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don’t say we’re “just friends”
we aren’t “just friends.” we’re friends. period. full stop. they have seen me laugh, they have seen me cry. they know the difference between the real and fake smiles. they know me better than anyone else. so no, we are not “just friends.” because they are not, and never will be, “just”
sometimes i think about how much more i'd communicate about my feelings if i didn't start fuckign crying the moment i start talking about them. sobbing
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I started drawing this on Monday and it rotted on my laptop until now so it's really clear where I stopped and started again lol
May or may not qualify as a vent ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Okay so, Making lore is hard for my ADHD/Autistic ass. Because while I have it all planned out in my head, for the love of goddamn cake I can’t write it out or draw it out. Like at all, I’ve been trying to get the ideas and all that out- I get distracted by everything. One moment I’m working on a drawing then the next, I’m watching old videos from YouTubers I once watched in my younger years THEN I SWITCH OVER TO MUSIC TO TRY GET BACK INTO DRAWING BUT I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE, SPENDING TIME TO MESS WITH MY HAIR AND CLOTHING TILL I GO “Oh shit I’m supposed to be drawing” BUT NOPE, NOW I’M ON PINTEREST LOOKING AT PROMPTS, FANART, CATS, ETC. Then a week later I finally get my shit together and finish the fucking drawing. Holy fuck. It even happens during conversations, I can be chatting or Roleplaying but then I get distracted out of the blue and focus on that thing, suddenly now going back and forth from talking to switching the music to fit my mind scenarios then to staring at nothing as I lose grip on reality… Ughhh.
Me:Alright lets try and pot something funny and relatable with your ships and fandoms that you like.
My crippling anxiety and intrusive thoughts: Okay but what if.....
me: *hugs my cats*
my cats: *scratch me*
me: is this what love feels like?
why is it so rare for a photo of me to look good when it’s taken on my mum’s phone!?