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I don't get how systems can accept themselves so easy

When we got our medical recognition when we were like 14 years old I enter in a horrible denial and it took me like 2 years to finally accept I had DID

In those 2 years my amnesiac barriers got worst thanks to the panic and denial of the psychiatrist telling us the most probable thing is that we have DID but he needed more time to get the final diagnosis, we search a lot of CDD in those times and was a horrible process

I genuinely don't get how some self diagnose systems accept it so easy, for us was a horrible 2 years denial and investigation, and we don't finish accepting the complete idea now, damn

I'm curious, do you have a "verse" in your system?

Explanation: A verse is when you have multiple alters from the same source and/or are classified as similar or the same; it's not always about introjects cause we have brainmades who are a verse

We have like 10 verses lol

Brain doesn't have budget to make original ideas /j

I'm gonna take me and my verse as an example, I'm a brainmade formed long time ago, at some point a "new me" was formed thanks to a problem, altough this "new me" share name with me and some likes and things like that he was his own brainmade alter that just had similarity in name and personality wise

This is also an interesting topic that I'm willing to explain more regarding labels, we personally don't like autojects as a label (introject of someone who already is in the sys) and so we call them brainmades

Hope this explains a little bit the question

I'm curious, do you have a "verse" in your system?

Explanation: A verse is when you have multiple alters from the same source and/or are classified as similar or the same; it's not always about introjects cause we have brainmades who are a verse

We have like 10 verses lol

Brain doesn't have budget to make original ideas /j

Guys this is a good reminder that not because someone is a system they'll understand you better than a singlet

We say this because we had a horrible problem irl regarding a shitty person, when that was happening we were friends with two systems that we know personally irl, and they were kinda involved in that problem because they were my friends

My singlet friend was more supporting and considerate than the two systems, and in the end those two systems didn't understand at all the suffering we were going trough although they have expirienced similar things (when they were in those problems we helped them and stayed with them) and in the first sign that we were at the edge they abandoned us and cut friendship, the only one that sayed by our side and understood us was our singlet friend

So this bad experience we had can be taken as a learning for all the systems out there, not because some is a system they will understand you better

Stop treating Simply Plural as a system social media app, it's not

And worst if you put a lot and detail information about you, your system and alters, that can be very dangerous for your integrity

Is ok wanting to have more friends and see other's people systems and alters, but you really have to be careful to who you give your simply plural, people online can be shitty some times and you don't know what will they do with your information

So please, don't use Simply Plural as a social media app, and also don't ask for a chat between systems function, that could be very dangerous for systems

If you're gonna pass your Simply Plural make sure you know the person you're giving it

Gonna be honest with you

CDD community is shitty 98% of the time and systems don't help to make it a better place but worst

Thx for reading

I like how some systems have their own singletsona online that basically is a drawing of the body or how they wanna look

But everytime that I see an avatar singlet sona they're alway pretty human-like, or if they're non-human they look like an elf or something that's enough human like, and I mean, there's nothing wrong with that, after all systems can present themselves as a whole however the heck they want, but I want to see more non-human avatar singletsonas

So in the same topic here, I present a full body drawing of our avatar singletsona :D

When you think about us think about this

That's us irl /j

Also if you pay enough attention you'll see our pfp is a drawing of our singletsona, it was originally a gif, but it was to big to put the gis as a pfp, so bonus point, here's the gif

And if you have an avatar singletsona and you're willing to share, please repost this with yours, I will love to see them!! /nf

Syscord/Systok sucks and I don't care anymore about them, I'm fucking done with the bullshit is there

Thinking I would find some good community (I'm always aware community spaces aren't completely safe, but I know some non-safe spaces that are good spaces to) I ended up in a shitty place

Syscord and Systok are one of the worst things the CDD community has to offer, and I'm telling it as someone who was in both the spanish and english syscord/systok community, they're shitty

We have a lot of fucking and horrible personal experiences with them, and also we have seen a lot of things and many problems, it's fucking toxic and taking something good is difficult as hell

You want a tip? Don't be part of syscord nor systok

My personal hot take

The CDD community is so focused in the alters part of the dissorder that it became bullshit and some kind of annoying, the community ignoring all the things outside alters and trauma is the reason why CDD community can't be taken seriously by CDD systems that don't care about glorifying and making pretty the disorder

Sometimes I don't know who's mos toxic

Fakeclaimers or the CDD community with itself

I find so interesting how many times you don't get the proper credit just because you're an alter in a system

Like you do something but other alter, normally the host, takes the credit of that thing you did, and because you all share body you can't say nothing, and if you do people would say "well is a collective thing" so you don't get the proper credit

Sometimes is funny, sometimes is sad, sometimes is frustrating, but at the end you learn how to accept it as your fate

Little answer to this questions!!

