or when you two had been partners for two seconds. It was only after saying one word to him that he ended up speaking with the teacher again, begging to switch partners for the photography project.
You two stayed partners and that was how you became friends with benefits. It hadn't taken very long for him to ask you out shortly after he realized that he wanted you to be more than sex for him and you agreed.
It was good...for a while. Then it just got bad.
Eren couldn't understand why you went to so many parties despite knowing it wasn't his scene but you couldn't understand why he cared so much when there was no reason to be so worried about you. It was a party. You always went with Mikasa and Sasha so it wasn't as if you were going to them alone and hooking up with random people.
It was just the difference between two people.
But he got attached and possessive over you.
Stole you from classes so often that it started to affect your grades.
If he wasn't kissing along your body, forcing you to say things you didn't mean while several inches deep in you taking advantage of your hazed state–he was manipulating you into doing whatever else he wanted you to do.
Anything to keep you near.
Anything to keep every other guy in school far away from you. The marks and bruises certainly did that for him.
There wasn't much to hold onto when it came to remembering the two; more specifically Eren. Both stayed to themselves after you and him broke him and when everyone graduated, you never heard or saw them again.
That was why seeing Eren after all of those years again was a little startling and unsettling. Especially considering how different he not only dressed now but how grown up he looked.
"So, married huh?"
Armin blew out a breath, opening his eyes to focus on the way the clouds moved throughout the sky. "Yeah. Crazy, right?" He chuckled. "Truthfully, I didn't see myself getting married until my late 20s but...here I am."
Telling by the tone of his voice, it hadn't sounded like someone excited about spending the rest of their life with someone. It made you frown a little, wondering if he had been the one proposed to instead.
"I'm 23. I'm not sure I'm actually ready for marriage."
You studied his face and knew that he was being honest. What were you supposed to say? Or were you meant to just listen?
"I love Annie. I do." He poured his body weight into his dominant arm, using the other to run a hand through his hair with a sigh, ruining the perfect style that it was just in. "I'm just starting to think that this marriage thing is happening a little fast. Sure, we've got a baby on the way, but who said we had to be married before the baby came," he looked at you, amused by the shock on your face. "Oh. It doesn't look like you were informed." He giggled. "Yeah. I'm going to be a dad soon."
"Wha- When did this happen? Wait," you shook your head, trying to process the new information. "A baby?"
His face stretched into a beautiful smile, head tilted as he stared at you. "Yeah, a baby. This party is sort of surrounded by the news, actually." His face fell a little. "It's kind of why I'm hiding out here with you. Between all of the questions concerning us and the baby and talking about our engagement and the wedding...I just needed some air."
You fixed your lips into the form of a pout as you gave it some thought before opening your mouth again.
"You know...there's still time to run."
His laugh was genuine and filled the air quickly. You couldn't even bite back the smile that fought its way across your face.
"Yeah. Running. I could, but I love her. I could never leave her like that."
"Mm. Well, I don't have any experience with marriage or babies but I can tell you that it'll all work itself out. It's valid that you feel this way because it's going to be your first child and your first marriage. It seems like things are moving really fast but...I'm getting the feeling that you'll be able to handle it. If not," you shrugged, smiling. "I'm here if you want to talk. Or I can talk with both of you some time if things get too stressful."
Armin watched you look out into the night sky, eyes sliding down to your all-black attire, finding you seemingly perfect. He knew that you had talked about going into psychology in high school, but he wondered how it all worked out for you in the end.
"Thank you. I mean it. Uh...just out of curiosity, what do you do? If you don't mind me asking."
You smiled and hummed, fiddling with the jewelry around your fingers. "I'm a psychotherapist. I work with people of all ages, tackling their concerns and lending an ear, and giving a little insight on them." You looked at him. "So you were right. I haven't changed much at all."
He nodded. "The job fits you. You're good at this."
And it was back.
You felt your entire body warm up at his compliment. "I...try to do what I can and just hope it's enough."
Blue eyes met you with promise, smiling.
"Trust me. It is."
The talk between you and him lasted a little while longer until Sasha came out, looking for you. She'd also mentioned that Annie was inside searching for him as well so that was his queue to go back in.
"So," Sasha began and watched Armin walk back into the party. She wiggled her eyebrows, smirking. "Wanna tell me what that was about?"
You gave her a strange look and laughed, "You're kidding me, right?" Sasha didn't look like she was joking in the slightest. "Yeah, alright look. He's getting married, okay. I'm not a homewrecker."
Sasha put her hands up in defense, "Not saying you are but uh..." The smirk was back. "With a baby on the way and being 23, not sure he's all that happy so I'm just saying be a friend with a shoulder. Or...if you wanna offer up something else-"
"My god, you're impossible!" You exclaimed in embarrassment, heading back into the party and away from your maniac of a friend. Sasha laughed.
"I'm just sayin'!" as she followed you in.
xxxxxx
The party lasted another hour before everyone had to go back home for either work in the morning, their kids or were just downright exhausted from mingling and drinking too much.
You'd manage to stay out of Mikasa's line of sight the entire time and could enjoy some of the party.
Sasha was riding home with her other close friend, Connie, so there was only you to take care of.
You weren't much of a drinker, so you were still very much sober and could drive yourself back home.
As you were walking towards the entrance, you stopped in your tracks and cursed under your breath. You knew you had forgotten something. Your purse was still laying on the back wall table.
With the determined mind of going back to get it and heading out before anyone you knew saw you, you spun on your heel and ran right into a hard body.
You blinked and opened your mouth to apologize when a voice interrupted you.
"Excuse you?" A feminine voice spoke, and you looked up to see who it was.
Eren?
Did his voice get higher too?
"Wait..." The voice said, a bit cautious. You looked to the left and saw your worst nightmare. In the flesh. "I remember you." This wasn't happening.
You fixed up your best fake smile and widened your eyes to act as if you were surprised yet happy to see her. "Mikasa?" She smiled beautifully and was undeniably stunning up close.
In school, she'd always kept her hair fairly short but the Mikasa that stood in front of you now had grown it out down to her slender waist. It was half up, half down, paired with hairsticks that seemed to do well at keeping the half up portion out from her porcelain face. There was a soft apply of eyeliner and mascara but the bold red lipstick on her lips tied it all together. Everything about her was perfect. Even the long, black bodycon evening dress she had on looked to be molded against her body. Like you remembered, her ease into perfection didn't fail to push you back into that tiny box labeled 'insecurities'.
"Well you look gorgeous," she said, eyeing you down in wonder. "Though, you always did pull off the best suits." The way she said that, it sounded a little condescending but you chose to ignore it. "So," her arm tightened around Eren's, smiling sweetly at you. "I'm a little disappointed that we didn't get to chat tonight. I was looking for you." She giggled and patted his chest with her free hand. "I had Eren here do a little searching for me but," she shrugged. "No luck either. Maybe we could grab a coffee sometime and just catch up?" She then leaned towards you, hand cupped over her mouth and lowered into a whisper. "Then I can tell you all about how the hell I ended up dating this one."
Eren rolled his eyes, smirking. "As if we didn't make out a million times throughout high school. In the janitor's closet, no less."
Your brows twitched. What?
They were seeing each other while you and him were together?
Then what had been the point of being so possessive over you when he was messing around with someone else? Why had he done all of that to keep you when he–
Mikasa straightened up and laughed, hitting his arm. "Well leave something for me to tell my oldest friend about, will ya?"
He chuckled and nodded, looking at you.
For some reason, when his eyes made contact with yours, it was as if your body had tried to shut down. Your heart thumped hard against your chest and your breath hitched. There was something different from catching him across the room than seeing him up close. Much different.
He was taller and his features were sharper. Had his brows always been naturally dark? Jade eyes that pierced through you like they were trying to look into you and see the way he was affecting you. Beautiful viridescent eyes that tried searching yours but for what?
