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lost my appetite completely since last Thursday, it's day 6 of my streak and I'm feeling great :3

i've been so inactive lately, schoolwork is just too much to handle rn and I sleep 24/7 so I don't get to do anything..

..including to eat!!

yea I had a wonderful streak the last week which I'm actually very proud of so I'll continue !! <3

girlies I can girlblog from now on, my laptop is finally fixed and I will be lying in my bed the whole night reading silly posts and kicking my feet while observing wl motivation:3

https://www.wattpad.com/story/375609326?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create_preview&wp_uname=littlereader2024

Wl story on Wattpad

No pressure to read

i had a quick first read and I love it, I feel like it will motivate me a lot thank you a lot<33

I DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT ANA SHE'S THE ONLY ONE I HAVE

my plans for the rest of the week <3

so today I fucked up a little but that's alright, I always come back (action movie ahh sentence lmao)

tomorrow: OMAD (I have to go to a restaurant but I'll opt for low cal :3)

thursday: learning a shit ton to be better at school, yoga class in the evening, 2 meals, 500 max

friday: I go to school + work = good distraction for fasting for as long as I can

saturday: I'll work 10 hours but I can't forget to workout so OMAD

sunday: 800 cals max!!

next week's prediction (or manifestation)

monday: whole day at school, driving lesson afternoon so OMAD 300

tuesday: fasting

wednesday: long school day, workout, OMAD 400

thurday: looooong school day, driving lesson so I must cancel my yoga lesson :(( OMAD 400

friday: GIRL IN RED CONCERT + school, 600 max.

saturday: whole day work, 2 meals, 500 max

sunday: 900 cals max

cals 04.09. 🎀

did OMAD today, I carefully researched the calories and calculated everything but the reataurant ended up being closer so I overestimated :3

dinner: 700 cals

i had a coke zero and tortellini and it was sooo good but halfway through I felt like vomiting, I didn't tho because I went with a friend who knows a lot about my ed so I wanted him to see that I "recover" now

☄️You’re facing a lot right now, and it’s okay to feel like it’s all too much. Life can be unbelievably overwhelming and painful, and it’s understandable that you’re struggling. You matter, and even when life feels heavy, your existence holds immense value. You’re not defined by the tough times; you’re defined by the courage you keep showing in facing them. Keep moving forward, even if it’s just one small step at a time. Even if you have to take a moment to pause. Even if you fall backwards. I believe and care about you☄️

I am soo close to crying rn thank you ;-; <3 honestly it's been a tough school start and I shouldn't be complaining, others have it worse but still thank you for your kind words, tysmmmmm you're such a kind person <33

until the skinny jeans become loose fit jeans ๋࣭⭑ֶֶֶָָָ֢֢֢𖹭

I'm sitting here with my male colleague, while he is devouring a huge meat plate I sit here with an apple.

I am bigger than him.

I hate myself.

Anyways, that's enough hate against myself today, I lost 2 kgs!!! I will be skinny and dainty and petite if I keep up like that!!!!

just came home from a 10 hour shift as a part time cashier next to school.. I'm soooo tired and if I have been born only 2 months earlier I would have been done with german high school (Abitur for those who know) and I would be studying my passion rn.

Anyways this busy schedule kept me from binging tho, I tend to binge more when I have free time so a win is a win??

I ate under 1000 calories the whole time in school now, maybe I'll eat 1200 cals tomorrow for metab who knows :3

But at the same time I don't want to lose my streak with staying under 1000 chat send help

does someone know any words to search up on instagram for €d content??

would appreciate it <33

it's currently 1.30 a.m in Germany rn, I was organizing some pinterest boards when I felt like a failure while looking at my vision board for the future lol. There were soooo many study motivation, th!nsp00, and career motivation pics on it, I felt guilty for not acting like I should so I got a headache and went to the kitchen to drink some water.

Now here it starts: I go down, remember we have leftover food and eat it, even though my streak was soooo good!! Then I felt worse and binged on sweets?!!?!?

