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Broke down this afternoon.
I'm trying so hard to think positively, to let go, to accept that things are over, to accept that he have moved on, to accept that we weren't right for each other, that love wasn't enough to hold us together, to accept that there is no longer an "us". To accept that is chapter of my life is over, it's over because we weren't compatible, accepting that he's no longer living in the same state, accepting that I will no longer speak to him nor ever see him again.
I'm reading self help books, listening to meditation and self motivation podcasts, watching Ted talks about changing your negative thoughts to positive thoughts. Being mindfulness, changing your mindset.
I'm doing all this shit yet I still feel like shit!! I hate these feelings, I don't feel like myself. I wished I didn't find out, I wish he wasn't a coward and a liar. I wished he was man enough to have told me. I wished he wasn't so petty to flaunt his new bitch in my face. I hate how things have turned out. I hate him and his fucking new relationship. I hate him for being the little bitch that he is. I hate that he's so immature and a man child. Fuck I hate how he doesn't care or give a shit about the hurt and pain he has caused me. I hate that he get to move on and fuck some 20 year bitch!!!
AAAAHHHHHHHH!! 😡😡😡😡
i can totally see mihawk hating being called 'hawk eyes mihawk' instead of 'dracule mihawk' or just 'hawk eyes' he totally complains to shanks like "it feels redundant and silly. it makes me sound ridiculous. i'm a serious man, this is just absurd," every single time he's in the news or gets a new bounty and they smash all his names together. shanks just laughs and says "actually it's totally badass, which you are. you're the coolest!" and mihawk's secretly pleased but still all pouty like "you're a child. you would think it is" and shanks just laughs and kisses him on the forehead
Other stuff I’m thinking about that’s funny to me but probably not to the rest of you:
Danzo doing something to upset genin Naruto, and Naruto pranking Danzo in a way that’s actually really terrifying, like sneaking into his house completely undetected, leaving behind “blood” on the walls that calls out Danzo’s past sins (his sins being whatever he did to upset Naruto, but considering all the shit Danzo’s done, he’s become convinced it’s vengeful ghosts), getting into Danzo’s secret stuff that was supposed to be untouchable, etc
This whole thing ends up getting to Danzo (especially after Naruto fucks with the hokage monument to mess with Danzo, accidentally convincing him that Tobirama, who Danzo looks up to, is disgusted by what he’s done) and he has a bit of a breakdown and confesses to all of his sins pretty early on in canon
Everyone else who hears about what he’s done and what made him crack are all also low key convinced it was vengeful ghosts who’ve had enough of him, Naruto just stays really quiet cause he had no idea this would be the outcome, he just wanted apology ramen
The line 1:32 into "Lotta True Crime" By Penelope Scott reminds me a lot of if Jay was talking about Nadakhan after Skybound.
"Jay could've killed him.
He had every right.
He just caught him off guard that night."
Gege is giving you so much plot armor and protection😡😡
Looks at canon: Mahito is smiling in glee at his crimes
In my fanfic: Oh you are going to enter a world of pain Mahito😈😈😈
He's having such a good time!
he feels relief wash over him, his sheer panic melting into some thing of hope. for the first time in weeks, with feyre by his side — rhysand can start to see the light at the end of this tunnel. it leaves him wondering why he deprived himself of this to begin with. the curse breaker, the defender of the rainbow ... his friend, his mate. any impossible hurdle in their way, feyre has jumped over time & time again, making it look easy. in her short life, she has already stared death in the eyes too many times to count. she has always figured out a way to survive, despite any obstacle. feyre was a survivor. & she's saved him, far more times than he ever could her.
rhysand hadn't realized just how much he needed that: her strength, her willingness to stay such a pillar of unrelenting power. unbreakable, never giving up. even when everything else around her is crumbling. her confidence, stern & commanding, is exactly what he has been missing. the only thing keeping him from breaking. feyre's done more in these few seconds to assure him of their survival, more than he could provide in the weeks that he's had to prepare for this. it's another painful reminder that he doesn't deserve her, yet she still stands by him. even through this. for that — he will always be grateful.
lips part to object nesta's return, though the fire in her gaze reminds him he's in no position to negotiate. the high lord only nods, moving to carefully tuck a strand of hair behind her ear. his hand trails to reach feyre's stomach, the movement of their baby all it takes for his tears to finally break free. a reminder of what this is all for. " you have my word. " rhysand's words are clear, packed with such fierce conviction. he glances down at his hand, clearing the lump in his throat. a poor attempt at humor. " am i sworn to the couch, or may i use one of the many guest rooms? "
“ i don’t despise you, ” i rasped, staring down at our hands, the crippling realization of what it would mean to let go or pull away again suddenly incomprehensible — knowing that no amount of hurt or anger could ever truly outweigh my need for him. especially in a moment like this, the looming threat of time and distance hanging in the air. the urgency and desperation in his voice tore me apart, as it echoed throughout my soul. i could barely stand the thought of furthering his torment. i glanced towards the newest mark on my arm, that represented our final bargain. a pact to leave this world together when the time came — a promise to never leave the other's side. a rash deterrent made out of fear and love, with little mind paid to the consequences. an oath to ensure we both continued to live out long and fulfilling lives ; we never in a million years thought it would come to this. a sudden and brutal end, with so much at stake and so many at risk of being left behind.
we're running out of time. now i was the one who wanted to fall to my knees — it took every ounce of mastery and self-control that i had to remain upright. all of my strength came from our son, as i reminded myself that he could feel everything i did through a bond more eternal and profound than even the one i shared with rhys. he needed me, they both did, just as i needed them. i did not want our child to know dread and fury as we did — to be consumed by the same terrors and resentments i had been. he would never want for anything — not a second would pass where he didn't know how safe and loved he was. how his parents fought for him through the bitter end, just as they had fought for each other.
it was for nyx’s sake, that i considered his father’s plea. i was not ready to forgive rhysand, but i could not do this without him. i would not give up, but if it was true and our fate was inevitable, and i wasted the time we had left . . . i swallowed, before my voice turned more even and stern — that of a high lady who knew which battles were worth fighting, “ you may sleep downstairs until i say otherwise. ” my free hand grasped his chin, ensuring he looked at me, as i fiercely held his gaze. “ we will get through this together, and you will follow my lead. first, we will bring my sister back and then you will keep your promise and spend the rest of our lives making it up to me. ”
whenever i make a post talking about how much i love the mormonts, please know that i am never including jorah. fuck that guy lmao
Hating Gojo Satoru makes him 10x more obnoxious because you could spit on him and he’d not only catch it in his mouth, but swallow it too.
Controversial opinions.
I do not like him, he’s been given a redemption arc and people are starting to like him. Yes, o get that.
But as an abuse victim and survivor of childhood abuse from my father, I cannot like him. I hate him for that.