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Ohh my gosh, all of this.

"just a me thing" was my excuse for everything

don't remember yesterday? forgot to eat? randomly got anxious without a clear trigger? forgot our bff's name? feel disconnected from everyone around me? can't remember my name? suddenly like foods that'd normally make me sick? desire to change gender and name change after stress? age regress and forget what happened when i regressed? randomly behave like a completely different person? have panic attacks after our ex had breakdowns and switched themselves (and then forget later)?

"Haha, sorry. It's just a me thing" I'd say with a smile.

Oh, how wrong I was.... that was an ✨ us ✨thing.

Overcompensation is a massive thing; especially when it came to friend interactions. There are pages and pages of notes where I'd leave reminders for later because 'haha, I'm super forgetful, oopsie! 😅' and the kinds of things were so mundane, like reminding myself I'd already put the rubbish out, or fed the cat or had my medication bc otherwise I wouldn't know it had been done in 1-2 hours.

Frankly, my dual autism and ADHD diagnosis the month before my 17th birthday didn't help — I had a new reason to say I was forgetting things. Without addressing all the underlying disassociation, depersonalisation, derealisation, blacking out/waking up and hearing voices, I could grin and say 'sorry, it's just the ADHD, lemme write that down or I'll forget'. The psych who did the assessment didn't go into trauma stuff and bc me being an oblivious dumbass host, I didn't remember anything and the only way she could explain the symptoms I experienced were AuDHD. I do think the diagnosis was correct though, I've always been autistic and ADHD, which worsened my trauma, just.. didn't have the words nor the memories to give her context for why I got angry and irritable at loud noises, panicked when someone touched my shoulders etc... the context I had was AuDHD.

;-;

thanks to the parts for that lil challenge.

A lot of people think "Wouldn't you easily notice if you had DID?" and even without accounting for amnesia, it's probably harder than you'd think.

Since DID is formed in development and prevents the integration of your personality, you have never lived as a singlet. You have no idea what it's like. Your symptoms are just generally "your normal", as well.

People can also naturally accommodate their own symptoms without realizing by simple trial and error. I used to write my math notes in heavy, near-excessive detail, since I knew there was a chance I wouldn't understand what I meant later.

Finally, a lot of people pre-realization just write off DID symptoms as "just a me thing" or a quirk.