Mikasa looked good with him and he looked good with her. They were perfect for each other, which wasn't how you saw either of their futures panning out. To see them together, it was like two perfect puzzle pieces. It only pained you because it made you realize that the majority of your class had husbands, wives or boyfriends and girlfriends and then...
Well then, there was you.
Whoever said being single isn't all that bad—lied.
"Well, we should probably get going. It's getting late and we've got one more stop before going home." Mikasa grinned at you then at Eren who tore his gaze from you to her. "Are you still up for...?"
"Hell yeah," he said with a smirk. You couldn't help but notice the way his hand squeezed her waist and the look they shared.
You grimaced. Yeah, that was a conversation you definitely didn't want to stay in on.
"Alright, well!" You said with a big smile, pointing to your purse that was still on the table across the room. "Gonna go grab that and head out myself. It was really nice seeing you two again. You both look great by the way." Eren smiled at you. Mikasa quickly dove into her handbag and retrieved her phone.
"Wait, let's exchange numbers." She looked up from her cell and winked. "I was serious about that coffee, you know."
"Oh," you chuckled, having hoped she would have forgotten about that by now. "Yeah, absolutely!" You gave her your number and then they were off. The sigh that slipped past your lips was purely out of dread. There was a good chance that she was going to end up forgetting about that coffee and that was what you were going to hold onto for the next week or so, waiting for her to not contact you.
"Me and Eren have been together ever since. I really...I really love him and I love the way that he loves me. I can't ask for a better boyfriend."
"I'm so happy for you. Really, I am."
"Thank you. I hope that you'll find your perfect person too! They're out there somewhere. Just keep being patient."
"Yeah, hah. We'll see."
"Never know! Could be someone you've already met before."
"And how likely is that?"
"More than you'd know."
Several weeks later, Mikasa had in fact remembered but the coffee date turned out better than you were expecting.
You two caught up on quite a bit and she told you how she ended up dating Eren. They were seeing each other (behind your back) for a few months their senior year and then chose the same college. They went on to make things official their sophomore year.
The way she spoke about him...it was clear that he was a completely different person than when he was with you, back in high school. Despite seeming different now, that didn't mean you were ready to be friends again. If you could hang out with Mikasa and never see him, it sounded perfect.
Knowing that they were dating didn't bother you in the slightest. Or at least, that was what you tried telling yourself.
After the date with Mikasa, you decided to go and visit Armin at his new bakery shop.
It was learned through Mikasa that he was stressed about what goods to display and you loved sweets so why not?
The door chimed as you pushed it open and was welcomed by the fresh smell of baked goods and the strong smell of vanilla with a hint of cinnamon.
"Wow," you breathed, looking at how beautiful the set up around the shop was. There looked to be some real work put into everything.
It had his touch, that was for sure.
"Hey!" Armin said as he rounded the corner, coming out of the kitchen. "What brings you here, pretty girl?"
With a kind smile, you walked up to the counter and stared at all of the baked goods that were in the displays. "A little birdie told me that you needed a taste tester and well," your skin flushed. "I was wondering if I happened to fit the job?"
His smile was bright and immediate, leaning up against the counter with his hands supporting his weight. "You're perfect for the job actually," and you were quickly bombarded with different samples to try.
"So...what do you think?" Armin asked, wiping his hand clean on his apron as he studied your face to catch you in a lie in case you tried to save his feelings from getting hurt.
You nodded, stuffing a cream covered thumb in your mouth with surprised eyes. "Mm! It's really good!"
He chuckled at the way you tried to talk around your thumb. "Yeah?" He moved a hand up to your face and your body went rigid. "Sorry, you've got some whipped cream on your nose. Mind if I...?" You looked at him, sure that your face looked strange, and shook your head as he continued. "Are you usually such a messy eater?" He asked with a laugh, swiping the cream off with his index finger.
"Uh, no. Not really, just," your eyes searched around until he held out what he figured you were looking for. With a shy smile, you took the napkin, cleaning off your other fingers. "The cake was really good. I just wasn't worried about keeping clean."
Armin was still a breath away, close enough to kiss you if he wanted to. Did you want him to?
No. Annie. Think about Annie. Remember? His very pregnant fiancé?
"That's quite alright," he leaned back against the counter, his elbow keeping him up while you were sitting on the counter next to him. You tried to act like you were busy with cleaning your hands but they were already clear of any cake residue. It hadn't felt awkward but you were notorious for creating it in random situations. "So...which one should I display? The cake or the cinnamon rolls?"
You hummed, looking in between the two with narrowed eyes. "Man, that's a tough one. Are you sure you have to choose?" You looked at him and he was staring at the two in thought.
"Yeah, I mean... All of my other displays are full and I don't want to replace any." He looked back at you with a pout. "It's hard to think about getting rid of any of my goods when everyone still likes them all. Including me."
It was between the delicious whipped cake or the buttery cinnamon rolls. It had to go with the season and cinnamon rolls felt reserved for autumn heading into winter. Cakes were all year around but Armin owned a bakery. It needed to be seasonal like the rest of his goods were. With that being said...
"Let's go with the cinnamon rolls." You smiled watching as his eyes lit up. Seemed like that had been his first choice from the start. He didn't want to say anything that would've tampered with your opinion. Thoughtful and smart. No wonder he was married with a baby on the way. "I think they would be perfect around the holidays."
"I love it! You read my mind," he sent you a wink before taking the cake towards the back to store for later.
As you waited for him to come back, you looked around the store and couldn't help but wonder if Armin had fixed up the place on his own or had some help with it.
Dark wooden tables around the shop with the chairs to match and dark flooring that looked close to black. The color scheme of the entire shop was a dark brown and it fit with the atmosphere. It was the first bakery shop you'd ever seen with dark colors. It didn't seem like it would've come as a shock that Armin had done it all by himself. Or the majority of it.
There were low hanging light fixtures all about the shop but only two stayed on, which were those that hung above you to illuminate the space you were still seated at. There was a large case filled with different foods and a smaller case near the register that had nothing but muffins, cookies, small slices of cake and danishes in it.
It was a cozy little shop. It was no wonder Mikasa always talked about Armin being in it instead of going out and doing things with her. She said his shop was like his second home. He baked when he was happy and he baked when he was sad.
"Nothing has ever caught and kept Armin's attention more than baking," Mikasa once told you with a faint smile. "Before meeting Annie, he declined a date with a pretty girl once just because he had catering to do. It could've waited or he could've invited her to his shop and just shown her how he did things there. It would've still been a date. Ah, she was such a sweet one too but he gets so immersed into baking that he isn't able to see anything else. Or anyone else, for that matter. Except Annie." She giggled, downing the last sip of water from her bottle. "But lately...I've been seeing something different." She eyed you down, thinking. "He's been a little...distracted and I haven't been able to understand why. Either way, he bakes for a completely different reason than what I'm sure most people think. He's got a past, like the rest of us, that he doesn't want to confront. Should probably book a session with you sometime, huh?"
It sounded as if she was speaking lightly back then but being with Armin and talking with him...could she have been telling some sort of truth?
"Hey, sorry for taking so long," he said as he came around the corner, cleaning his hands again. There was a clear tint of redness across his face but it was faint and you had to squint to make sure you saw it. "I...accidentally dropped the cake." Ah. He was embarrassed.
You smiled. "Mm. Let me guess, you don't drop cakes very often huh?"
Armin shook his head, "Nah, not really a cake dropper. It's not exactly something I excel at." He smiled back when you laughed, mesmerized by the way the corners of your lips tilted up. "This may sound sudden but you…have a really pretty smile."
You stared at him, barely blinking.
He was definitely flirting and you weren't sure how to respond.
"Oh," you slowly slid off of the counter, looking everywhere but back at him. "Thank you."
