I Love My Inmate - Tumblr Posts
CHANGES
I don't think like I used to
Love was never my friend
Isolation was an answer
Losing my mind, I guess
Hijacked, robbed of my control
Empty mind, you can knock, nobodys home
Learned you quickly, I hated to see you go
You gave me a love I have never known
You are tangled into my soul
With you I’m safe, your arms feel like home
What I hate the most is you’re really gone
So my heart is locked up & you have the master key
Which means until they let you go, I’ll never be free
And sometimes your absence haunts me
Feels like I’m coming apart at the seams
A little dramatic? Maybe
But I can’t help what you do to me
Fuck being sad, I feel incomplete
Tell me how to stay alive with half a heartbeat
So many miles and hours left to see
Far apart, years between
The ones I love the most I never get to keep
Promise me one thing
When you come back
Please don’t ever leave
10.02.2023
3:07 A.M.
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UNEXPECTED
You take up all the space in my memory
If I’m not with you, you’re in my daydreams
God knows how I fell in love so fast; I'll never understand why
Wish I wasn’t so shy, or I would’ve told you when I saw you the very first time
That when you looked at me, I saw my soul inside your eyes
Was it serendipity? Finally the right time?
Falling for you was different; it was like I could fly
I’m so thankful your path crossed mine
Even if you’re gone, these memories keep our love alive
I just wanted you to know that you’re always on my mind
And while I wasn’t yours and you weren’t mine
I’ve never felt so safe with anyone else in my life
You were an enigma — the strong, silent type
Like you were “once bitten & twice shy”
You were afraid of me, for whatever reason why
Maybe someone lied to you one too many times?
Or did you make a bet with love but it dropped you on a dime?
I know it seems impossible to trust when you’ve been traumatized
But my love is different; it’s patient, it’s real, it’s kind
A life full of pain that you hide behind a smile
But I could see the hurt, it was hidden in your eyes
And I know that I can’t fix you, so I won’t ever try
Instead I’ll love you just as you are — even if you think you’re fucked up, to me you’re just fine
And I promise these things, for the rest of my life:
I’ll have your back, your front, & your side
If you’re ever too weak to stand, I’ll lend you my spine
If a war starts inside your head, I’ll give you peace of mind
If your heart ever stops beating, I’ll shock it back to life
Your wings might be broken now, but I can’t wait to see you fly
No matter the distance and no matter the time
I’ll always, always love you beyond ANY reason why
05.30.2024
4:41 P.M.