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“The degree of civilization in a society can be judged by entering its prisons.”
- Fyodor Dostoevsky, “The House of the Dead”
CINDER BLOCK ON MY CHEST
In the dead of night, usually around 3AM
My head is spinning with thoughts of everything we did
And all of the words I wish I could’ve said — but I didn’t
Then feel like I can’t breathe, the guilt sinks too far in
I wish I could just ask you,
What could I have done to make you stay?
I thought I could change your fate
But the debt was just too much to pay
And as much as I hate to say
It’s just a little too long, I tried to wait
All of these years
Now it’s just too late
08.09.2023
4:10 A.M.
IDOC
People say stay away from you
& I tell them to fuck off
Let them talk & let them judge
I’m a fool for your love & irs just the two of us
Take a chance roll the dice,
Life ain’t fair & love don’t play nice
But me and you, you & I
As long as I got your heart, you can have mine
Space & distance don’t factor in
And I forgot about all the time you gotta spend
Away from me — locks & bars & keys
Miles apart but I still know your heartbeat
Think of me instead of the concrete
Go to sleep, sweet dreams
And when the sun comes up again, you’ll be one day closer to me
10.02.2023
1:56 A.M.
⏳
CHANGES
I don't think like I used to
Love was never my friend
Isolation was an answer
Losing my mind, I guess
Hijacked, robbed of my control
Empty mind, you can knock, nobodys home
Learned you quickly, I hated to see you go
You gave me a love I have never known
You are tangled into my soul
With you I’m safe, your arms feel like home
What I hate the most is you’re really gone
So my heart is locked up & you have the master key
Which means until they let you go, I’ll never be free
And sometimes your absence haunts me
Feels like I’m coming apart at the seams
A little dramatic? Maybe
But I can’t help what you do to me
Fuck being sad, I feel incomplete
Tell me how to stay alive with half a heartbeat
So many miles and hours left to see
Far apart, years between
The ones I love the most I never get to keep
Promise me one thing
When you come back
Please don’t ever leave
10.02.2023
3:07 A.M.
🩶
THE LAST TIME
People tell me to stay away from you
I tell them to fuck off
“Tatt my name on you so I know it’s real”
& that’s what I plan to do
And we already got matching mugshots
I was just naked in your bed, I miss you
How’d we end up so far apart?
The mirror beside us was my favorite thing to watch
The last time we had sex, you were asleep in my car
You were mad at me, so I let you doze off
Two hours later, I leaned over & kissed your neck real soft
Like “hey wake up, I want you to take my panties off”
10.26.2023
3:02 A.M.
GHOST OF ME
I guess I’m dreaming,
about you
Don’t wanna see your face
But when I fall asleep
It’s something I can’t shake
The images of you
Everything I wanted us to be
What we could have been
Only exists inside my dreams
But It felt like love, I think
I guess I wanted to believe
But I was young and untouched,
Never realized I was being too naive
Your aftertaste still on my tongue,
It’s nasty, it’s bittersweet
I never knew what hindsight was
But now I see you perfectly
Everything was make believe
I fell into a love that would never be
But i still can’t help remembering
The way your voice would surround me,
Your laugh is engraved deep into my memory,
Your name is a scar branded on my skin for the world to see
And when I finally sleep
I have wild dreams
Behind my eyelids I escape my reality
and I go to a place,
Somewhere far away,
Where everything is frozen in time and space
When you and I were one in the same
But now I don’t even get to hear your name
All I hear is my voice echoing
Behind my eyelids I can see your face
But I can never get to you,
I’m always running in place
It’s a sick game to play
Then it’s over, and I am awake
You came like a plague
And I couldn’t see
All the damage that you’d do
And how permanent it would be
What are you, a man or a beast?
Sick in the head — depravity
Looking at me like a piece of meat
Something to hunt, something to eat
You crawled into my sheets
Slept next to me
What I thought was love was insanity
I never thought you were a thief
You walked right out with everything
My body, my soul, my sanity
You took things that are not yours to keep
And now my existence is only the ghost of me
She paces constantly, and sometimes I hear her sing
She haunts me when I’m awake,
And wakes me when I’m asleep
12.11.2023
5:47 A.M.
CAUTERIZATION
When life gets hard
I get high
Smoke in my lungs
With tears in my eyes
Clouds of bad habits
Billow up at the sky
Say it’s unhealthy,
You’re probably right
But I couldn’t care,
It’s how I get by
Pain is a drug to me
I lack the ability to react emotionally
Pain is normal,
A common thing
Distorting the lines of reality
And even though I know
It may one day kill me
As lethal as it may be
I don’t ever ask it to leave
Desperation… to feel anything
I would let all the hurt, swallow me
And to explain it; there is no analogy
It’s all in my soul, you see
Nothing I could write,
Nothing you could ever read
Could make another human being
Feel just how it feels,
to feel absolutely nothing
03.17.2024
2:45 A.M.