"You know," he suddenly reached out, slowly to not startle you. "I'm not sure if I was too obvious or not but," he picked something out of your hair, looking at you. "I like you and that may sound crazy because Annie's still in the picture, but I don't know. I just... I think I want to get to know you better. I do like what I've seen so far, personality wise. I’m obviously very physically attracted to you and want to kno-"
"Armin," you interrupted, gently pushing his hand away. "We... No. I can't let you do this. I'm sorry and I'm saying this because I respect you and Annie." The apologetic look on your face made him back up and lean against the opposite counter with a sigh. "I'm sorry."
"Fuck. No, I'm so sorry," he muttered, looking down in shame. "I've just been so stressed. Me and Annie...we aren't doing so good honestly." The laugh he let out was dry and meaningless. "We put on a front at that party." He sniffled, frowning down at the floor. "I know it's because she's pregnant but lately... Lately it's felt less like we're in a relationship and more like we're just friends having a baby, if that makes any sense."
With a frown, you nodded. "It makes perfect sense, Armin." You stepped forward and placed a hand on his shoulder. He looked at you through wet lashes and you let out a breath. "Just take it a day at a time and I want to suggest that you talk to her about how you feel. Sure she can't read your mind."
He searched through your eyes and found nothing but genuine concern. That calmed him down a bit but that wasn't enough to make him feel any less embarrassed about how he'd just acted towards you.
"Thank you. That means a lot. Again."
The both of you laughed as he got himself together and smiled. "Okay. I should get this place ready to officially open tomorrow and I'll let you get home before it gets too late."
You smiled back and patted his shoulder. "Don't work too late. Annie needs you."
He chuckled, shoving his hands in his apron. Blues shining under the fluorescent lights above. "Yes ma'am."
When you left, it was hard to convince yourself to forget about how good Armin smelled when he got that close to you. The way his voice lowered an octave and held your gaze better than anyone you'd ever met. How gentle he touched you and spoke to you. It only told you how lucky Annie was and how good of a person you were for choosing to not to be a complete home-wrecker just now.
Nothing needed to happen between you two. Friends was a safe bet. Though, if he couldn't handle things as they were now, then when the baby came he was going to be extremely stressed out. Maybe Mikasa had been onto something.
Maybe Armin needed to book a session with you soon.
Him and Annie.
When you got back home, you started with a fresh shower first before heading into the kitchen to warm up some leftovers.
With your damp hair up and your signature robe on, you floated throughout the kitchen. With your mind active in thinking about Armin and what you felt was going to help him the best, you couldn't eat at the table. So, you chose to sit at the bar and eat.
You lazily mixed up the spaghetti and pouted in thought. "Why do I get the feeling that just talking with him won't be enough to help?" You didn't want to get into his business with his relationship with Annie and preferred waiting on one of them to come to you, but you saw the way he struggled earlier. Armin was stressed out and confused. However, a talk with Annie felt like the best route. You assumed that after he spoke with her about how he was feeling, she would end up being understanding. Those things would end up working themselves out (hopefully for the better).
As soon as you were about to stuff a forkful of pasta into your mouth, that was when your phone buzzed. You were going to ignore it but it didn't stop.
"Who's calling this late?"
You flipped the device over to reveal an unknown number trying to face-time you.
Weird. No one you didn't know had your number and those that did were strictly told to not give it out to anyone that asked unless they asked you directly. Your friends, especially Sasha, understood that but then a thought hit you. You'd given your number to Mikasa recently. What if she had given it out? But to whom?
Out of pure curiosity, you decided to hit the 'accept' button but turned your camera off just in case it was someone you didn't know.
The other end was silent for a long while. It made you anxious and you were extremely close to hanging up when a low voice spoke up.
"Yo, are you busy or something?"
You blinked, staring at the device.
Then he laughed. "Is your camera off? What? Do you look like shit right now?"
Eren?
With a sigh in annoyance, wondering why Mikasa had given him your number in the first place, you picked up the phone and turned the camera on. "What the hell do you want? Talk fast. I've got some itchy fingers ready to end this call any second now."
The brunette smirked and placed his arm behind his head. It looked like he was in bed.
'Ugh,' you thought to yourself. He was video calling you while in bed. Him. In bed. You. On the phone. With him.
As if to make matters worse, you saw your reflection in the front view of your phone and squeezed your eyes shut. He was right. You definitely looked like shit.
"Oou shit, you do look gross," he said, laughing again but harder this time.
You reopened your eyes and glared at him with a finger hovering over the 'end' button. "Talk fast, Eren. You're on very thin ice."
As much as you wished he looked equally gross, he didn't. Never could.
He was, in fact, in bed and because of that, he was only wearing sweats and his hair looked damp as well. Seemed like he had just showered too but didn't dry off well enough. His chest was littered with drops of water and it was almost as distracting as his annoying smirk.
It was as if he existed to torture you in the worst possible ways.
"Alright, alright." You noticed that he was chewing gum. As if he wasn't being intrusive enough. "Can you like...add me as a contact in your phone? Because the next time that I call, I don't really wanna wait 80 years for you to pick it up because you don't know who it is."
Your eyes narrowed. "You have one more minute before you're hearing the dial tone."
"Okay!" he exclaimed before pulling a pillow on his chest to hug. He pouted, "You're so bossy. Anyway, I just wanted to see what you were up to. Mikasa's still out and I got a little bored so I thought to just call you."
You sighed, tempted to pinch the bridge of your nose to remind yourself that this was actually happening. "You got bored. Is that really the only reason I'm being forced to talk to you right now?"
Eren picked at the black corded bracelet around his wrist, green eyes focused on the clasp that held it together. "Yeah?"
"Oh my god."
"You called," he said, looking back at the screen with a dumb smile on his face. Was this hell?
"Eren," you said in a warning tone and he groaned, putting the pillow over his face. Even with the cotton in between him and the speaker, it was still hard to ignore the chewing.
"Can't you just entertain a guy?" He asked through the pillow and you mumbled under your breath about a lot of ways you could entertain him when he shoved the pillow down slowly, revealing a devilish half smile. "You know what," he interrupted you. His eyes scoured what he was able to see, which (unfortunately) wasn't much. Although, your robe wasn't secured all the way. He got a good enough view of the top of your breasts and licked his lips. "Maybe you can give me a strip show." He got comfortable in bed, ditching the pillow completely and rested the phone on his chest with his other arm back behind his head. "Just something to pass the time."
You looked at him like he was genuinely insane. Then you nodded, "Yeah, ending the call now."
"Only chickens say no," he sang, teasingly.
"Then I'm a chicken," you snapped back.
Eren pouted again and it was hard to ignore him this time. "Not even a peek? Just a small one?"
In some alternate world, if you had done anything he said, it wasn't going to stop. He was going to want more. That was just how he was. Selfish, and greedy.
Has he really changed all that much from before? Was he still as manipulative as back then? What if instead of getting better, he'd gotten worse over the years? If that was the case, it was a wonder how Mikasa was able to deal with someone like that.
"Uhh, no." You closed your robe even more, frowning. "I don't do that and we're not even close. Not that if we were close, I'd show you anything. Plus, you already know what I look like underneath all of this. Or did you forget."
He jutted his lips out like he was really trying to remember and you set the phone back down, letting him enjoy the view of your ceiling. You heard him laugh through the speakers and was thankful that you had adjusted the view because you couldn't fight off a smile any longer.
Eren was still unbelievably annoying but just as attractive and able to get what he wanted just like before. It wasn't like you were ready to get naked in front of him again...or ever. It was just nice seeing and talking to him again.
Wow, did you really just think that?
It was late and you were losing your mind over what almost happened with Armin earlier.
Yeah. That was it. Had to be it.
"Okay, okay. I won't ask anymore," you heard him say and his voice had trailed off a little bit. It gave you a moment to take the bite you had missed out on when you answered the call earlier.