I feel horrible rn but technically it's okay for me to do that little binge if I treat sunday as a normal day, not a metab day..

So I will heavily restrict when I wake up and do lots of sports to make up for it and lose a few kgs until next week :33

today was a fruit, snack-ish kind of day to prevent binging and it worked SO well omg.

I think I'll change it to a veggy + protein day tomorrow tho because I don't want my muscles to vanish :3

cals: 967 (didn't binge tho so that's good!!!)

burned: 287 (not much as usual but I'm having trouble sleeping these days so I physically cannot do anything, it's either school workload or physical workout :( )

total: 680

having a mental breakdown, thinking about ending it all lmao (dw I won't do that I'm too afraid of death and missed opportunities but still)

Well on the other hand, crying makes me tired so maybe I'll sleep more than my average 3-4 hours :3

my teacher is somehow really annoyed but the class just started so it couldn't be us but it makes me and my stomach upset..

guess I won't be able to eat now tho wohoooo

edtwt is so confusing and wild ngl

guys I'll try BED recovery again.. see you soon if I don't succeed <33

Looking at The Bigger Picture (Genesis 29:14 – 30)

 Hey Cortana, (I’m still thinking of a name)

And yes Cortana is a virtual assistant created by Microsoft that helps get things done. I consider her as my laptop buddy, hence it’s her I address my daily thoughts and write-ups to. Why Cortana? That is for another write-up.

Today my Quiet Time took me to the well-known Bible story on Jacob’s love for Rachel and how he tolerantly worked in total for 14 years to marry her. Seeing how Laban betrayed him, I trust he was not an easy man to work with. 7 years of labouring plus an added 7 years, now that is a long time and I was here gasping aww. Now, this is love and how disappointed he must have felt. (I’m sure Jacob would be singing Ed Sheeran’s song Perfect if he was in the 21st Century)

But today I saw a different meaning to the story for which I am thankful for. The agony Leah must have gone through. Staying married to a man who you KNOW does not love you. The anguish and the pain of continuously trying to let him notice you so you bear him sons and still to no avail. She must have really been affected by it and it was a difficult time for her. Being the older sister and knowing your husband favours the younger one the most. Leah had weak eyes so I’m guessing she was not exactly beautiful since Rachel is described as having a lovely figure and was beautiful. (If Leah had her way, she would be singing Eminem’s Love the way you lie featuring Rihanna)

Leah bore Jacob four sons. Reuben, Simeon, Levi and Judah. With her first three sons, she focused more on her pain and her effort to still win her husband’s attention. She chose the name Reuben “because the Lord has seen my misery. Surely my husband will love me now”. The second born she chose Simeon, “because the Lord heard that I am not loved, he gave me this one too”. And then came Levi, “now, at last, my husband will become attached to me, because I have borne him three sons”. I noticed that her sons were an end to win Jacob’s heart but my favourite one among them all and what caught my attention was Judah! Judah means, “This time I will praise the Lord.” Mind you, I burst out laughing when I read that part of the Bible, that Leah had realized, finally it is all about God and Jacob didn’t count.

The story makes me more thrilled that eventually, it was Judah’s lineage (Leah’s son) that Jesus, our Messiah came from and oh one of my unprecedented favourite people in the Bible David also came from. Another part that warms my heart is in verse 41 when God saw that Leah was not loved, He enabled her to conceive. No matter what we go through and the circumstances we face, although it sounds very far fetched, believe me, God knows. We might not feel Him working, but He is. Who would have thought the woman who was not loved, will be the one whose lineage our Saviour will come from? It tarries most times, trust me I know what I am talking about, but His eyes are on the sparrow and He watches us. He knows our misery, where our tongues fail, and we do not know what to say, He knows our hearts.

Whenever it feels tough, praise Him and be thankful. Whenever we feel like giving up, tell Him “Lord I still know the plans you have for me, it is difficult now, but I know your masterplan is the best. In the end, Praise Him.”

PS: In the end, it was Leah who Jacob honoured and buried in the family grave plot with Abraham and Sarah. God will lift us up in the end.