He’s still in the county jail, they haven’t taken him to prison yet. Said his out date would be some time in 2028. I don’t see how it could be that soon, somebody probably miscalculated & I’m not getting my hopes up. I hope I can change in the years that he isn’t around. I hope I can get my shit together. I think I will. I know I will. I’ll be 28 next month. I wanna be happy again.
UNEXPECTED
You take up all the space in my memory
If I’m not with you, you’re in my daydreams
God knows how I fell in love so fast; I'll never understand why
Wish I wasn’t so shy, or I would’ve told you when I saw you the very first time
That when you looked at me, I saw my soul inside your eyes
Was it serendipity? Finally the right time?
Falling for you was different; it was like I could fly
I’m so thankful your path crossed mine
Even if you’re gone, these memories keep our love alive
I just wanted you to know that you’re always on my mind
And while I wasn’t yours and you weren’t mine
I’ve never felt so safe with anyone else in my life
You were an enigma — the strong, silent type
Like you were “once bitten & twice shy”
You were afraid of me, for whatever reason why
Maybe someone lied to you one too many times?
Or did you make a bet with love but it dropped you on a dime?
I know it seems impossible to trust when you’ve been traumatized
But my love is different; it’s patient, it’s real, it’s kind
A life full of pain that you hide behind a smile
But I could see the hurt, it was hidden in your eyes
And I know that I can’t fix you, so I won’t ever try
Instead I’ll love you just as you are — even if you think you’re fucked up, to me you’re just fine
And I promise these things, for the rest of my life:
I’ll have your back, your front, & your side
If you’re ever too weak to stand, I’ll lend you my spine
If a war starts inside your head, I’ll give you peace of mind
If your heart ever stops beating, I’ll shock it back to life
Your wings might be broken now, but I can’t wait to see you fly
No matter the distance and no matter the time
I’ll always, always love you beyond ANY reason why
05.30.2024
4:41 P.M.
Corporate America Never Really Quit Forced Labor
Inmates do billions of dollars of work for companies and governments each year. A landmark lawsuit alleges many are being kept in prison because the business is just too good.
Dream gets a small handheld radio in prison to bring him out of a comatose state from lack of stimulation. He doesn’t acknowledge it when it’s placed next to him, but he listens.
RE: your post about drawing dsmp headcanons.
I imagine it only plays one radio station from Las Nevadas... On a more lighthearted tone, Heatwaves begins playing and Sam considers throwing it in the lava himself.
THANK YOU KINGOFBOX, you gave me an excuse to practise cDream's prison hair <3 :D
Did you ever meet any other falsely convicted people in prison?
Worn Reader,
Oh yes, Several. Others claimed to be falsely convicted, and it was often hard to tell the two groups apart, but here are some highlights, since I am certain that is what you desire.
There was a man framed by his lover, insistent that his dear husband would never do that. extolling his virtues to the last. the general consensus in the area was that the husband did, in fact, kill the victim, but I personally suspect the mother in law was the one who framed our man for it.
There was a man imprisoned for rioting. In truth, he did meet with a group of protesters, but left as it started to get out of hand. He was arrested regardless, simply for being in the vicinity.
There was a man accused of corruption, with claims that he stole millions from his place in the local government. In truth, he was the fall guy for his superiors, who together stole billions.
But my personal favorite story was a man who was put away lawfully, but believes he should have gotten away with it, as they misidentified the weapon. They said he used an ice pick. In actuality, he stabbed the victims some dozen times with a frozen candy cane, which he then ate.
He is still filing appeals, claiming this means he should walk. it's been about twelve years.
Prison has all walks of life, and the stories are certainly intresting.
-Simon Blackquill
My Autistic ass would not fucking survive in prison, I’d be sitting there eating the raw ass meat, and go to the guard and ask for ketchup and then they’d beat the shit out of me.
now that spotify wrapped is here, tell me your 3rd, 6rd and 9th songs in the tags
Dis me, Bun Jovi, Adventure Bun ExtraordinHare!
We have arrived at our campsite in the California Redwood Forests and Lakes.
I so fricken excited! Lemme out, Lady Ma, before I tear my way through these bars. I have new land to explore!
I try to to go all Shawshank on this prison but it was too strong for my domesticated fluff. Now I try new tactic : sit back and behaving. Maybe I get out quicker on good behavior.
#BunJovi #Camping #Rabbit
I'm a hangry bunny. <3 Bun Jovi