After a few more bites, you'd noticed how quiet the other line got and with furrowed brows and newfound curiosity, you leaned over to find the screen grayed out. His camera was off. Weird. He must've gone to the bathroom or something. Was it your queue to finally end the call and pretend that the whole conversation never happened?
"Yep."
You were about to hit the 'end' button when you heard a faint groan.
You squinted at the blank screen, having convinced yourself that if you looked hard enough, you were going to see something.
You weren't wrong.
His camera was still on, it was just the view of his ceiling too. The camera shook a little but it would've gone unnoticed if you weren't looking as hard as you were.
Then it was quickly picked up and you moved away from the screen, heart pounding from trying to be so nosy.
But what was that noise about?
"Sorry," Eren mumbled, trying to get comfy in his bed again. "I stubbed my toe before getting back in bed so if you heard that – sorry again."
You rolled your eyes, "Should've known."
"Hey so be honest with me," he shuffled around until he was on his side. As you ate, you watched him struggle to set his phone up against one of his pillows so that he was able to talk, hands free. "Are you still mad at me for how I acted in high school or...?" After you picked the phone back up, there was a weird look on your face and he laughed, covering his face, laying against the bed. "No! Okay I mean like..." he dropped his hands and turned his head to look at you. You gulped down the pasta and paid attention. You had a strange feeling he was about to say something serious for once and didn't want to blow him off. "After finding out, at the reunion, that I was also with Mikasa back then when I was supposed to be with just you."
It took a lot of tries before it actually registered in your head that he was genuinely worried about your feelings.
Maybe it was worth entertaining.
You pushed the bowl of pasta away before giving him a proper answer.
"Truthfully?" He nodded, and it was like he was holding his breath as he got ready to hear what he'd been wanting to know since he’d seen you again. "No. I'm not mad about that. Sure, it was a dick move but that was years ago, Eren. We've grown up a lot since then and I don't hold grudges that old."
He let out a long breath, proving you right. He had been nervous to hear what you were going to say and looked relieved to know that you weren't holding onto any resentment towards how he acted when he was younger.
How could you be upset or even hate him for what he did? It was so long ago and it shouldn't define who he grew up to be. Him and Mikasa looked steady and happy. They were sure to have their own problems, because what relationship didn't? However, it really did look like he wasn't making the same mistakes from back then.
Eren...Eren might've grown up. He wasn't that sixteen year old boy that you'd met, dated and left all those years ago.
The person that stared back at you through the screen was no boy. He was a man now, and it was almost hard to come to terms with because you'd always (secretly) wondered what he ended up being like after graduating.
Maybe a friendship was possible. If there were no real grudges held...what was stopping you?
You didn't hate him. Not really. It was more on the lines of it shouldn't have happened. That the relationship between the two of you back then shouldn't have happened and yet it was a memory that you couldn't erase.
"Good," he said, turning back over onto his side with his head resting against the palm of his hand, staring at the screen. His abdomen flexed with the movement along with the tendons in his arms. "Would probably cry if I found out that my favorite girl hated me."
You smiled a little, looking down. "You're so annoying, you know that?"
"Mmm, I do get that quite often actually so I'm pretty aware," he said through a cheesy grin, messing with his hair.
As you stared at him, using that moment where he was distracted, you couldn't deny the extreme growth he had gone through from high school to now.
From his voice, the length of his hair and how he acted. Moreover, his physique. Lean, athletic. Someone that looked like he worked out a few times a week but wasn't exactly a gym head. Just liked to stay toned. You wondered if he still liked to keep a stash of junk food by his bed like he used to or had he grown out of that as well.
Did he still play video games? What was his job? Mikasa hadn't told you much about him but since she'd given him your number, did that mean that she was open to you talking to him on a friendship level? She didn't seem like someone that was insecure enough to keep her boyfriend away from every girl on the planet but still...
"Probably should take a screenshot," he smirked. "Wouldn't wanna forget what I look like later on, huh?"
You groaned, putting your head down in embarrassment. "Shut. Up."
His annoying laugh flowed through the speakers again, and you smiled so hard that your cheeks began to hurt.
You'd almost forgotten what it was like talking to him again.
It was refreshing and addictive. To hear his voice, his laughter. Those were things that you didn't know you missed but were happy to have again.
After that conversation, to your surprise...there were more.
Eren called you almost every night and you found out it was because Mikasa had the most clients around the late evening, so he was stuck by himself. He told you that he usually would've called Armin or Jean, but both were busy with their girls to entertain him so you were now stuck with the job.
Of course, he'd suggested that the two of you meet up and just catch up in person but you told him that you weren't ready for that yet. That was when he knew that there were still some things from the past that you were holding onto, but claimed weren't grudges.
Were they?
More like things that you were still uneasy about. Things that you couldn’t just store away and pretend hadn’t happened. Nothing like holding a grudge, but just being cautious.
Either way, he understood so he kept his distance and enjoyed what he could get.
Which, unbeknownst to you...that was what he liked.
Not being able to physically see you but still have some sort of contact. To not know when (or if) he was going to be able to talk to you in person again.
Eren always did enjoy the chase.
There was not a phone call that you missed nor a text that you ignored, and it started to become a little too natural. Too easy.
When you got home one night, you ran yourself a bath first before eating dinner. It was like clock work...usually.
By this time, Eren would've called but there was nothing but radio silence.
It was strange.
You sat at the edge of the claw foot tub, brows pushed together as you reached a hand out to test the temperature of the water.
Idiotic. You couldn't help but feel dumb for getting so used to him being there when you forgot that Mikasa was very much in the picture. They were together. A couple. He wasn't supposed to be available for you to talk to whenever you wanted him to be. It didn't work like that and you shouldn't have thought that way.
If he couldn't call, it was normal. Maybe he was out with her. Like on a date or something. If so, it wasn't any of your business and there was always next time. Or a time after that and so on.
You sighed.
"I need to get my crap together."
Maybe a few tinder dates was what you needed sometime soon.
After the water was warm enough to your liking, you disrobed and slowly got in. Your phone was on top of the toilet lid, just at arms reach in case Sasha called you back about the spare key.
It was funny. She had lost it and got it replaced but...lost it again. So, she went back for another replacement and was supposed to be bringing it by to not lose it again. You'd suggested that she put it on a necklace chain, but not wear it as a necklace. Just have it somewhere she would remember but maybe in plain sight.
There was never a time she didn't lose something important.
As you fell into thought, Armin came up in your mind for the millionth time today.
He'd told you recently that things were better between him and Annie. They talked through some things and now their communication skills were a lot better than before. They were both making the necessary adjustments and putting forth the right amount of effort to keep the relationship above water.
You were happy for him.
For both of them.
"Jeez, am I really the only single one out of my friend group now?" You asked yourself as you slid your back down until the water rested just above your chin.
Sasha was starting to see someone and you were happy for her. You didn't know much about the guy other than he was going to school to become a chef. You smiled. She also ranted about him being quite tall and how much she loved that about him.
This was good for her. She deserved to be happy. She'd been single for a pretty long time too.
It was about time that she found someone.
With a sigh, you tilted your head up to look at the ceiling.
"Maybe one day."
Once you had started to notice that you were pruning up from the water, you quickly washed up and got out, drying yourself as you headed back into the room.
You tossed your cell on the bed and went into the closet to find something to throw on. Preferably a big t-shirt.
Your phone was ringing but the volume was set a bit low so you missed the first call. When you walked back into the room, you noticed the screen light up and went over to see who it was.
"Really?" You spoke low amongst yourself in surprise.
It was a shock but nevertheless, you didn't hesitate to pick it up.
"Hey."
"Heyy, sorry to bother you so late. Were you busy?"
You sat on the edge of the bed, smiling. "No, I just got out of the tub actually. Your timing couldn't have been better."
Armin laughed on the other end and pushed his glasses back up his nose, "Well it sounds like I missed the show."