First question "What things do you think the CDD community should change because it can be harmful?"

I'll say almost everything, yeah, that fucked up is the CDD community, the fights, drama, immature people, there's a lot of shit going on. And when we get to the CDD part of the CDD community like 95% of the time is just alter talking and ignoring all the other things and symptoms surrounding the disorders

Like half of the bad things and shitty things that happens to the CDD community that isn't directly a thing made by and for them in terms of harm it's, almost all the time, something they search for or an indirect result of their actions

Pretty shitty and fucked up in my opinion

First question part 2 "Do you think there's something that is important but ignored by it (The CDD community)?"

Yeah, pretty much all the things that doesn't involve alters and mentioning CDD is because of trauma

CDD community, just to let you known not everything around CDD is alters

[Special cut out, depends on the mood and later reaction to this post, maybe this first to questions are gonna be removed and put out in another sideblog, just to clarify]

Third question "Why are you all gays? /pf"

Cause being a basic straight cis is boring /pf

Fourth question "What's your opinion about the short time you have been blogging here?"

Pretty mixed tbh, the fist encounters and the mini drama that happened with endos was very annoying, but we didn't mind it that much outside the laughs

Also I'm surprised how I get noticed so fast in a short period of time, yeah ik I don't have a big name or I'm recognized but it's a pretty big jump go from nothing to almost 40 followers just in one of our blogs (This one)

Thx bro for asking us things when we asked lol /p

Online CDD system challenge, make a post or talk about something about CDD that doesn't involve:

Alter or alter mentioning

Trauma as the way of developing the dissorder

Basic dissociation rambling that even singlets know

Idk man, I'm bored and this community doesn't seem to understand and talk about what CDD is

It's so weird when your not the host but someone new at front and people assuming you're the host just because we share personalities

Bonus points if you believe them because you don't fucking care till you care and you're left wondering "Who tf am I?" without an answer

Did I just use Tumblr to say I'm a new formed alter and people assumed I was the hoste? Yeah pretty much

Constantly using system to describe ourselves buy hating that term for ourselves is a dialy fight

*Talks with someone*

*They mention a specific topic/do a specific question*

*You unlock a memory (might be good, bad or traumatic)*

*You verbalize that memory*

*You and that person talk about that memory*

*You two jump into another topic/finish the conversation*

*You forget the memory you just unlock*

*You immediately forget that you had that talk so you also forget you had that memory*

*Circle repeats*

Hating our brain and how it works

When I'm in a crisis that might put the body in a terrible danger they leave me alone in fronte

But when minor stress we switch

Brain I don't understand you at all /neg

It's so strange that the brains works like

"Yeah let's make this horrible and triggering allter front to make us have a random PTSD attack"

and then the brain realize that's hurting us in every way and so it wents like

"Let's bring a whole group of triggered alters to front and cope with this till we dissociate, not stop it, just make it worst till we dissociate"

Fucking brain

Actually yes, at least for what I been reading about introjecting in general psychological context and introjecting in OSDDID context I can say it is because of that

Some definitions easy to find in google about introjection in non-OSDDID context are:

The unconscious adoption of the thoughts or personality traits of others. It occurs as a normal part of development, such as a child taking on parental values and attitudes.

Introjection, one of many defense mechanisms posited by Sigmund Freud, occurs when a person internalizes the ideas or voices of other people. Some mental health professionals believe that introjection is a protective strategy that children employ in order to cope with unavailable parents or guardians: By unconsciously absorbing the characteristics of parents, children reassure themselves that some aspect of the parent is present even if the parent is physically absent. Depending on the types of attitudes that are picked up, introjection may lead to positive or negative effects.

So yeah, introjecting is a coping mechanism of the brain, when you get fixated in some show or media you tend to mimic and introject parts of the media in yourself as a way to understand, act and cope with the external world

If this mimicking and helping is seen as something that is needed for the brain is normal for the brain to make introjects

Basically I just expanded a little bit about how this works, I lazy to do a better explanation lol

I wonder if people who are autistic and have OSDDID are more likely to have introjects because it's so common for singlet autistic people to mimic/mirror others behaviors

If we did alter intros for some of the frequent fronters and me, the host, would y'all read it??