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Christmas in June!

Yesterday, a rather large package from Japan arrived, thanks to Buyee. Opening it made me feel like a kid during Christmas morning, even if I knew what was waiting inside. Mail days like this really help keep me going. Especially, with the arm pain I've been enduring and the mental stress Rodney's worsening dementia is putting me under. I do plan to have this blog be more active. It's just the issue going on with my arm, is making it rather difficult to type and sit in front of the PC for long. I've been seeing a Chiropractor 3 times a week, as what is happening with my body, is on the borderline of needing surgery. They would have to fuse two vertebrae in my neck. A disc in my neck has thinned badly, this has caused one of my vertebrae to shift and pinch a main nerve that runs down my left arm. I've been in horrific pain for a month now, some nights getting little to no sleep. Don't ask me how I have not lost my marbles by now?! One day, I was so close to just giving up. Then I opened a box of One Piece cards I received. Out of the first couple packs, I kid you not, I pulled two different cards of Buggy! Yes, a silly as it sounds, a certain pirate clown helps to keep me going.

I was doing something for like, two seconds and I forgot I existed

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I am a fiend and denegerate trapped inside a dainty little body and I strongly resent this fact.

I WANNA BE A NATURE SPIRIT AND JUST LIVE SHIPPING CHARACTERS AND SLEEPING UNDER STARS! I FORSAKE THIS PRISON OF MORTAL FLESH.

LET ME FERALLY FIEND FOR THE HAPPINESS IN ROMANCE OTHERS DESERVE SINCE IM TOO MUCH OF A HERMIT TO ACHIEVE IT MYSELF IN PEACE.

That feeling when your family asks about books you have in the making yet you don’t want to tell them about any of them