Your skin flushed at him insinuating that he wanted to see you naked but quickly wrote it off as him attempting to be somewhat funny.
"Yeah," you used your ear and shoulder to clamp down on the cell as you slid on a pair of underwear. "You sure did. So, what's got you calling so late? Not that I'm complaining. It's always nice talking to you." It just wasn't normal for him to call during the nights. You didn't want to think about there being something wrong between him and Annie or even with the baby.
"No reason. I just wanted to see how you were doing," he tried to convince you, but his tone was off. There was something else and you weren't entirely sure that you were able to question it because maybe he didn't want to talk about it.
Either way, it was something you were going to have to let him bring up instead.
"Mm, how sweet of you. I've been great actually."
"Still talking to Eren?"
"Mhm! We haven't talked much today but I still do."
"Oh. Cool."
There it was.
Of course.
It made sense. Maybe Armin missed hanging out with his best friend and felt like you were the cause. If you were right, was it serious enough for him to bring it up? How was it not something that could've been settled between the both of them?
You smiled, turning over to lay flat on your stomach with your legs up and crossed. "Don't worry. I'm not trying to steal your best friend."
You heard a deep chuckle on the other end, "Steal him? It's nothing like that. I just missed talking to you, actually." You didn't even have time to scream into your pillow when he continued, "Feel like you enjoy talking to him more than you do with me."
His tone had been light but you could tell by the way he said it that he was actually a bit hurt over not getting the same amount of attention from you as Eren was getting.
"Well you know what, I'm going to start bugging you a lot more." You smiled, "-really shouldn't have said that now."
"Might come off as a shock but I would love that."
"As friends."
"Of course. Nothing more."
The call didn't last long. Not when Eren had been trying to call and text you. Armin understood, said goodnight and you hit Eren's name.
"Mm, what is this?" He asked you.
"I- What?"
"Hold on."
Confused, you laid there and waited until he was done doing whatever it was that he was making you wait for.
Then a facetime call was trying to come through.
Without hesitation, you answered it and saw that he was in the bathroom with wet hair.
Why was he always either getting out of the shower or about to take one when you video called?
"There's my pretty girl," he commented and you rolled your eyes, smiling. "Mm, and she smiles. Lovely."
"You're making it very hard to stay mad at you," you mumbled, picking at a stray thread that was coming out of your blanket. "You got all busy on me."
You watched as he applied shaving cream on his face and tried to set the phone up to where you were still able to see him. The angle wasn't bad at all. You were peering up from a low angle where he was leaned forward, close to the mirror. "Sorry baby, I was a bag boy all day for Mikasa. She bought a lot of stuff and I had to carry it all." He looked down at you with a cheesy grin before flexing his arms, making you laugh. "Totally worth it because that was my arm workout for the day, huh?"
"Bag boy. That's got a nice ring to it."
His face got a little red, going back to shaving. "Use it after today and you're dead."
"Okay, okay. Fine," you casually commented, finding the shaving asmr to be quite soothing.
The sound of him using the blade to remove the little hairs that were once there and brush the shaving cream away, it began to make you a little sleepy. Plus, you were freshly bathed and Eren wasn't helping you stay awake in the slightest.
You decided to venture off onto other apps in order to help you stay awake while still watching him shave. He was humming some tune to himself that provided good background noise once you decided to text some of your friends back.
It was odd how easy you two fell back into old habits. Like there hadn't been an entire five year gap in between the friendship. Or...situation-ship, rather.
Curiously enough, you couldn't help but wonder what Mikasa thought about the two of you having major contact again. It didn't seem like she was all that bothered since she had been the one to connect the two of you but you couldn't help but wonder if there was some other ulterior motive? Was it a test of some kind?
Couldn't put it past her. She'd done it once before with Historia. Only to make sure that she was her friend and not someone wanting to get close just to get juicy intel on her. Then spread it around school. Childish, true, but Mikasa wasn't dumb.
Turns out Historia was a genuine person and had no plans of spying on her for anything. She just wanted to be friends and that was how she claimed her place in the clique. Of course, that had all happened before you came along but Mikasa felt it was something you needed to know about.
Wasn't hard to tell that she told you that story simply because she didn't trust you fully. That was back then. Even after five years of no contact, was it wrong to have your doubts about her? When it came to her trust, it wasn't given out very easily.
It made you wonder.
Did you still have it?
"Aw, your camera's off again,” he whined.
You saw him pout and it annoyed you because he was cute when he got like that.
It was even better when you made him work to get what he wanted from you.
You clicked back into the screen and your face was back in view. He instantly smiled and grabbed a towel to clean up the excess cream.
"There she is."
"Oh my god, Eren, stop talking like that," you groaned, wanting to throw the phone across the room.
His laugh rang through the speakers, undoubtedly at your expense.
"You're still shy, huh?" He checked himself in the mirror before he picked up the device and began walking out of the bathroom with only a short towel draped around his neck and a towel hung low on his hips. You saw everything and wished you didn't because it made you frustrated. There weren't any real feelings for him anymore but did finding him stupidly attractive count?
You hoped not.
"I'm not shy," you flipped onto your back and held the phone out in front of you, in the air.
Eren had moved to the bedroom that was clear of his girlfriend, whom you only assumed was still at work. You smiled to yourself. Instead of texting and calling her, here he was. Facetiming you while shaving and walking around the apartment half naked. He was comfortable with you and you tried to not let that mean anything.
Key word.
Tried.
"Liar," he sang and you flipped him off.
"Aw, c'mon," he plopped down on the edge of the bed. His arm was tired of holding the phone at eye level so he rested his hand against his thigh and again, you had a low angle view of him. He was looking down at you through dark lashes, eyes almost greener than they were in the bathroom. It was almost hard keeping eye contact but you didn't want him to tease you or come up with crazy (not so crazy) assumptions about it.
"You can be a little meanie, can't you."
It sounded rhetorical enough to not entertain him with an answer so you settled for a hum and he smiled, watching you rub at your eyes.
"Hey, I won't hold you up. I know you're tired. We can talk sometime late-"
"No." You quickly answered, frowning. "We're talking until I fall asleep. No objections. I..." you looked to the side, finally releasing the eye contact while you told him your feelings. You would have rather died then be honest about how you felt, but as a therapist – honesty was the best policy. No friendship could survive without proper communication. You understood that more than anyone. "I kind of missed you today." When you heard him speak, you looked back at him, holding up a finger. "And don't let that go to your obnoxiously big head, alright? I only meant that I enjoy our talks so...yeah. No big deal."
Eren couldn't help but find the entire situation funny. The way you expressed your feelings looked painful and it was like watching a car wreck but he always loved every minute of it. At least you were capable of telling him what was on your mind rather than not.
"Yeah, yeah. I won't," he replied with fake sincerity as he used the towel around his neck to dry the ends of his hair. "Okay, I'm gonna put some sweats on and get in bed. Are we..." a slow smirk rose to his face. "Are we really going to fall asleep on the phone together?"
"Oh my god, don't make it a big deal," you whined, sitting up in bed. You didn't have a bra on (because why sleep with something so constricting on?) and that gave Eren a wide and clear view of your nipples that were poking against your shirt from the friction. "You're so annoying. Go put pants on. I think it's weird you've got your dick out right now with me on the phone. Perv."
He laughed out loud and fell back on the bed, looking at you from the side. "I mean, it kinda sounds like you wanna see it..."
"No! I will end this call right now, don't play with me."
Another laugh erupted from the other end, and you watched him position the camera away from the closet but it was still in view of the body mirror that they had in their bedroom. In fact, if you remembered correctly...there were a few other mirrors in the room.
You wondered why someone would want to have more than one mirror in the room unless they were-
"Oh my god."
You wanted to go back to the ten seconds where you didn't put those pieces together and realize something you wished you hadn't.
