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Just another letter

" hey, how are you ? I hope you're doing alright. I know you're mad at me right now for not showing up and for dodging you since a couple of weeks and not returning your calls and you deserve to be mad. I also know you're wondering why am I writing you this now, frankly I don't know, I'm drunk so voila. But what I do know is that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything and everything that may happen and I understood if you'd be mad but I want you to know, no I need you to know that all I ever did was because I was hurt, you may think I'm crazy or I'm talking absurdly but that is the truth, I was and I am hurt, still. You remember the day when you gave me the news of your marriage, a part of me harry still remains in that moment like time never moved and we're locked in a loop of you telling me you're getting married and it keeps hurting me everytime you come around and tell me in thin air but I see it everyday and I haven't moved on since and I wish I could. I wish it were a choice to fall for you or not, but it wasn't a choice, unfortunately it wasn't. If it really were my choice I'd make myself find someone else or better yet I'd make you and I be together but the choices doesn't rely in my hands. I tried so hard to not have feelings for you but you tell me that when you spend every hour of everyday with the same person, you'd fall too but then again you didn't, that's the thing right, there's the trick. You spend every hour of everyday with me and yet you didn't fall, I was the Only one falling hoping that maybe you'd catch me but you know you were there just taking the catch of someone else, you were there hoping that they would fall for you in the same sanctifying way that you did. I wish I could change everything, I can't, this perhaps adds to list of things I can't change and would forever be bound to. What you've done to me will probably never change, the way you light my soul, the way you make me smile, the way you leave me breathless, that won't change and I'm grateful to you because you taught me things my heart didn't know or was afraid of but falling for you was so simple, so easy like I've been doing my whole life, but then perhaps I was doing it my whole life and you weren't. You see, I was yours from the moment I met you, the moment your eyes laid upon me, my soul, my eyes, my mouth, my words, my body, my thoughts, my ways, my hands, my arms, my legs, my finger's, my lips, my senses, my heart, and me, all became yours even when you didn't ask for it but I gave it all to you anyway. I held out my bleeding heart for you. I loved you and I never loved anyone else, yet...

We are soulmates Harry as I like to think, just not the ones who end up together.

I wish you all the goodluck in future with you and your marriage and I hope it's lasts.

Yours truly,

Draco Lucius malfoy "