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self esteem so low i get guilt by asking my parents to pay ONLY my chem tution fee lmao.

will never understand kids who yell at their parents because they bought them iphone 11 and not iphone 14.

because mai nokia ka keypad chala rahi hu.

like some of yall had unconditional love and support from your parents who never made you feel as if you didnt deserve anything and it shows.

kyuki mere ghar pe toh har ek cheez conditional h. marks acche nahi aaye toh bahar se accha khana deserve ni karte, naye kapde deserve ni karte, doston se baat karna deserve ni karte, abey aur toh aur "tution nahi bhejenge kyuki tum education ke layak hii nahi ho" (which is what i get to hear after asking to join a tution for the first time in my life in 11th grade).

like kabhi kabar lagta h ki aisi hii zindagi honi thi toh kyu 1st se 8th tak jee jaan lagake mehnat karke hamesha full marks laayi mai? uski appreciation kabhi di nahi, vo ab ho nahi raha toh sunne ko bhot milta h. saala uss time ye sab chodhke thoda jee hii liya hota, atleast life ka ek part toh khushi se nikalta. ab lag raha h 16 saal ki zindagi toh barbad hii kardi maine. uss time ki mehnat ab matter ni karti, par ab mehnat ho nahi rahi h.

it just...gets unbearable to watch other people living their life after a while ya know? like you look at people who are going out, having fun with their friends, doing what they love, having good relationships with their family, and just, like their problems are so much different? they may not have their life together either, but you envy them because you don't have the privilege to do the same as them, because you know you're the one to blame for the subjects you chose, the life you chose. you see them actually living, and realise that youre still stuck in a loop, waiting for your life to begin, as you have for as long as you have been alive.

a couple days back one of my friends adopted a dog and i had a breakdown over it because....ye toh mai bhi deserve karti hu na yaar. mujhe kab milega ye? kabhi milega bhi? abhi tak toh nahi mila. aur ab toh milne ke chances bhi itne kam hain kyuki dena mujhe JEE h.

you can't help but feel hopeless.

pehle lagta tha jab kuch bhi sahi nahi tha ki....koi nahi, atleast academics ho raha h. atleast acche dost hain ab bhi. atleast ek acche future ka prospect h.

and then you lose it all. nothing to comfort you. nothing to make you feel as if atleast one thing in your life is going right, because it isn't. because your life is just one huge black hole now sucking away your happiness, your sense of identity. mujhe khud nahi pata mai kon hu. ab toh dost bhi chutne lage hain.

like, outwardly yes ill work hard and get out of this, but what then? people say "it's just 2 years uske baad sab bhot easy hoga" but what they don't understand is that it's not just 2 years. ive worked hard my entire life, and im sick of the constant guilt, constant expectations, constant pressure. i dont know if i have it in myself to hold on for 2 years more.

fir agar tumhare coping mechanisms maladaptive daydreaming and internet addiction h then toh hogya bas tumhara.

i could go on for a millennia with this rant. abhi toh family trauma bhi touch nahi kiya h. but then that will just be another proof of "yes, here's another thing going wrong in your life"

like, i have to remind myself each day that i dont have anything to be shameful about, i dont have anything that i dont deserve. love shouldnt be conditional. support shouldnt be conditional. especially if love and support are from your family and if they are based on a handful of figures.

like if at this point if i go and start doing drugs and alcohol to get some relief then can my parents blame me? but i cant do that, because guilt!

when will this end? i just wanna sleep.

par sone ke liye 5 min shanti se letna padta h and mai apne khudke thoughts tolerate kar paane ki ability kho chuki hu.

Ek passionate BJ toh mai bhi deserve krta hu...!

Yeh make out kaha milta hai thoda sa chaiye tha

Brown moms have such weird relationships with their sons, like what do you mean his girlfriend stole your son away from you? What are you his wife? That is a grown ass man, he can make his own decisions.

I see the way my mom treats my cousin brothers, shows them more affection than their own moms and more than she’s ever shown me.

Ain’t no way my friends just asked me to ask my parents for a sleepover, LIKE ME. IM INDIAN, DO THEY NOT KNOW THIS

I feel like my family gets internal joy from pissing me off

Fr :(( … I developed the habit of hatin’ the present & glorifyin’ the past… hopin’ to change it…. :/

MY SOUL AFTER REACHIN’ 40kmph IN THE PARTICULAR ROAD WHICH ACCURATELY DEPICTS THE MARS PLANET ….. (*_*) :

TODAY’S SUMMARY :

Woke up around 8:45 am

Self caring habits ( like brushin’ , bathin’ ) went around for 40 mins…..

Had dosa chutney as breakfast @ 9:30 am

Spoke to my parents for abt 30 mins & to my relative for about 15 mins….

Spent time on youtube watchin’ goofy memes kinda video & scrolled Tumblr watching desi spilled writings, memes , aesthetic images (for almost 3 hrs)…..

Planned to go to a religious place @ evening…

Ate lunch @ 1:10 pm ( rice with chicken gravy)

Scrolled Tumblr , youtube, instagram watchin’ similar content ( about 10 mins) for almost 3 hrs….

Ate fruit ( mango) @ 4:00 pm…

Plan cancelled suddenly because my relative found it difficult to go today suddenly …..

Scrolled youtube , tumblr watchin’ similar content for like 3 hrs….

Ate dinner ( chappathi with chicken gravy) @ 7: 15 pm…

Scrolled YouTube, Tumblr watchin’ similar content for 2 hrs….

Realised that I could not even get a person with whom I can rant

Watched tv for more than 1 hour……

Now writing this post in tumblr for about 10 mins … timings I mentioned are approximate (not accurate) & after this post is posted I’m watchin’ insta rn

If this post bored you more,then I am happy that I conveyed you the primary feelin’ I got durin’ this day in about a few mins in the most practical way……Thank You….

Worst assumption guyzz.. :)

The urge to punch my own face because of my constant struggle with my chashma 🤏

Like lemme look pretty for once ffs!!!!!

So I was travelling back to hostel and was sitting beside this girl. 3 hours into the journey I had my earphones on and she turned towards me with a maaza in her hands.

I thought she was offering me her drink or a sip out of courtesy. So I nodded my head no telling her I don't want to drink it.

But she she kept pushing it towards me and said something. So I removed my earphones and she said "please ise khol dena "

She wasn't offering me her drink y'all 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

She was asking me to OPEN IT💀👍

I was red with embarrassment somehow opened it for her

I still want to dig a hole and crawl into it.

Baithe bithae bezzati ho gayi bhai!

I am going on a hike tomorrow which I specifically asked for like almost forced people to come along 🤏🤏

And I woke up dizzy today , I think my BP is low and I kinda want to bail out now because I feel well dizzy and weak.

But I can't they'll end me 😔🤝

Prayers and tips are accepted here

Update: I somehow made it through😭

Why the concept of guys wearing glasses is romantisized ?

While girls in glasses are called nerds!?

Somebody please knock some sense into me so that I start writing my thesis.

Ya to mujhme likhne ki himmat aajae ya fir koi dev manushaya mere liye likh de ffs😭🤏