Luckily, Eren hadn't heard you so that was a conversation you were thankful to skip.
While he was busy dressing, you reached to the side and dimmed your lamp so that it wasn't so bright. The thought of eating something was too far at the back of your mind. You were already so tired. You were just going to have to have a hearty breakfast in the morning to make up for the missed dinner.
Once you were settled into bed, comfortable underneath the sheets, you paid more attention to the screen and almost blinked yourself into another dimension.
"Eren?!"
There he stood. Barebacked in the reflection of the mirror, in front of his closet. Granted, all that you were able to see were his ass cheeks but that was already too much in and of itself.
He looked behind him, looking for the phone he'd set down on the bed and smirked at his own reflection, figuring out that was how you were able to see him.
"I mean, you don't have to look," he responded, sending you a wink that almost made you want to throw up yet cry at the same time because even through the mirror, he looked good.
"I've been skipping leg day for the past couple of days so sorry if they're not up to par," he commented, smirking to himself as he pulled out a pair of dark grey sweats. "Although, I'm getting the feeling that you don't really care. A view is a view right?"
He slipped on the pants and stretched with a yawn, walking back to the bed and snatching the phone up.
The look on your face almost made him want to laugh but he enjoyed teasing you so he gave in again. "What's that look for? Did you not like it?"
Your eyebrows were pushed together and there was a cute pout on your lips. Your facial expression looked as if you'd just smelled something extremely sour and didn't know how to feel about it.
He cracked and laughed, running a hand through his hair.
"Are we sleeping or what?" He asked you.
"...yeah. I guess."
“You guessss,” he teased, reaching over and turning off the only other light in the room and got into bed with a groan, licking his lips. You were still partially visible while he was shrouded in complete darkness. In all honesty, you were thankful that he was out of your line of sight.
You'd had enough of the visuals for one night.
"So..." Eren mumbled, finding comfort at being on top of the covers. "Do we just...fall asleep or-"
"Have you really never fallen asleep on the phone before?" You asked him, the corners of your lips twitching up, wanting to smile. It would've been nice to have something to tease him about in the future. He never had a problem doing it with you.
"Of course I have!" He shot back defensively, and you couldn't help but giggle. "I just don't do it very often so it's kind of awkward."
"Wow. I can't believe the great Eren Jaeger is actually scared of a little vulnerability. Is this...his kryptonite? Stay tuned to find out."
He snorted. "Make fun of me all you want, but I've gotten to be a pretty private person since high school."
"We don't have to stay on the phone together. I mean, we can sleep now actually. Like separately."
Eren brought over the same pillow he'd had earlier and hugged it the same way. "No, this is fine. I don't mind falling asleep next to you...even though I'm pretty positive you still snore like a 30 year old man with three jobs."
You laughed out loud and wished you could hit him with something but you couldn't so you settled for making as much noise from your end. He was saying something but you were too busy rubbing the end of your phone into the sheets.
"-okay, okay! I get it!" You heard him say and laughed, pulling the device away. It was followed by another long, tired yawn. "Well, I'm about to knock out. You'd better be sleeping too."
You smiled and nodded. "I'm extremely exhausted so it won't take me long." You turned off your lamp and you were also engulfed in darkness. He couldn't see you and you couldn't see him. It made things a little less weird. At least, for you.
"Good."
The soft sound of your a/c whirring on provided the perfect background noise as you pulled a pillow close, setting your phone right next to it.
The shuffling sounds on his end had ceased and if you paid close enough attention, his breathing had evened out.
'He's still a fast sleeper I see,' you thought to yourself with a soft smile.
It wasn't as weird as you'd thought it was going to be. Sure, he was at his place and you were at your own, but it still felt like he was right next to you. He made low noises in his sleep but other than that, he was quiet and it was soothing.
Soon enough, you'd found yourself falling asleep to the sound of the air conditioning and his soft snoring.
When you opened your eyes again, it was still pitch black.
You didn't know the time but it was definitely late.
With half lidded eyes and a groggy vision, you picked up the cell that was still next to you and noticed that you'd been on the phone for six hours. It was two in the morning and it seemed like Eren was still fast asleep. The other end was a bit quiet but you figured that he had stopped snoring at some point in the night.
You were about to end the call when you heard a deep groan. It was a bit low but it was unmistakable.
That was Eren.
It sounded a bit similar to the sound he'd made earlier while being on call. It had come from him supposedly stubbing his toe but this sound...it didn't sound like it came from him hurting himself again. Plus, he was supposed to be in bed.
How would he stub his toe in bed?
You rubbed your eyes and quickly muted yourself as you sat up. The phone was still in your hand and you tried looking at every part of the screen to figure out what exactly was going on but it was so dark. You couldn't see anything.
"Fuck."
You froze.
Was he...?
No.
He was just mumbling in his sleep. That was it. Nothing else.
You almost wanted to turn the light on, because listening to him in the dark made it even weirder, when you heard him shift around. Quickly after, a small light was turned on and you heard a drawer open.
With the room illuminated, you saw a bit of the ceiling and what looked to be his arm covering some of the screen. Then the drawer closed and the sound of a cap being popped open made your stomach knot twice over.
What if you had been wrong? What if he was actually about to jerk one off with you still being on call? Then again...it wasn't like he was forcing you to stay there. Maybe he'd forgotten that the call was still going on. That made you feel like a complete pervert. Whatever he was actually doing, six hours was enough. It was late and you needed to get a few more hours of sleep. It was a Saturday which meant no work but that didn't mean you needed to stay up all night. Not with Eren about to do god knows what with you listening on the other end.
"I should hang up," you whispered to yourself, the phone still in your hand. There were more noises on the other end as you stared at whatever view he was giving you. "I need to hang up."
Then, by some strange coincidence, he picked up the phone and stared at it with furrowed brows. It was like he was trying to figure out if it was still on or not when all he had to do was tap the screen to see that it was.
"Oh my god," you breathed, thinking you had been caught. That he could see you, through the dark, watching him.
Eren's green eyes searched all across the dark screen before smirking to himself.
"Guess she fell asleep. Probably won't mind."
You blinked as he set the phone, casually, against a pillow next to him so that you were able to see exactly what he was up to.
If only you had actually still been asleep right now.
He was propped up against the headboard, legs out in front of him and a hand against his abdomen that flexed repeatedly with each heavy breath he took. There was no regard towards being caught by you at all. There was a lazy smile on his face, staring down at the way he leaked across his stomach. You couldn't tear your eyes away from the sight. His pajama pants were pulled down mid-thigh but aside from that, he was completely bare. It was like he wanted to be caught. Wanted you to watch him get off, but for what? What was it going to lead to? Or was it possible that he actually believed that you were still asleep?
Eren smoothed his hand down the underside of his cock while his other hand spread across his chest, moving over a nipple. His lips were parted as he breathed out, not sparing one glance towards the phone. To you, who stared, noticing the way his thighs would twitch every time his thumb would accidentally trace over the head of his cock.
You needed to end the call. You needed to send him a text saying that you ended the call because it was late and you didn't want your phone to overheat with it staying on for more than six hours. Some sort of convincing lie to get you out of the current situation that you were in. There was no good excuse as to why you were watching him touch himself. He had a girlfriend. Mikasa was your friend and here you were – watching her boyfriend get off on facetime, voluntarily invading his privacy. A piece of privacy that he hadn't seemed real inclined on protecting if he wasn't able to tell that the call was still going.
Although, that still didn't justify your desire to continue watching him.
He began to give himself slow and relaxed strokes, abs tensing with each movement, "Fuck," he breathed, voice a bit raspy as he frowned and let his head fall back against the top of the short headboard.
There you were – sat up in bed, cross-legged with a heavy throb in between your legs that wouldn't go away no matter what you tried thinking about. A puppy? Didn't work. Maybe an elderly lady doing yoga...
You squinted for a moment then closed your eyes, thinking that shielding your eyes away from your screen was going to help. That moment away was when you'd heard Eren let out a low groan and swear under his breath again.
"Fuck me," you muttered in frustration, reopening your eyes.
Eren moved his hand easily along his cock, making sure to cover his head before stroking back down. His hips were threatening to move up but he seemed to hold himself back, sliding his other hand down to the bed, gripping into it.
His breathing was picking up and you were unable to pull your eyes away. Watching him, you noticed that he still had the small moles across his abs like before. Except now they were a little darker and there were even a few new ones that were splayed just under his chest. Skin smooth, except for the small patch of hair right at his pelvis.
With each lazy stroke, he made sure to tug at the cock head in long sweeps to keep himself on the edge. His hair was half up but a few strands laid across his damp forehead, sticking from the sweat. As you looked more closely, it was only then did you notice the tattoos.
"He's got tattoos?" you asked yourself with raised brows as your eyes traced over the one on his arm that wrapped around his wrist then to the one at the side of his neck that looked like a line of words that you weren't able to decipher. There was also one on his hip bone that looked to be a small bird in flight and a few smaller ones on his fingers that were on his left hand. How did you manage to miss them? Better question, when did he grow a love for ink? In high school, when you had asked him if he would ever get a tattoo, he made a face and said he could never.
He definitely grew up.
Suddenly, his head turned towards the camera. He was panting and staring at the screen like he was able to see you. Was he?
You pushed the phone out a bit from your face and looked around you to make sure that it was still jet black in the room. To your advantage, it was but that still didn't explain the strange look that was now on his face as he let his cock smack back against his abdomen.
With slight tension in his brows, he grabbed the phone with his other hand, staring and squinting at the screen. You were holding your breath as he tapped the screen. Jade eyes widened in surprise. Telling by the look of horror on his face, it was safe to say that he'd had no clue that the phone was actually still on.
Whoops.
"Dude, are you serious?" He said to himself in a low tone, almost wanting to laugh but actually seemed a little nervous, thinking you could've heard him or worse. Saw him.
You did. In fact, it was more than that. You'd been watching him, which should've made you feel bad but reasonably enough...it didn't.
You weren't buying it. All signs were pointing to him being genuinely confused and scared, but a part of you didn't believe that he was completely unaware the entire time.
"Hey..." he spoke, trying to see if you were going to answer back and answer the one question he had.
There was no reason to hide and lie. If anything, you two were going to laugh and never speak about the situation ever again.
So, you answered.
"Hey..."
"Oh shit."
Silence.
You and Eren sat in your beds, quiet on both ends. He felt a little embarrassed about you catching him but you were the reason behind the extremely awkward air. You didn't know what to say and neither did he, but he wanted to give it a try because awkward silence only made things weirder for him.
Your light was now on so he looked at you through the screen before clearing his throat.
"So...rate me?"
Your burst of laughter made him laugh and the tension filled air was suddenly gone.
You rolled your eyes, looking back at him with a smile. "I'll give you a 9."
He smirked, leaning against the headboard again. "A 9, huh? What's a guy gotta do to get a 10, babe?"
You dipped your head down from the camera, trying to pretend he didn't call you that. "Keep talking like that," you reconnected the eye contact, almost frowning. "-and you're getting debunked to a solid 3."
"Ah damn," he tilted his head, pouting. "I'll take the 9 then."
"Yeah, smart call."
"So..." he looked down to play with the strings to his pajama pants that were now put back on. "Will this make the friendship all weird or like..."
You thought about it for a moment before opening your mouth. "Not...really. I've seen you before. It was just a shock right after waking up." You watched as he took a peek back up at you through his lashes, grinning. You smiled and looked away, already annoyed. "Say it and you're done."
He laughed, "Alright, I won't! I just…Can I be honest about something?"
You nodded, clueless to what he was going to ask you.
"Did you...wake up to seeing me like that or were you watching the entire time?"
Your mind went semi blank. The urge to lie was almost stronger than wanting to tell the truth. One of them had to win and the wrong one did.
"I was watching the entire time."
"Oh?" the dark look in his eyes was almost as annoying as the shit eating grin that was on his face now. "What a perv. I had a feeling you weren't really asleep and came to find out that you weren't." He stretched out and rubbed a hand down his chest that was covered by a shirt, falling out of view.
You rolled your eyes. "And what was I supposed to do? Ignore you?"
"No. Ask if you could help."
Your mouth dropped open. "You can't be serious."
He shrugged, still smiling. "I am."
"No way," you moved out of bed and headed towards the bathroom. "Never in a million years."
"Sad. We could've bonded."
"You're crazy."
“Yeah, crazy over you," he said jokingly.
"Yuck."
Eren laughed, watching you set the phone up on the counter and away from the toilet as you used the bathroom. "So I've upgraded to hearing you pee? Nice."
You frowned and smirked, turning the faucet on. Over the running water, you heard him whine something about "no fair" and it made you giggle as you finished up and flushed. He was able to see you wash your hands and got carried back into the room.
"I'm serious though," he muttered and it was so low that you almost missed it.
With a quirked brow, you sat down at the edge of the bed. "What do you mean?"
His eyes didn't leave yours as he continued, "Helping me."
Wasn't he joking? He couldn't have been actually serious about that. Could he? He was insane. He had a girlfriend and you two were just starting to be friends after spending so many years with zero contact. Plus, it wasn't like that left room to become fuck buddies or anything like that. Hello! Mikasa?
"I...what?" You were insanely confused and couldn't understand where he was expecting the conversation to go because you weren't going to help him in any sort of sexual sense so there was no need to stay on that subject.
Eren took a pillow from beside him and placed it off to the side, setting the phone against it. "You heard me. I want your help so I can finish."
It was a joke. It had to be.
You checked the time at the top of your phone and noticed it was pushing three in the morning. "Eren, I'm over the joke already. Besides, where's Mikasa? She's gotta be home by now, right?"
He nodded, ruffling his hair. "Yeah, but she decided to sleep in the guest room tonight." His eyes weren't very telling. "Around 11, she came home and we had a small argument. Nothing major. It'll blow over by the morning, as usual. Not worried about it." He let out a small yawn, pulling down at his pants to make room. Or was he...adjusting? "So...are you in or...?"
The question was left hanging in the air because there was no way you were going to help him finish off his relationship with Mikasa because you were sure that was what was going to happen if you did 'help him'.
She was going to find out. She always did.
"I won't get into your relationship but-"
"And every time you say that, you're always getting into stuff that has nothing to do with you."
You closed your mouth and looked down, a bit hurt. It wasn't like he was wrong but he didn't have to say it like that.
He saw the look on your face and sighed.
"I shouldn't have said it like that, I'm sorry."
Not like that was triggering or anything. Nope. Not at all.
"No you're right." You bit into your lip and wanted the topic to pass already.
"Uh..." he rubbed at his neck, wishing he hadn't said it like that. If anything, you were just trying to help. "How about I help you instead."
You blinked and looked back at him, confused. "Help me?"
"Yeah," a slow side smile spread across his pretty face. "You couldn't have watched me without getting turned on. It'll be a friend helping out another friend. Won't you let me help?"
Was he crazy? Had to be.
Literally insane.
There was no way you were going to agree to something like that. It was basically like cheating plus just because you found him attractive didn't mean you wanted to go behind your friend's back and help her boyfriend cheat on her.
She would never in a million years forgive you if she found out.
"Eren, no I-"
"Lay down."
His voice was low and authoritative. By the blank expression on his face, it was obvious that he was being entirely serious. He wanted to help you and maybe if it was just a one time thing, could it hurt? Mikasa wasn't going to find out if it was just this once. There were many people in friendships where this sort of thing happened. It wasn't odd or abnormal. Completely normal and if he was going to guide you through video chat without physically being there and touching you — it somehow made it a little easier to get into it.
So with that in mind, you did as you were told and laid down, keeping a leg bent so that it felt less awkward.
He hummed, "Set the phone up to where I can see as much of you as possible."
You did the same thing you saw him do and used a pillow as leverage, keeping the phone perked up against it. "Okay..."
"Now," he slid a hand down his chest to his abdomen, inhaling deeply. "Play with yourself. Start slow. Your tits are usually a good start." There was a smirk in his voice and when you looked at him, it wasn't a surprise that it was there. Right on his annoyingly attractive face.
"This is so weird," you mumbled to yourself, unable to find a moment in your life where you'd ever done anything like this before. It was very new to you. To facetime someone and...touch yourself in front of them.
It was almost a little exciting.
One of your hands skimmed over a nipple, just barely nicking it.
"Oh," you breathed, feeling a tingle swim through your chest.
Eren stared at you intensely, almost too mesmerized to blink in case he missed something.
"Again, pretty girl. Over and over until the pressure in between your legs gets to be too much. Then," he palmed himself lightly, letting his thumb rub over the head of his cock. "Then, I want to hear you beg."
Your skin was hot as you pinched and twisted at your nipples through your shirt, trying to not think about Eren watching everything that you were doing and finding zero shame in it. For you, it was incredibly embarrassing but in some weird way...you liked it. You liked him guiding you and staring at you through the screen as you did so. There was no doubt in your mind that he was secretly touching himself to you and that thought made you close your legs because that gave your mind permission to think about him actually being in the same room as you.
Watching you from across the room but not touching you. Just telling you what to do.
"Eren," you moaned lowly, hoping he didn't hear it.
"Louder. Let me hear you."
Your thighs twitched as you pushed up your shirt and took your nipples back in between your fingers, imagining his mouth over them, swirling the hardened buds with his tongue and groaning about how perfect they were.
How perfect you were.
"Tell me what's on your mind. Be vocal for me. I need to know what you're thinking," he shamelessly pleaded, tugging his pants down low enough to let himself free. You heard his cock hit his abs with a faint smack and the urge to reach a hand down in between your legs almost won if you hadn't remembered what he said.
You had to beg to get permission.
You tossed your head towards the phone next to you and felt your face warm at what you were about to do. "Can I please touch myself now?"
He smirked almost instantly. "Not even going to fight it, huh?" You didn't say a word back. It was all in your eyes. "Pity. I expected more fight from you but then again," he positioned the camera in a similar position yours was in, and you saw the angry head of his cock covered with his arousal. You felt a whine bubble up in your throat at the sight. The thought of that inside of you right now...so deep...pulsating against your walls, threatening to cum from how tight you'd be around him. "Watching me earlier must've been really painful for you, huh baby?"
"Oh my god," you groaned weakly, shoving a hand down and pushing your underwear aside to press a finger against your aching clit. If this truly was a one time thing then what either of you said and thought in the moment wasn't going to matter later. It probably wasn't even going to be brought up again. That was the only way you even allowed yourself to say what you wanted to say. "I wish you were here, Eren. Using your fingers and touching me the way I'm touching myself. So bad," you whispered but it wasn't low enough for him to miss. He'd heard it all.
He gave himself a few slow pumps before smiling to himself, "Soon."
His response had missed you. You were too focused on how good it felt to relieve some of the pressure that had built up from watching him earlier. It was so painful and you were too embarrassed and nervous. It would've been wrong but he ended up knowing that you were watching all along. So maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if you'd looked at it like he had purposely put on a show for you.
Wasn't like he hadn't insinuated that he knew.
A single finger dipped past your slippery folds, easily pushing into your tight hole, going at an easy pace before picking it up. Your other hand was preoccupied with cupping one of your breasts, fingers tweaking at the supple bud sending little shockwaves throughout your body.
Eren was captivated by you. It was nothing like fucking Mikasa or even guiding her into an orgasm. No. Something about the way you moaned and touched yourself for him — it was different. He would've been lying to himself if he didn't admit that he held some sort of desire for you. To see you. To touch you himself and make you cum from his cock alone. To have you begging him to fill you up like the good little whore that you were.
By the looks of it, it didn't seem like you changed much at all.
Just a lot more gullible and needier.
"Ah," he felt his balls tense up from the pressure. He wasn't going to last much longer but he couldn't let himself come before you. That was rude. You needed to be completely satisfied before he found it acceptable.
His eyes were back on you. Your fingers were in your mouth and he could've fallen into a coma at the lewd look on your face before you shoved them back into your pretty pussy.
God, he was going to lose his fucking mind over you.
"Are you close, baby?"
You nodded, "mhm," trying to keep eye contact with him, but it was hard when all you wanted to do was get lost in the feeling with your eyes closed. "M'so close, I won't be able to hold off. I'm sorry."
He could've groaned at the way you apologized for something you could hardly control.
What were you doing to him?
"It's okay, pretty," your thighs twitched at the pet name. "This is about you."
Your body felt tingly. Like it was getting ready to soar down while on a rollercoaster. There was a tight ball of tension at the lower part of your stomach and it was hard to fight off. You'd wanted to last longer, but it was impossible with the way Eren helped you along. He'd made it so hard to hold back. Even for just a second longer.
Your hips slowly rose off of the mattress and your toes curled, feeling the intensity and pleasure all hit you at once. Your release flooded across your fingers, sticking to them like glue. Your legs were a little shaky and you took a few moments to catch your breath.
In the heat of the moment, you'd torn your eyes away from him but when you looked back, you were thankful to not miss it.
The way his abs tensed before flexing and tightening, hearing his breath quicken. One of his legs was bent up but it didn't obstruct your view. His strokes were steady and precise, going over his head each time.
"Oh my god," he moaned, biting into the pillow next to him as he pushed his hips up, fucking into his hand. He was almost there, so unbelievably close, fuck he could feel it.
Then your next set of words sent him right over the edge.
"Come for me, Eren."
His vision blurred enough for him to close his eyes, feeling his thick and creamy release coat his lean upper body. His bun was hanging onto the thin elastic band, most of his hair splayed out on the pillow behind him.
He looked a mess but you found him to be severely captivating.
There was one thing that was bothering you but you chose to not think about it. At least for now.
His hand slowed until he stopped completely, slightly shaking. He brought his hand up to his line of vision, chuckled and dropped it back on his stomach, looking at you.
"You didn't have to do that."
You felt your skin warm. "No, but I kind of remember you asking me to help you and that was me. Helping."
He sent you a lazy smile before humming, sitting up. "Yeah. You're right," he grabbed the phone with his clean hand and slid out of bed. His green eyes were back on you, almost looking through you. "Thanks, pretty girl."
"Eren," you whined, throwing a pillow right over your face to hide the shame of liking the things he called you.
He laughed, making it to the bathroom.
"Cute. You should get some rest. We'll talk tomorrow."
You pushed the cotton aside, staring at him as he cleaned up. "Promise?"
He smiled with a nod. "Of course."
Hesitantly, you believed him but not fully.
Just in case.
"M'kay. Goodnight."
"Night," he sang before hitting the 'end' button.
The screen went back to your lockscreen and you set the device to the side before looking up at the ceiling.
"What the actual fuck am I going to do now?"
There was no going back. Eren cheated on Mikasa, with you no less. How were you supposed to hang out with her knowing that you'd had a mutual masturbation session with her boyfriend? There was also the possibility that she was going to find out but not through you. No. What if she and Eren got into an argument and out of anger, he mentioned you and him? It wasn't like he hadn't done something like that before.
You couldn't put anything past him so the only card you had left to play was denying whatever he could say about you. If not that, then there was always the truth.
That would mean losing Mikasa forever and you didn't want that to happen. Ever.
It was just best to put what just happened behind you. Behind both of you.
It would've been easy to do if it was only just this once.
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